The honest person is you

-02-

During the period immediately after his death, you always think about when he was alive.

When you escaped along the river from Penglai Island and climbed from the water to the shore, that was the first time you met.

It was a full moon night, and you crawled out of the river like a water ghost, almost exhausted.You tried to stand up, but your whole body was dripping wet, and your long black hair was stuck to your pale skin from the soaking in the river.

Just when someone is passing by the river, other people stare at you with strange or fearful eyes, and no one dares to approach you.Because in this peaceful era where humans and ghosts co-exist, there were countless evil ghosts and resentful spirits who turned into beautiful women to lure and kill passers-by at night.

What's more, no one can understand what strange language you are speaking.

Although there is a close relationship with the Tang Dynasty, the "Chinese accent" brought back from Chang'an by the Tang envoys is different from the "elegant speech" spoken by you from Xianyang.

What separates you from the outside world is, after all, the passage of more than 1000 years of time.

Among those strange eyes, only his eyes are different from everyone else.Those are the most beautiful eyes you've ever seen, better than anything you've seen in 1000 years.

Among the trembling crowd, he was the only one who walked in front of you and stretched out his hand to you.

He just held your wet and cold fingers and talked to you softly.After slowing down the speaking speed many times, you can finally make out some words.

After learning that you had nowhere to go, he ignored the advice of others and insisted on taking you home.

You have held his face countless times and kissed those eyes emotionally, as if you have obtained a rare treasure in the world.

You have also missed your first meeting many times. At that moment, you forgot Penglai, the master and your "Tao", as if he was the whole of your life.

But you have always known that his tribe doesn't like you very much, and most of the reasons are actually related to your identity.

"Penglai" is a legendary sacred mountain, a fairyland that ordinary people cannot reach, but now it has become the place where Mrs. Bian made alchemy, and it has become a hell under the false name of "pure land".

You can't explain your origins to others.

Because of unknown origin, you were regarded as a mountain dweller in the countryside by them.In this era when the marriage visit system is prevalent, men usually only go to the woman's residence at night. Even if a man and a woman get married, the woman's mansion is left by her parents. Living in your husband's house is simply the chief culprit for embarrassing their family.

You could always hear them whispering bad things about you, so whenever they pointed at you behind your back, you ran to complain to him--while he was still alive.

But now he is dead.

His dead body is lying in your arms, but there is no life left in this body.

You have seen the night sky so dark that the moon and stars cannot be seen.He sat with you on the wooden verandah outside the barrier door, and you made vows to each other that you would love each other forever.

But he always looked so weak, as if he might die at any time.

You watched his trembling back when he coughed, his thin figure and pale face, and worried about his body, but he held your hand to comfort you, telling you not to worry about him.

He said that no matter what, he will work hard to live for you, because his feelings for you are not fictional at all.

You have also prayed to the gods and Buddhas of the heavens in a place where he could not hear, and you were willing to give up your own longevity in exchange for prolonging his life, so as to realize your wish of "getting hair and growing old together" with him.

When he dies in your arms, you feel as if a piece of your heart is missing, as if a part of yourself has disappeared with his death.

But instead of resigning yourself to fate, you study behind closed doors.You once stole the secret scroll left by the master from the island, and you thought it would contain some secret method that could help you.

In the past, you could not understand what Mrs. Bian did, and even thought that she had betrayed the philosophy of the master.However, after leaving Penglai, you really understand why she started alchemy.

Because the curse of "falling in love" will not disappear after the death of one party.

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In fact, since you first lived in the Kamo family's mansion, the elders of the clan have raised countless objections.

However, although they do not recognize your identity or your marriage, no one has ever questioned your beauty.The elders in the clan also thought that your husband was deceived by your appearance, so they married you regardless of the opposition of the clan.

At that time, Ping Jiangmen was in chaos, and there were rumors that Ping Jiangmen's mother was the dragon god of Zongguo, so some people also speculated about your origin.Rumors in Beijing even say that you are not a human being, and that he married you was also controlled by your sorcery.

Although you have practiced Taoism in Penglai for more than 1000 years, you are indeed a human being, not a ghost or a cursed spirit, not to mention that with your husband's ability, he will not be so confused.

The intensifying rumors in Ping'an capital are just driven by someone with a heart behind the scenes.So shortly after your husband died, the elders in the clan began to plan to "dedicate" you to the two-faced Nuo.

Because your husband is the head of the Kamo family of the Onmyoji family.

This was the heyday of conjuration, and countless conjurers were born one after another. Onmyoji is a "professional conjurer", a conjurer who specializes in serving the Holy One in Neijing.

And in places outside the capital of Ping'an, there are countless powerful magicians all over the place.

The two-faced Su Nuo is considered to be the pinnacle of curses in the world today. Although he is a human being, he is called the "King of Curses" because of his weird appearance, invincible strength, and cruel behavior and methods. The existence that the magician wants to destroy.

But it is a pity that the strength of conjurers varies from good to bad. Even if many conjurers gather to challenge him, they are all defeated by him in the end, and they can only break up and flee.

The news of their disturbance spread to Ouchi not long after that.Hearing this, the Holy Majesty still had lingering fears because of the Pingjiangmen rebellion. In order not to have a second Pingjiangmen, he ordered the onmyojis in Beijing to find a way to eradicate each other as soon as possible.

The He Mao family is currently the most favored family of onmyojis by the Holy Master, because the famous great Onmyoji He Mao Zhongxing was born in the family.However, he travels all year round, and he doesn't know when he will come back.

In order to prove that the He Mao family is not indispensable without him alone, the elders of the clan came up with this method of killing two birds with one stone.

In the name of "dedicating" you to the two-faced Su Nuo, let him relax his vigilance, and then use the pre-arranged traps and ambushes to subdue the other party.

When they told you about this, they put on a high air, as if they were giving you a lot of benefits, but no one even said a word about how to ensure your safety.

It's not that they don't care about your life or death, on the contrary, they really hope that you can die at the hands of the two-faced Su Nuo, so as to make up for the loss that your origin has brought to this prestigious Onmyoji family.

In their view, if you really love him that much, you should dedicate yourself to the prosperity of this family.

What a high-sounding rhetoric, when you watched them keep saying "this is for the righteousness of the Holy One and the family" in front of you, you actually found this scene extremely funny.

If he is still alive, you will definitely rush to complain to him again, and he will show you a tolerant smile as usual, embrace you in his arms, kiss your forehead and fingers, and then Stand up for you to "hold justice".

But... If he was still alive, these people wouldn't come up to you and say such things to you so plausibly.

You're not afraid of them, and you don't really get hurt because of them, you just simply love that feeling.

He clearly sees through your thoughts, but never speaks through.You think, there is absolutely no one in this world who can understand you better than him.

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On the day when the plan of the elders of the clan was implemented, you were escorted to the pre-arranged place by them almost like a prisoner.

Before going out, you were served by the handmaids and put on gorgeous twelve single clothes, with a black lapel fan stuffed in your hand.

You don't like this kind of dressing up, and he used to always let you have your way.You have lived in Penglai for many years in the past, there are no rules on the island, and the master doesn't make too many demands on you, everyone is seeking the Tao wholeheartedly.However, here you are often pointed out by the elders in the clan, saying that your words and deeds will lose the face of the clan.

Perhaps only at this moment, you are a little more pleasing to them.

"This is for the righteousness of the Holy One." Someone said to you, "If the previous Patriarch is still alive, he must be like this."

--wrong.

They don't know him at all, and they don't know you at all.

As if expressing gratitude, you whispered to them, "If he was still alive, you wouldn't be like this."

They took you to mean that you believed your husband would not treat you so unkindly.

But what you're really trying to say is—

"Have you ever heard of the elixir of death?" You tell them, "The elixir of elixir, change like water... no matter how many names are used, they all refer to the same thing, which is "Dan". "

"Dan" is the refined "Qi". Aspirants believe that there is an "inner alchemy" in the human body, which can be supplemented by the refined "outer alchemy".And "Qi" is "Tao", which is the source of life.

Even you yourself didn't expect that you, who escaped from Penglai because you couldn't accept what Mrs. Bian did, made the same decision as her in the outside world.

You think the master will not approve of Mrs. Bian's approach, so what about him, will he approve of your approach?

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If he was still alive, he would never let you do this.

If he is still alive, you don't need to do this.

But he is dead.

At this moment, you finally empathize with Mrs. Bian's feelings.