sin game

"Ayin! You are finally back, let me tell you, my mother-in-law has come to collect the rent, and I can't find you anywhere, I..." Before the new eight chapters were finished, I met Yinshi with a blank expression on his face. After passing by, they went straight to the room, and there was no sound after the door slammed shut.

"Xin Baji, what's wrong with Little Silver, Alu?"

"I always feel that he is a bit strange recently..."

"Could it be that there is not enough sugar?"

"No, it's a different feeling..."

"Ayin, dinner is ready, don't you want to eat?" Xinpachi knocked on the door outside, but there was no sound inside, Xinpachi thought for a while but couldn't help but pushed open the door and walked in.

Yinshi didn't turn on the light, just lay straight on the bed and looked at the ceiling, his eyes were empty and lifeless.

"Ayin..." Shinpachi was still thinking about how to speak, but Kagura on the side had already rushed forward.

"Hey, I don't have such a negative and ignorant son!" Kagura grabbed Gintoki's collar desperately, his eyes full of concern.

"I'm talking to you, do you hear me!"

"It hurts..." There was a soft whisper.

"You went to fight?"

"it hurts……"

"What's the matter with you, Little Silver?"

"I said, my stomach hurts so much, I can't eat anymore..." Yinshi twitched the corners of his mouth and tried to smile, "You guys eat, don't worry about me."

"Ayin, are you feeling unwell?" Xinba paused for a few seconds, "Shall I go buy some medicine?"

"No need, just sleep for a while." Yin Shi stretched out his finger and pointed outside, "Go and eat quickly, I'm tired and want to sleep for a while."

Shinpachi hesitated for a moment, but still pulled up Kagura, "Then you should have a good rest, and tell me if you feel uncomfortable. You haven't come back all day and night, everyone is very worried."

"I'm sorry, I won't do it next time..." Gintoki slowly closed his eyes, and the darkness gradually swallowed everything.

Already... there will be no next time.

The happiness that everyone wants to strive for is actually a trivial thing.

But for this little bit of happiness, we have to sacrifice a lot, a lot.

Hasegawa picked up the bottle and drank it down, the familiar spicy feeling successfully paralyzed his nerves.

Ah Yin, you are right to leave, you are still young, you will have your future, that is a beauty that I cannot touch no matter how I stretch my hands.We are all tired, so I won't keep you anymore, I can't afford to delay.I have stubbornly dragged this relationship until now. In fact, it is really a very small person's way. You really didn't say a word wrong... It doesn't matter if you don't like me, so you won't feel too much pain, pain or something , It’s good that I know what it’s like, well, because I’m used to it.At my age, I have been strong enough to learn to bear the jokes without heroes and idols. What is the hardship?

He laughed dryly a few times, Hasegawa continued to drink with his head buried in the wine.The smell of Yinshi still lingers in this room, and the encounter with Ah Yin seems to have happened yesterday.Some people don't need to remember it deliberately, but every time they think about it inadvertently, it is so profound that it is hard to let go.

Hasegawa raised his hand to take off his sunglasses, and casually wiped the corners of his eyes, only to find that they were already filled with hot tears.Hasegawa looked at his tears-wet fingers with a smile, "Fool...you bastard..." His tone was already choked with sobs, and his words were somewhat illogical: "Why did you say that...I really... ...I really like you!"

Obviously I like it, why is it so painful to like someone.

There is nothing that cannot be changed. The only constant in the world is change.

The days passed by so casually, whether it was suffering or sweetness, time never ran away or slowed down.

From that day on, Yinshi became the previous boss of Master House.He is still the good-for-nothing who loves life, sleeping late and drooling over the weather forecast hosted by Yukino.Still idle, still love strawberry milk and special red bean rice bowl.When he is free, he will still go to the Xixiang store to play small papers, but he will never look at anyone with such burning eyes. Most of the time, there is still a bottomless emptiness inside.These eyes can hold the whole lake when they are open, but it never drops a drop of rain, how stingy is that?

Hijikata has been to the store many times, drinking with Yinshi as a guest, just like before.Every time Hijikata came, Yinshi would show that long-lost smile, chatting like an old friend.Hijikata would still express his concern awkwardly when he drank too much occasionally, but at this time, Gintoki would drink the rest of the wine silently with a smile.He felt sweet from the bottom of his heart, but he didn't have any other thoughts about Hijikata other than friends.

Occasionally, I will suffer from insomnia at night, and I will repeatedly think about being alone and unable to fall asleep uncontrollably.Miss him, want to know his recent situation, what is he doing now, will it be the same as me?Yinshi sometimes feels that such obsession is terrible, and it can support a person to lose sleep in such repeated thoughts all night.

But after waking up in the morning, he will return to his original self, maybe doing nothing, maybe busy all day.

No matter how unforgettable love is, it will not be everything to a person.

Hasegawa never went to Gintoki again.

Every day at dawn, I went to the bureau, and at night, I dragged my tired body back to the rented place after everyone had left.Fill yourself with work, so that life will not be so sad.

The subordinates also persuaded himself many times that his body would collapse if he worked so hard.But he didn't mind at all, no matter what the job was, he would take it on and do it whether he had to handle it himself or not.The praise from above came like a tide, and all kinds of praises were repeated day after day in different patterns, which made him almost memorize it.But for these he just smiled and passed, he knew that doing this wasn't even for work's sake, it was just selfish to forget.

Every day, he would tell himself to forget that person, and sometimes he would say it several times when he couldn't bear it. Although the effect was minimal, he persisted anyway.

In his spare time, he would still sit on the benches in the park, but he didn't dare to sit all afternoon like before, for he was afraid of meeting him.

Hasegawa quit the habit of going to taverns to drink, and he didn't go to the casino much.This made him make up a lot of determination, after all, he only has such a little hobby.

When I am addicted to alcohol, I buy it at home and drink it, and I don’t go to bed until I am delirious from drinking.This way I won't be thinking about you anymore and I won't be able to sleep.Maybe you will appear in my dream and tell me that you have always loved me.Hey, this kind of dream is difficult, it depends on my luck.

They just lost touch.

Even though they are in the same place, they are separated by a short distance, but they have never seen each other again like the bloody eight o'clock plot.

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