don't like me

I haven't had a fever for a long time.

Therefore, there is no indestructible body, only death is not cruel enough, why did I talk to him in the rain yesterday, I deserve to be in the hospital today.

Wen Zhixu was beside my bed, she was the only one in the ward.She still didn't dare to look at me so much. Seeing that I was awake, she drooped her head, as if I had bullied her.

"Brother..." She wrung her hands, letting go of her small appearance before, but after this incident, I learned that people can't be judged by appearances, this girl has grown up long ago, and she can play tricks.

"Go away." I said ruthlessly, magnanimous?It's not for this sister who is in trouble with others.

I always thought that she just had a crush on Yang Xiao, but now I have completely changed my three views. She can plot against her own brother with Yang Xiao, and she can do such a thing.

"I'm sorry..." Wen Zhixu said aggrievedly.

Wen Zhixu really shouldn't talk now, I hate her so much now, really, she hit the gun.

"I told you I won't let you talk anymore, can you pretend to be dumb for so long?!" Wen Zhixu was startled by my yelling, she took a step back, she probably didn't expect that I would be so big temper.

She stood there looking like she was about to cry.

"Come to me if you have something to do, don't rush to her." A male voice came from the door, Yang Xiao was already standing there, and walked in, he reached out and touched Wen Zhixu's head as a comfort, "Go out and wait for brother. "

Wen Zhixu glanced at me.

Yang Xiao pushed her, and Wen Zhixu left obediently, with a grievance still on his back.

"Attacking you? You are indeed very capable." The words from yesterday still echoed in my ears, and I have a lot of opinions on him now.

Yang Xiao said, "She's doing it for your own good."

I said strangely, "Oh, I didn't see it."

Yang Xiao took the cup and poured water, his movements were nimble, and he didn't argue with me.

He handed me the water, but I didn't take it. Although I was thirsty now, I didn't want to give him a good face. He didn't force me, put the water glass aside, and sat by my bed.

"I thought we were done talking," he said with dignity.

"What do you think?" I snorted coldly: "I let you die, why don't you go? It's almost enough if you die." Damn it.

Yang Xiao looked at me and said, "Brother Xing, I want to take care of you."

I said viciously: "Your parents who are not dead are not enough for you to take care of?"

Yang Xiao looked at me. In the past, he must have satirized me and made me speechless, but not this time. He pampered me, which made me feel boring.

I lifted the quilt to get out of bed, and he grabbed me.

"What for?" he asked.

"I want to do whatever I want." Shaking off his hand, I pulled out the needle, threw it aside, picked up the clothes and was about to leave, but when I looked down, I found that I was wearing a hospital gown. , as if someone who knew that I couldn't leave, Yang Xiao confessed: "I changed it for you."

"Your mother." I must leave today, and I will kill anyone who dares to stop me.

In the end, someone really dared to do so. As soon as I stepped out of the room, I bumped my head against the fleshy wall. That person was a doctor passing by. I bumped him back a few steps, looked at me, and reminded me kindly: "Be careful."

"Why don't you pay attention!" I responded viciously to other people's kindness. The doctor was very embarrassed, and he also had a temper. He pointed at me and was about to say something, but was interrupted by Yang Xiao who came out from behind. Sorry.

He caught up with me, followed me like a ghost, and I didn't know where my car was. I turned around and asked in a bad temper, "Where's my car?!"

Yang Xiao glanced at the parking lot and said, "I have a car."

I said impatiently, "I'll say mine."

Yang Xiao pretended to be deaf and dumb: "Where are you going, I will take you."

If I was fine, I would definitely have to fight him, but no, I have something to do, it’s annoying, I stopped the car on the side of the road, but found that I didn’t have my mobile phone with me, I came out in a hurry, and landed in the hospital, I cursed and fucked .

Yang Xiao followed and handed me something, it was my mobile phone, it was just in time.

I look at him.

He said: "I know what you are going to do. I have arranged your mother's affairs. If you want to go and see her..."

"You buried her?" My tone was wrong.

"Otherwise?" Yang Xiao was grandiose, he was never afraid of me, and stood firmer than anyone else when he was justified.

"Who asked you to bury her?" I took a step towards him, and the aggressive posture came up again.

Yang Xiao said: "Don't bury her and let her rot? Does the hospital agree?"

"I don't fucking agree!" I grabbed his collar, "Who asked you to bury her? Why are you so cheap! How can I torture her when you bury her?! What do you want me to do! I still have She didn't finish speaking, how could she hear her from such a distance! I haven't seen her for the last time, so you will pay me for this loss!"

The rain hadn't stopped, and it was falling, and I argued with him in the rain, and it started again, this time because of his stupidity.

Yang Xiao stared at me for a long time, watching silently.

My brain exploded, the buzzing and roaring sound was louder than a low-flying airplane.

He hugged me, I don't want to be restrained, I just want to kill him now, but his unshakable copper wall and iron wall locked me so hard that I couldn't struggle. I just recovered, and my limp fist hit him, even myself I think it's useless to be hypocritical.

A flash of lightning in the distance illuminated my pale face clearly. After a long time, I stopped struggling. Yang Xiao hugged me and whispered in my ear: "You will not be alone, I will always be by your side, be your forever Someone you can trust."

I didn't want to talk to him, the phrase "I don't need" stuck in my throat, I was too lazy to speak, I just closed my eyes and let him hug me.

Half an hour later, he took me to the cemetery where my mother was buried.

My mood stabilized, Yang Xiao held an umbrella, and the two of us kept silent in front of the tombstone.

There is no picture of my mother on the tombstone, only her name. I suddenly remembered that I don’t have a picture of her, but I don’t need it that much. I will always remember her appearance. She and my dad are two unforgettable people. The old ghost who can't fall.

"Can you go away?" The rain hit the tombstone, and my voice was light.

Yang Xiao gave me the umbrella, without saying a word, and walked to the parking place not far away.

Watch me there.

I know he will keep watching, and I won't do stupid things. It's not worth it for them. I just want to talk to her alone. I hold the umbrella in my hand. I'm tired after a long time. I put the umbrella in front of the grave. , The flowers are still fresh, and Yang Xiao sent Tong Jin, I don't know, but I suddenly feel that this will save me a lot of trouble.

I knelt down on one knee, didn't stand up, touched the flowers that were wet by the rain, and said: "It's really you."

I'm mocking the dead man.

Whether she can still hear it or not, are you really afraid that I will torture her for the rest of my life by leaving so suddenly?old devil.

"It's too sudden. There will be no funeral. I planned to let you tell me in advance and I will prepare it for you." After I finished speaking, I didn't feel relieved, sighed, and exposed my bad thoughts: "Well, I didn't think about it." I don’t think you are worthy of preparing these things for you, it’s good enough to have a piece of land after you die, and the corpse-exposing wilderness is your correct destination.”

Who told someone to pity you, who asked someone to bury you without my consent, who asked him to treat you so politely and disrupt all my plans, even if it was a dead person, I would have a way to humiliate her, but someone always came out to disrupt I.

"Your daughter hasn't come, so don't count on it, and don't pester her in the future. I guess you have no face, right? Go through your hell, the eighteenth floor is enough for you to hurt." I said: "As promised After breaking through, hurry up and reincarnate, while I am still alive, to prevent me from dying before you break out, and then I will choose you again, then I will have to kill you in the next life."

The tombstone is cold, and her name is engraved smartly and forcefully. Such a big person is finally put into a small box, and then closed or buried in the ground, her life is over.

"It's so annoying, can you wait until I'm free before you die? It's always messing me up." I had so many opinions on this woman, and it was difficult to start from where to start. I stood up, "I won't come to see you tomorrow, the day after tomorrow I don’t come, and I don’t have time the day after tomorrow..."

I walked out, and after a few steps, I whispered another sentence, with a slightly trembling tone: "It's... I'm going to punish you."

Both worlds punish you together.

I got in the car, Yang Xiao didn't ask me anything, just sent me home, I didn't say a word in the car, I closed my eyes to feel the gloomy weather outside, it was weird, it was weird these two days.

When I got home, I entered the room and slammed the door. Wen Zhixu and Yang Xiao were blocked by me. I locked the door and fell on the soft bed.

Gu Ming called me, I hung up, but he continued to call, I answered, and said hello, without giving him a chance to talk.

There was a light movement outside, of two people, and then disappeared.I fell on the bed, not sleepy, just tired, listening to the sound of raindrops on the window, thinking of the two people waiting for me outside, this feeling is really novel, I did not feel the great sorrow of losing a loved one, but Something cyclical was at work.

The two are intertwined and tied, until the last tense nerves in the mind are gradually relaxed——

Two people were sitting on the sofa outside, the light in the living room was weak, it was not the light from the chandelier hanging from the ceiling, but the light from the mobile phone, folded on the ceiling.

"Why didn't you answer my brother's phone?" Wen Zhixu asked softly, and that was an important answer after all.

Yang Xiao thought about it for a while, and a picture clearly appeared in his mind, but when it came to his lips, he said, "I forgot."

Wen Zhixu crossed his arms: "At that time, he was shaking all the time."

Yang Xiao touched her head, raised his head, and did not let Wen Zhixu see his face, but the hands that were caressing the girl's head became confused.

"You should give brother a reason, the kind that will make him feel better after hearing it."

"No," Yang Xiao whispered, "He doesn't need to know the reason." Yang Xiao's gaze was clear and firm, and in Wen Zhixu's vision, she didn't think he had really forgotten the answer.

Yang Xiao stopped and retracted his hand. He bent over and sat up, touched the necklace on his chest, and the coolness against his skin made his mind clear.

"No reason should be an excuse to explain this matter."

My hands let go.

Slip off the doorknob.

Turning around, facing the window, looking up at the thunderstorm.

This rainy night, she was here, and he was also there.

I'm not honored or relieved.

This slightly warm atmosphere made me yearn for home suddenly.

I have been tossing with him for so long, but I can't convince him, and I can't convince myself to accept it. I have never felt so powerless.

Leaning against the door, I was thinking, have I failed too much in my life?Do I need a new relationship?Should I try to be with someone else, someone I don't reject?Give him a reason to quit and give yourself a chance to start over?

Am I... It's time to get married.

Stop making trouble, Wen Zhixing, at the age of 30, it's time to start a family.

The author has something to say:

The following will be an extremely childish love-chasing bridge.

Extreme, for, childish, immature.