cousin

When I came out of the bathroom, I saw Lin Yufan smoking.I reached out to her: "Give me one."

"Don't smoke!" She smiled.

"Why?" I asked puzzled.

"Because," she leaned in front of me, "you want to smoke when you miss someone."

"Can you tell me your story?"

"My story is very simple," Lin Yufan flicked the cigarette ash gracefully. In the lingering smoke, she became mysterious and distant.

"My experience is actually very complicated and very simple," Her eyes are not focused, but they are shining in the dark, and I am a little lost.

"I found out that I like girls since I was in high school. At that time, I fell in love with a girl who transferred to our school from other places. Later, the teacher asked her to sit with me." Lin Yufan watched I took a look, "She looks like you, I even had an illusion when I saw you for the first time, I thought she was back..."

"She's back?" I asked in surprise, "You mean you separated from her?"

Lin Yufan smiled wryly and shook his head: "No, it's much more painful than being separated... If we just separated, there would be a chance to meet again, but now nothing is possible..."

I didn't say anything, just listened quietly as she went on: "I finally couldn't help telling her that I loved her. Maybe I was lucky, and she told me that she loved me too. That was the happiest moment in my life." Good times, we were together every day, studying, chatting, and talking about our fantasies about the future...until we worked hard together and got admitted to the same university. On the day when we got the admission letter, the weather was very good and the sunshine was really incomparable Brilliant. I don’t know if such a good weather is a harbinger of burning love. After receiving the notice, she ran forward happily and asked me to chase her. We just chased like no one else, forgetting that we were on the road .The next thing, maybe you guessed it? She had a car accident..."

Lin Yufan couldn't continue, she lowered her head, and drank the wine in front of her in one gulp.

I didn't know what to say, but Lin Yufan raised his head, smiled and said to me: "Since then, I have been blaming myself, and I can't forget that scene. Later, when I went to university, every one of my My girlfriends all look very similar to her, but I understand that they are not her. Maybe, she is a shadow that I cannot escape in my life..."

"I don't think so. In fact, everyone thinks that after falling in love with someone, it is impossible to fall in love with others. But in the end, we will still fall in love with another person. It's just a matter of time. You may say I have never loved, I have no right to speak, but I really feel so."

"But I am different, I firmly believe in this. No one can replace her." Lin Yufan drank another glass of wine.

I quickly stopped her: "You can't drink anymore, you will get drunk."

"I, let's rest when we're drunk, okay?" Lin Yufan raised his glass and stuttered a bit.

"I don't want it anymore, let's go back! I have to go to work tomorrow! Besides, if you are drunk, how can you drive me back?" I grabbed the glass and pulled her out of the bar.

"Susie, I really love her, do you know? I can't forget her in my life..." Lin Yufan was obviously drunk, so I had no choice but to pat her on the back lightly to comfort her: "I know you are deeply affectionate, but she wouldn't want to see you like this, and it's not your fault that she left. Some people can only accompany you through a certain journey of your life... Besides, she Sure hope you will have a new life of your own."

Lin Yufan raised his head and looked at me: "Really? Is it really like this?"

"Yes, I'm not lying to you..." I nodded vigorously.

"So, can I love you?"