no one save me

Dr. Xu said that I should rest early, recuperate well, and calm my mind... I did nothing. On the night after my operation, a man named Jiang Yihang called me all night. I can't even close my eyes.

I can't sleep, I have insomnia.

I'm tired and sleepy, and I'm still in pain, but I just can't sleep. I can clearly feel the vibration of the phone and the tingling of the wound.

The sun outside has risen, as if everything has woken up from the darkness, only I have been awake in the darkness.

In the end, I still glanced at my phone. Jiang Yihang almost blew up my phone, and his calls kept coming. At the time, there was no sense of ritual, and when we separated, it was regarded as making up for the sense of ritual.

I feel a little ridiculous myself.

When the phone was connected, I thought I would hear a roar, but I had decided not to fight with him.

But he didn't.

It was very quiet on the phone, only the sound of each other's breathing could be heard in silence.

"Wrong type? Then I hang up." Later, I still said something and started.

"No, Brother Qi, it's me." His voice was a little low, and it made my head hurt from hearing it.

I didn't know what to say, and he also remained silent. We were in a stalemate for about 5 minutes, and I still said it, and I said, "We broke up."

I'm not asking for his opinion, I'm literally telling him, I'm giving up.

For this relationship, I have a clear conscience. Under the threat of others, I never gave up. I never gave up when I was in a long-distance relationship. I tried my best to catch up with the social gap, but it seemed that all of this was useless. If what Jiang Yihang wants is one hundred, then everything I have done seems to be zero one point one by one, no matter how many zero points one, or even zero point zero one, it is difficult to piece together a complete one. Hundred.

I can't give him what he wants.

What's even more frightening is that I don't know whether he wants one hundred, one thousand, or ten thousand.

I can't see the future, all I see is darkness.

"Brother Qi, can you give me a chance to explain? I just want a chance to explain..." Jiang Yihang lowered his voice, and I could faintly hear the teacher say "The Constitution is the fundamental law of our country" and so on Vague words.

"Brother Qi, I drank too much that day I'm sorry, I know I was wrong, you just see that we have been together for so many years, can you forgive me just once? Just once."

Jiang Yihang's words made my stomach suddenly start to tighten, and I trembled with pain. I couldn't help but groaned, and the cold sweat on my back was about to break out. He paused there and asked, " Brother Qi? What are you doing? Who are you with?"

If I thought Jiang Yihang was an idiot before answering this call, but he was still a human being, then now, I think he is a fucking beast.

"Stupid." Apart from these two words, I don't want to say anything else.

When I hung up the phone, I heard his hurried voice, but I didn't hear what he was saying clearly. Anyway, it shouldn't be a good thing. We have been together for a long time. In addition to swearing, he said that I usually look like a dog in a suit and leather shoes. I said that he pretended to be a good college student, but he looked decent.

Look, I can't help but let him order, if someone else says I'm a dog, I can let him enjoy the hospital treatment directly.

I thought it was over like this, but I didn't expect that before noon, when my head just touched the pillow, he came and ruined my sleep again.

It ruined my dream even more, Jiang Yihang was not in my dream.

He didn't know where he knew I was in the hospital, and he was still carrying a thermos bucket with things in it. When he came, he put it next to my bed. He acted very concerned and asked me, "Brother Qi, are you feeling better?" ?"

I don't know if people who do wrong things are all virtuous, anyway, every time he does something wrong, he puts on such a pitiful look, this routine, I guess he is almost familiar with it.

I couldn't help but sigh.

He looked at me with some incomprehension, probably because he didn't understand why I sighed suddenly, why I didn't just go down the steps as before, and everyone could still maintain a friendly face, at least they didn't tear their faces.

"I don't want to know who that person is, and I don't want to know how you guys got involved, Jiang Yihang, I give up."

The person in front of me is the person I once swore to be together, the person I squat at the school gate every day waiting for him to leave school, the person I gave up my birthplace and everything, and I want to catch up.

It's someone I can't wait to protect with my life.

However, I gave up this time. Everyone will be tired. I am a person, I am not a thing, and I will be tired too.

Jiang Yihang still didn't seem to understand the meaning of this sentence, he kept looking at me blankly, I could see the anger slowly gathering in his eyes, I heard him say in a low voice, "What do you want? ? I apologized and said sorry, what else do you want?"

He asked me what I want?

What am I going to do?I don't know myself.

"Brother Qi, why don't you take a step back? We have been together for so many years, can we take a step back each other? Don't hold on to me, will it work?"

I actually think this sentence is a bit ridiculous.

Everyone makes mistakes, but... everyone's mistakes are different.

I was wrong, I believed you, but I did not repurchase, not now, nor in the future, I do not deny my previous feelings, but now I want to cut it off with my own hands.

"Did I have sex with someone?" I took a deep breath. Jiang Yihang's endless words made me feel like my heart would explode. I have ten thousand words that I want to curse, but I don't bother to say them. I poked his lung tube almost viciously, "Did I fucking cheat? Are my children and grandchildren on the bed sheet? That set is mine? Jiang Yihang, don't force me to make things worse."

My words are actually ugly enough. From his expression, I can see that he wants to cover my mouth, or raise a knife to chop me up.

The two of us have been fighting since we met, so it's not surprising that we would fight.

This time it was not immune.

Unfortunately, my wound has not healed yet, and it is estimated that I will be told by Dr. Xu again. I tried my best to protect myself, but I still bumped into a corner of the cabinet.

Jiang Yihang is better than me, I am fucking weak, who can still have strength after two surgeries?

He probably didn't think that I, who grew up in the market and grew up in fights, would kneel down so easily.

Anyway, he stood there without moving, presumably stunned, and then immediately ran to my side, trying to help me up... I was waiting for this moment, and the ashtray in my hand was directly on his head.

Although I was weak and couldn't use my strength, the ashtray was quite strong. I could hear a muffled groan, and blood flowed down his forehead.

I really want to laugh, fuck, I was never willing to really do something to him, I didn't expect to break up, and I even beat him to blood.

Prospects?Hitting someone you like is sick, right?

I kept saying to myself over and over, but... I just wanted to slap him.

He is someone I like.

Am I someone he likes?I do not know.

When the doctors and nurses arrived, they saw me kneeling opposite each other. I guess in their careers, one side was bleeding from the abdomen and the other was bleeding from the head. This is the first time they have seen this situation, right?

All right, I don't want to be ashamed, but I am still ashamed and thrown to the hospital.

Probably after meeting Jiang Yihang, I lost all my luck, even though I wasn't very lucky in the first place.

Others say that it is extremely peaceful, but I still haven't seen where my hope lies.

Jiang Yihang was finally kicked out by the doctor. I saw that his footsteps were still a little unsteady. Whoever hurt him was ruined.

but now.

It was I who hurt him with my own hands, but I was not sad, I felt happy, but also seemed a little sad.

Emotion is not suitable for me, it is easy to die.

I want to live, to live well, it is very difficult for me to live, why do I have to provoke this thing?