After writing the book, all of Yokohama wanted to hunt me down

""I want to be with you forever." Such thoughts appeared in my mind very clearly.

No matter what kind of identity, no matter what kind of way.

"I want to love you."』

There is a way to make two people who have no blood relationship become family members, but not as brothers and sisters, but with other identities.

But every time Yuanxuan thought about this, she would start to think about the possibility of Shibusawa Tatsuhiko having this idea.

Shibusawa Ryuhiko, who has always regarded herself as her "brother", in his eyes, she has always been his "sister" from beginning to end.

Reminiscent of the "brother and sister" identities between them that have no proof of kinship and have never been recognized by Yuan Xuan, Yuan Xuan, who is lying on Shibusawa Ryuhiko's back, suddenly wants to ask him a question.

She didn't raise her face, she still pressed against the back of his neck, Yuan Xuan knew that he could hear her voice.

"If... I mean if, I really call you 'brother', can we be a real family? "

When her subtle voice reached Shibusawa Ryuhiko's ears, his expression froze for a moment, and then he stopped.

Yuan Xuan felt uneasy about this sudden stillness.At that moment, she even felt a little regretful, thinking that she shouldn't ask like this.

Shibusawa Tatsuhiko was silent for a few seconds, his head turned for a while, and his eyes looked at his back.

Yuan Xuan, who was lying on his back, could sense his movements, but she was so timid that she didn't dare to raise her face to face his turning back.

She didn't know what answer she would get.

Shibusawa Tatsuhiko's voice came over like this, he said, "We have always been family, Aya."

His voice was soft and calm, but very serious, as if he was just stating a fact without any doubts.But such a reaction made Yuan Xuan feel unreal, which made her hug the other party's neck tightly.

The feeling of completely embracing another person from the back gave her a little confidence in her heart, and she began to convince herself to try to believe what he said.

So Yuan Xuan confirmed again, "Really?"

"It's true." Was the answer.

There was one from more than four years ago, from the moment she was held in the palm of the other party, she wanted to ask the other party a question, and blurted out at this moment, "Why me?"

——Why is it me who gets this "happiness"?

Mediocre, timid, weak... In Yuan Xuan's view, there is nothing in her that is worth paying for by others.

But Shibusawa Tatsuhiko said, "Because you are Yuan Xuan."

He gradually took another step, and walked back to the residence step by step with Yuan Xuan on his back. He told Yuan Xuan, "Because you are the Yuan Xuan I am looking for."

It is the only irreplaceable precious treasure that can surpass all his "collections" in this world.

In the fourth month of living in Aomori, Yuanxuan received a very long letter.

She still has the impression that the reader who wrote the letter was the strange person who signed it with "Eternal Bliss".

In this letter, Yuan Xuan knew more about him.In particular, he mentioned one thing in the letter, which made Yuanxuan ponder for a long time.

"I'm so happy, I read your work again.I didn't find it on purpose to read it, just like I read your novels, these things happened by accident.

But such a coincidence, in my opinion, seems to be destined.So I decided to write to you again.

"If possible, I really want to meet you~" Does this kind of words feel impolite to you?If so, just ignore it as if you didn't see it.

"Compared to "Memory", "Rage God" is even more cruel..." "It is simply an unsolvable tragedy!" Such evaluations have gained extreme unity among the people I know.

Ah... that's right!I forgot to tell you, after reading your "Memory", I have recommended this book to people I know!

Because I really like this feeling of "sharing", watching the reactions of people around me, seeing the expressions on their faces, I can be like them.Everyone says that I am a person who can understand others very well.

So people around me like to talk to me very much.Most of them are trivial things in life, such as troubles in love, getting along with friends, and difficulties in schoolwork... But sometimes there are some special things.

"This world makes me feel that I can no longer survive." Someone said this to me.

Not long ago, she was crying in front of me, and the tears fell drop by drop. She said that she had no way to bear the pain of living anymore.

This is so pitiful. Wouldn't it be too much if nothing was done to help her?

If it were you, you must feel the same way, right?

So, I thought of your novel.Isn't my current experience exactly the same as the patriarch of the "Eternal Bliss Cult" in the book!Such a coincidence is really like fate!

In the novel, the godfather saved those poor people, he gave them sympathy and comfort, and let them get salvation.In fact, I have also thought about it before, substituting myself into his perspective, if it were me, what would I do?

So, I tried to comfort her, but I didn't expect this kind of comfort to really work. She, who had given up the idea of ​​living, actually regained the idea of ​​living in my words.

"This is really a good thing!" I would like to tell you so.However, at this time when I should be happy, I didn't feel any joy or happiness in my heart.

I think that's really weird.

Is the patriarch in the story also in the same mood when facing the believers who prayed to him and sought relief and redemption from him?

There is one thing I want to know anyway, and only you can answer it for me.When you were writing that story, when you were creating that character, what kind of thinking did you have, so that he appeared in this story and became this person?

Once I start to imagine your creative process, I can't help but wonder what kind of person you are. In the process of writing, whether you are the same as me in reality, watching those "characters" and "characters" so calmly plot"?

Please tell me. 』

When she saw this letter, Yuan Xuan seemed to feel again the feeling she had when she saw the letter from the soldier.From the bottom of her heart was an unspeakable terror.

For a moment, she even felt that something was biting the world and eating reality.

Such a terrible thought startled her.

But she felt that she had to write a reply to the other party.If she doesn't write it, this incident will definitely leave a regret in her heart.

Just like the original letter.

After that, Yuan Xuan would often think of it, and also of the soldier who lost his home.If she had written a reply to the other party at the beginning, no matter what she replied in the letter, it would be better than no response at all.

Because...someone is asking her for help.

Between the lines of the other party, he was saying, "Please help me".

Yuan Xuan could not ignore such a sad plea again.

She took a deep breath and uncapped the pen.

"Hello. ”Yuan Xuan started with a very plain, “I am very happy to hear from you again. 』

But after writing this beginning, she still didn't know how to start writing.

Unlike "Eternal Bliss", Yuan Xuan does not look at the characters and plots from the perspective of a bystander, and she has never been indifferent to other people's feelings like him.

But the biggest difference between them lies in the way they are handled.

People who feel no emotion can respond almost perfectly to the appeals of others.But Yuan Xuan, who is extremely sensitive, often doesn't know how to face those emotions.

It's very dramatic cruelty.

When she realized this, she suddenly knew how to reply to the other party.

"Let's talk about some things that are not mentioned in the postscript. When I decided to write the story of "Memory", I had already thought of its name, and at the very beginning, it was clear in my mind. The only character that exists is the "protagonist".

He is my everything.

With a feeling of timidity and hesitation, I wrote down his "memory" on the draft. At that moment, I was so excited that I almost shed tears.

Because I am all too aware that I am watching, and even entering, another world.This has to make me moved.

As you can see, I am a little different from what you imagined.For this, I should first say sorry.

But I still remember your last letter, in which you said to me that maybe the "Godfather" is your previous life.It makes me think that you are a very special person.

Every feature of a person is unique, just as there can only be one "you" in a world.And the same is true for novels, in my opinion.Every novel and every story is a unique world, so every character in it is also a unique existence.

I regard them as existences like you and me.

That's how I see it. 』

After posting the letter, Yuanxuan and Shibusawa Tatsuhiko went to a nearby park together.

They are sitting on a park bench, and there are many people walking in the park.Yuan Xuan saw a very close man and woman.

The woman hugged the arm of the man next to her, and they sat down on another bench not far away, and they cuddled tightly together.

Yuan Xuan looked at them for a while, then turned around and looked at the young man sitting beside her.

She stretched out her hand and wrapped her arms around his waist. She shrank under Shibusawa Tatsuhiko's wide cloak, and put her head on his chest.

Shibusawa Tatsuhiko had an unexpected look on his face.

"Xuan?"

Yuan Xuan's profile was pressed against his chest, and she could clearly hear the sound of his heart beating.

She suddenly asked, "When shall we go home?"

Shibusawa Tatsuhiko was stunned for a moment, then he said, "You can go back now."

Wen Yan Yuanxuan raised her face, "I'm not talking about a homestay."

Shibusawa Tatsuhiko, who understood what she really meant, was silent for a few seconds.The question of when to return to Yokohama is not in his consideration, because in his opinion, there is no problem even if he settles in Aomori.

Although in Shibusawa Tatsuhiko's previous life, he never had a settled place, he has been a "collector" who has been wandering around the world, always looking for collections that can interest him.

This is the first time he stopped for something.For the first time, he stopped his steps for someone.

Shibusawa Ryuhiko realized very clearly that he was making changes for Yuan Xuan.

He heard himself say, "We'll go home after your birthday."