my sick white moonlight

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"Don't you like it very much?" Zhang Youming turned sideways, put his chest close to Shi Zhiqing, and then whispered in Shi Zhiqing's ear.

In this situation, there is no self-control at all.

Shi Zhiqing clenched his hands tightly, and he closed his eyes, this shameful and stimulating feeling made him sink.

"Chen Yan can bring male friends home to sleep, why can't you? Right." Zhang Youming continued. "Like is mutual, and betrayal should be together, right? No, you actually don't like each other that much. Like is possession. It is the only love that cannot be shared."

Shi Zhiqing's mind is in a mess, he has completely lost the ability to think now, Zhang Youming's hands seem to be very experienced.

At this moment, Shi Zhiqing felt like crying, he couldn't tell if this was reality or a dream.

"Don't cry, be good, enjoy yourself."

The next morning when Shi Zhiqing woke up, Zhang Youming had already gone out. Shi Zhiqing stared at the printed sheets in a daze. What happened last night was real. Zhang Youming surrounded him last night, and the two were so far apart. close.

Shi Zhiqing thought to herself, it's over, it's over, it's over.

What should I do now?What was Zhang Youming thinking in his heart?What happened last night was already an absolute act of intimacy, and Zhang Youming crossed the line first.

Around noon, Zhang Youming came back and saw Shi Zhiqing taking a lunch break, he didn't say much, just like usual, obviously he didn't take what happened last night seriously.

On the contrary, Shi Zhiqing didn't hold back his words, he asked: "Why did you do that last night?"

"How was last night?" Zhang Youming was zipping his jacket, he turned around and looked at Shi Zhiqing.

Playing stupid again.

Seeing Zhang Youming's reaction, Shi Zhiqing felt that he was thinking too much, but he really couldn't handle it.

Could it be that Zhang Youming can act so intimately towards someone he doesn't like?

I love you or I like you have never been heard from Zhang Youming.

Sometimes Shi Zhiqing even wonders if Zhang Youming is sick, doesn't he have these emotional needs?

"Why are you crying later?" Zhang Youming asked.

I thought this topic would not continue, but Zhang Youming took the initiative to bring it up again.

Shi Zhiqing stared at him, quite aggrieved.

Crying is hard to say. Some people cry when they are sad, some people cry when they are happy, some people cry when they are moved, and there are many other kinds.

Last night Shi Zhiqing thought he was just too excited.

Can't control it at all.

"When are you going back?" Shi Zhiqing changed the subject, he didn't want to answer Zhang Youming's question.

Zhang Youming pulled the zipper up to the neckline, walked to Shi Zhiqing's side, and said, "It should be ready tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. Do you want me to sleep here tonight?"

"never mind."

Shi Zhiqing enjoyed the feeling last night very much, and it was also the skin-to-skin contact that he had been looking forward to for so many years, although he did not reach the final step.

But you can't lower your moral standards just for the sake of lust. He and Chen Yan are both dating, so they either break up or keep a distance from Zhang Youming.

"What? What are you worried about?" Zhang Youming asked.

"You don't have a partner. I do. We can't do this. You are using me, Zhang Youming. You are using my previous feelings to do despicable things."

Zhang Youming laughed, grabbed Shi Zhiqing's collar, and said in a low voice, "You like it very much, don't you?"

"If you like it, you have to do it." After Shi Zhiqing finished speaking, she realized that she didn't have the initiative, and Zhang Youming kept talking about Shi Zhiqing's likes. "What about you? Don't you like it?"

Asked by Shi Zhiqing, Zhang Youming was speechless. If he said he liked it, Shi Zhiqing would say that he was in a relationship. If he said he didn't like it, then he couldn't explain his behavior.

Zhang Youming didn't intend to answer.

There is always a gap between words and the intention to express, as long as there is action, take one step at a time.

"What are you afraid of?" Shi Zhiqing asked.

"Don't you think it would be ridiculous if we were together?" Zhang Youming turned back again, and he continued: "Your mother will go crazy when she finds out."

"Just don't let her know it's okay." Shi Zhiqing said.

Shi Zhiqing thought things too simply, if it was handled so easily, there wouldn't be so many idiots complaining about women in the world.

"And then? It's not sneaky, it's no different from now."

"No, Zhang Youming, you haven't figured out the point. The point is whether you really like me or do you just like me on a whim. You have to give me an accurate answer before I dare to play with you. Otherwise, I will lose everything. You just throw it away." The sleeves disappeared again, what should I do?" Shi Zhiqing felt that she liked it a little too humblely.

But people are really weird sometimes, and they always want to get some definite answers, just like taking reassurance.

In fact, it has no effect. People's feelings are the most uncontrollable.

"You win or lose when playing games, don't care about winning or losing, just enjoy the process, it's the same between us, there doesn't have to be a result. I won't tell you, I'm going to be busy, you rest, you have to go to work in the afternoon." Zhang You After Ming finished speaking, he left quickly.

Shi Zhiqing didn't have much energy to go to work that afternoon. The staff in the health center thought he had a cold and asked him to go back to rest early. Fortunately, there was no one around that afternoon. It was close to five o'clock, so Shi Zhiqing went to the cafeteria to get some lunch box.

He is really in a mess now, he doesn't know how things have developed to this point, he and Chen Yan are dating, and he wants to get out of Zhang Youming's control, but falls into another curse.

This is worse than before.

He could accept Zhang Youming's indifference to him before, at least he was open and frank.

Now Zhang Youming's attitude towards him has changed, and after Zhang Youming knows that he likes him, he will always show a strong desire to possess him.

It's okay just to be possessive, but the key is that Zhang Youming doesn't want a stable relationship.

This is like rock climbing. When you are about to reach the end, the safety equipment suddenly fails, and you are hung in mid-air, in a dilemma.

When it comes to dealing with feelings, Shi Zhiqing despises herself.

At around eight o'clock in the evening, Shi Zhiqing wanted to go out for a walk alone, but just as she arrived at the gate of the clinic, she bumped into Zhang Youming who was coming back.

"Why go?" Zhang Youming asked.

"Go for a walk." Shi Zhiqing didn't even look him in the eye.

He felt that if this continued, his cumulative liking for Zhang Youming would be exhausted sooner or later.

"Don't go out, the street lights are not on tonight." Zhang Youming took Shi Zhiqing's arm.

"It's on the side of the road. I'll be back after smoking two cigarettes."

Shi Zhiqing didn't listen to persuasion, and went out with a cold face.

Zhang Youming looked at Shi Zhiqing's back, and if possible, he also wanted to hug Shi Zhiqing from behind to calm his restless heart.

You can't do that, once you clearly express your liking for Shi Zhiqing, it will be of no benefit to anyone, Zhang Youming knows this very well.

Shi Zhiqing only smoked a couple of cigarettes outside, then hurried back, the dogs from several nearby houses were barking, which made him flustered.

When Shi Zhiqing got up the next morning, she heard people from the health center say that there was a girl who drank pesticide last night and it rained last night. When she found her in the ditch this morning, she looked horrible.

At noon, Shi Zhiqing wanted to tell Zhang Youming about this, but Zhang Youming didn't come back. He thought Zhang Youming was at Ah Guang's house, so he didn't think much about it. At three or four o'clock in the afternoon, Ah Guang went to the sanitary Therefore, it is said that Zhang Youming and the old Taoist priest had a quarrel.