my sick white moonlight

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Yuyun's winter is coming, and autumn is out of sight. The hooded sweater has just been taken off, and the down jacket is followed. When eating with Wang Xiazi, he often sighs that the weather is getting worse and worse.

Time passed quickly, but the matter of Zhang Youming and Shi Zhiqing worshiping heaven and earth still didn't catch up with the schedule. During this period, many things happened, which happened to Shi Yang.

After Shi Yang met Xiao Wang from the information department, a few months later, the two began to talk about marriage, and they both talked about the same thing. A few days ago, Shi Yang was not in a good mental state. She was anxious before marriage, and she didn't take it to heart. At most, she just said a few words of comfort.

But now that she was about to get engaged and was about to hold a wedding during the Spring Festival, Shi Yang put her mind on another matter and appealed to a middle-aged man who lived next door to her before. To the man's obscenity.

After so many years, it has been difficult to obtain evidence to a large extent, and Shi Yang's recollection of the scene at that time is basically intermittent, and he can't tell the specifics. For example, where did he touch it?Shi Yang's face was full of bewilderment, his mind was blank, as if the clip had been edited, and he couldn't recall it.

Her pain does not seem to be faking, and this secret has been hidden in her heart for so many years, and it only broke out now, and there are traces to follow.

It was mainly because of conceptual problems. She had a knot in her heart and felt that she could not marry Xiao Wang. After she told Xiao Wang about this, she lost contact for a while.

After Xiao Wang understood what had happened, he told Shi Yang that it was all in the past, don't take it to heart, he didn't care.

The problem is that what Shi Yang cares about is not whether Xiao Wang minds, but because she minds. If this matter is not dealt with, it will slowly overwhelm Shi Yang.

Later, Shi Zhiqing talked with Shi Yang again, regarding that matter, Shi Zhiqing did not doubt the authenticity of Shi Yang's statement, but Shi Yang's inability to tell it was indeed a problem, after all, everything pays attention to evidence.

But Shi Zhiqing asked why Shi Yang had only started to act now, and why he had only now started to pay attention to this matter.

The answer Shi Yang gave was that she used to think that no one wanted her anyway, and after being with Hu Sheng before, everyone called her Xiaosan, so she acquiesced, thinking that she might be such a bad woman, and it didn't matter.

It's different now, now she is going to be Xiao Wang's wife.

The concept instilled in her since she was a child made her feel unworthy.

Shi Zhiqing talked to Shi Yang for a long time that night, and the criteria for matching and not matching have never been these.

But Shi Zhiqing can also understand Shi Yang's thoughts, if everyone thinks so clearly, there won't be so many mentally ill patients in this world.

When Shi Zhiqing went home at night, he mentioned this to Zhang Youming. In fact, he also had concerns. He was afraid that Zhang Youming, like everyone else, could not remember the specific scene when he said Shi Yang, so why would he still accuse him of molestation?

However, Zhang Youming did not show any surprise after listening to it. He said softly, "It's normal. You should know Freud, right? Because she suffered from obsessive-compulsive disorder after being sexually harassed, she couldn't remember where the man touched her at that time. During the process of looking for Freud for treatment, Freud asked her where the summer villa was, and she said something , Shan’s waist. The man touched her waist. How about you contact Dr. Xia’an? Maybe it will help.”

Shi Zhiqing shook her head, and said: "I mentioned to her that she doesn't want to dissect herself in front of others. If you want to think that she has been able to hide this matter for so many years, and only now realizes it, besides..."

"Even if it's true, after so many years, there's no way to give her a solution, right?" Zhang Youming said.

Shi Zhiqing let out a long sigh and nodded.

"Why don't I talk to her when?" Zhang Youming said.

Although he does not do counseling professionally, he also read many books on psychoanalysis many years ago, and chatted with Shi Yang as a friend. If you are troubled, you may be able to help Shi Yang.

"It's not impossible, you can contact her on WeChat yourself." Shi Zhiqing said.

Immediately, Zhang Youming opened WeChat and sent a message to Shi Yang, asking how her wedding preparations were going.

After the message was sent, Shi Zhiqing also kept staring at Zhang Youming's phone, for fear of missing the message, but Shi Yang didn't reply when she was sleeping.

It seems that no one wants to talk about it.

In those few days, Shi Zhiqing couldn't eat well, and couldn't sleep well. Later, Zhang Youming came up with a way, saying that he would send the black girl to Shi Yang to raise her for a while, and have pets to accompany her, so he said no. Sure enough, he will open up to the black girl.

"The black girl is not clingy." Shi Zhiqing glanced at the black girl curled up in Zhang Youming's arms, with a look of disgust.

Black girls love Zhang Youming.

"Then I have my own way, the black girl will listen to me." Zhang Youmingpo was a little proud.

"Then I'll find time to ask Shi Yang, hey, I'm really afraid that she won't think about it." Shi Zhiqing said.

"Just do your best. Speaking of which, we are also thanks to her."

"If she hadn't encouraged me, I wouldn't have taken the initiative to contact you." Shi Zhiqing recalled how Shi Yang said he liked the lame man across the street when he was just discharged from the hospital.

"She just wanted to see me laugh at me from the beginning." Zhang Youming said.

"That's what it should be." Shi Zhiqing said sullenly.

Zhang Youming didn't make fun of Shi Zhiqing, knowing that he was really uncomfortable.

It was a cloudy and rainy day when the black girl was sent to Shi Yang. Shi Yang's nail salon was closed. Speaking of which, it must have been closed for a while, and she was in a very bad condition.

The black girl huddled in Zhang Youming's arms and rubbed back and forth, knowing what was going to happen next, it also felt uneasy.

When they got there, Shi Yang got up from the bed, with heavy dark circles under her eyes, and looked sick. Seeing Shi Zhiqing and Zhang Youming, she just nodded to herself without saying a word, He turned around and entered the room again, nestling on the sofa.

"Did Xiao Wang not come over today?" Shi Zhiqing asked.

Shi Yang hugged the pillow and shook her head. She stared at the black girl, as if she wanted to hug her.

"Have you eaten yet?" Shi Zhiqing asked again.

Shi Yang shook her head again without saying a word, but this time she looked at Zhang Youming.

"What do you want to eat? I'll get you something. Hey, your kitchen has been useless for 800 years, right?" Shi Zhiqing went into the kitchen and looked around, then came out again.

Seeing that Shi Yang didn't answer her question, Shi Zhiqing asked again: "You won't be in bed all day today, will you?"

"You are so annoying." Shi Yang called out suddenly, his voice was very harsh, but it was not that kind of powerful call.

Shi Zhiqing didn't react all of a sudden, he was stunned, the plastic bag in his hand fell to the ground, and the vegetables had just been put in the refrigerator, he was frightened.

And tears are already rolling in the eyes.

He didn't know Shi Yang would be like this.

I have never seen such a side of Shi Yang.