Yu Xin like congratulations

Until now, I still can't forget and dare not easily touch this unforgettable love.They say that this life and death is a tragedy, and no one is happy in the end.I just feel that he has not left, has been with us, and will stay and stay in our love and life forever, and continue.

The entire sky and universe that I looked up at that time were piled up with floating clouds covering the sky and covering the sun, permeating into a grand and strange cold.In an instant, I was like a lonely baby immersed in an ocean place, feeling that there was water all around me, all water.I tried to find someone to talk to, but that person wasn't there.Did you see that floating cloud? Maybe he is above the cloud, looking at me silently.When I was still a short distance away from here, during the long, long days and nights, I always complained that I missed you so much and your figure was so small.I just searched and searched, searched all over the world, and searched for those who couldn't find them.

Early in the morning, I found Chenchen and asked him about Shiyang.I said I was going to Beijing, and you told me where he was buried.He said that in September, his aunt and his father took his ashes back to his hometown in Ningxia, where they were scattered on the Yellow River Bridge.I asked him if you went.He said that, according to their local customs, people who died in a foreign land cannot return to their hometown for burial.I said when it happened, why didn't you tell me.He said that Shiyang himself refused to let him.Then he told me about Shiyang's illness, which started with a cold, and no one cared about it at first.It was later discovered that it was progressive multiple leukoencephalopathy.It's just too late.I have been hospitalized several times sporadically, and the last time I passed out suddenly and was sent to the hospital.Then didn't come out again.After the notice of critical illness came out, he notified his father and aunt, but finally gave up because of the huge medical expenses.Public welfare organizations and caring people in the society have given help, but the disease has not been cured.Shiyang gave up treatment automatically after struggling for two weeks, maybe it was too hard.Then he took out a few test sheets from his pocket, and behind his back Shiyang wrote some words in red handwriting when he was dying.I just stood there crying and looking at the words "goodbye" written in weak strokes.I can't figure out why he hated me to the end of his life and wouldn't let them tell me about him.I took the small roll of paper and turned back to the east wing, and put the test sheet into the small cloth pouch containing Yu Xin's seeds.There are four days of quietness, remembrance, indulging, eating and not eating.

I asked Chenchen, do you love Shiyang?He nodded.I just laughed, laughing at myself not sure what he used to love that person.I said what are your plans for the future.He said he had no plans.I asked him would you continue to look for love.He said that Shiyang told me not to be alone, it's not good to be alone.I said but I won't let it, I let you come before.Originally, what I do now should be done by you, and what you do should be done by me.Now it's all reversed, I don't know what you thought at the beginning.I said that I thought you brought Shiyang back to me, but you brought me the news that he would never come back.How can I thank you.I said you ruined my happiness.And ruin your own life too.You made me tangled with you, you and yourself for the rest of your life until death.Shiyang gave up hope of life and refused to eat and take medicine in endless despair. I will never forgive myself.Until I see him again no matter when or where, and apologize to him.I know that I am no longer qualified to say I love you to him.I hope he doesn't forgive me and hate me all the time.Hate me as much as he loves me.

I went to Ningxia by car on the tenth day of the lunar new year, found her aunt, and asked Shiyang about the last thing.I found Kang Zheng to have dinner with me in my previous unit.He asked me why you lost weight, and I said it's okay and has been like this.He was curious what I was doing here.I said to see an old friend.Is it me?He asked me, I shook my head with a smile, actually I came to see him for the last time on behalf of Shiyang.I remember visiting the Yellow River Bridge once with Shiyang.It's just that this time is completely different from the last time. I imagined the scene where Chen Chen and his family saw him off in the past summer, sobbing uncontrollably.He took out the flower seeds of Yu Xin and poured them into the frozen river.Looking up, the entire sky and the universe are piled up with floating clouds covering the sky and covering the sun, filling the air into a grand Qi Han.In an instant, I was like a lonely baby immersed in the ocean, feeling that there was water all around, all water, and I couldn't open my eyes.I came to see you, but you started to run from here to a vast, far away, boundless place.I used to want to go to the sea with him, but now he went first by himself, first, is he waiting for me?Yes, no waiting.Did you see that floating cloud? Maybe he is above the cloud, looking at me silently.When I was still a short distance away from here, during the long, long days and nights, I always complained that I miss you so much and your figure is so small.I just searched and searched, searched all over the world, and searched for those who couldn't find them.I hold myself like I hold you.When I heard someone call my name, I cried like last time.Wide riverbed, frozen river.If I can't do it, my heart for you will never dry up.Tell him in a low voice that I came to see you, God knows, punish me as you like.

I said you all go, let me stay alone with him for a while.In front of me is like the way my baby looks at me before I leave, like the hometown where the flowers will bloom into the sea two months later, the meeting between Yu Xin and me.I asked him for the last time, do you still love him.He nodded.I knew that Shiyang would live in my heart and his heart forever and ever.

When night fell, I left there alone, singing to him the song called Child God that I wanted to learn and sing to my lover——

Blue paddle draws gurgling water patterns

Kissing the sound of singing in the distance

Sleeping on the sand bed is as cool as a dream

no one who sings

Farewell after farewell, the hanging shadow moves

lingering broken I hang your heart

Looking for you, looking for you

Reincarnation gives you the face of the previous life

I just want you to love

I really can't without you

....

Same as then.

...Zhu Xiu once pinched.Congratulations to Yu Xin...

The author has something to say: About the writing of "Yu Xin Si He"

I just want to tell Shiyang that the novel for him is finished.

Otherwise, I always feel that he has been waiting, so I can't let go of it, like their love that year.Chapters 1 to 27 of this novel were written during the summer and autumn of 08 in Qingyuan.Then I came to Beijing at the end of that year, and it was stranded, and it started on September 9 this year until now.A lot of things happened in the middle, just like the joys and sorrows of the novel, my life situation is similar to before, but fortunately my will is not broken, and my persistence remains the same.Thank you Lord.Thanks also to Abu.Thank you Baoer.The others are gone.After writing this novel, it is estimated that there will not be too long a rest.I did a rough calculation last time, and it will take five years to complete all the temporary writing plans.I need to work hard.Like people who bravely pursue love.

Many times, I can no longer tell where is in the novel and where is in my life.

Xu is, too deep into the drama.

Xu Hui, whereabouts are unknown.

This novel is dedicated to Shiyang.

I am with Ruo