inexplicable fairy tale

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I don't know if people are particularly prone to illness when they are sad. After all the troubles last night, when I woke up this morning, I felt dizzy.A bit of pale sky light came through the curtains, and I suddenly didn't have the courage to open my eyes. I would rather sleep all the time, so as not to think about the troubles of last night.Just like this, I woke up and fell asleep, and after I woke up, I could always hear a man singing in the dimness: "Someone asked me what's wrong with you. I still can't forget it after so many years..." Can't forget, can't forget... Actually, often What people most want to forget is the hardest to forget.

When I really woke up and saw my aunt wiping my sweat, she looked at me distressedly and said, "You have a fever, what do you think you child, why are you out wandering around in the cold?"

"I'm sorry, auntie." When she opened her mouth like a duck, she must have cried a lot last night.

"Your cell phone keeps ringing, take a quick look, don't be in a hurry." My aunt put down the medicine and water, took the door and went out.

When I looked at the screen, Yueying called several times, and so did Ye Xiang.By the way, Yueying announced last night that she and Lu Xincheng are in love and I haven't congratulated her yet, and the call back has already been turned off.I turned to the MMS message she sent, and seeing them smiling like flowers, I felt sore in my heart.Yue Ying and I also stumbled on the road of love, but she is always more courageous than me, so she can also approach happiness faster.Once, when we were still rampaging on campus, Yue Ying said to me: "In the future, we must get married at the same time, and the four of us will walk into the marriage hall hand in hand!" Hold so many people.Now, I really have no confidence.

I didn't answer Ye Xiang's call, I need time to calm down.I hit Mo Shaoqian on impulse last night. I have been with him for three years. I never dared to resist. There was only one time when he mentioned Xiao Shan. That time I viciously wanted to strangle him and curse him viciously. Someone treated him with sincerity, and at that time his expression was like a fire that was gradually extinguished, and finally he closed his eyes exhausted.I can't guess how he reacted after that. This person is sensitive, proud, restrained, domineering, selfish, and cunning. I can't find a good adjective to describe him.If he hates me, I deserve it.

"Xue'er, you have guests!" My aunt suddenly knocked on my door.

"Who?" I wondered, who would look for me at this time.

The door opened, and a woman walked in, it was Li Xiang!She thanked her aunt politely, then closed the door, her expression instantly indifferent.She looked around the room arrogantly, then sat down by my bed, and said, "Tong Xue, it's really hard to find you. Ye Xiang didn't answer your phone calls, so I had to come in person."

I didn't want to waste any time with this woman, so I said coldly, "Why do you need to come here in person? I'm still sick, so please go back if there is nothing important!"

"Sick?" Li Xiang said, "Hmph, you and Mo Shaoqian really have a good understanding, if he is sick, you will be sick too!"

I ignored the worries in my heart and said calmly: "He is not made of iron, of course he will be sick."

"Tong Xue!" Li Xiang suddenly called me viciously, "You really have no conscience! Do you know how he got sick? Do you know that he is taking mafei? How long has he not touched that thing? But last night After you quarreled, he took that medicine again. I don’t know how much he took. If the housekeeper hadn’t discovered it early, he would have died! Tong Xue, do you think you are the only one who is in pain and everyone else is insensitive? I like him, I like him very much, I have confessed my love countless times, and I have cheated countless times, but he just doesn't want to see me. Why does he not want to see me? I am the daughter of the Li Group, what am I worse than you? Ye Xiang told me your story, hum, Tong Xue, do you think that others will sympathize with you? No, I will not sympathize with you. You asked for everything! You have countless opportunities to refuse, but You don’t! Don’t tell me that you are forced to do it. I have known a truth since I was a child. No one can force you to do what you don’t want to do unless you do it voluntarily! I love Mo Shaoqian, so I will ignore it. Do everything and even put down your body to pursue him. Can you do this? I came today to declare war on you. If you can’t catch him, then I will never be polite! He is in the No. [-] Hospital, if you don’t want to lose He, please go and see him." After speaking, she got up and left.

I stood there in a daze. At that moment just now, I saw the tears in Li Xiang's eyes, and there was something called sincerity shining in it.I looked at her back and couldn't find any reason to hate her.I thought of what she just said, and I felt chills in my heart. Mafei, this is not the first time I have heard of this thing, a special painkiller for stage III cancer, the first time he gave it to me was when my back was injured.Later, Professor Jiang also mentioned to me that he had a bad habit of relying on drugs. I thought he had quit.I recalled the scenes of last night, it seems that I am not the only one suffering.

I suppressed the discomfort in my body, got dressed, and prepared to meet him.Everything should come to an end, for better or for worse.This is my last chance for myself.

the most special confession

I hate hospitals, the smell of potions, and the scenes of life and death, but I seem to have a special affinity with this place.

In front of Mo Shaoqian's ward, I saw Butler Ding, Lao Ma and Ye Xiang.Steward Ding saw me and said worriedly, "Miss Tong, you don't look good."

I tried my best to smile: "It's okay, I just have a cold. Mr. Mo..."

Butler Ding glanced at the ward and said, "Miss Tong, although we don't know what happened, what I do know is that when you came back to visit the room that day, Mr. Mo happened to come back, and he glanced at the door I will never forget the expression on his face when he changed the shoes. It was like seeing a lost treasure and found it again. First of all, it was not a surprise, but a kind of relief, as if all the worries for so many years had found a place to put it. Last night he drank and locked himself in the house when he came back. Until this morning, he refused to answer me no matter what I called him, so I had to use the spare key to open the door, and I saw him..." Butler Ding said, The eyes are actually a little red.Mo Shaoqian treats everyone under him well, and Butler Ding always treats him like a family member.

"Can I go in and see him?" I asked.

Ye Xiang came over and said earnestly to me: "Xiaoxue, please, don't hurt him no matter what... He really, can't stand it..."

I nod guiltily.When I walked into the ward, my steps were very light, but even so, I could still feel the weight of my steps—such a man who stood as tall as a mountain, how could he fall down at the first word?When I saw Mo Shaoqian's sick face, I covered my mouth immediately, for fear that the crying would overflow and wake him up.

His face was as pale as a piece of white paper, and his lips were bloodless.His brows were tightly furrowed, as if there were countless sorrows hidden in them.He lay there without any anger, and it seemed that something was tormenting him in his dream, making him uneasy.I leaned against the edge of the bed and sat down, looking at him quietly, time seemed to have stopped, and bits and pieces of the past emerged before my eyes.Over the years, we tortured each other and hurt each other. Finally, I left, and you came after me. Finally, after I chased you, you pushed me away again.We are always playing a game of cat and mouse, testing each other's bottom line, making each other angry, as if this is the only way to prove that each other has a place in each other's hearts.Mo Shaoqian, I don't want to play now, I'm really tired...

I caressed his forehead twisted into the word "Chuan", trying to smooth out that scar-like existence.His brows were wrinkled, as if he was restless in sleep.When I lowered my head, I saw something tightly clutched in his hand. I tremblingly opened his hand, and it turned out to be the mobile phone chain!Last night, I threw it away cruelly, said "I don't need it anymore", cruelly threw away my happiness-why did he pick it up again?

I held Mo Shaoqian's hand with tears streaming down my face, and said, "Mo Shaoqian, you fool! Why did you pick it up? You still hold on to things that people don't want, you're not a bitch! Is it? However, I am meaner than you. In fact, the moment I threw it away, I regretted it very much, but I was too embarrassed to go back and pick it up... Can I apologize to you? I shouldn’t have slapped you, I shouldn’t have been so cold Talking to you, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I was really wrong, can you wake up? Can you wake up?" The more I said, the more excited I became, and finally I could only bury my head and cry.

Suddenly, a calm voice sounded: "I'm not dead yet."

I was so frightened that I threw away his hand and said awkwardly, "You...are you awake? I...I'm going to call the nurse!" As I said this, I immediately stood up.

But he held me back and wouldn't let me go.I looked back at him, and he gave a weak smile: "Sit with me."

I sat down obediently, and seeing Mo Shaoqian staring at the mobile phone chain in his hand, I hurriedly lowered my head because of something wrong in my heart.

"Tong Xue, there is something I've always wanted to tell you." Mo Shaoqian's voice suddenly became low.

I raised my head and looked at him expectantly.However, his face seemed to be covered with a layer of sadness, and the light in his eyes was like a fire that was gradually extinguished.He said in a soft voice that couldn't be softer: "I always thought that as long as I keep you by my side, I can be happier. After you left, I sat in the empty room with my hat in my arms, and suddenly I felt cold all over my body. .and that's when I realized that the