The life of a despised omega

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I was in a trance for a week, I didn’t know what I did during this week, I just remember having nightmares every night, an iron bed full of steel nails, a bathtub full of blood, monsters with thorns all over their bodies, figures with claws and claws...

The iron bed was in close contact with me, the water in the bathtub engulfed me completely, the thorny monster chased me and asked for a hug, the figure in the mirror broke through the bondage and befriended me...

They all torment me in my dreams.

Only when I am awake can I control my mind and control my body.

The scorched ginkgo leaves drifted across the window and landed on my shoulders, and its brisk voice was next to my ears: "Autumn is here, hello!"

I picked it up and replied, "Hello."

It said: "My name is Xiaoqiu, and I'm here to accompany you."

"Thank you." I took it and looked at the scenery outside the window together.

Footsteps came from behind, I hid Xiaoqiu and comforted it: "Don't be afraid, I won't let him hurt you."

Gong Huanshen stood beside me neatly dressed in a pure white suit. He turned his head and asked me, "Who were you talking to just now?"

I dilated my pupils and sat back on the bed, "No one, just talking to myself."

Gong Huanshen approached me, blocking the warm autumn light outside the window.

He half bent down with his hands in his pockets, stopped by my neck and said, "I haven't come here for a while, and my smell on you has faded a lot."

I turned my body in a disgusted direction, "If possible, I hope they all disappear."

He laughed out loud: "Is it that disgusting?"

I exhaled, it seemed that I was bluffed.

The back of my head was pinched, and a strong force turned my head back, and I was forced to face Gong Huanshen face to face.He stared at me for a while and said: "The weather is good today, it's a good day, I'll take you to a place."

I wanted to say no, but he pulled me up, and a group of people pushed in a bunch of things and moved the bed aside.I asked, "What do you want to do?"

He said, "Why don't you pack up when you go out?"

I was forced to press in front of the makeup mirror. I almost didn't recognize the person in the mirror. His complexion was sallow and his eyes were sunken. His entire face could be described as a skeleton.

Is that me?

How did it become so ugly.

From the mirror, I caught a glimpse of Gong Huanshen sitting on the bed behind him, looking at me with his legs crossed, he stared at me in the mirror, with an inexplicable smile curled up at the corner of his mouth.

I still pretended to be blind, and asked: "Didn't you say that I don't look like him with makeup? Why do I let it go now?"

"Today is different," he said.

Half an hour later, the person in the mirror changed, and the familiar makeup appeared on my face again.

The mermaid makeup with pearl fish scales that Yun Zhan put on for me.

His eyes seemed to be locked, and he couldn't move them away.The person in the mirror was stunned, and his eyes did not blink for a long time, as if he had been shocked into a wooden man.

Gong Huanshen approached from behind, leaned into my ear and said, "Does it look good?"

The voice was so bewitching that I almost couldn't help answering. The moment I opened my lips, I reacted and said coldly, "I can't see."

He sneered: "Can't you see it?"

"It doesn't matter." He stood up and went to pick clothes from the hanger. "Whether you can see it or not, you have to go to this place today."

Gong Huanshen handed me a light blue suit, "This is it, change it."

After changing clothes and sitting in Lincoln, Gong Huanshen sat beside me with Erlang's legs crossed and his chin propped up to look at me. He asked, "It's been so long, have you made up your mind?"

I asked: "What?"

"wish."

If I don't answer, it doesn't make sense for him to ask such a question, and he won't agree to it.

"Today only, if you think about it later, you won't have a chance." Gong Huanshen leaned back on the seat with his hands behind his head, "Let's think about it."

The car stopped in front of a hotel, Gong Huanshen got out of the car first and opened the car door for me. He held out his hand to me, "Come down."

I didn't move, he forcibly held my palm and took me out of the car.

Hands were forced to put on his arms, and he led me to the hotel with a smile.

There is a long red carpet at the entrance of the hotel, and there are bright wedding photos on both sides, with the words: groom Gu Yin, bride Wang Jue.

I stopped, not daring to take another step forward.

Gong Huanshen asked, "What's wrong?"

"I'm not feeling well, I don't want to go, I want to go back." I shook off his hand and walked back.

Gong Huanshen boasted that his body blocked me, "Do you know where we are going?"

I pushed him: "I don't know and I don't want to know! Get out of the way, I want to go back."

While struggling, I tripped over the poster next to me, and I fell on it. Yun Zhan was right in front of my eyes, and I could kiss him in the photo just by lowering my head.

I said I gave up, why still refuse to let me go.

I buried my head and kissed the corner of Yun Zhan's mouth unobtrusively.

Goodbye Yun Zhan.

I won't remember who you are from now on.

Gong Huanshen helped me up, and said in a caring tone, "Your eyes are not good, you better be careful."

"I'm attending a wedding today. It's not good for you to be like this. There's no reason to go back after you've come." He put my hand on his arm again, "Besides, don't you want to see the demeanor of the bride and groom?"

My mind was no longer confused, and I said, "I don't want to, and I can't see either."

"I want to watch." Gong Huanshen laughed, "...I want you to watch it with me."

After speaking, he forcefully led me into the hotel, his external actions were careful and gentle, only I knew how much force he had exerted.The elevator goes straight to the 58th floor, and the long red carpet is spread from the entrance to the infield, high-profile and luxurious.

Because it was a celebrity's wedding, it was strictly checked under the pretext of reporters sneaking in. The concierge stopped us from checking the wedding invitations. Gong Huanshen let go of my hand and took out the invitations from his inner pocket and handed them over.

After confirming that it was correct, the concierge looked at me, "Where is this gentleman's?"

Gong Huanshen: "He's with me."

Concierge: "But there's only one person's name on it."

"You have to learn to be flexible." Gong Huanshen patted the concierge on the shoulder and led me swaggeringly in.

"Hey, you..."

The concierge chased after him, and was controlled by Gong Huanshen a second before his hand touched my shoulder.Gong Huanshen glanced behind me, "It seems that Young Master Yun doesn't welcome me very much."

I froze my body and didn't dare to move.

Yun Zhan waved his hand lightly, and his voice rang in his ears, "Go down."

The concierge apologized and left.

Gong Huanshen withdrew his arms and put his arms around my shoulders and turned me to Yun Zhan. Yun Zhan seemed to be stunned for a second when he saw my face, then regained his composure and said, "Young Master Gong, I'm sorry, I didn't think carefully."

Gong Huanshen smiled and said it was all right, he pushed me a little forward, pointed at Yun Zhan and introduced to me: "This is the young master of the Yun family, today's groom."

Yun Zhan corrected: "Master Gong should call me Gu Yin, I have nothing to do with the Yun family."

Gong Huanshen pushed me in front of Yun Zhan, and I promised, "Yun, Mr. Gu... happy wedding."

He smiled calmly: "Thank you."

Wang Jue appeared behind Yun Zhan, she stared straight at me, the resentment in her eyes was not concealed at all.

Yun Zhan turned around and stretched out his hand towards her. She smiled like a flower and held up the hem of her skirt and stepped forward. After holding Yun Zhan's arm, she frowned and said with a smile, "Tang Tang is here."

Yun Zhan asked her: "Why are you here, go backstage and get ready, I'll watch here."

"Husband, you've worked hard." She lightly hooked her lower lip and waved goodbye to me: "See you Tang Tang!"

Because the skirt was too long, Wang Jue always stumbled when walking, she turned her head and frowned coquettishly: "Husband~"

Yun Zhan: "Master Gong, you can do whatever you want, I will send Xiaojue back first."

Gong Huanshen smiled and hummed.

Yun Zhan bent down and picked up Wang Jue's skirt, escorting the princess back to the city like a loyal knight.

The way the two of them talked with smiles on their faces was so dazzling. At this moment, I think how much my eyes have not healed.

In this way, I won't see the god in my heart acting as a knight for others.

"Look, everyone has gone away." Gong Huanshen tilted his head and looked straight into my eyes.

I held out my hand, "I want to sit."

The smile on Gong Huanshen's face got bigger and bigger, he took my hand, "Okay, I'll help you to sit down."

After sitting down, I stared into his eyes and asked, "What is the purpose of you bringing me here?"

"Are your eyes okay?" He smiled.

"Didn't you already know?"

"Why don't you pretend again?"

"Isn't this what you want to see?" I looked at him, "Tell me, what is the purpose of coming here?"

After everyone was seated, the host came to the stage to start the cue process. I still stared at Gong Huanshen, vowing to ask the answer I wanted.

He even leaned towards me with the chair, but his eyes remained on the stage, and he said casually: "Would you believe me if I said I think you give up on him?"

He turned my body to the stage, "Don't stare at me, look at today's groom."

Yun Zhan walked up slowly from behind the stage holding a bouquet of flowers, with a smile in his eyes.

He should be very happy at this moment, everything he expected has come true, he got rid of the Yun family, became an actor, and married his fiancée.very nice.

But my heart hurts so much, it's about to be torn apart.The eyes are also sore, and the liquid inside is almost uncontrollable.

I raised my head and forced back the turbulent tears, but it still slid down the corners of my eyes to my ears, icy cold without any warmth.

"Are you uncomfortable?" Gong Huanshen brushed the corner of my eyes with his thumb, "Why are you still crying?"

I turned away his hand, wiped off my wet face and looked at Yun Zhan who was giving a speech on the stage. He happened to look over. I grinned at him, but his gaze never stopped for a moment, and he glanced past me to inspect the audience.

I'm really mean, I said I would give up but I would still be hurt by this little trick.

Yun Zhan took care of everyone, except me.

Just like before, my existence will pollute his eyes.

At that time, he endured the discomfort and caught me in his eyes, and played a scene for me, and I never got out of it for more than ten years.

The actor withdrew, but the audience lost their hearts when they entered the scene.

I don't blame him for using me, because that unforgettable time was real and he gave it to him, even if it was acted out, so what, I really felt happy for it.

I was very fortunate to have been used by him at that time, and it was because of this that the intersection of the two of us occurred.

Now I have nothing for him to use, and the intersection should be broken.

I pray in my heart: Yun Zhan, you must be happy.

Gong Huanshen handed me a tissue, "Leave?"

I shook my head: "I want to witness his happy moment."

If he is happy, my past will be happy too.

The host cueed all the previous procedures, pointed to the other side of the long stage with one finger, and announced loudly: "Now we invite our bride to enter."

All eyes turned to the direction where the bride appeared, and the closed door slowly opened, and Wang Jue, wearing a crown and wearing a white light, entered the venue slowly with music.

The bright white wedding dress couldn't hide the radiance scattered around her body.

Wang Jue is really beautiful.

A kind of beauty that belongs to happiness, so beautiful that it makes people want to cry.

Halfway through the long stage, Wang Jue, who was dragging her skirt, passed by my eyes. The light of happiness on her body shone on me. I felt her joy and enjoyed this happy moment with her.

After the long stage was gone, Wang Jue had her groom.

Yun Zhan handed over the bouquet, and gently lifted the tulle on Wang Jue's forehead.

Their smiles rippling in my eyes.

Involuntarily, I also laughed.

After the host's various congratulations were finished, the light music sounded again, and the two exchanged rings in each other's "I do" vows.

"Now the groom is kissing your wife." The host stepped aside.

Yun Zhan turned his head and kissed Wang Jue gently on the cheek.

Wang Jue blushed and lowered his head.

After witnessing the happy moment, I turned to Gong Huanshen, "You can go back."

He took a tissue from the table and pressed it against my face with a disgusted expression, "It's so ugly."

I took the paper and wiped it on my face casually, Gong Huanshen moved his position towards me, his head turned to me and his eyes looked at the stage, "Have you given up?"

I couldn't lift my spirits anymore, so I nodded obediently.

"Then go abroad, you will forget all this when you go there." Gong Huanshen turned his face away, "Forget about him and you will start a new life."

"Then will you let me go?" I begged with grievances, "Can the new life be without you?"

Gong Huanshen took another piece of paper to wipe my face, "If this is your wish, I will grant it."

Swallowing the choking sound, I said to him: "Let's go, it's time to go back."

Gong Huanshen straightened his suit and stood up. The moment he extended his hand to me, a black shadow flew past his arm and landed precisely in my arms.

There was bursts of applause around me, and everyone's eyes were on me.

I picked up the bouquet in my arms and stood up, looking at the gaze on the stage, Wang Jue turned his head and gave me a smile, which seemed to be mocking and more like showing off.

I put the flowers on the table behind me, and said to Yun Zhan beside Wang Jue, "Happy wedding, I'll go back first."

The whispers and conversations around me seem to be accusing me of being unruly and ungrateful.

But what to do, I really should go.

I have let go of everything that should be let go, and I have to hurry to ask Zhu Lin for forgiveness.

I probably won't be able to kill Gong Huanshen. I just hope that when I go to find Zhu Lin, he won't blame me.

A strange picture flashed in my mind, Yun Zhan's frowning looking down at me overlapped with a frowning looking up, familiar yet unfamiliar.

There is also a female voice talking next to my ear.

She said: "Tang Yuan, we shouldn't live in such pain, I'll wait for you below, believe me, you will come to me."

Who is this girl?

Why didn't I remember, a vague name popped up in my head, she seemed to be called: that month.

I walked through the crowd and stood under the long stage, raised my head and asked Yun Zhan, "Do you know that month? She seems to have asked me to find her."

I don't know why I asked Yun Zhan this question, but I instinctively feel that he should know him.

Yun Zhan's face changed instantly. He avoided my eyes, opened his lips a little angrily, and finally told me calmly that he didn't know him.

Don't you know?

But the frame-by-frame pictures in my head told me that they seemed very familiar.

"Oh." After getting the answer, I turned and walked towards Gong Huanshen, "Let's go."

"Wait!" Wang Jue stopped me.

"Tang Tang, wait a minute." She jumped down from the long stage with her big skirt dragging, and she said in front of me, "Tang Tang, are you leaving? But those who receive bouquets need to perform."

"Can I not perform?"

"It doesn't seem to work." She shook my hand, "We are friends, can you perform a show to bless me, I haven't heard you sing before, I'm getting married today, can you sing for us once?"

She blinked: "You won't refuse, will you?"

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I asked her softly, "Why are you doing this?"

She smiled and whispered to me, "Because it's a pity to let you go like this. The wedding is not over yet, of course you have to watch more scenes of love between Ah Yin and me. Your pain is the best gift you can give me. It's really interesting that the singer sings for the wedding of my sweetheart and others, I'm very interested in watching it."

After she finished speaking, she stood up straight and led everyone to applaud, "Tang Tang agrees!"

I looked at Gong Huanshen, begging him to take me away with my eyes.And as if he didn't see it, he found a chair and sat down, crossed his legs and applauded with everyone.

"Only when you are hurt deeply enough can you let go more completely. Go ahead, this is your last farewell to the past." Gong Huanshen said in my ear before going on stage, "Get over it and you will be reborn."

Fart's final farewell, I don't want to!I don't want to stay here any longer, I don't want to watch their loving scenes, and I don't even want to go on stage to sing for them...

But I still went on stage and sat in front of the piano.

Yun Zhan tried to persuade me for Wang Jue.

When did I refuse Yun Zhan's words?

If he wants me to sing, then I will sing.

I looked at the two people not far away who were making small movements because they couldn't watch the show, and smiled in my heart.I really want to say to Wang Jue: "Yun Zhan doesn't want to watch my performance, so don't force him."

As soon as the words in my heart were finished, Wang Jue's force took effect. Yun Zhan held her hand and stayed beside her, looking in my direction.Wang Jue smiled sweetly, "Tang Tang is about to start?"

I withdrew my eyes and pressed the keys.

Accompanied by the sound of the piano, I sang a song that I haven't touched for a long time.

This is indeed a final farewell, even a farewell.

Because the light is permanently extinguished.

clouds cover the sun

The rose has lost its fragrance

blue waves back and forth

you and i lose my imagination

Even if the clouds are shrouded in mist and the sun cannot be seen

We should all hold on to hope

run down street

corner bird nest nest nest

Lonely people rest here

Found an antidote to grief

The Golden Wave of Wheat at the End of the Rain Lane

cotton candy

you and i caught a glimpse of the sun

just can't give up hope

Lonely people always walk alone

If you have a dream, go after it and never let it go

The light of the sun

is the direction to guide us