Yu Xin like congratulations

On the day of the autumnal equinox, I carefully collected a pack of Yuxin seeds and hung them on the wall of the east wing where I live.I wondered when Chenchen would come back, and when he came back, I would ask him to bring this bag of flower seeds to Shiyang.My father and I shipped all the harvest of the year back home around late autumn.At that time, the sky and the earth were golden, and I don’t know where the inexhaustible strength and joy came from. This kind of joy is an extremely precious extra feeling I got in the sky and the earth besides love, like I found a person. Ways to get rid of depression.You can resist loneliness with me in every day and night when I think of the past.When I changed into my jacket after autumn and early winter, I went to the peach blossom forest in the south of the village.With so many flowers blooming in spring, there should be peaches in summer, perhaps they were picked up by passers-by who were thirsty on the road.Or a naughty country boy.My mother said that when I put on the Chinese-style clothes that Yaer made for me, my back looked like my father when he was young.Under the cold air of Xiao Su, I also seemed to feel that I was a little older.The phone was no longer used.There was no one to contact me, but I just remembered that it was full of text messages from and to Shiyang when I was in Beijing.It will be years in the blink of an eye.With the baby by my side, I feel strangely that Shiyang has never left me.Regarding Chenchen, I felt inexplicably distressed again.Can't tell why.He never called home, and often his mother felt that she hadn't heard from him after a long time, so she called to ask.I don't think he is a day or two, and they are.The baby has to be held in the arms of an adult, wearing a tiger hat and thick clothes.The tiger-headed and tiger-headed appearance is very attractive.

After a snowfall, I finally waited for Chenchen, it was his winter vacation, but he didn't come back immediately after the winter vacation.Like last year, I survived until New Year's Eve. I remember that I had such a thought before, that I was afraid of going back home, and my family would urge my marriage.Now Chenchen doesn't seem to have reached such an age yet.I also thought that maybe it was because he couldn't bring Yang Yang back, and I didn't know how to tell my parents about it.There is also a persimmon tree in my yard.That day the baby was crying, so I climbed up the tree to pick persimmons for him.Ya'er hugged the baby and watched from below, then laughed out loud.I asked her what are you laughing at.The girl said that she remembered the time you climbed the persimmon tree at the matchmaker's house last year.He also asked me if it was because I was used to climbing trees.While I was still in the tree, the door rang.I think it's Chen Chen, holding a potted flower and a dog alone.I smiled, finally, Shiyang must have gone to Yuelao Temple again.Fortunately, it was still early in the evening to be able to come back.I gave the persimmon to Yaer.I ran over to see Chenchen, I recognized that dog, it was a little thing.That flower is mallow.It grew a lot taller, and the yellow petals were a little drooped by the cold outside.The baby is very happy to see the little things.Ya'er brought the baby over for Chenchen to see, and said that the baby was called Second Uncle.In fact, the baby could not speak at that time.Chenchen gave me the flowers and little things to hug, he took the baby and kissed it, then wept softly in his arms.The little thing got off and I ran into the house. I hugged Mallow and watched Chen Chen.Ya'er said to take a bath, I'll go to boil the water, your brother has cut up all of Yu Xin's dicks for you, and then soak in the bath water to activate the blood.My father came back from outside, saw us standing in the yard, and asked us why you two were standing outside if you didn't go back.I asked him what's wrong with you.He didn't speak.I said tell me.He said I went to take a shower.

Mother steamed our and Shiyang's zodiac steamed buns just like last year.Chenchen hasn't come out of the shower yet, so I'll call him.He changed clothes.Mother and Ya'er set up a table full of hearty food.Let's talk about eating.I said waiting.Chenchen said you come out.I got up and went out with him, and he took out the emerald ring and gave it to me.What do I mean by that.He said that Shiyang gave it to you, and this was originally yours.I said I gave it to you before.He said it was yours forever.I asked him where is Shiyang?He didn't speak, I asked him, where's Shiyang?He said go.I felt that there was something wrong with my ears, the world was a vacuum, and I couldn't hear clearly.I asked him what did you say.He said he went.I smiled and asked where he was.He said that it was the afternoon when the baby was born, he went and died.I said how is this possible, didn't I call you in the summer to say it was fine, and I called Shun Er and said it was fine, why did I go.You're kidding me, aren't you, aren't you, huh?He said calm down.I said I'm fucking calm.I handed him over to you, why did I go, why did I go! !How did you take care of him? Didn't you say you would love him and take care of him? You promised me so well at the beginning.I raised my fist and punched him on the cheek.Then he threw him to the ground, beat him hard, beat him hard, and I saw blood from the corner of his mouth.Like the color of Yu Xin's flowers.When my father and mother heard the movement, they all ran out and pulled me.I can't hear anything anymore.Just ask Chenchen's important person.Chen Chen said, if you hit the ring again it will be broken, it is what he left for you.I just remembered the ring.Then I turned on the courtyard lights and searched in situ, frantically.Use your hand to pull the snow that has been swept on the ground in one place.Chenchen held it in his hand and handed it to me, and I took it, feeling cool.I didn't speak for a long time, Ya'er was holding the child and watching me at the window of the house.Mother wiped the corners of Chenchen's mouth with paper.Ask me what's wrong with you.I burst into tears, as if something was stuck in my chest.You are so oppressed that you can't breathe.Sitting on the ground, lying on the ground, face up to the sky, let out a loud cry of grief.Neighbors all around came to see what happened.My father came over and gave me a slap in the face, and shouted loudly: "What are you doing in the New Year's Eve, who is dead?"It was quiet again.I took the ring and ran out frantically.Hearing my mother's voice calling me from behind, I might have gone crazy and ran to the south of the village in one breath.Throwing on the ground, howling fiercely, as if wanting to cry out all the heart, liver and five internal organs.Until I didn't know when, Ya'er came to find me.Tell me to cry if you want to cry, and sleep well after crying.There is no need to think about anything.I held her the same way as the last time I went on a long trip.I went back to take a bath, soaked in the water, picked up Yu Xin floating on the water in my hand, it was red, like blood and tears.The lights in Chenchen's room were dark.I wanted to talk to him, but I hated him from the bottom of my heart, hated him terribly.Mother and father never asked me anything.It was already very late at night, and the firecrackers from time to time made me think that this must be the quietest New Year's Eve in our family's history.I know my love is far away,

The little thing fell asleep on the sofa after eating.The baby looked at me on the Kang Kang.I was lying in Ya'er's arms with that ring on my hand, weeping uncontrollably.It was as if a piece of my heart had been ripped out, and it would never get better.The baby smiled and shed tears.The little thing jumped on the bed and lay down in front of the baby. I touched it with my hand and realized that we had never left.together all the time.The pot of mallow on the window sill that survived the catastrophe and thawed quietly after the double life and death is our best witness.

...Holding back tears, pretending to lower her face, she half raised her brows in shame.I don't know that the soul is broken, and there are dreams in the air...

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