my sick white moonlight

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It was only after six o'clock when he received Xifeng's call, and Shi Zhiqing had just woken up. It might be because of the wonderful blood relationship, he panicked for a while, and an ominous premonition instantly arose in his heart.

Shi Zhenzhu fell from the building.

After hearing the news, Shi Zhiqing was stunned on the bed for a minute or two before realizing it, pushed Zhang Youming to wake up, and said that he had to go to the hospital immediately.

After waking up, Zhang Youming didn't show much surprise, this seemed to be something he expected.

But he still got dressed and took a taxi with Shi Zhiqing to the hospital.

The place where Shizhuzhu fell was already surrounded by a cordon.

The yellow warning line hurt Shi Zhiqing's eyes, it all happened so suddenly, but it seemed reasonable.

He had long expected that Yi Shizhu's mental state would not last long, but when that day really came, everything seemed so pale and powerless.

Shi Zhiqing looked at the hospital's surveillance system, and Shi Zhenzhu quietly left the ward after the nurse finished her rounds.

It may be because she hasn't walked for a long time, her whole frail body is swaying, as if she will fall to the ground at any time, but she looks so strong, moving forward step by step while supporting the wall.

On the mobile phone in the ward, Shi Zhenzhu wrote a long paragraph in the memo.

Dear Zhiqing, I seldom call you like this, you are my most precious child and the only spiritual pillar for a long time in my life.

Making such a choice now is the result of my deliberation. I'm sure you will be very sad, but I'm sorry, I really don't have the courage to live in this world.

Strictly speaking, I am not a good mother. In your life, apart from material things, I have really failed to give you anything in the spiritual world, let alone you have an irresponsible father.

Speaking of Shi Shaofeng, all the mistakes in my life started because of him. I shouldn't marry him, and I shouldn't indulge in an unattainable relationship.

I should have given up on him when he gave up on me a long time ago, but I was stubborn and went further and further down this road.

If Zhang Youming happens to be by your side when you read this letter tomorrow, I hope you can say sorry for him on my behalf.

His leg was disabled because of me. Although I'm not sure, all the subsequent choices in his life are basically related to that car accident.

I want to make up for him, but material things are far from being able to make up for the mistakes I made. I know it won't help to say these things now, but I still hope that Zhang Youming can look at your face and give me a chance.

He was right, for a person like me to live in this world, it is absolutely necessary to commit crimes.

In fact, I have had too many regrets in my life, but what I am most concerned about now is your marriage Zhiqing.

Marriage has not brought me many benefits. Apart from you, I really hope that you can have a complete life, but I will never have the chance to see your wife again.

By the way, there is also Shi Yang. In the first few decades of my life, I thought that I would never forgive Shi Yang's mother in my life. Later, I figured it out. All of this was not her fault at all. Shi Shaofeng's indecision is.

Shi Yang is a good girl and also your good sister. I hope you can take care of her as much as possible in the days to come.

It is very remarkable to have a family member who can support each other in life, even if it is just for talking.

By the way, there is also Xifeng, if you can help in the future, please help as much as you can. She is a kind person and a good friend, but I am sorry for his confidant, and cannot always be with her by my side.

The inscription at the end of this paragraph is about loving your mother. After Shi Zhiqing read it, he didn't immediately experience great grief. His attention was completely focused on why Zhang Youming said such things.

And Zhang Youming, who was standing by the side, seemed to be mentally prepared to accept Shi Zhiqing's cross-examination.

At this moment, Shi Zhiqing suddenly understood why Zhang Youming took the initiative last night, and what he said about falling in love before seemed to be paving the way for everything now.

"What did you tell my mother yesterday?" Shi Zhiqing's voice was trembling.

He hoped that Zhang Youming could make some unnecessary sophistry, even if it was just hypocritical politeness, as long as a little bit was fine.

He was even expecting that Zhang Youming could give a reasonable reason that would allow him to accept and relieve him.

But Zhang Youming just looked at him blankly, and said coldly: "Do you know how my parents died? Because of that car, Shi Zhenzhu knew that there was a problem with that car, she didn't stop them from riding, her The heart is really cruel enough, even your father will not let it go."

"When did you know these things? Why didn't you discuss it with me?" Shi Zhiqing asked.

"I asked you a long time ago, and you told me that as long as there is no problem with Shi Zhenzhu in the law, you will not blame her. But you forgot that he had the opportunity to prevent all these tragedies from happening. She did it for her own selfish desire She killed my parents, your father, and Shi Yang and her mother. The only thing she is worthy of is you. You are a vested interest. Of course you don’t have any ideas, but look at others, Look at me, look at Shi Yang, what kind of life are we living now?"

"You are a flower in a greenhouse. You have not experienced some experiences at the bottom of society, and you have not had those ups and downs in life. You said that the biggest trouble in your life is that you are not happy in love. But compared with others, it is nothing ? Don’t you always have a question in your heart? Do I love you or not? Now I can tell you exactly, never, never.”

"Even the deliberate contact before, I just wanted to use you, I wanted you to help me deal with things, make my life a little smoother, I wanted to use your feelings to find some sense of existence, I wanted my poor self-esteem to find some Destination, find a shelter. I still want to drag you into the water, give you hope and disappoint you, and it is best to make you suffer for the rest of your life."

"Now my goal has been achieved, and the truth of the matter has surfaced. I don't need to make unnecessary cover-ups anymore. Yes, this is my true face. It's ridiculous, you miss the person you have liked for so long, in fact, a little It's not worth it. You know how it feels to go downhill in life? That's it, betrayal, loss. Of course you don't have everything. You still have your glamorous career and resume that you can boast about, but you It will be difficult to meet the person you love again, you know?"

Shi Zhiqing couldn't remember what Zhang Youming said later, he could only feel that his world was collapsing bit by bit, like the end of the world.

The devastated heart is a piece of ruins. In the past 30 years of life, I have been under the spotlight, and I have slowly withdrawn from the stage.