my sick white moonlight

Chapter 90 Sorry?

=======================

Shi Zhiqing was in a trance for a while, there are many unreal places in this world.

He wondered whether it was his mental problem or Zhang Youming's mental problem, but how did Zhang Youming know exactly what happened in the dream?

Is it true that, as he said, it is a special function of non-human beings?absurd.

Shi Zhiqing felt that his mind was about to explode when his ideas were so impacted.

He wants to escape, to return to normal, to be an ordinary person.

"I know it's hard to accept." Zhang Youming also sat up, and after putting on his pants, he continued: "But if we are together, I must let you know and accept this fact."

Shi Zhiqing shook her head, he said: "I don't believe it."

"I can prove it to you. You just need to believe in one thing." When Zhang Youming said this, he suddenly looked out the window, not knowing when it was raining from the east. "I love you."

This was the first time Zhang Youming admitted his feelings so frankly in front of Shi Zhiqing.

But at this time, Shi Zhiqing can't understand the most, people are not normal, how can love be normal?

Dreams are illusory and can be fabricated at will, so what about love?

Shi Zhiqing hated herself for forgetting the past. If she didn't forget, she would be like Shi Yang and Guo Li in losing her affection for Zhang Youming.

"So your body hurts, not because of hysteria at all?"

"No, it's because I had a relationship with you. It's like a contract. I can't leave you. This is a punishment for breaking the precept." Zhang Youming said.

"After I went to your shop that night, you entered my dream and had sex with me?" Shi Zhiqing asked again.

Zhang Youming nodded and said, "To be precise, it started when Shi Niang asked someone for my address and you came to find me."

"Two years ago?" Shi Zhiqing asked.

"Yes."

"Is everything planned by you?"

"Yes."

"My mother asked you for the address and you arranged it on purpose?"

"Yes."

"Then why did you leave without a word back then? Let no one find you, did you know that I liked you back then?"

Zhang Youming suddenly raised his head, looked at Shi Zhiqing, then shook his head in a panic.

At that time, I couldn't be sure at all. If I could be sure, I might not have done those stupid things back then.

"I didn't know you liked me. I didn't go to another city, I was... I jumped into the sea."

"Jump into the sea?" Shi Zhiqing frowned, and sat back beside Zhang Youming, he could feel Zhang Youming trembling.

He seemed to remember something.

Shi Zhiqing held his hand, her fingertips were cold.

"And then?" Shi Zhiqing asked, now he was a little calmer.

"Floating in the sea for two days or three days, I can't remember, it was very cold." Zhang Youming hugged Shi Zhiqing, leaned his head on his shoulder, and said softly: "Then I met Blind Wang, He rescued me and took me as a disciple."

"Blind Wang? It's the old man next door to you."

"En." Zhang Youming hugged Shi Zhiqing a little tighter, wanting to absorb some nourishment from him, the warm touch is what he needs most now.

Shi Zhiqing suddenly realized something at this moment. According to what Shi Yang said before, Zhang Youming dumped him, but now it seems that Zhang Youming is completely inseparable from her, so her targeted amnesia is also Zhang Youming's Do it on purpose.

Wanting to forget him, the two broke off contact.

"I forgot you, didn't it happen by chance?" Shi Zhiqing asked.

Zhang Youming shook his head and said, "It was an accident. Blind Wang and I didn't know about it. Duanmei Zhang made his own decision. You've seen him before."

"Then you just use your tricks and make me forget you? If Shi Yang didn't want to embarrass you, you wouldn't have come to me, right? You'd rather suffer yourself than come to me, right?" Shi Zhiqing said.

He thought to himself, Zhang Youming was really cruel to him.

Zhang Youming didn't answer, he really thought that way before.

He should never have disturbed Shi Zhiqing's life.

"So you don't like me that much either." Shi Zhiqing said this on purpose.

Zhang Youming hugged Shi Zhiqing tightly again, no, no, he always thought that the best way to love Shi Zhiqing was to let him live a normal life.

I like it so much that I want to make up my mind to distance myself.

I like it so much that I feel unworthy.

Otherwise, why would he use cheap tricks time and time again to make Shi Zhiqing unable to fall in love with others.

Contradictory, really contradictory, while wanting to let go, but at the same time can't see him with others.

Torture yourself, Zhang Youming knows that torturing yourself is the most effective, Shi Zhiqing will feel distressed when he sees it, distress is more important than liking, and distress will make him even more reluctant to leave him.

He made it right, and ate Shi Zhiqing to death.

"You just don't feel it." Zhang Youming said.

There are so many things that Shi Zhiqing doesn't know, such as his second life, Zhang Youming's pathetic but useful self-esteem, and the black girl.

"Then you should think about it, why didn't you let me feel it?" Shi Zhiqing said.

In fact, it's not that Shi Zhiqing didn't feel it at all, just an hour ago, the forbidden joy, the brutal and powerful collision, the heavy breathing, and the red marks on her body were all proofs of love.

It's just that these loves may be caused by hormones, Shi Zhiqing thought, some real love is needed.

"It will make you feel it. Hey, when will I have a vacation? I want to visit Shijiawan." Zhang Youming asked.

He hasn't been back to see it for many years.

"I should have time this Saturday, why do you suddenly want to go back and have a look?"

"Find some memories." Zhang Youming said.

"Can I still remember those things from before?" Shi Zhiqing asked.

Shi Zhiqing felt very sorry for those blank lives without Zhang Youming. No matter how he guessed it now, it felt unreal.

He is the kind of person who looks back frequently.

"Not necessarily." Zhang Youming also asked Duanmeizhang before, whether Shi Zhiqing's memory could be recovered, Duanmeizhang laughed, saying it depends on fate, it is basically impossible.

In the past month, Zhang Youming turned down all the fortune-telling, and has been looking for a way to restore Shi Zhiqing's memory, but to no avail.

He also specifically contacted Luoxing, Luoxing told him that it was basically impossible, and Zhang Youming's idea was completely broken.

"Do you feel regretful?" Zhang Youming asked.

Shi Zhiqing nodded, and said, "Can I see Duan Meizhang again? Maybe he has something to do."

Zhang Youming hesitated for a moment, and said, "I've already asked him, but I can meet him, and I'll have dinner with Blind Wang by the way."

"Blind Wang has a bad temper, doesn't he?" Shi Zhiqing said.

"He's not bad at heart."

Shi Zhiqing nodded, why did he feel like seeing his in-laws, although he must have dealt with Blind Wang before.

Tap the screen to use advanced tools Tip: You can use left and right keyboard keys to browse between chapters.

You'll Also Like