fictional spring

When Wu Mi was young, the words he heard the most were the pity and lament that he would not live to be 20 years old.

And at that time, his name was not called Wu Mi.

For a long time, Wu Mi didn't have a name. The reason for this situation was his weak and sickly body since birth.

With the thought that the child might die at any time, his parents did not name him.

Until the day he lived to Yuanfu.

Wu Mi got his "name" from a little girl.

The young but distinguished He Mao Zhaiyuan gave him the ironic name of "Wu Mi".

To be honest, when Wu Mi heard this name from her mouth, there was a buzzing sound in Wu Mi's head, just like those Ming dynasty insinuations that had been accumulated for more than ten years poured into her ears at this moment. None of the lingering words are blessings.

Those sizing up or probing gazes fell on him, overwhelming him as if he couldn't breathe.

But no matter what he thinks—no matter how he feels about the name, he must accept the name.

Because this is the "name" given to him by Mutsuki Hime.

As early as a few months ago, when the head of the Ubuyashiki family began to prepare the gift of Yuanfu for him, he heard her name from their mouths.

She is a distinguished female Sigong. She was divined as He Mao Zhaiyuan since she was a child, and she has been living in the He Mao Shrine. However, because she is favored by His Majesty, coupled with her extraordinary talent, she was pointed out early in the present day. A disciple of Abe Seimei, the famous great onmyoji.

Healthy body, extraordinary talent, noble status...

No matter from which angle you look at it, she can be regarded as a true God's favored person.

In fact, the frail Wuyou often feels jealous of the people around him. Those who are not as good as him but have a healthier body and a longer lifespan than him all make him feel jealous.

But when he heard about Mutsuki Hime, for some reason, he couldn't feel his usual thoughts.

Because of her existence, it was too far away.

Just like the scorching sun that Wu Mi can never bear, it is far away but dazzling.

I thought we would only meet at Yuanfu ceremony, to use up the favor owed to their family by the great onmyoji, Abe Seimei, and let the distant Mutsuki Ji divulge a name for him.

But no one thought that she would make such a move.

After the Yuanfu ceremony, the Ubuyashiki family did not leave the Kamo Shrine immediately, so Wuyou ran into Mutsuki Hime in the outer corridor by mistake.

Mu Yueji, who had already changed out of the gorgeous and dignified sacrificial uniform, gave people the illusion of being approachable at this time.

Wu Mi himself couldn't tell exactly what kind of mood he was in when he spoke.

All he knew was that when he realized it, he got an explanation from Mutsuki Hime.

"Wu Mi" does not mean miserable, but...

No misery.

It is clearly still the same word, but seeing the little girl in front of her explaining earnestly, Wu Mi, who is not a few years older than her, suddenly had a strange idea—wanted to behave in front of her...better than her. More mature and steady.

In fact, this kind of idea had been born long ago, so Wu Mi tried to straighten his back during the Yuanfu ceremony—even though this kind of thing was actually extremely difficult for him.

But he still wanted to show a better side in front of her.

At first, I just thought that Mu Yueji was a noble person, so the person who deserves to stand in front of her should not be a lowly person.

But this kind of thinking has changed unconsciously.

Because that Mutsuki Hime said to him: "You can come to the shrine to find me."

Wu Mi didn't understand what she meant when she said this, but that didn't prevent him from understanding it with his own thoughts.

——He probably got her approval.

This kind of cognition suddenly made Wu Mi feel a strange feeling, and it seemed that even his status was uprooted in an instant - the qualification recognized by that Mutsuki Ji is not something that just anyone can have of.

But even so, until the day she left Kamo Shrine, Wu Mian could not step into that shrine for the second time.

Not only because of his body, his frail body made him rarely have the chance to go out.It was also because of his identity, his father had personally told him that the Ubayashiki family was not qualified to have a relationship with that Mutsuki Hime.

So Wu Mi couldn't find her.

He just followed the fringe of the team in an ox cart during the Kamo Festival in the second year, and after everyone dispersed, he still guarded the gate of the shrine.

Because at that moment...their eyes intersected in mid-air.

Mutsuki Hime saw him.

It's hard to say what kind of thoughts Wu Mi was holding at the door at this time, but there seemed to be some stubborn voice in his heart saying to him——she won't turn a blind eye to you.

Just like at that time, the little girl seriously explained the reason why she named him "Wu Mi" in front of him.

So Wu Mi waited for the wisteria flower.It is the flower that adorns the sedan chair she rides and has been blessed by the gods.

The bouquet of flowers was brought back home by Wu Yan, and the maid found the best vase she could find to hold the vine flower, and took care of it meticulously every day, but even so, the vine flower still withered.

The vine flower, which had completely lost its former brilliance, was lying in his hand with drooping petals. Wu Mi was silent for a while, then suddenly got up and smashed the vase.

The maid serving him was taken aback by him, but the matter did not end here. His temper became more and more surly, drove away one maid after another, and almost smashed any decorations in the room.

Unspeakable emotions spread in his heart, and Wu Mi's mood at this time could almost be called panic - on that branch of wisteria, he seemed to have seen his own future.

When the days come when the skin is pale, the body decays, and life withers... what greets him will only be boundless loneliness and darkness.

Wu Mi is afraid of such a future, and also afraid of himself who is about to usher in such an ending.

So his temper became more and more perverse, and his behavior became more and more daunting.

The owner of the Ubayashiki family turned a blind eye to his behavior, only dispatching servants when they needed to be replaced, and he neither asked him about anything he did nor why he did it.

This kind of treatment made Wu Mi even more frightened, so the thorns spreading in his heart entangled his heart more and more sharply, and the poisonous thorn called "disregard" kept him awake at night.

At this moment, when he was venting his dissatisfaction, it was as if he was expressing his heart with increasingly violent actions...

That Mutsuki Hime came to visit.

What she brought was a fresh, showy vine that seemed to still be in bloom.

And the moment before she lifted the imperial curtain, Wu Mi just threw the things out of the room.

This kind of behavior fell into Mu Yueji's eyes, but she turned a blind eye to it, and only him was in her eyes.

At that time, his physical condition was developing in an unoptimistic direction again. He was tortured by the illness and almost coughed on the ground, embarrassed and weak.

Wu Mi never wanted her to see himself like this.

This... ugly and miserable appearance.

To be honest, he never expected to meet her at Ubayashiki's house.

The shinomiya named Mutsuki, the place where she will go, no matter how you think about it, it shouldn't be the Ubuyashiki house.

But the actual situation caught Wu Cang really by surprise, he raised his face and looked at her in a daze, the ferociousness that had not faded away and the surging astonishment overlapped on his sickly face.

"No misery."

Mutsuki called his name softly, knelt down in front of him, and handed him her handkerchief.

Such a scene seems to have happened at some point.

Wu Mi suddenly remembered what happened a long time ago—probably it can be regarded as a long time.

After the Yuanfu ceremony was over, the anger and unspeakable hatred brought about by the name of "Wu Mi" overlapped in his heart. When he met Mutsuki Hime in the outer corridor, he also coughed violently because of his emotional excitement.

At that time, Mu Yueji also handed out her handkerchief for him as she did now.

But at that time, Wu Mi subconsciously brushed her hand away.

Staring blankly at the hand in front of him for a while, Wu Mi made the opposite choice.

He took her handkerchief.

Wu Mi at this time has no reason to refuse.

The temperature and breath from her remained on the handkerchief, as if it brought some kind of comfort and blessing, and the feeling of wanting to cough was much relieved.

But when Wu Mi was just relying on the handkerchief to feel her warmth, Mutsuki Ji put the wisteria flower she brought beside her, and held his hand with her own.

Feelings that she had never felt before jumped into her heart in an instant, and the mood at this moment made Wu Mi trance for a long time, and she couldn't even hear what she said afterwards.

Strange but not repelling.

Wu Mi suddenly thought, even if it goes on like this, there seems to be nothing wrong.

But such thoughts flashed in his mind for a moment, and then he was overwhelmed by other emotions.

Muyue Ji is a strange Ji Jun, and she has no miserable thoughts.

She talked about her favorite wisteria flowers in front of Wuyou, and told him that the wisteria flowers growing by the river in Horikawa were extraordinarily beautiful.Wu Mi has actually seen wisteria flowers, but he has never been to the riverside of Horikawa.

What is it like there?

For the first time, Wu Can had the idea of ​​going to see it—because she said that the scenery was so beautiful.

It's also because... she said something like "I'm happier seeing Wu Mi than seeing wisteria flowers".

Wu Mi's heart seemed to stop suddenly for a moment, and at this moment he couldn't tell what he was thinking, both in his sight and in his mind were filled with the figures of others.

It's the same figure.

Mutsuki Hime.

The handsome Mu Yueji smiled and stretched out her hand to him, and also smiled and came to his side.

She told him that the tragic future that those doctors said would not come to him, because what he had was the name of "no misery" given by her.

At that time, Wu Mi didn't really understand the meaning of this sentence, but he understood Mu Yueji's thoughts at that time, so he followed her thoughts.

But it wasn't until a long time later, so long after he met Mu Yueji, that he didn't know how many 12 and 20 years had passed, that he suddenly understood that the name is the shortest curse.

And speech is also a kind of "mantra".

At that time, Mutsuki Hime told him that when his health recovered, she would go to see wisteria flowers with him.

At that time, Wu Mi replied: "Okay..."

That Mutsuki Ji is exactly such a strange Ji Jun.

She was far more outspoken and sincere than anyone he had ever met, telling him she kept staring at him because he was good-looking, and telling him that she had been looking forward to meeting him.

This is the first time that Wu Can feel the emotion called "caring" from others. This is from others... something that can be called "love".

What is she to her? This kind of question has always been entangled in Wuyou's heart, but he has never asked such a question, but when Mu Yueji appeared in front of him, he watched silently and intently. she.

Because of the environment in which he grew up, it was difficult for Wu Mi to speak out his true thoughts frankly, and it was even more difficult to express his wishes to others. What he did was to bury all his true thoughts in his heart and melt them Keep your eyes on that person.

Even if she doesn't understand his mood every time, Mu Yueji will always tell him exactly what she really thinks.

Not only that, but she would often send him those novelties that were sent from the palace to the Kamo Shrine, the most peculiar of which was that strange plant that he had never seen before.

There are no leaves, only red, needle-like petals.

It is called "Golden Lantern", and another name is Bianhua.

Mutsuki Hime told him that there was another color of Higan flower planted in Kamo Shrine, but she smiled mysteriously and did not tell him the color of the other Higan flower.

Later, Wu Mi once thought that the other shore flower was blue.

Because in the letter left by the doctor who treated him, he found a strange medicine name - blue Bana flower.

Before that, the only time he had heard of "Bigan flower" was from Mu Yueji. When she brought the red Bana flower, he knew that there was still another color Bana flower in this world.

But he failed to find another Higan flower in the garden of Kamo Shrine.

Before that, Mutsuki Hime, who had been living in the Kamo Shrine, was also forced to move out of the Kamo Shrine where she had lived for a long time for some reason.

Because she fell in love with Wu Mi.

In fact, Wu Mi himself was not sure what his feelings for her were. At the beginning, he only had the idea of ​​looking at her from a distance, even if she took the initiative to step down from a high place and put down her identity to sit face to face with him. In the small and indoor room, Wu Mi still felt that there was a gap between him and her that could never be bridged.

What separates them is all kinds of things that Wu Mi can't even figure out.

But Mu Yueji's thinking seems to be different from his, she will hold those precious and rare things in front of him, and she will also tell him that she has learned a new song so she wants to play it to him.

He would even whisper softly in front of him: "If Wu Mi can also play the pipa, you can play it for me."

It's like being coquettish to him.

Wu Mi couldn't refuse this kind of request, nor could she refuse any word Mu Yue Ji said.

So he has always been the one who is forced to accept, like a kite in her hand, shaking according to her thoughts under her influence.

When I realized this, it was many years later when Wu Mi became Ghost Dance Tsuji Wu Mi.

In a trance, he recalled what happened many years ago when he was still a human being, and everything was so illusory that it seemed like a dream.

It shouldn't be like this, Ghost Mai Tsuji thought at that time.

Guiwu Tsuji is miserable, he shouldn't recall such a thing.

He shouldn't care about the existence that has long since passed away.

Such thoughts accumulated over time, but disappeared when they saw her again.

He thought of her again.

I remembered...as Mutsuki Hime, when she was Kamosaiin.

Because of the "curse", she thinks Wu Mi is very cute, probably because of the "curse", so Wu Mi also thinks she is cute.

Lovely Mutsuki Hime, she gave him all the moon in the sky.

The girl who still had a healthy body and a noble status stood in front of him and said that the moon on the ground could also be his.

Mu Yueji on the ground also belongs to him.

Wu Mi forgot what he said at that time, and even forgot what he was thinking at that time, all he knew was his reaction when he heard this sentence...

His first reaction must be to nod.

But Wu Mi is also very clear at the same time, whether it is him before or now, he will not express his true thoughts so bluntly.

So he could only watch Mu Yueji working hard alone, watching her appear in front of him again and again, and watching her usher in death in front of him again and again.

There has never been anything forever between them.

Even if they once fell asleep in the dim candlelight, even if they had a skin-to-skin kiss in a warm room, even if they once fell in love with each other during the time they met, they never ushered in the real eternal life.

Wu Mi suddenly felt a little ironic, followed by memories from a long time ago.

For Ghost Mai Tsuji, it was indeed a long time ago.

When the relationship between him and Mutsuki Hime was known by that man, when she was deprived of the name of Kamosaiin, and even her rank and royal status as Prince Uchiha were revoked, and she became Minamoto Mutsuki, that man Still gave her room to maneuver.

She used to be that man's most beloved daughter, so no matter what mistakes she made, that man would give her a chance to correct.

It's just... Mutsuki Hime rejected such an opportunity.

She could have married someone else with the same noble status, and then get back everything she had before that man died—it was Yuan Muyue who voluntarily gave up such an opportunity.

She rejected other people's marriage proposals, and also refused to reconcile with the people in the palace.

When Wu Bing called her Mu Yue Ji, she refuted him: "No, my current name is not Mu Yue Ji."

Because she wanted to be with Wu Mi, she voluntarily gave up her identity as He Maozhaiyuan and Mu Yue Ji.

So she became Yuan Mutsuki.

Even though the maids in the mansion still call her Mu Yueji, she can't hold back her own determination to abandon everything.

Yuan Muyue almost gave up everything for Wu Mi, this is something Wu Mi knew a long time ago.

She said that she would marry him in the warm days when Mutsuki came after the Spring Festival, and she also said that she would go to the riverside of Horikawa to see the beautiful wisteria flowers together after he recovered.

Such a wish had always been kept in Wu Mi's heart, so he accepted the treatment of the new doctor and agreed to use medicine on his body that had never been used before.

Because there is no moment when Wu Mi wants to live more than then.

He wants to fulfill the promise with Yuan Mutsuki, he wants to see the beautiful wisteria flowers with her, he also wants to bathe in the warm sunshine with her, and he even wants to be with her...

When spring comes, in the warm days of Mutsuki, their wedding will be held.

Yuan Muyue.

Oni Wu Tsuji Wu Mi often recited this name in his heart.

This is the name of the "curse" that cannot be untied with him, just as he will be innocent no matter what.

Even if it wasn't Miyashiki Mumi, it would be Mumai Tsuji.

Wu Mi, who had become a "ghost", when he realized his own change, the first thing he thought of was to find her.

Only she can take out the blue Bana flowers seen in the dead doctor's letter.

But Wu Mi didn't realize that he had been doing wrong things from beginning to end.

And the reason why the previous mistakes failed to push him into the abyss completely was because Yuan Muyue tolerated his mistakes unconditionally.

Whether it was when she was still Mutsuki Hime, she gave him a serious explanation when faced with the accusations of the lowly status of the obstetrician, or when she took the initiative to say that he could come to her, but no one cared about it. waiting.

Wu Mi is always making mistakes that shouldn't be made.

However, the consequences of these mistakes came to Yuan Muyue after they all grew up.

Whether it was being demoted to a subject or being eroded by his blood, the consequences were extremely tragic.

What's even more tragic is that even though Wu Mi realizes his mistake, he still avoids facing this reality.

So Ubuyashiki Mumi became Kimai Tsuji Mumi, and the name of "Muyou" given to him by the former Mutsuki Hime was tarnished by his use of the name of "ghost".

That's why Wu Mi felt that Yuan Muyue probably hated him.

In Yuan Muyue's room, he saw the well-known boy Anzuna Kiri. Even though she rejected her elder brother Raikou, she still left such a knife for "slaying ghosts".

Mutsuki Hime has an extraordinary talent, and this talent is far more than reflected in the rhythm.

Guiwu Tsuji even felt that she probably figured out something a long time ago, and that's why she put such things in her room.

As if making excuses for himself, Onimai Tsuji thought that it was because his movements were too fast that Gen Mutsuki didn't have a chance to pull out the demon-slaying sword.

How else to explain the fact that the "curse" she spoke had not been fulfilled?

Those so-called eternal promises have never been truly realized.

Oni Wu Tsuji is afraid of sunlight, this is the influence of becoming a ghost, but he does not know why he hates wisteria flowers, this characteristic also continues to every ghost he creates, as if reminding him all the time he--

Everything in the past is actually a lie.

Maybe if you think this way, you can change the emotion in your heart that misses her, relieve your pain, and at the same time, when you see her again...

have different endings.

It was precisely because of this thought that Gui Wu Tsuji had never been able to keep her.