no one save me

Both of our children died.

When Aqi was born, the family had no money. We went out to work, and the child was placed next to his grandmother. The small place was very chaotic, and there were many fights and troubles. Under such an environment, Aqi grew up into the appearance I least want to see .

I hope my children are upright, kind, beautiful, and have a good future, instead of fighting and making trouble like Aqi, with almost no education at all.

This kid is really nothing like me, nor his father.

Later, we had Allin.

In fact, before Ah Qi was three years old, his name was Zuo Lin. After Ah Lin was born, he changed his name to Zuo Qi, because Zuo Lin, Zuo is his father’s surname, and Lin is my surname. I hope A Lin Be my ideal child.

Facts have proved that he is indeed very good. He is very smart and gentle. If he hadn't met Jiang Yihang, I think his future would be bright. When I arrived at Jiang Yihang, I saw a pair of tattoos on their bodies and heard other rumors, and suddenly felt dark.

Later, we quarreled and he cried. Finally, I decided to take him abroad. I want to stay away from here. I must not let others ruin Alin.

But if I knew the ending of A Lin, maybe I would rather let him grow up freely than take him abroad.

He died in order to save a drowning man. I told others that it was a stranger, but in fact I knew very well that the drowning man was not. After he cut off contact with Jiang Yihang, he still chose to be with a man In love, the two of them drowned together.

I really can't accept this, it's too hard to accept, whether it's A Lin's death or the cause of his death, I can't accept it.

Then, I went back to China, and I saw the child I had abandoned for more than 20 years.

He really doesn't look like Alin, I can tell who they are at a glance, when he came to pick us up he hardly spoke, very silent, he even refused to take us back to his residence, but put We arranged at the hotel.

I don't know how to get along with him, it's more difficult than getting along with a stranger.

He doesn't look well, I want to ask, but I don't know how to ask, I can also see that he doesn't want to talk to us, when we gave up on him, maybe after so many years, in his heart, he also abandoned us.

Later, I thought about telling him about Zuo Lin. In fact, what I thought was that no matter how hard-hearted he is, after all, A-Lin is his younger brother. It wasn't his own brother who died, but a stranger, no, maybe he would have some compassion for strangers, I can't describe that feeling, he was so calm that I couldn't see the slightest wave.

It seemed that A Lin's death was just an insignificant matter to him, which made me unacceptable.

I can't accept that he treats his own brother so indifferently, that is his own brother!

But what surprised me even more was that he was with Jiang Yihang. I really felt disgusted. It was really disgusting. That was his brother's ex-boyfriend. Now that his brother is dead, how could he be with Jiang Yihang? Ever been together?

How could this be my son?How could I have such a disgusting son?I even regretted coming back. I shouldn't have come back to recognize him. It was so disgusting that I wanted to vomit.

So later, his father and I planned to bury A Lin in the old cemetery, but we didn't tell him in advance. He had a conflict with his father that day. I looked at him, and I couldn't continue watching, so I chose to leave.

I know he's sick, but isn't it all done with that guy named Jiang Yihang?

I never called him again, nor did I answer his call. That night, quite late, I heard the phone ringing. I checked the caller ID and it was him, but I still didn't answer.

I couldn't get over the hurdle in my heart, but I didn't expect that this was the last time he called me, and I didn't expect that later, I would regret so much why I didn't answer his call that day, why... that day, I lost my last a son.

When the police notified us, I thought it was a scam call. Aqi is so rich and capable, and he has bodyguards by his side. What could happen to him?But I didn't expect that all this was true.

He really left, it was ugly, I couldn't look directly at his body, those broken breastbones made me almost speechless.

When he was alive, I felt that there were many things that needed to be adjusted between us, and there were many, many conflicts. But after he left, I realized that they were not important. How could these conflicts be important? If people were gone, these conflicts would disappear What kind of?

He really left, without even leaving a last word.

Standing in front of his dead body, it felt unreal to hear his name mentioned by others, and I felt a little unable to stand.

I haven't reconciled with him, haven't eaten a single meal with him, haven't bought him a piece of clothing, haven't given him a single birthday, I haven't given him anything, not even a copy of his In the photo, he just left, as if he had never appeared before, he walked away cleanly, leaving nothing for me.

The police said that he called me before he died, and I realized that the call that night was for help, and it was the last call. My hands were shaking so much that I couldn’t turn on the phone, and I couldn’t breathe from crying.

I don't know what he wanted to say on the phone that night, maybe it was a cry for help, maybe it was a last word, I couldn't hear anything, I couldn't hear his voice again, I thought we still had a long time, but in the end Nothing, I didn't even hear him call me.

That's how I lost him, lost him utterly.

As his parents, we don't know where he was buried, and when his funeral was held. We don't know anything. It seems that he has never been in this world and left without leaving a word. Down.

When I reacted, he disappeared in my life, and I finally know what regret is.

For Alin, for him, my two sons, I lost them all in the end.

In fact, it’s not that I don’t love him, I just can’t accept that he has grown into something I don’t like, but then I feel that I don’t care what he looks like, or who he is with, as long as he lives, it’s fine. Enough.

But it is this wish that has become the most impossible luxury.

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That's the end of this article.

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