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"Passengers arriving at the station are requested to pack up their personal belongings, and thank you again for your ride."

A reminder sounded in the train, Zhu Zhi slowly opened his eyes and twisted his neck.

The soreness of the whole night was concentrated on the moment she stood up, as if she had been punched suddenly on the back, and her bones creaked.

Zhu Zhi carried her suitcase and stood in front of the glass window at the exit. Her shadow was reflected on the clean glass that had been wiped and wiped.Behind her, the clock diagonally above indicated the current time.

Seven thirty-two in the morning.

She stretched out her hands and straightened her hair. Because of the rain yesterday, some hairs were stuck together. She used her fingers to smooth them out.

Noisy and noisy on the train, I couldn't sleep well all night, and I couldn't hide the tiredness on my face.

Zhu Zhi forced himself to cheer up, adjusted his collar, and tidied up meticulously until he was satisfied.

She always felt that if there was a slight difference, it would be magnified infinitely in the eyes of others, as if the wrong steps on the Mathematical Olympiad paper were marked with red pen by the teacher.

Especially with her.

When he was about to arrive at the hotel, Zhu Zhi only sent a short message to Chen Zhan's mother. After a while, when she called, Zhu Zhi was already standing downstairs in the hotel.

Chen Zhan's mother took Zhu Zhi's arm affectionately, loving her very much.

Zhu Zhi saw the red corners of her eyes, she must have cried, she asked softly, "Auntie, where is Chen Zhan?"

"Come with me." She sighed, and then glanced at Chen Zhan's father behind her, with a sad face.

The suitcase in her hand was taken by Chen Zhan's mother, and Zhu Zhi came to the house number she was told alone.Chen Zhan lived in it alone.

She raised her hand and knocked on the door.

A cry erupted from within: "I'm not going! I'm going back! I'm going home!"

That is Chen Zhan.

Zhu Zhi remained silent, flipped his palms over, and slapped the door hard, the knocking sound was much louder than when his knuckles collided just now.

"Stop knocking!" Chen Zhan shouted louder inside.

The more this happened, Zhu Zhi beat harder.

She kept waving her arms and knocked on the door, making a series of hurried sounds.

After knocking for a while, when she raised her arm and was about to knock again, the door was slammed open, and Chen Zhan's face was full of anger: "I told you not to knock again!"

When she saw the person in front of her, great surprise replaced the anger in her eyebrows and eyes: "Why are you?"

Zhu Zhi lowered his eyes, raised his hand to hold the doorframe involuntarily, entered the room, closed the door again, leaned his back on the door, folded his arms around his chest, and looked at Chen Zhan meaningfully: " What's wrong?"

For some reason, when she saw Zhu Zhi, Chen Zhan felt flustered in her heart, like the kind of child who is at a loss when she suddenly meets a teacher. Her eyes dodged, she still frowned, and said in her usual arrogant tone: "I I don't want to dance anymore."

"I know. What's the matter?"

Chen Zhan frowned even tighter: "I just don't want to dance anymore!"

Zhu Zhi's eyes were firmly fixed on Chen Zhan's body: "I know, I'm asking you why."

Chen Zhan lowered his head, biting his lower lip with his teeth tightly. He was silent for a moment, then raised his head again: "Whether I dance or not, whether I participate in the competition, whether I live or die, it's none of your business? Who are you? You and I have a relationship." What's the matter? Who are you to me?"

"You are really spoiled." Zhu Zhiqiang suppressed the anger in her heart, her arms hung down, and she straightened up with the support behind her.

Zhu Zhi took two steps forward, stared into Chen Zhan's eyes, and turned Chen Zhan's two arms behind her back, overlapping them, pinching one hand tightly, and raising the other hand, pinching it on her chest. on the nape of the neck.

"What are you doing!? Zhu Zhi?! What are you doing?!" Chen Zhan struggled desperately and shouted.

Zhu Zhi didn't pay attention to Chen Zhan's resistance. In her opinion, the strength of the struggle was nothing to mention.

Using both hands together, she pushed Chen Zhan towards the side of the bed, and suddenly pressed Chen Zhan to the side of the bed, forcing her back to face her.

"Zhu Zhi?! Are you crazy?!" Chen Zhan's face sank into the quilt, and he let out a few blurred cries.

"Maybe."

Zhu Zhi raised his arm, lifted the corner of Chen Zhan's skirt, and swung it vigorously on her hip.

Once, once, again.

She pressed Chen Zhan's back with her hand, felt her trembling from her palm, and heard her voice change from shouting to crying, and finally she was struggling to the point of exhaustion.

"Are you more awake?" Zhu Zhi sat on the edge of the bed and said lightly, his palms were already flushed and faintly numb.

Tears of shame kept coming out of Chen Zhan's eyes.

She was lying on the bed with her head firmly stuck in the quilt, and there were bursts of pain from behind her, but the physical humiliation was far less than the heart.

In the past, Zhou Zhou was so submissive and gentle to her.But now, suddenly, it changed in another way.

That kind of feeling, like a pet that was taken care of carefully, suddenly one day bit me viciously, and then ran to other people's side, looking at me arrogantly.

Every step of the dance, every movement I make, I think of the picture of Zhou Zhou, dancing with her, participating in competitions again and again, and her appearance lying on the hospital bed.

The spotlight above the head seemed to have changed its appearance, as if it had become a huge mirror. Chen Zhan couldn't help but look at the white light. She seemed to see her childhood appearance at the end of the light.

At that time, the homework was relatively easy, the movements were relatively simple, and everything around me seemed straightforward and easy.

The longer I grow up and the farther I go, the more things I don't like, some of which are discarded like worn-out shoes, and some of which I can't resist no matter what.

Before the semi-finals, he was eating at the same table with an elderly dance teacher. Chen Zhan hated the smell of cigarettes on his body, but he couldn't order him to snuff out the cigarettes in his fingers.

"Zhan Zhan, give a toast to the teacher." The smile on Chen Zhan's mother's face was almost full.

Chen Zhan got up quickly, filled his own cup, stood in front of the teacher, and reluctantly clinked glasses with him.

The more she grew up, the more things like this happened, her temper became bigger and bigger, and her self-esteem became stronger and stronger.

Chen Zhan never felt that she was one of many beings. She felt that she was the first one to bloom on the branch of peach blossoms in spring, and that she was the first ray of sunshine shining on the earth at dawn. No one else can match it.

But she kept doubting, if there were no banquets, teachers, and all the high-quality conditions given by her parents, would she still be her?

Zhou Zhou was too straightforward to refuse, like a slap, hitting Chen Zhan's face hard.As if to tell her the answer to this question is no.

I don't want to face it anymore.

Don't want to grow anymore.

I just hid behind my parents willfully, left here willfully, returned to my warm home, locked the room, drew the curtains tightly, covered my head with a quilt, and curled up in a ball. Don't want to see anyone.

"You may think it's nothing special, but to be honest, I have felt that you are different from other children since I was a child. I can't tell what is different, but it is different."

Zhu Zhi lowered his head and looked at his toes. The soil on his shoes was the traces of running around in the rainy night last night.

"Do you remember the first time I went to see you perform?

When you stand on the stage and stand under the flashing lights, I know you will go to one bigger place after another, and everything is too small for you. "

"I know you are not because of Zhou Zhou, but you are crying yourself. She understands, and I understand better. You can only see her, but you cannot see me."

"It's okay, I can take care of myself." Zhu Zhi paused.

Chen Zhan suppressed sobbing and forced himself not to make any noise. He clutched the bed sheet tightly with both hands, but Zhu Zhi's words involuntarily entered his ears.

"Why I'm here today is not because I hope I've touched you, or anything.

I just want you to know that even if you go to the competition or not, whether you dance or not, whether you look the way you are now, whether you are more beautiful or ugly, you will be yourself. "

"Even if there are another one million times, there will be countless people, like me, who will fix their eyes on you just because you are Chen Zhan and you are worth it."

Before meeting Zhou Zhou, every time Chen Zhan was training in the dance studio, Zhu Zhi would carry a small schoolbag and hug Chen Zhan's clothes, and hide in the corner of the dance studio, leaning against the wall with his homework resting on his knees Going to school, seriously doing the topics that will be done the day after tomorrow.

After staying for two or three hours, Zhu Zhi didn't feel tired at all.

It wasn't until Chen Zhan finished dancing that he came to her and said, "Why are you still doing your homework?"

Zhu Zhi raised his head and adjusted his glasses: "Are you done practicing?"

"You don't have to wait for me, just go home by yourself, I don't need you to wait." Chen Zhan gently wiped the fine sweat on his forehead with the back of his hand.

Zhu Zhixiao tightly clenched the pencil in her hand, the light hit her pair of glasses and reflected back, and said seriously: "I do it voluntarily."

After a long silence, Zhu Zhi stood up from the bed: "I will live next door for a day. Whether you go or not, I will wait next door. Don't let yourself down."

"Hello..." Chen Zhan propped his arms and slowly got up from the bed.

Zhu Zhi was stunned and stood where he was.

Chen Zhan turned around and looked at the back of Zhu Zhi who was about to leave. The pain left by Zhu Zhi on her body could hardly be felt. Her eye sockets were still red and her tears had dried up.

"Who gave you the guts to hit me?" Chen Zhan was slightly angry.

The decadent message has faded from his tone.

After hearing this, Zhu Zhi turned around, walked to Chen Zhan's side, knelt on one knee beside Chen Zhan's leg, looked up at her with a smile on his lips: "Then come and beat me after the game Bar."

"Who said I'm going to compete?!" Chen Zhan subconsciously raised his hand in the air.

But Zhu Zhi didn't hide, and met Chen Zhan's eyes without fear, the smile on his face became wider, and he quietly waited for her slap to fall.

Maybe it will fall on the shoulder, maybe it will fall on the face.

Anywhere is fine.

As long as you are angry because of me.

It wasn't a slap that fell in the end.

Chen Zhan tapped Zhu Zhi's lips with his cool fingers, and wiped it lightly.

"I haven't counted on you for your frivolous behavior last time."