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One day, it will be the same as saying goodbye to this world.When I woke up in the morning I was ready to spend the rest of the day saying goodbye to them.Cong Er asked me, didn't you agree that we would travel together after earning enough money?I said I would go back first and finish the matter with my parents.He asked me what you loved them, and I said you loved them a child.He said he can figure it out, and I went to work.After he left, I got up to wash up, put on my proud outfit, and was as full of energy as I was when I first came to this city to meet Wu Xin.I went to find Shun'er, and went to Shun'er's place. His father was basking in the sun with him.After entering the door, I stood there watching him.The old man was pulling the strings of the guitar with his hands, and asked him if his son was like this.He said to go down a little bit, and this hand is pressing here.Earlier, I knew I was going to leave, and it happened at that time, I thought maybe when I said goodbye to him, it would be the same, his father pushed him in the small yard in a wheelchair The sun was shining on him, and his old father played his son's beloved guitar, making mechanical sounds.Shun'er was unconscious, or didn't want to talk.I just bid farewell to him in such a miserable way.His father was convinced that his son would be fine, and so was I—a picture I had often had in my mind early on.Nowadays, apart from feeling the ephemeral joys and sorrows of life, and the inconsistency of coming and going, I also feel why we should live and why we are so obsessed with this incomplete world.I saw the sun and his carefree life here in Shun Er, and I felt the hope of the entire human existence and the reason for its endless continuation.Just like the sun today.I called my uncle, his father saw me and smiled and asked me, Lian Chen is here, come here quickly.Shun Er asked me, are you calling me?His dad wiped his head and said the kid.I also walked over and imitated his father and wiped his head and said this child.I said I was going back to my hometown, and I came to see you.His father said that he is not allowed to leave at noon today, and your aunt and I will cook something delicious for you.I said don't be too busy, I have to go out for a few places to say goodbye to other people on the train at night.Shun'er said that next time, I was telling my dad that I would buy a recipe tomorrow to think about it, and cook a good dish for him and my mother.Next time you come, I will burn it for you.I said yes, you can talk to her about the mosquito.He said no problem.I said there are rhubarb and others, and he said yes, don't ink it.I talked to Shun'er for a while, and then left. He asked me to come back when I had time, and I agreed.He asked his father to push him out of the door and kept looking at me. I don't know when Shun Er became so affectionate, maybe he has always been like this.

At noon, Chenchen called me and said that Shiyang had cooked a meal for him to eat.I went.The little thing seems to know me. I stood in front of the window holding it and looked at the mallow. Although it grew much taller, it was not civilized at all.Shiyang asked if my name was Cong'er, and I said no, wondering if he was free.Chen Chen asked me if I had packed my things, and I said there was nothing to pack.Save those little things of mine for Cong Er.Shiyang was cooking in the kitchen, I called Chenchen over and asked him, does he love you.He said don't worry about it, live a good life, and I said you too, so he will leave it to you.He said don't worry.I said you should study hard.He nodded.I called Cong'er and said let's have a meal together.He rushed over and said that he had asked for leave in the afternoon and would see me off at night.I said I'd better leave by myself, and don't send any of you away.He said I even sued for leave.I said let's have dinner, we have been together for so long, the day to leave has come.He said that at that time, he still felt that there were many days, but who knew it was today.He asked me if you told Wu Jiang.I said no, he was busy, let's talk about it later, he didn't believe me for half a year.After dinner, I went to wash the dishes, Chen Chen said he would come.I went out and lay down, while Shiyang sat and talked with Cong'er.I'm like a bystander.Fell asleep.When I woke up, it was already dark outside, and the three of them were playing poker there.I asked them what time it was, and Shiyang said you should go to sleep and watch the watch for you.Chen Chen asked me if I was hungry and if I wanted something to eat.I said I don't want to eat, I will get on the train later.Chenchen asked my parents if they knew about your train today.I asked him did you not tell them.He said no.I said I didn't say anything, anyway, I'll know when I get home tomorrow.The room is very warm, I can't explain why, but I obviously feel the cold outside, just like a conditioned reflex.I was thinking that I was going to leave here, where I stayed for a long time, and where else I wanted to go, and where I hadn't been, but it was too late.Cong Er said, it was so lively at that time, and now we have to leave.Is it like this all your life, getting together and getting together without a place to go? I feel that living is really tiring.I don't feel tired, I just feel lonely, especially in the past few months.

They bought me a lot of food, and the weather was cold, making me miss spring and summer.Time flies, just like love.I asked Cong'er when he would come home, but he couldn't tell, maybe years ago.I told him to find a woman to marry and spend the day.He said he wanted to, but he couldn't find the right one.I said, then you run around and look for it.He said he would call you when he got married, and you came over for a drink. I said I would not drink anymore, but I would bless you.You shall all be happy.

I look at Shiyang, he is with Chenchen, I want to ask him when we can see each other again.Just don't know how to say it.So much so that nothing was said.I want to see him right away and dread seeing him right away because it's not the same now.I know he won't go to Kang Zheng.Maybe he doesn't even like Chenchen, maybe he's only with Chenchen because of me, just because he thinks that's the only way he and I have a little connection.I know that I have failed Shiyang, and I don't know how else I can love my younger brother to fulfill and complete my family's prayers.When the ticket check started, I said I was leaving, let's shake hands.And Cong'er, and Chenchen, in fact, I just want to shake Shiyang's hand.Maybe Chenchen and Cong'er have already seen it.He is my lover, and now it is so hard to even shake hands.He's my lover, and I'd rather have him feel like I'm not in love with him anymore.He told me to speak slowly.I said it was fine and I left.He nodded and smiled at me.It was the same as the summer when I first met him at Deshengmen.I am like a wave, drifting away aimlessly with the flow of people, I don't know when I can continue. Now, life has given me a lot of hope and beauty, but it has not taught me how to continue.In this matter, I am like a young child, ignorant, unable to distinguish between dreams and illusions, and I have come to the unknown field now and ahead.When I couldn't see them, Chenchen sent me a text message to reassure me.I said yes.In addition to helplessness and complexity, when I left my lover, love did not occupy a dominant position in the scene at that time. This is a real life that I have personally experienced. Our love was shattered, and maybe a total love , are finally covered up by the vast ocean of life, leaving no trace anywhere except in the heart.

...Thinking of what he said, it was really like a dream...

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