no one save me

After Xiaozhu got her vacation, she went for a walk outside, and sent me some pictures of the scenery. Seeing that the girl was happy, I was relieved. By the way, I kept a close eye on the time when Wang Cheng was discharged from the hospital, and asked him to enter the hospital as soon as he was discharged. prison.

He was arrested on the grounds of fighting, drug use, illegal fund-raising and fraud. He was punished for several crimes, but nothing related to Xiao Zhu. I know nothing happened that night, but as Xiao Zhu said, people can speak Fear, she doesn't want people to know, so I won't let people know.

I want to rot all these things in Wang Cheng's stomach.

"Brother." Shen Jiajia likes to call me the most, and occasionally makes video calls. When she sees me wearing a hospital gown, her expression changes, and she immediately sits up straight and asks me: "What's wrong with you? You're in the hospital!"

"Well, didn't you want me to check the body?" I laughed.

"Then have you checked, what's the result? Does it matter?" She nervously leaned towards the phone screen. Seeing her appearance, I remembered the little girl's forbearance in front of Uncle Shen's tomb, and my heart ached. He smiled and said to her: "It's okay, I'm anemic."

This is not really a lie to her, the full name is aplastic anemia, but the last word is also "anemia", isn't it?

Dr. Xu came to make rounds every day to see how I was recovering. I gradually improved from a persistent low-grade fever, and everything was moving in a more fortunate direction.

"I heard from the nurse that you stayed up late last night to read documents. You can't make enough money. You have the time to make money. Why don't you take good care of your body? Look at what you are doing now. If you continue like this, the money will be paid back." Here, no one..." He paused, probably because he felt that this sentence was unfavorable, so he stopped saying it, and said instead: "You have to eat every day, and you have to quit smoking... Have you bled in the past two days? ?”

"No." I answered honestly.

"It's lucky that you didn't continue to bleed, but it doesn't mean you can do anything wrong." He warned: "Don't take your body seriously, the body belongs to you, and you suffer when it hurts, and no one can replace you. "

I know that what he said is the truth, but I really can't eat, I have a bad appetite, and my stomach hurts after eating too much.

"I'll hang up two more bottles of nutrient solution for you in the afternoon. Let me tell you. If you bleed or feel uncomfortable, you must tell me. Do you understand? You want to die, but I still want you to live." Dr. Xu sneered unabashedly One voice: "It is impossible to have an accident in my hands."

I let him check, and after listening to the heartbeat, he recorded the data, told the nurse to stare at me, and then asked me: "What do you want to eat tonight, I'll bring it to you."

I remembered how close he was to Lu Qiao, and after a pause, I asked, "Did Lu Qiao ask you to do it?"

He closed the medical record folder with a "snap", looked at me expressionlessly, then turned to the little nurse and said, "Watch him eat, if he doesn't eat, tell me, I'll come in person."

"Okay, Director Xu." The little nurse said with a smile.

After Dr. Xu left, I lay on the bed and thought about my life. Judging by his posture, it should have nothing to do with Lu Qiao. Lu Qiao and Jiang Yihang have different problems. I can hate and disgust Jiang Yihang, but I haven’t reached this point for Lu Qiao. To a certain extent, it may also be that I did not pay as much for him as I did for Jiang Yihang.

Thinking about it now...why did I rush to take him back to see grandma...it might be like a drowning man grabbing the last straw, and eagerly and strongly pinning his life's desire on this straw.

I stayed in the hospital for a few days, and I felt much better. During this period, Lu Qiao came to see me a few times, standing at the door and looking at me every time. As for Jiang Yihang... his ghost lingers.

In the afternoon, I went for a walk in the small park of the hospital. I don’t like wearing hospital gowns, so I changed into a new one. I’m going to be discharged from the hospital the next day. The company still has a lot of things waiting for me to deal with, and I really don’t have time to stay in the hospital. exhausted.

It's just that I didn't expect to meet someone I knew while walking. When Wang Bo greeted me with a smile, I felt that this meeting should not be a chance encounter.

"I heard that you are hospitalized. How are you doing? Are you better?" Wang Bo asked me. Compared with him a few days ago, his complexion was ugly, and it could be seen that he was almost terminally ill.

The doctor said that he can live for half a year at most, which means that he may stop breathing anytime and anywhere. Half a year...is just the most optimistic view.

"Yeah." I'm not familiar with him, and I don't have much to talk about, but he seems to be a bit talkative, but he talked a lot. He said: "When I met Lu Qiao, he was not the same character as he is now, maybe My leaving was a big blow to him."

"When he was chasing you, he had a car accident and almost died. His spine was broken in three places." I said calmly.

There was a trace of distress in his eyes, and then he sighed deeply: "I don't know, maybe it's hard for you to believe, but I really don't know, how can I put it... When I left him, I didn't intend to continue to be with him We are together, I thought of cutting the mess quickly, since I am not with him, the farther away from him the better, but I did not expect to bring him so much pain and harm."

"It's no use talking to me, you have to talk to Lu Qiao." I don't know what Wang Bo wants to say, but I'm not interested in chatting here.

"No, I have to tell you this, just two things, the first... I know your relationship with Lu Qiao, you don't have to care about me and him, there is no possibility between me and him, he likes you, I can see it." Wang Bo laughed, pointing to himself and said, "I thought I wouldn't care about anything after I came back, but then I found out that it wasn't, when I saw him, I still couldn't help but go Pay attention, but he is different, he has you, and I only have half a year left."

"..." Countless times, I felt that this was no different from the [-] o'clock dog-blood dramas I watched when I was a child, but this person in front of me has a real life, only half a year left. Although I don't like him, I haven't arrived To the extent that I feel happy for a person's death, but I still have no interest in talking to him.

"The second thing...do you... have brothers and sisters?" Wang Bo asked me, when he looked at me, there was a hint of hope in his eyes.

"...Well." I have nothing to hide. I do have a younger brother, but it doesn't matter whether I have a brother or not. Anyway, I am alone, and it doesn't matter whether I live or die.

"Is...is he called Zuo Lin?" Wang Bo's breathing became a little short, as if he was waiting for my answer.

Zuo Lin... This name is very familiar, I haven't heard it for a long time. When I was a child, I knew that I had a younger brother named Zuo Lin, because my father's surname was Zuo, my mother's surname was Lin, and my Qi character was because my grandma's surname was Qi.

"He's really your brother...huh?" Wang Bo laughed, leaning on the bench, his waist bent when laughing: "You are really his brother, the gap between the two of you is too big, But...some places are surprisingly similar."

"You know him?" I asked.

"Basically, he should be my junior." Wang Bo restrained his smile. He stared at me, which made me a little nervous. He said, "Do you still remember when I said that you looked like someone I knew?" Man... this man is him."

"Yeah." I'm not interested in anything about my parents or Zuo Lin, and I don't want to know, so I got up and wanted to leave, but Wang Bo immediately stopped me, and he asked me: "Then you must know... where Zuo Lin's tomb is Bar?"

I froze for a moment, then turned my head to look at him, unable to understand what he said.

Zuo Lin's tomb?What tomb?Am I wrong?

I felt a chill slowly sweeping through my body, and I couldn't stand up all over.

"He drowned to save me, and I was sorry for him." Wang Bo trembled slightly as he held my hand, "He acted bravely, and I... I was the one who caused him to lose his life."

I don't know what expression I have now, maybe it's expressionless, maybe it's very hideous.

No one told me that Zuo Lin was dead, no, never!I don't know when he died, I don't know where his tombstone is, I don't even know about all that!

I thought he and his parents were studying abroad, and I thought they were living a good life, but I never thought that one day I would hear from him, so it was like this.

"Zuo Qi, tell me, where is he?" Wang Bo tried to get up and ask me, but he was too weak and emotionally overwhelmed. His face suddenly turned pale.

When I regained my senses, the medical staff had already rushed over. I stood beside them, stepping back step by step, watching them rescue Wang Bo, and watching Wang Bo being taken away, until I passed through the crowd and saw the land bridge.

Lu Qiao also looked at me, there was a hint of doubt in his eyes, but I no longer had the strength to distinguish what it meant.

After returning to the ward, Dr. Xu just happened to make a ward round. When he saw me coming in, he immediately said, "I'm going to be discharged from the hospital tomorrow, and I'm going out for a stroll today—"

His words stopped abruptly, and then his tone rose: "What's wrong with you?"

I belatedly realized that my nosebleed had started at some point, and my tears were mixed with blood.

In fact, Zuo Lin and I have hardly met each other, but when I heard the news of his death, my heart felt like it was shattered. I could hardly breathe due to the pain, and tears fell.

"Quick, sit down." Dr. Xu immediately took a towel next to me and gave me a cold compress. His hands were stained with my blood. I sat on the sofa, and the blood kept dripping down my arms. dripping.

I watched Dr. Xu get up and call for someone. His back was a little faint in front of my eyes. I seemed to see him in double image. The things in front of me were getting closer and further away, which made me dizzy and nauseated, and then my body suddenly fell to the ground. The cup on the coffee table was accidentally knocked off by me and hit the ground.

"boom--"

I heard the shattering of glass that coincided with my heartbeat.

My brother died.

Even though I never loved him.

Even my parents didn't tell me the news, and we never got in touch.

I slept very well in the dream, except for the cold, like being in a place of icy water, I couldn't open my eyes, I couldn't move, I wanted to curl up but couldn't.

I seem to be able to hear people talking next to me, but I don't know what they are saying.

"Excessive blood loss, blood transfusion is needed immediately."

I seem to hear Dr. Xu's voice, which is the only one I am familiar with among the many noisy voices.