don't like me

When I came out, I happened to run into Gu Ming.

It can't be said to be a coincidence, his position is too conspicuous.Drinking alone, with no one to accompany him, I don't feel sorry for him, the sights of wolf-like courtship didn't stare at him, he chose to turn a blind eye, as long as he raises his hand and smiles at someone, There were plenty of people kneeling at his lap, waiting to please him.

I walked down the stairs, walked towards the lonely figure step by step, and said mercilessly, "Have you messed with everyone here? You look like no one can attract you."

Gu Ming raised his eyes. He is indeed a man whose desk is full of love letters since elementary school. Even the teacher pays special attention to him. No girl can avoid looking at his face when talking to Gu Ming.

Gu Ming's facial features can't be described by relying solely on his superb craftsmanship. He seems to be a handicraft made by craftsmen, but he always feels dissatisfied. It's quite warped, I thought about it carefully, and finally after processing again and again, I made such an exquisite thing.

The craftsman was exhausted, just for a flawless work.

So, he can't raise his head, he can't look at people, and he can't expose his entire face. People say that only a good-looking profile is really good-looking, which means that your facial features are three-dimensional enough, but Gu Ming is not. Absolutely, it is better to seduce people with the face.

Every angle of him has the beauty of every angle, and he never disappoints. No matter what he is doing or where he is taking pictures from, what he leaves behind is a compelling handsome face.

I have met Uncle Gu, Mr. Gu, he has the appearance of a dragon and a phoenix among human beings, and he has a good temperament, but he is by no means a heavenly figure. However, Gu Ming's genes far exceed the maximum level that his parents can give him. I haven't seen what my mother looks like, maybe that's the only reason that can explain it, but unfortunately there isn't even a single photo.

Gu Ming was wearing a string of bracelets, under the light, when he moved his hands, the bracelets would break into silver light, blinding people's eyes.

He is not as lonely as he looks, look, when he smiles, the feeling of loneliness disappears, "Isn't someone who can attract me here?" He refers to me.

sweet mouth.

I sit down.

He asked me about these hours of tossing: "Is it exciting?"

I said bluntly: "Almost mean."

Gu Ming said: "Isn't it good for you to order something for you? I have to choose a little boy." We look at the boys in their early twenties as we look at children. Obviously we are not in their [-]s or [-]s, but we always feel that our life is almost over.

"It's too fierce, if I'm not careful, I'm hanging on the bed, won't it sound bad if it spreads?" I said.

"You are really thoughtful."

"Of course, when you're old, you have to keep your life safe, right?" I just finished, the lingering fragrance on my mouth was still there, I touched my lips, and the little boy's face seemed to be in front of my eyes.

Gu Ming didn't listen to my erotic affairs, he pushed me a glass of wine and said, "I've got something serious to tell you."

I motioned for him to speak anytime.

Gu Ming said: "Since you and Yang Xiao have broken up, how about giving him to Zhou Kai as a favor?"

I paused, not surprised, but felt abrupt, asked me about this abruptly, I turned my head, saw Gu Ming's serious face, and knew that he was not joking, but I found it even more funny, "so... Has something to do with me?"

Gu Ming said: "Is it the person you've had a good time with, and whoever you introduce him to, doesn't it have to be your consent?"

I waved my hands quickly, flattered, "Why do you have such an idea? You have been in love for so many years, and I still don't understand some rules?"

Where do I need to be notified about this kind of thing?Gu Ming's brain is bubbling, who can he care about who his ex is with?

Gu Ming calmly said, "It's not that I don't understand, it's just to take into account your feelings. You know, I never liked you two. Why? Because Yang Xiao's eyes are impure. With his current achievements, how can he Not his followers? Can he resist the courtship of one or two people for you, can he resist for you for a lifetime?"

What Gu Ming said was reasonable, while I was admiring the picture of two men hugging and kissing not far away, and the other person beside him also reached out and touched one of them in the kiss. This little gesture expresses too much information.

Gu Ming sensed my ecstasy, and followed my gaze. There was no one there, and the three of them dispersed. I didn't tell him what I was looking at, and Gu Ming didn't ask.

After regaining consciousness, I looked at Gu Ming, slumped on the sofa weakly, the light behind my raised head was dazzling, I closed my eyes lightly, and said: "Say what you want to say directly, it's not your style to go round and round, mine Master Gu."

It is rare for him to really respect him. This honorific title has never been commended, and it is not good to call it out.

I am now in the middle of a big game, and I still don't know whether the person in front of me is a chess player or just a chess player.

Gu Ming said: "Okay, then I will speak directly."

He got up, came to sit next to me, stretched out his hand, and put his arm behind my head in a very ambiguous gesture, as if appreciating an object, he picked up a strand of my hair and rubbed it with his fingertips , with a bewitching voice: "Let me give Zhou Kai a push, okay?"

Zhou Kai and Yang Xiao, it's impossible.

But if Gu Ming makes a move, that's not necessarily the case.

I have encountered two difficult characters in my life, one is Yang Xiao, and the other is Gu Ming. Gu Ming just doesn't bother to play. He is actually a more dangerous guy than anyone else. Fortunately, I am friends with him. If Gu Ming and I are on the opposite side, I'm already dead.

It's not that I can't play him well, but that Gu Ming's background is too great.

There is nothing impossible for Zhou Kai, if Gu Ming is willing to help, then there is a [-]% certainty.So, what game does he want to play now?What else do you want to play?Which expression do you want to see on me?In other words, what kind of answer did he want to hear?

I didn't give him an answer hastily. To put it bluntly, this person is also my first love. At least I have to struggle with it and be surprised, so that I can be worthy of Gu Shaodi's temptation.

I held Gu Ming's face in my hands, rubbed my palms behind his ears, and leaned into his arms, my lips almost intersected with him. I whispered: "If you want to know if I let him go, you can directly ask me."

It's time for Gu Ming, it's time for him to show a good-looking face.

Yes, I am satisfied with his reaction at the moment.

He was exposed by me, he hooked his lips into a smile, put his palm on the back of my head, and said: "You are so smart, but..."

Gu Ming moved his hands, "In that case, you wouldn't tell me at all, would you?"

Gu Ming touched my lips with the other hand, "It's as if I asked you for a reason to break up with Yang Xiao. I couldn't ask you for ten years, and even Xuxu couldn't give me an answer. I want to get out of your mouth. It's really hard to order something. I don't understand it at all, just like you can still treat your mother so well now, go to see her from time to time, as if you don't care about the past, and you hate her so much in your heart. You mention Looking at your gambling father, he was absent-minded in a joking tone. In fact, the excitement that incident brought to you made you never have a day of real peace. Let's talk about Xuxu..."

"Is there anything else you want to say to your sister who has a lot of problems besides accepting it?" Gu Ming said every word, his eyes were like needles and swords, sharp and hurtful.

He rarely showed such an aggressive look in front of me, and suddenly he became serious, and I was almost unaccustomed to it, "Just tell me, just tell me what you want to hear."

"Every one." Gu Ming said.

I laughed and didn't condone him, "You can't be so greedy. If you can't give it, I'll choose it for you... Well, just choose the one you ask the most."

Gu Ming's reaction was good.

I am very merciful, and I will not play tricks on him today. He has already talked to this point, and I should show some sincerity, "Why did I break up with him? Are you curious? Gu Ming, put yourself in his shoes, if you At a critical juncture, when you need psychological support the most, the only life-saving straw you can grasp is that he didn’t arrive, and he didn’t even answer the phone, and then you suddenly thought that he still hated you, doubted you, and might It's disgusting you, what choice would you make?"

Gu Ming's face was serious, without any seriousness.

It’s the first time I’ve told people about this, I know, they won’t be able to understand it, they won’t be able to empathize with it, they’ll feel that the other person just didn’t see the phone, they just missed it by accident, sorry, it’s not me Something to think about, and in that case, I couldn't forgive him for not arriving.

"Look, you don't know what to do. That's why I don't want to tell you. You think I'm weird? This shouldn't be the reason for breaking up? Maybe he didn't see it because he didn't receive the call?" I shook my head, "I don't care what he's busy with, whether he sees it or not, my hands are stained with the blood of my own father, I have a sister in my arms who has nowhere to go, and I'm about to face the end of my life. At this moment, Yang Xiao There's no reason not to show up, if he really likes me."

My voice trembled and accused, yes, as Gu Ming said, I am a contradictory body, I can understand why he may not have seen it, maybe he is busy with this, etc., but people are at the end of the road Sometimes, an unanswered phone call is enough to kill one's heart.

Gu Ming's hand remained motionless, his pupils reflected my eyes, so red, as if soaked in blood, it was hatred, yes, it was the first time I showed my hatred for Yang Xiao, I once loved him sincerely Loved him, and absolutely hated him now.

Gu Ming's eyes dimmed, "What if...he left later?"

"It's not important anymore," I bite every word hard, "There will not be a few desperate opportunities in a person's life. If you miss it, you will miss it. How can you make it up later? Fragmentation is just a moment. It's an instant, and at that instant, no matter how much you do later, you can't make up for it."

Gu Ming's expression was complicated, and he looked at me with worried eyes.

"I knew it," I smiled into his puzzled eyes, "you are the same way, you can't understand, young master."

It is puzzling to say it out, but when you understand it, you feel that I am hypocritical. Is Gu Ming also thinking that I am making trouble for no reason?Feel innocent for Yang Xiao?That's why I don't want to tell people.

Because they have no experience in killing people, they haven't just killed someone, they have nowhere to go, and there is a person in their arms who will take half of your life and drag you, so that you can't die, so you can only go to prison.The little girl has no father or mother, and there is only one brother who can be relied on. This responsibility makes me unable to even go to the funeral.

I still have to ask the family members to save me, and I want the judge to show mercy and let me go. I will cooperate with my lawyer and say everything that should be said and should not be said. I will smear my father to death and collude with my sister. Together, in fact, my dead father was not that bad, but in order to get rid of the crime, I even put the crime of adultery on him.

The Gu family is very powerful, the lawyer is very professional, and I am very dirty, so I was able to turn a capital crime into a suspended sentence, then a fixed-term sentence, a short-term sentence, and finally get out of prison after only six years.

If I write a book in my life, I don't know how many people will vomit after reading it.

What is the reason, what is family love, why did not receive the call, did not arrive in time, that is beyond the comprehension of a 19-year-old person, there is nowhere to grab the straw, and the only thing left is doubts and accusations against the world.

I got up from his arms, the cuffs were untied, I didn't have time to care about it, my voice was cold, I didn't want to make it like this, it was what Gu Ming wanted to hear, he insisted on hearing this answer, I said it sincerely, I was frank, I Showing his true side, he must be disgusted, right?Without my usual fearless tolerance regardless of past suspicions, he must not be able to adapt.

"I've always wanted to know, I've always wanted to know, how do you feel after listening to it now? Do you still want me as a friend? It's up to you," I turned my head, and I saw Gu Ming's face in my peripheral vision, "I may be sad for a while, we The two have been friends for some years, but things like feelings can't be forced, right?"

I turned around and looked at the breathtaking face on the sofa. It's not bad for him to be serious. I said: "Okay, now it's your turn to pity him. You met such a vexatious person like me."

Gu Ming raised his eyes, but didn't say anything.

"I really don't want to make it like this, I can keep the answer for ten years, you have to be prepared, it will be so disgusting," I said, "So I don't want to say, this makes me empathetic and tolerant The image has completely collapsed."

I spread my hands helplessly: "Yang Xiao is right. Breaking up is my problem. I don't believe in feelings anymore. I care about everything. Whether he didn't see the call or he was busy, even if he arrived later, there is no problem." Use it, what I want is the peace of mind at the moment, the thing that collapsed in that instant, now he can't fix it no matter how much he does, the timing is wrong..."

I also feel that it's a pity that it's just a matter of timing with him.

I'm not that big, I'm not that strong, I'm weak enough that a missed call is enough to break me.I don't want to say it, because no one can understand, they will feel that this is not the reason to break up, but this is, this is the reason why I ended up with him, in normal times, I don't care about it, but that night, it was not normal ah.

I need him more than ever. All my supporting thoughts are to wait for him to appear, to meet him. I didn’t see this last side, and he didn’t show up. This caused the current situation, the consequences of the present, a little Not wronged.

I might guess what he was thinking, and said: "I don't need you to understand me. Not everyone will experience such a thing, and not everyone can regard a phone call as the meaning of life. At that time, I was tired. But I didn't fall down. What supported me was the idea of ​​seeing him. I knew I would not see him this time and I would never have another chance, but he didn't answer the call and didn't arrive. All the strength in my life was exhausted and I collapsed. ...It can be regarded as a real understanding, like something, it is really fragile, I am too afraid that others will mention these two words to me again."

I raised my hand, looked him squarely and said, "Let's go back to the last question, I can answer you directly."

In front of these people, what Gu Ming wanted to know, I told him with absolute sincerity, "I admit, I never let go of Yang Xiao, maybe I still love him, I don't know, I don't know if it's because of love." I still hate too much and contradict myself, but now, I can give you an accurate answer, let alone Zhou Kai, you have nothing to do with me when you are with him. I have to thank him for this I decided that being with him was originally aimed at destroying him. Fortunately, he stopped the loss in time and dumped me. I have to try to accept new people, new feelings, maybe that can wash away a little hatred, and my life will be easier."

Gu Ming still didn't speak, instead I gave the speech alone. Forget it, he may not have recovered from it. He just recognized me. There are too many things he didn't accept for a while.

However, this is also his answer. My reliance on capital is probably about to collapse.

"See you again, my young master." I waved and left here with a suffocating breath.

After a long time, the excitement resumed.

A person sat beside Gu Ming.

He finally reacted, turned his head, and looked over.

"How does it feel?" he asked.

"I don't want to say." The man held the wine glass, didn't drink it, just rubbed it in his hand, pressed it on the table, and played with it intently, his eyes dark.

Gu Ming laughed, his eyes were worried, but also seemed to be playful, it was very complicated, "The situation has changed."

The person next to him said in a deep voice, "The general direction has not changed."

Gu Ming said: "Then now..."

"It's not the time yet." Knowing what he was going to say, the man interrupted him, "Wait a little longer."

He stood up, didn't drink any wine, and the words he talked to Gu Ming were like riddles, the two talked to each other, and the person next to him was at a loss.

Thinking of something, the man turned around and asked, "He just went in, did he do it?"

Gu Ming spread his hands: "I don't know..."

"You better know."

Gu Ming laughed, touched the glass of wine, raised his wrist slightly to the person in front of him, "I really don't know."

After all, he raised his head and gulped it down. The concentration of agave was enough to make his throat feel hot. He couldn't help but sigh, "Forgive me, partner."

Yang Xiao turned around, didn't look at him again, and left tonight's game.

Gu Ming smiled at the other person beside the sofa, but that person didn't want to smile very much, so he gave him a blank stare.

"Beast." Zhou Kai put down his clasped hands, turned and left.

The author has something to say:

A grand trial.