inexplicable fairy tale

It may be a wrong decision for you to let go.So, FairyTale, the house in America, you know, I did it all, in order to catch you back one day.However, when you really came back, I was not as happy as I imagined. I was careful, for fear that you would disappear again.It wasn't until that day, when I saw you smiling at your first boyfriend, that I realized that maybe, I would lose you in the end..."

No!not like this!I screamed in my heart, as if something was blocked in my throat, I couldn't speak, I could only shake my head desperately.

He continued: "Every time I see you, I can't control my anger, jealousy, revenge, we are together, the hurt is too deep, the misunderstanding is too serious, I don't want to be so entangled... So, Tong Xue, I don't plan to catch you again, this time, even if you go to the ends of the earth, I won't chase after you again... These years, I'm really tired, so tired..."

I stood up staggeringly, wanting to argue and argue, but my body had no strength at all.Mo Shaoqian's words were like a knife, piercing my heart fiercely.

"This thing..." Mo Shaoqian held up the mobile phone chain, "You threw it away, it must be something that is not important to you, now I give it back to you..." His expression returned to that high, cold Mo Shaoqian.

I was like being trapped in a nightmare. I could clearly hear every word he said, and I wanted to argue loudly, but I just couldn't open my mouth.In the end, I squeezed out a few words with all my strength: "Mo Shaoqian, it's not like this..." My eyes suddenly went dark, and I didn't know anything.

In a daze, it seemed as if I heard two people talking.

"Are you awake?" A man's voice said.

"Not yet." The woman replied, "What about him?"

"Discharged from the hospital."

"Damn! What a heartless person!"

"Don't blame him, he must have difficulties. What kind of spirit do you think the two of them are?"

"What kind of spirit can I have? Sadomasochism is deep!"

"We can't be like them..."

"Hush... seems to wake up..."

I opened my eyes, and Yueying's face appeared in front of my eyes. "Yueying?" I rubbed my eyes, thinking I was dreaming.

"Tong Xue, you dead girl, you have tossed yourself into the hospital after being away from me for a few days, do you think you are ashamed?" Yue Ying scolded.

"Yueying..." All the grievances in my heart surged up, "He doesn't want me anymore, he doesn't want me anymore..."

Yueying hugged me distressedly and kept patting my back.I seemed to have found support, curled up in her arms and kept crying.I have shed more tears these two days than I have shed in the past year. I knew that when I met Mo Shaoqian, I was doomed to escape. He was my fate, the hurdle I was destined to face.

"You two stop crying." Lu Xincheng came over to persuade.It was only then that I came to my senses—they actually returned home!

"You?" I wondered.

Yue Ying explained: "I sent you an MMS that day, but I didn't get a response from you for a long time. I thought, no, this is not your style. So I called you, but you didn't answer. I thought nothing happened. Oh, right? At this time, someone tipped us off..."

"Ye Xiang?" I asked tentatively.

"Who else can there be besides him? When Mo Shaoqian came to help my dad's company, he was also helpful, so we got to know each other. He said that there seemed to be a big trouble this time, and he couldn't handle it alone, so we flew back immediately .Tong Xue, thousands of rivers and mountains are always love, we didn't come back all the way to see this ending..."

"Do you think I want to? I came to apologize to him. He said he had something to say to me, but in the end he said he would let me go... Who wants him to pretend to be great? I come and go whenever I want, can he control it? He said he was tired, did he think I wasn't tired? That's just how he is, he always makes decisions unilaterally and never asks me how I feel..." I said angrily.

"How do you feel? Have you ever told him how you feel?" Yue Ying asked suddenly.

"I..." I hesitated, yes, did I tell you how I felt?That time in the United States, I mustered up the courage to hug him and confessed something to him, but he interrupted me before I finished speaking.After returning to China, I wanted to have a good talk with him several times, but I never had the chance.But... my feeling, is it important now?

"You see you have never confessed your feelings to him, how would he know?" Yueying said.

"But..." I still wanted to argue.

"Don't be so!" Yue Ying covered my mouth, "Tong Xue, do you still remember that we were drunk together on Christmas Eve? At that time, I played 'Truth or Dare' with you, and I said, the dogs ate your sincerity , to choose the big adventure. Now, let’s play again, shall we? But this time, I want you to choose the truth.”

I looked at her puzzled, not understanding why she wanted to play games with me at this time.She held up something, which turned out to be the "Mo Tong" mobile phone chain. Mo Shaoqian said last night: "You threw away, it must be something that is not important to you. Now, give it back to you..."

Yue Ying looked at the mobile phone chain and said, "I want you to tell the truth to this thing. If there is a false statement, it will be thundered!"

I looked at her serious expression, and finally nodded: "Okay, I choose the truth."

"How do you feel about Mo Shaoqian?" Yueying asked.

This question stuck with me.I always say that I want to tell him how I feel, but I have never organized my words well in my heart, nor have I considered the tone and demeanor when I tell. Going to find him is like a "desperate thirteen younger sister".

"How I feel about him..." I suddenly looked like an old man recalling the past, "We are like enemies, but we don't hate thoroughly enough; we are like lovers, but we love too seriously. We seem to have countless times We have many opportunities to separate, but we are always disconnected; we seem to have countless opportunities to come together, but we pass each other again and again. We are like a pair of contradictions, we are obviously mutually exclusive, but we still have to overcome the damn resistance to approach each other. When we finally succeeded in approaching, there was another force of resistance that separated us abruptly. If this matter had been left on someone else, I might have given up on this bad relationship long ago, but I can't let go. Mo Shaoqian looks strong, Thunder tricks, devil style, but the closer he gets, the more he will find that it is a kind of loneliness that is too cold. Yueying, isn't there a poem that says, "Chang'e should regret stealing the elixir, and the blue sea is blue and the sky is heart-warming every night" Mo Shaoqian is like Chang'e who stole the elixir. He is on a road of no return. Therefore, I often feel sorry for him, so distressed that I want to hug him well, so distressed that I want to keep every smile of his. I used my whole life to smooth the furrowed brows on his forehead... Don't say I'm hypocritical, sometimes I feel stupid, I deserve it, I'm cheap, I throw myself into a trap to meet such a man, but How lucky I am that I was able to meet him..."

Yueying's eyes turned red when she heard this, and finally she held my hand and said, "That is to say, you love him?"

"Love?" My lips trembled suddenly. I have never said this word easily. It is too heavy to cause waves in my life.But at this moment, I decided not to hesitate anymore, my face was full of relief, as if I saw a spring flower, I said in my softest and softest voice: "Yes, I love him. Maybe, just to fulfill our love, fate made him come to me for revenge. Maybe, loving him is the best thing I have ever done in my life..."

At that moment, I thought of the love between Bai Liusu and Fan Liuyuan. Eileen Chang said: "Perhaps because she wanted to fulfill her, a big city collapsed." Everything is predestined.

Yueying wiped away her tears and said, "Two questions are enough." She looked back at Lu Xincheng, "Are you ready?"

Lu Xincheng walked over and made an "OK" gesture.

I looked at them puzzled, Yue Ying suddenly smiled slyly, and said, "Tong Xue, don't blame me, who told you two to abuse you? We really can't see Ye Xiang's efficiency. It's too low, I can't trust him, so I have to do it myself. In fact, what we played just now was not the truth, but a big risk..."

"what?"

"When you were talking just now, Lu Xincheng happened to dial Mo Shaoqian's cell phone..."

"what?"

"That is to say, your true confession was heard by him..."

I can no longer make any doubts, the only thought in my mind is, hurry up and let me pass out again!

Obsessed

"Tong Xue, what are you doing? Put your bag down!"

I turned around suddenly, "Yueying, I want to go back to the United States! You know, I still have a lot of papers to hand in, a lot of procedures to go through, and a lot of things to finish. I have to go back, go back... ..."

Yueying pulled my bag and said, "That's not in a hurry! Aren't you coming back very wisely? Why are you acting like a turtle now?"

"Yueying, you don't understand, it's too embarrassing, this is really too embarrassing..." I looked at her pitifully,

"Let's go! Let's go! Don't regret leaving!" Yueying said angrily.

I quickly grabbed my luggage, ran to the door as if fleeing, and said loudly: "I will regret it if I don't leave!"

This is the conversation I had with Yueying at the door of my aunt's house this morning.At this moment, I was sitting in the waiting room, staring at the hurrying people coming and going in a daze.Since the "confession" incident, Mo Shaoqian hasn't come to me, and I haven't even looked for him. The only thought in my mind is - I'm going to America for asylum.so I