sin game

Hasegawa went downstairs mechanically and walked blindly on the street.

I don't want to go home, but I don't know where to go.

Work matters and emotional matters were tied in his heart like a knot.

So that one accidentally bumped into the oncoming person with a sudden "bang".

"Ah, isn't that right..." Hasegawa's apology stopped suddenly when he raised his head and saw the person in front of him clearly - that was the person he had dreamed of.

"...Ah Chu?" He almost wanted to make complaints about such a bloody encounter.

"...Husband, why are you here?" Ah Chu was also stunned, and there was even a hint of surprise in his eyes when he saw that it was Hasegawa.

When Hasegawa heard Ah Chu call him "husband", Hasegawa felt even more flustered. Although he knew that Ah Chu was just calling him that way out of habit, he was still a little panicked and guilty, feeling that he was worthy of it now. It's no longer the pure address of Ah Chu.

"Hehe, you still haven't changed your mind... I'm just wandering around because I'm looking for a job..."

"Didn't the Immigration Bureau let you go back to work?"

He felt even more uneasy when Ah Chu mentioned this matter, so he pretended to be surprised and asked, "How do you know?"

"I, I just heard..."

Hey, Ah Chu, we've been together for so long, don't I understand you?You never say you care about me, you just do it for me silently.When I was sleeping on a bench in the park before, I knew you had come to see me. I could smell it, and I could feel that breath that only belonged to you. You looked at me quietly.

"Ah Chu..." Looking at Ah Chu's slightly haggard face and plain kimono, Hasegawa's guilt erodes every cell in his body in an all-round way.Obviously she is the daughter of a high-ranking official, she obviously has a prominent background, and she should enjoy the treatment of being served by others, but she has suffered so much with her.Not only did I give you nothing, but I also asked you to do so many things for me and worry so much.Now not only his body has fallen, but his emotions are also fast... Taizo Hasegawa, you fucking bastard!

And when the other end chased Hasegawa out and wanted to say that he would buy the wine tonight to find his silver, he had already stood across the street for a while.

Compared with the noisy and crowded crowd, his lonely figure is so dazzling.

In fact, I didn't intend to hide the meaning of standing here at all, but even if the street is empty now, I don't think you can see that I am here, Hasegawa.

Because your eyes are all her shadow.

You know, your expression is full of unconcealable pity.

You must love her very much.

You've never shown me that look before.

Well, I am absolutely not lost or sad.

So make time for me at night.

Let's just say that.

The sky did not know when it began to rain, and the pedestrians were covered with fluttering waves.

Hasegawa, who came out of the tavern, looked up at the clothes that Tianshun wrapped around his body tightly.Although his cheeks were flushed from drinking, he still felt astringent and cold when the wind blows his whole body.

Maybe it's because my heart is cold, huh.

He had already forgotten how he bid farewell to Ah Chu hastily in the afternoon, and how he left hastily in a posture close to running away.Walking home with crooked body, he doesn't remember how much he drank, only that he spent all the money he had on him to buy wine.

Thinking of the shining eyes of the boss holding the money at that time, I want to laugh.It seems that when you are in a bad mood, you will especially want to drink. This is probably a common problem of waste wood.

Oh shit, I forgot to leave some money for Yinshi to buy Strawberry Buffet, that guy will be nagging and unreasonable like a menopausal woman if he doesn't eat that every week.

...Ah, why did you suddenly think of Ah Yin?Well, didn't you say that you don't want to think about it?

Hahaha, drunk, drunk, really drunk...

It's raining harder and harder.

Hasegawa raised his head and looked at the gloomy sky, the big raindrops quickly dripped on the sunglasses, and slid down the corners of his eyes, gradually blurring his vision.

He awkwardly raised the back of his hand to wipe the water that fell on the lens, but found that he couldn't wipe it clean.

I really hate rainy days.

Hasegawa staggered back to the door of the house, but it was not until he took out the key to open the door that he saw Yinshi crouching in the corner with his head buried in his knees.

Next to him were bottles of shochu and soggy takoyaki skewers.

Yinshi's clothes were almost wet from the rain, and his hair was still dripping with water.

"...Ayin?" Hasegawa asked uncertainly, has he been waiting for me here all this time?

"Aha, you're back, uncle." Yinshi raised his head lazily, the rain slid down his cheeks, obviously looking terrible, but Yinshi's expression was smiling. "By the way, your canopy is really unreliable..."

"How long have you been waiting?" Hasegawa's heart beat wildly and loudly.He began to feel happy uncontrollably, but his heart was cruelly mixed with distress.

"It's not very long, I forgot to tell you in the afternoon that I will come in the evening." In fact, it really wasn't long, because I was thinking about things, so I don't really remember when it was dark and when it rained .

Hasegawa pulled Silver and hugged him tightly into his arms.His rationality can no longer support him to think about the meaning of this action, he only knows that he really wants to hug him at this moment, otherwise he will feel unbearable, very, very unbearable.

Why are you here, idiot!

I don't know if I can't wait to go back!

What's the point of being here alone in the rain!

Are you showing off your good health?

……

You, please don't smile like that at me again, I will feel that it is more cruel than crying.

Hasegawa didn't even have time to take a bath first, the only thing left in his mind was the idea of ​​grabbing Yinshi and dragging him into the room.

Although he drank a lot, he knew that he was sober at the moment.

Want him, want him so much.

Now, immediately, immediately!

All rationality, entanglement, and hesitation are all to hell!He really wanted to smooth his slightly wrinkled brows, and really wanted to kiss his wet forehead hair.

At that time, Hasegawa himself didn't know why he wanted to do it so impatiently. He didn't understand that he had already fallen a long time ago.

……

They embraced each other with their own thoughts, and replaced love words with fierce actions, as if only by constantly asking for could break the terrible silence and temporarily calm their hearts.

Coming out of the bathroom, Hasegawa sat down on the sofa and lit a cigarette.The sound of splashing rain mixed with the sound of water in the bathroom, and the alcohol was almost awakened.

In my mind, the shadows of Yinshi and Ah Chu overlapped repeatedly, shaking like a kaleidoscope, making my heart very confused.

Hey Hasegawa, do you love Ah Chu?

Definitely love, what kind of stupid questions are you asking, I said.

So, do you love Yinshi?

……

The discussion in my heart stopped abruptly.

Do you love Silver Hour?

Ah, it seems that I have never thought about this problem.

I will rely on him and miss him, love him and pamper him, but I never thought about whether this is love.Greed for the time with him, he can always conjure up so many tricks, always has such a bright smile, and is always so dazzling.

It's really a joy to be with him, it's him who fills up all his inferiority complex and cowardice bit by bit.

But is that love?

What is Yinshi's attitude towards me?Never asked, and he never talked about it.

Maybe he likes me a little too?If so, can we... can we... be together?

Yinshi came out of the bathroom wiping his face, the wet water still dripping from his body.

He took advantage of the opportunity to sit next to Hasegawa, and put his legs on the sofa on the other side in a comfortable posture.

"It's raining heavily, so I won't go back tonight. Anyway, I told the little devils that I'm going to drink." Yinshi looked out the window, for some reason, the sound of the rain always made people feel uneasy.

"Ayin, do you like me?" Hasegawa took a puff of cigarette, and sure enough, he would still be nervous when he said it.

"...Huh?" Yin Shi was stunned.

Very sudden question.

Like it?

"You're with me because you like it?" If you were your normal self, you would be very embarrassed to ask such a question, and you would be very uneasy and bury your head and dare not look at the other person.But this time Hasegawa didn't look away, but looked straight into Gintoki's eyes.

I really want to know, Ah Yin, do you like me?After so long, there must be someone who likes it, right?Don't deny it, give me some encouragement and... confidence!Otherwise, I don't know how to proceed...

Yinshi lowered his head slightly, avoiding the other party's eyes.

Aha, are you an idiot?

Nima, who will automatically send you to sleep for no reason.

Even if you go to find a lady, you still need to pay, okay?

Do you think being inserted is a glorious thing?

Because of this, I hide from Shinpachi and Kagura every time, and I lie to see you because I have a commission.Do you know how careful you are when you have to walk home in the middle of the night every time you finish, afraid of being discovered?

But even so, I still can't help but want to be with you.

I want to be with you.

So the reason or something, do you really need me to tell you before you know?

"Ah, I like it? Isn't it just a game between uncles, why are you asking me so seriously?" Yinshi raised the corners of his mouth, evoking a sarcastic smile.

Sure enough, I saw the shock in the other party's eyes that couldn't be concealed.

Ah, what are you talking about?

Come on, tell him your truth!

How can you still be brave now? You have long since lost the qualifications to be brave.

Is it that hard to say you like it?

Isn't it just two words? What are you afraid of, bastard!

asshole.

Damn.

Damn it……

Yinshi felt that his throat seemed to be locked, and he couldn't utter complete words, he could only force out some low and hoarse exhalations, which sounded like harsh mockery.

Please stop pushing me to smack my self-esteem, okay.

Silver mulberry, I still hope to live on it.

"Tch, it's meaningless at all, I'd better go back and forget about it." Gintoki pulled off the bath towel and put on his still wet coat before going out without waiting for the other party's answer. He couldn't bear to look back at Hasegawa's face.

In fact, I dare not look at it.

Ha, really stupid as hell.

"See you later, Hasegawa."

Actually, even if I say I like it, what's the use?

The reason why you ask me this question means that you are also confused, do you feel hesitant?Two men or something, it really doesn't make sense.

Now, go back to Miss Ah Chu's side, that is your happiness.

The author has something to say: It is indeed a crackdown, so I had to delete H.