winter suicide plan

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In the end, I could only take two mouthfuls of the bowl of noodles, and my stomach hurt a little, and I couldn't walk. Tang Fengxing supported me, and couldn't help smiling. I supported my stomach, eating like a pregnant woman.We sat on a bench in the woods in the park and heard flashes in the distance, and the stage was extremely noisy under the colorful neon flashes.

I said I couldn't walk anymore, and collapsed on the bench. He held the packaged Meizhou pickled noodles and looked at me for a while while supporting his knees.I pulled his hand over to my stomach and said, "Stomach hurts."

"Of course my stomach hurts after eating so much, and I don't listen to what I say." He scolded me, but he reached into his clothes and rubbed my stomach for a while.

"Is this food accumulation, or let's go for a walk and digest it."

I shook my head, leaned on his shoulder and said, "It's rare that there is no one here, so stay a little longer."

He turned his head and stroked the hair on the top of my head, and said "hmm" softly.

The low and gloomy vegetation is in front of our eyes, the bustle is at the other end, and the tranquility at this end is only owned by the two of us.

"In this way, I remember the last time I watched "Frozen" with you, you were sitting next to me, and the two of you finished watching the easter egg at the end."

"Do you still remember?" Tang Fengxing showed disbelief.

"Well, why don't I remember, I can chat with someone so well, remember you finished my popcorn, remember the name of the milk tea you drank that day, remember I sang a song in front of you. I was in the dry period at that time. I I didn't want to be alone, so I chose "Frozen" with the most people."

Staying alone, there seems to be an abyss around me, and the abyss keeps rolling me into it.As for the movie that day, I remember it very clearly. I, who was in the same distress as Aisha, understood that the ice and snow castle she built was just a way to protect herself and others.

"But you forgot that day..." Tang Fengxing broke his knuckles.

"Forgot what?"

"You forgot to ask my name."

"You didn't take the initiative to tell me."

"I... how dare I..." He stiffened his neck and lost his breath again.

Wronged and dissatisfied.

As the winter passed by his and me's cheeks, I suddenly realized - I remembered so many details, but I never asked his name, and I forgot to go back to the dormitory with him.

Both parties present, and I alone did not know that he had been in love with me for nearly four years.

I feel his joy from his diary. Every time he calls my name completely, he wants to have me completely.

Under the dim light, I follow the bright moonlight tonight, his face has a layer of gray light,

I looked him in the eyes: "Tang Fengxing, remember that I envied Aisha for having Xue Bao? I think I found Xue Bao who lived with me in the Ice and Snow Castle."

"When I was reading your diary, I thought countless times, why didn't you confess your love earlier and be with me earlier? Or maybe I liked you earlier."

"But I closed it and I was thinking again, it's not too late to meet by coincidence. At least you can save me from tormenting you for three years. Now is the right time."

"When I was discharged from the hospital today, I copied your name 5200 times. Although the numbers follow the trend, they are a bit vulgar. You didn't come at 07:30. I wrote down the 5200th name slowly and wrote it down. You came to pick me up just in time. You came to pick me up when the last line was written."

"Tang Fengxing's name is not only written on my paper, but written in my heart."

I originated from the glimmer of life given by Tang Fengxing, and crazily absorbed the love he gave, and he wanted to live with me.I accept his pity, and there is nothing wrong with pitying me.I admit that I am worthy of pity, let him pity me, always love me, always love me.

I looked at him, he smiled, narrowed his eyes into a line, lowered his head, felt embarrassed and kept laughing, "Is this... a confession?"

I stopped his neck, kissed him with my head sideways, and sucked his lips hard. My tongue teased the softness in his mouth, which was as hot as all the blood flowing in his body now.

His eyes are looking at me alone, it is the deep night of being engrossed and tired.His story is not as long and desolate as mine, but his story is more touching than mine.

Our two faces are squeezed together, and our cheekbones are all squeezed together and collided.Some pain but it doesn't seem to matter, just want to be more intimate.

I felt a little tear on his cheek, he was crying.He silently shed tears and kissed me, hot tears wet my face, every time he kissed, he closed his eyes, and smeared the most sincere secret love that he had hidden for four years on my face like walking on thin ice.

I suddenly wanted to retreat to the room where I was a 12-year-old, to cry, to yell.

I am Chen Shuning, someone loves me.

I wiped his tears and he wiped the water stains on my lips.

"What are you crying for?"

He said it was called crying with joy, but he didn't know why, it was so unbearable to cry with joy.

I nibbled his head and the two looked at each other and smiled.I pulled him to stand up and went to browse the small stalls on the side of the road.He passed a small boutique stall, buying amulets, strings, and other odds and ends.Tang Fengxing bought two red strings that can shrink in size, similar to the Jade Buddha statue pendant.

I didn't know what he was going to do, just ran with him.If no one comes, we hold hands.When someone came, we let go quietly and lingered for a while with helpless eyes.

"It's not good to have too many people."

"Yes."

A nearby hardware store bought a small drill, and the two of us sat on a stone pier next to the hardware store.

One hole, wear red thread.

The coin I gave him, strung like an amulet necklace, and he strung me the coin he gave me.

He put the necklace he made around my neck and we pulled out the same necklace and watched us both bless coins, laughing and laughing, there was a trash can next door.

Neither of us disliked it, and kissed secretly in the corner, with a smile on the corner of our mouth.

"Why, make me a love gift?"

"Well, it took a few shops to make it. Although the cost is a little lower, but for the time being, I will use this to tie you up and occupy you, okay?"

"Success, wearing the boyfriend's lucky necklace, my luck will be transferred immediately, I will succeed in my studies and career." I kept rubbing the coin to consecrate it.

He was amused by me.

We don't intend to stay here, it's too crowded to make small gestures.I had no choice but to go home, and he said he would cut my hair. It is an unwritten custom to cut my hair before the New Year, take a clean bath, and welcome the New Year cleanly.

Before the New Year, there was no place to go to the barber shop, and the queue had to be boarded for several hours.

He bought an awl for shaving hair, put a black plastic bag around my neck, and let me carry a mirror, a humble barber shop.The scissors clicked past my ears.I closed my eyes and laughed at him: "Don't make it ugly, you have to be ugly with me."

"My skills are good. I cut my sister's bangs."

"That dog ate bangs? Hahahaha, don't cut it, stop, cut that bangs, didn't your sister hit you?"

He paused and said, "Sure, I have thick skin anyway. I don't think my cut is ugly, and every girl will not be satisfied no matter how I cut it."

I laughed so hard that I shook my body: "Mr. Tony, are you going to cut my bangs?"

"How can it be? Guaranteed to be the most handsome boy. Believe me, don't move, it will make you ugly."

I really stayed still, and finally he wiped the broken hair off my face with a towel, and I opened my eyes, and sure enough, the Beatles-like hair was gone, a clean and fresh college student.

"Not bad, you can open a barber shop."

He touched the scar on the arch of my brow that was once hidden by hair.

"When did you do it?"

"I was scratched by a piece of porcelain bowl when I was a child, it's not obvious. Why do you dislike me?"

"No, it looks so distressing." He kissed my scar.

I grabbed his hand, and in the mirror, both of us were smiling, like a dynamic group photo.I put a plastic bag on him and said, "Come on, let's say goodbye to the old and welcome the new today."

In the end, I shook my hand, and the awl was pushed out, and a piece was missing, so I had to shave him short.Cuntou is a test of appearance. The moment Tang Fengxing opened his eyes, he was dumbfounded. I covered my stomach and smiled and said I was sorry that my hands were shaking. He covered his head and hid in the room.

I knocked on the door, bent over with a smile and said, "Tang Fengxing, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I'm not good at technology."

"Chen Shuning, you still laugh at me, you give back my hair!" Tang Fengxing shouted inside.

"It really wasn't intentional."

When he finally took a shower and went to bed, he was still angry that I shaved his hair short and slept with his back to me.I smiled so much that I lay on his shoulder and coaxed him: "It really wasn't intentional, a piece fell off when I shook my hand, so I just pushed it all away."

He didn't look at me, pursed his lips, and didn't speak.

I kept talking, but he still ignored me, so I closed the door of the room, entered the room a few minutes later, and squatted in front of him.He touched my hair in surprise, I also shaved my hair short.

Two inches short hair, like a chestnut shell.

"I shaved it too, so you can laugh at me too."

He carried me to the bed, pressed me on his body, and finally laughed and said: "No, let's make it up together."

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Chen Shuning's perspective