no one save me

Before my grandma died, she was sick, but she didn't have constant nosebleeds like me, she was just weak, so weak that she couldn't walk, so weak that she was lying on the bed with only a faint heaving chest, and her thin body was in the dark There was an indescribable smell of impending death in the house.

I remember that I was right next to her, and I couldn't catch her with all my strength, so I could only lower my head and gently wipe her hands, listening to her unconscious moaning.

Now I am the same as her, this can be regarded as the blood of grandparents and grandchildren.

"If there is no cure, how long can I live?" As I said, I am not afraid of death, but I am afraid of getting sick. I am afraid that knowing that death is coming, I will drag the sick body and walk towards it alone. Instead of doing this, it is better to let yourself go completely. up.

Dr. Xu seemed surprised by my words. He froze for a while, and then slowly said: "This is not a terminal illness, it can be cured. Don't think about how long you can live. You just need to work hard to survive and cooperate with me."

I laughed, it's rare that this doctor who has always had a bad face on me can calm down and talk to me now.

"Be optimistic." Dr. Xu came over and looked me in the eyes seriously: "This disease needs to be treated slowly, but it is not an incurable disease. Be obedient and I promise to cure you."

He didn't understand what I meant, but he didn't really need to understand. I didn't give up the chance of treatment for someone, but I saw the path that people who died of illness took in the end, so I was afraid, I was afraid.

I sighed deeply and tried to raise my hand, but I was really tired.

Dr. Xu was not the only patient, he had to go to the ward rounds, and I was the only one left in the ward after he left.

"Aplastic anemia... a genetic disease with such a small probability, I still won the lottery." Thinking about this incident, I felt a little funny, and I was afraid of what would happen, it was really a hemp rope that picked the finer points.

There was a drip hanging on the back of my hand, and the cold liquid flowed into my blood vessels through the needle tube, causing a slight pain. I could almost guess what I looked like without looking in the mirror.

There was a knock on the door outside, and the back door opened. I saw Jiang Yihang standing at the door. He seemed to be running over. elder brother."

"Yeah." I responded casually, looking at the ceiling above my head, thinking about many things in my mind, all kinds of things, but in the end, if I really want to die, I have to find this cemetery.

I thought about not allowing burial, but I thought it would be closer to my grandma. I have no other relatives. My parents in name probably won’t come to deal with my funeral. They wish they would never see me again, although I never Know what you did wrong.

"I finally found the place where you live now, and I heard people next to you say that you fainted and were sent to the hospital... Brother Qi, what's wrong with you?" He looked at me with some fear and worry, I can't describe his current state Look, but it is indeed rare.

I thought about the time-consuming and labor-intensive treatment of this disease. I don’t know if the treatment process is painful or not. In fact, the reason why most patients can survive the painful and long treatment period is simply because someone is waiting for them. go home.

But what about me, what about me?I should have no one waiting, I am the only one left, I will live for myself, and I can give up for myself, no matter what choice I make, I don’t need to have any worries.

In fact, I already have some regrets now, if I hadn't come here at the beginning, if I hadn't been with Jiang Yihang, and if I had never expected the love of my parents, many things might not have happened Well, I may not be as rich as I am now, and I may be as sick as I am now, but at least I am happy to see my grandma, instead of half-deadly thinking about these miscellaneous things and messy people.

Uncle Shen thought of many things, and he probably didn't expect that I would get sick. If I give up the treatment, then I have to arrange Shen Jiajia's affairs in advance.

Jiang Yihang sat next to me for a long time. He seemed to have said a lot, but I was too sleepy, so I listened in a daze, and didn't chase him away. .

I didn't know when he left. When I woke up, there was no one next to me. The drip had been changed. I didn't know when the needle was pulled out. I sat up and picked up the phone next to me, and looked for the contact information of the vice president of the company. , After explaining the company's project problems, I wanted to continue to read the documents, but two drops of nosebleeds dripped on the back of my hand, so I didn't dare. I leaned on the wall and went to the bathroom. up.

The person in the mirror has thin cheeks, dull eyes, wearing a blue and white striped hospital gown, with bright red bloodstains on the back of his hands, he is in a state of embarrassment, rather he is ill. People like me who don’t know medical skills can see it The illness is serious.

"Why is it like this?" I couldn't help laughing, and raised my hand to wipe away the tears that didn't exist, trying to make myself see more clearly.

When Jiang Yihang's parents came to see me, it was really beyond my expectation. I had just finished dealing with the company's condolences, and Jiang Yihang's parents came behind.

I really don't have a good impression of his parents. When I was with Jiang Yihang before, they always felt that I had led Jiang Yihang to the ground. They never had a good look at me, and I didn't want to bother. How could he have the ability to bring Jiang Yihang down?

When his parents came, they were still carrying fruit, and I didn't dare to ask for it, but after they put down the fruit, the first sentence they said was: "Let's let it go, please."

I knew it was this sentence, and I wanted to let it go, but the problem was that he didn't want to let me go.

"He came here with great difficulty, went to the university he dreamed of, and studied his favorite major. You can also see how hard he worked. I beg you. Let him go. He can't be ruined by you in this life." It’s in my hand.” Jiang Yihang’s mother almost knelt down, and I had a terrible headache when I heard her rambling, “If you really love him, you should know how to let him go, otherwise you’re not love. He, you killed him!"

"Have you finished?" If I didn't feel unwell, I would have to tell these two people more or less, but now I can only make a long story short: "I'm done with him, if you can drag him away, let me settle down." I am also very happy to recuperate quietly."

Jiang Yihang probably got the news. When he rushed over, he was still holding the textbook in his hand. Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of the criminal law class. I remembered that because I touched his criminal law book, the two of us fought. With a shot, even the dog was scared and hid beside him.

Also that time, my stomach bleeds a bit.

"Brother Qi..." He looked at me, then turned to look at his parents: "What are you doing here? You go back."

"If we don't come again, you will be ruined by this person!" his parents shouted.

I leaned on the bed and didn't speak. I just rang the bell, and the nurse came in quickly. After noticing the abnormality, I immediately drove them away. Before I left, I asked them to take the fruit away.

Jiang Yihang came back later. When he came back, I just finished the second round of examinations and was helped back by the nurse. I was going to lie on the bed and sleep for a while, but when I saw him, my head started to hurt again.

"Brother Qi, I didn't know my parents would come." His expression didn't seem to be pretending, but this is not very important to me. I really want to smoke now. It's unpalatable, and I'm a bit addicted to smoking. I want to smoke a cigarette to suppress the churning smell of medicine in my stomach.

"Don't ignore me, okay? We'll treat the illness slowly, and you can do whatever you want." He knelt down, and said cautiously in front of me, "Let's start over."

I closed my eyes slightly and leaned against the sofa, thought for a while and took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, biting lightly, without lighting it up, curled up sideways on the sofa exhaustedly, I could do whatever I liked, I was too lazy to talk.

"Brother Qi..." I was really annoyed when he continued to talk.

"I did it with Lu Qiao." I looked down at him and said word by word: "I am not with him, but I will be with someone else, but no matter who it is, this person is definitely not you, you know me As a human being, you should know that since you cheated, we will have no future. You can find whoever you like, and you can play however you like, and it has nothing to do with me. You can tell your parents clearly, my patience It's limited, not every time can be like today."

"I don't care who you did it with. I don't care anymore. I just want you to give me another chance. I promise I won't make a mistake. I really know I was wrong. Brother Qi, don't want me." He said carefully Looking at me, this look reminds me of when we were just together, he asked me the same way, asking if I could date.

So many years have passed in a flash, and I saw this look again, but under such circumstances.

"Oh." It's really tiring, explaining this problem to someone who can't understand human language, or trying to wake up a person who pretends to be asleep... It's really tiring.

"Jiang Yihang." I repeated this sentence many times, but he probably didn't listen. I told him: "I liked you before, but now I have no feelings for you. You stepped on my bottom line. You should know the ending of today, starting from the fact that you and that person had sex in my house, and that you were not killed, it was not allowed by the law, not because of my kindness."

I gently squeezed his chin, forced him to look at me, and warned him for the last time in a slow and clear voice: "Don't be so fucking ignorant, I've tolerated you for a long time, if I were you, get out now ,understood?"

"Brother Qi!" He was about to say something, but I didn't want to bear it any longer, so I grabbed his lapel, threw him to the ground, grabbed the fruit knife next to him, and pressed it against his neck, faintly scratching. I broke the skin a little, and I told him: "I feel sick when I touch you now, Jiang Yihang, do your parents know what kind of person you are?"

He was held down by me and couldn't move. He could only look back at me. After a while, he suddenly smiled, his neck moved slightly, and he bumped into the knife edge. I had to withdraw the fruit knife.

I wanted to threaten him, not really want to kill people, let alone go to jail.

"Are you fucking sick?" I was so angry that I got a headache and felt a little dizzy, so I could only hold the fruit knife with one hand and lean on the sofa with the other.

"Yes, I'm sick." Jiang Yihang laughed, and he said: "I'm an idiot, if it wasn't because I did something wrong, we wouldn't have come this far...Obviously we have reached the best moment, Obviously the most difficult ones have survived, but the ruins are in my hands, I am sick, stupid!"

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感谢在2022-03-1820:13:28~2022-03-2000:07:41期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Jiuli and Lili 1;

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 5 bottles of forehead mmm; 3 bottles of missing people; 1 bottle of Wang Erxiao;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!