inexplicable fairy tale

When you left, I couldn't help but shed tears until the last trace of warmth was taken away from me—maybe, in this life, I will never be happy again.

I don't know if you took that box away, I don't know if you opened that phone, if you found out all the secrets—would you laugh cruelly at me?I have tortured you, insulted you, and scolded you. At this moment, will you have the pleasure of revenge?Even so, it's good, at least it can leave some traces in your heart.

It was because I met you that I integrated the things I thought I didn't need the most into my flesh and blood. Loving you has become the subject of my life.

On Christmas Eve, I was smoking alone in front of the deserted baby room, and there were fireworks one after another outside the window. I saw them blooming, and suddenly thought of your smile—as gorgeous as fireworks, and like fireworks, Fleeting.

At that moment, I suddenly missed you very much. Thinking of my eyes becoming dry, I, a big man, just shed tears like this, and it is extremely embarrassing to say it.

The phone rang suddenly and sharply, it was Liu Yueying.I know she went to America, I thought, maybe news about you.I calmed down and picked it up, and said in a businesslike tone: "Hello? I'm Mo Shaoqian." Actually, at that moment, my heart was beating, but you couldn't hear it.

The other end was silent for a long time, and finally a soft voice said: "Mo Shaoqian, it's snowing!" It's you!My heart skipped a beat, and after a year, I finally heard your voice again!I imagined your expression at this moment, it should be happy and intoxicated, I imagined the snow scene in the United States, imagined you standing in the snow in a red dress, and I couldn't control my big breath anymore - I found that I actually I want to see you so strongly.

So I came here without hesitation, came to your side, and found a lame reason to maintain my indifference as always.

You are still so naive, careless, and nervous, and you can't hide any expression on your face.I looked at your bewildered look, and suddenly found it very funny, just like a cat that catches a mouse and can't help but want to tease it. I really want to see how you end up this time.

You are watching "The Pianist on the Sea". When I was in the villa, I saw you sitting alone in front of the sofa, watching in a trance, the light from the TV reflected on your face, a thin layer of radiance .Later, I also quietly watched this film, and the more I watched it, the colder it became, and my heart twitched.

You once had a pair of hands that could play the piano, but because of me, they lost the ability to jump.That scar lay across my heart, like a gap that would never be bridged.You don't know how panicked I was when I saw the blood, as if I was about to lose one of the most important things.You are always so cruel to me, but I don't even have the courage to blame you—all of this is my own fault.

You have become bolder, perhaps because you have been away from me for too long. In the past, you would always compromise in front of me, like a poor little rabbit, with a flattering and probing expression on your face.Every time I see you like this, I can't help but want to get angry—but we all have to pretend, whoever bows his head first will lose.Now you dare to tell cold jokes in front of me, dare to laugh loudly and unscrupulously, dare to whistle happily, dare to ask me why I am unhappy in front of my face.

why am i unhappyThere are too many unhappy people in this world, why should I be happy?Are those who always smile happy?Are those who live in abundance happy?Everyone has a standard of happiness in their hearts, but I have already abandoned this standard like a shoe.

Tong Xue, what about you?are you happy?Perhaps, only when you are happy can I be truly happy.

I know that you don't want to go back to China with me, you can't let go of everything in the past, and you can't forget the hurt I caused you, so that night, when you hesitated, I decided to push you away-I really didn't have the courage, Accept your abandonment again.

I got really drunk that night at FairyTale.This bar was opened for you from the beginning, even I don't know why I chose such a name.Maybe it's because your name is in it, maybe it's because fairy tales are out of reach, just like you, to me, are just a mermaid princess who will eventually turn into a bubble.

What I didn't expect was that you would come after me again.When I saw your shoes in the entrance, I suddenly had the illusion of going home—this feeling, only you can give me.Mu Yongfei will also prepare slippers for me, she always looks like a truly considerate wife, but when I see her, apart from disgust, there is also an indescribable strangeness, as if I am the toy she wants to get.

You pressed on every step at the ball, I dealt with it calmly, but I really wanted to laugh in my heart, you are no longer like a lamb at the mercy of others, you know how to fight back, know how to win by surprise, and know how to hold the enemy's lifeline, but you are still too tender .Looking at your distraught look, and seeing you and Li Xiang scolding each other, I suddenly feel that now you are like a real young girl with life and vitality, not a puppet at the mercy of others.My heart suddenly became very bitter again. Only when you leave me can you be truly happy. This kind of vitality can only bloom like a lotus in a place where I am not around.

When I saw you smiling at Xiao Shan, I knew it was definitely not because of me that you came back.This made me clench my fists uncontrollably, as if there were countless things biting me in my heart, making me uneasy.When I saw you again, I couldn't help humiliating you. Yes, every time I couldn't control my emotions, I wanted to hurt you viciously. In this way, you can't see the compassion I hide behind.Every time, you looked at me with pitiful or stubborn eyes, which made me gradually lose confidence in my heart.

But this time, you are really angry, with determination in your eyes that you have never seen before.When you rushed out the door, I looked at the mobile phone you left behind. There was an exquisite mobile phone chain hanging on it, and it was actually the word "Mo Tong"!At that moment, I suddenly realized that I was about to lose you, which made me panic, and I no longer cared about my dignity and ran out to chase you.

Time seems to go back to a year ago, we were confronting each other, our swords were on the verge of breaking out, and your eyes were full of hatred, so strong that it almost burned me.You slapped me viciously, and squeezed out a sentence from between your teeth: "Mo Shaoqian, thank you for giving me this slap for so many years." The world in my heart collapsed, and everything was over. .You hate me, even after all this time, you still hate me.

I fell into damn insomnia again, as long as I close my eyes, I will see your cold smile and hateful eyes.In my heart, there seemed to be countless devils clamoring, and they gave me a splitting headache.I grabbed the pillow painfully, but couldn't catch a trace of sleepiness.I seem to have returned to the time when my father just passed away. At that time, I was so painful that I could not sleep at night, and I could only fall asleep by relying on drugs.So, I started to eat mafei again, I haven't touched this for a long time, but now, I really want to be addicted, I don't want to be my sober self, that would be too difficult and painful.

I finally fell into a deep sleep, and the dream was full of large patches of red Bana flowers, as delicate and fresh as blood.At the end of the flower is your face, as pale as a piece of white paper, I wanted to touch your cheek in vain, but you disappeared like a puff of smoke.

This time, I really decided to say goodbye to you. Since we are destined to torture each other, why can't we let go of each other?I don't want to see you cry anymore, such a face will become a prison to imprison me, so I decided, even if you go to the ends of the world this time, I will not foolishly follow you.I cruelly left you who were still in the hospital, and bid farewell to you without hesitation.

However, God has a pair of hands that control everything. He always brings me sweet rain and dew when I feel that I am on the verge of collapse-that is a confession that I thought I would never hear in this life. Next, slowly telling our grievances, slowly telling your attachment to me.I was on the other side of the phone, and my heart trembled when I heard it. There seemed to be a huge container in my heart, and happiness, sourness, disbelief, and ecstasy were constantly pouring out...

When I finally heard you say in a low voice: "Yeah, I love him. Maybe, just to fulfill our love, fate made him come to me for revenge. Maybe, loving him is the best thing I have ever done in my life." Something..." The container finally burst because it couldn't hold such intense emotions, and a tear fell from the corner of his eye.You say you love me, how dare I believe it?I thought that I would never hear the word "love" again in this life. When I designed the three-character text message, I never thought that this would be a love that got a response.I just want to tell you that I love you, but it has nothing to do with you, this is a game I insist on alone, and you just stand there, no need to respond.

This time, we finally came together!do you know?This is a scene that has appeared countless times in my dreams. There is no hatred or revenge between us, but like real lovers, holding hands and enjoying ordinary happiness.You coquettishly asked me to sing, but if I disagreed, you pouted and got angry. That expression is a vivid picture that I will never forget in my life.

I still sang "Ghost Bewitched Heart Aperture" for you, and I am willing to sink for you.You are my obsession, I am willing to follow you to the ends of the earth.

After many years, time seems to go back to when we first met, I saw you for the first time, maybe, at that time, love was already in my heart