Maybe it's because I'm too tired from the train ride, and because of my mood, I don't feel like I'm here for a trip this time.Woke up the next morning, rolled over and hugged him and fell asleep again.until noon.He said he wanted to go to the school he was in when he was studying.I hummed sleepily.I do not want to get up.I said I'm so sleepy, let's go to sleep again.He was going to get dressed, I hugged him and didn't let him move.He said I couldn't sleep.I said that you are not allowed to move, I want to hug you to sleep.He said I'm going to wash your underwear.I said you are so annoying.Why did you have to get it on your underwear yesterday? You don't have any underwear yourself.He said you are so stingy.I caught it at that time, who knows yours and mine.I said you wash what I wear.He said you should stop wearing it.I said I couldn't go out, it was empty and uncomfortable.He said that you just put it on.I said I really want to hit you.Hurry up and buy it for me.He said no matter.I said I was crazy and fell asleep with the quilt in my arms.Then he sat up and lit a cigarette there.The feeling of sleeping with a quilt is different from sleeping with a person.He asked me what I was muttering about.I told him that he was washing in the bathroom and couldn't hear anything clearly.Ask me to get up and pass.After squeezing the toothpaste, stand there and watch him.He looked at me in the mirror and asked me, brush your teeth quickly.I put the toothbrush in my mouth.hugged him from behind.His chin rested on his forehead and shoulders, and he was tall.I closed my eyes, he said don't move, I muttered and asked him what he was doing.He said he had gum.He laughed and said it was disgusting.I say you die.I looked in the mirror, no, he was teasing me.I brush my teeth with my toothbrush around him with my right hand.He said you should do it well, I am washing your underwear.I said it was all done by you.What did he say, you are not on it, look at you, you don’t brush your teeth well.Then he turned around and brushed my teeth with a toothbrush.His hands moved up and down.I moved my head a little bit.A mouthful of foam smiled at him.After I brush my teeth, I take a shower.After he set up his panties.Started to wash up, let me wait for him on the bed, and he went down to buy me underwear.I got my shirt on and sat there waiting for him to come back from shopping for panties.

After not coming back for a long time, I fell asleep again.Not long after lying down, he opened the door and came in to see me lying down, and asked me why you fell asleep again.I said I can't wait for you.He said don't talk nonsense, it's already afternoon.Pack up quickly and go to school with me.I smiled and said that you have already graduated, so what's the difference if you go early and go late.He said to play, why go early and late, come back early after playing.I lay down and felt that he was moving me, I opened my eyes slightly, and he was putting the newly bought underwear on my legs.Move, dead man.I couldn't help but laugh.Then they dragged him down and fought on the bed for a long time.

It was dusk when we arrived at their school by car, and there were many students.But no one knew anyone, he took me to the place where they played basketball at that time, and told me about that person.Said that the dog has been squatting here by itself.I don't know if it is still there now.I said that everyone has his own destiny, who can say that world is bad, none of us have been there, maybe he is living a happy and quiet life now, no one disturbs and hinders his love.Besides, how many years have passed.Downstairs in a dormitory, he pointed out to me which was his dormitory and which was Kang Zheng's dormitory.Canteens, libraries, their teaching buildings.I said that we are still the same as students now, but we will never come back during that time.He nodded.Let me carry him on my back.Said that Kang Zheng was also walking on campus with him behind his back.I squatted down and patted my shoulder and said, come on up.Just go back in time and think that I am Kang Zheng.After he jumped up, I walked unsteadily.He said that you are you, and he is him. Now I let you carry it.I asked him if you want to carry me on your back.He said no.I said then I gave up.He said I strangled your neck, huh, huh.I really let go.He carried my shoulders and ran online.I laughed.

The things he ate outside near their school at night, the ones he asked for, were probably what he and Kang Zheng used to eat together before.He asked me if it was good.I nodded, ordered a bottle of wine, and drank with him.I asked him when he'd be able to drink that wine of yours.He said it will be more than 20 days later.I asked him if he could drink it.I have never heard of drinking wine from grapes.He said that if you don’t drink it, you’ll be overwhelmed. I’ll drink it all, and if I don’t tell you the taste, I’ll starve you to death.

I told him that in fact, living in such a city is not bad, it is quiet and no one bothers you.He said that you were in such a place before, didn't you go to Beijing anyway.I didn't say anything, maybe what really bothered us was not the city and the hustle and bustle itself, but our own greedy and demanding hearts.

He said that apart from most of the darkness of his hometown, the four years when his mother and Kang Zheng were together are his only unforgettable memories painted in golden yellow.From then on he felt that his hard days were finally over.It's just that I didn't expect the good times to last long.I said forget it and let's drink.Don't want those unhappy things.Forget about them all.The day is always ahead.No matter what, you have to move on.The wine was so spicy, I quickly ate some food and said to him, don't you still have me.He said are you sure you won't run away.I said yes, I'm sure.Where can I go.This topic, which can actually be continued, stops abruptly here.Maybe we all know that if we continue to talk, we will talk about where it will be logical.We are not confident, or we feel that the mountain is too high and steep to be insurmountable.

He took out his mobile phone and told me that there are many text messages he sent me in my mobile phone, and he was reluctant to delete them. The earliest ones were when he was studying.In fact, this period of time is like this. I don’t want to contact him, but I deliberately don’t contact him. I don’t know what else I can do for him, but that feeling is very sad. I didn’t know how long it would last. I thought it would Long time no see him.It's similar to your last time. You also stayed up for several nights and got sick. At that time, I thought I deserved it.

He finally told me not to torture myself, life should be lighter, don't be so heavy, heavy is not good for others or yourself.I know what he is thinking, let me not delay myself, let me cherish the time, take a step forward, and enjoy life and love.

He gave me his mobile phone and said that this text message was sent to me when I went to give away the ring on Kang Zheng's birthday, but I didn't see it in the end.I think what is written above is—what do you need other people to do to understand you? What do you think about such a thing?I take everything very lightly now, and I have a clear conscience about what anyone does, so let everything take its course.I will not burden any heavy things, I hope to live a carefree life.

I asked him if he was drunk.He shook his head.He said he just felt sad at the time.

You see these words in it, to anyone, to bear any heavy things.I felt that I had become someone else in him, I felt that I had become what he called a heavy thing, that I had become an obstacle to his easy life.You know I was very excited the night before, thinking I was going to see him.Who knew it was like this.

I said he said to let nature take its course, forget about him.

He nodded and said I always wanted to delete these text messages.It has not been deleted.You delete it.

In fact, I dare not delete it. If I delete it, I will never come back.These are very important things to him.I advised him to keep it, and I said that I have been here for so many years, so let it be.

He didn't say a word, just laying his neck up and gulping down his drink.

...the irresistibility of facing your sorrow...

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