sin game

I've always been a little absent-minded at work recently, and I haven't stepped into the office on time for a long time. If this continues, I guess it won't be far from being fired again.Hasegawa was thinking while walking, the magnificent and gorgeous building in front of him felt so unreal.

"Boss, Madam came here just now."

"Huh?" Hasegawa frowned unconsciously when he heard Ah Chu's name. She was a scar in his heart that couldn't heal, and he no longer doubted this.Especially recently, I am very afraid of hearing her name, or news about her, and I don't want to disintegrate the cruelty that I built up with great difficulty in an instant.

"Madam brought some of your clothes over, she said that you were too anxious to forget when you went out, for fear that you would freeze."

Hasegawa subconsciously took the clothes, which she bought when she went shopping with her the winter before last, and she said the color was beautiful and matched her very well.Touching the thick and warm fabric of the coat, Hasegawa felt a pang of sadness in his heart.What have you done, why did you push each other to such a dead end?That is the woman you once loved the most, Hasegawa!

It has been some days since I moved out, and it seems that I have been avoiding thinking about her.Her eyebrows, her smile, she didn't even dare to think of her name.In fact, he really is a cowardly man.But since the moment I admitted that I like Shang Yinshi, I have betrayed my own soul, so when I face this unethical relationship again, I no longer feel timid.But for Ah Chu, he felt so distressed that he didn't know what to do.I'm sorry, I failed to give you the promised happiness.

Gintoki sat alone in Hasegawa's rented house, and the sky gradually darkened.There was a gap in the window, and a little light came in, depressing gray and white.The wind blows in and hits the face, making it a little painful from the cold.

He didn't know why he came here, although Hasegawa had already given him the key, but it was the first time waiting here for him to come back.

I thought about it densely, but every time I wanted to smooth it out, I couldn't remember what I was thinking about.On the contrary, the figure of the couple in the afternoon has been imprinted in my mind, and it is terribly clear.Those pictures involved the nerves, and even the heart began to ache slightly, which lasted from the afternoon until now.

I can't tell what's wrong, but I just feel sad for no reason.

When the door was opened, Yinshi quickly changed his expression, and after seeing the slightly dazed eyes of the other party, he smiled and said, "Welcome back."

Hasegawa froze in place for a few seconds before realizing it, stepped forward, pulled Gintoki closer and stuffed it into his arms, rubbed against his warm neck, and said emotionally: "I like it so much..."

Yinshi smiled faintly, and understood that he didn't care about the incomprehensible words: "I've worked hard, and I have something to buy."

Hasegawa kept his posture still, rubbing his lips and teeth against Gintoki's collar, and said in a coquettish tone: "Well, okay..."

Ah Yin, it's good that you are here.With you here, I feel that I am full of motivation again, and those cowardly and cowardly negative emotions will not keep jumping out to clamor and demonstrate to me.In fact, you have always been such a reassuring existence, Gintoki.

"Eat more." Yinshi leaned on the table and looked at Hasegawa with his head propped up, his eyes softly fell on the other person's body, from the hair to the corner of the mouth, there was a reluctance and nostalgia that he didn't even realize.Of course, it is impossible for Hasegawa, who is happily eating dinner at the moment, to find out.

Hey Hasegawa, you must be suffering too.I know, it's not that you haven't struggled, you just never want to show me that side.Your gentle and kind heart will not allow you to live like this.You always like to show a happy and relaxed look in front of me, as if nothing is worth worrying about.Do you really think I'm a fool?How can I not know what you are, idiot.However, I have been pretending to be stupid and living this kind of sweet life that you exchange for pain, I am an asshole.

Gintoki revealed a bleak smile of self-mockery, which happened to be seen by Hasegawa who raised his head.

"What's the matter, Ah Yin? You haven't eaten yet, aren't you hungry?"

"Actually, I..." Yinshi deliberately dragged out a long ending. He wanted to say something to relieve the unsettling negative emotions in his heart, but he just started but couldn't continue.You really can't tell, Sakata Gintoki.

"Well, what happened?"

"Actually, I'm not hungry at all. I've been doing nothing all day. It doesn't look like you are working."

The left cheek was suddenly pinched gently by the other party's hand: "You, you are so thin, you don't want to eat more. Wait and buy your favorite chocolate parfait." The warm and familiar touch, and then Coupled with his iconic smiling face, Yinshi suddenly felt a sharp pain in his chest.Hey, they are still together, no matter how you look at them, they are two people who love each other, why are you so sad? I said...

"Ayin, something is wrong with you today, why is this expression?"

"Ah...no, probably because you are too generous today, so I can't believe it."

"Hey, when did I become ungenerous!"

Ignoring Hasegawa's angry rebuttal, Yinshi stood up and walked to the toilet, "Oh, my stomach hurts, Ah Yin, I need to go to the toilet, you eat first, or it will be cold..."

After entering the toilet, Yinshi quickly closed the door, closed his eyes, covered his chest, and panted softly.

In fact, the body is fine, and there is no injury, but the pain is so painful that I can't help but want to cry.

Maybe it's human instinct.Before losing, you will be instinctively sad.

Kabukicho on a winter night always has a special flavor.Eloquent crowds, dazzling neon lights, crowded and lively.

Gintoki and Hasegawa walked on the street, patiently turning down invitations from various taverns that kept popping up.Hasegawa was wearing a thick windbreaker and wrapped in a scarf and looked very warm, while Gintoki was still only wearing a thin plain kimono.

The warm touch suddenly spread from the cold palm, and Hasegawa's palm covered his own.After being dazed for a few seconds, Yinshi clenched those hands tightly to absorb some heat, and then let go. "Could it be that uncle is so useless that he can't tell the difference between the street and the house?"

Predicting that he would say that, Hasegawa scratched his hair, "I'm afraid you're cold."

Yinshi couldn't help but look back at him, and smiled playfully: "My heart isn't cold anymore."

Both of them laughed tacitly, and then Hasegawa tried to grab Yinshi's hand again, but was knocked off by the other party every time, and then he grabbed Yinshi's hand and was knocked off again.

Gintoki looked at the childish Hasegawa with some amusement, which didn't match his appearance at all. "Hey, don't you feel tired after going back and forth like this?" But such a fuss made your body warmer.

"Then you can hold me."

"...Go to the dessert shop in front and let me go."

"Hey, good." Hasegawa quickly took Yinshi's hand and rubbed it lightly, "Ayin, do you want to stay tonight?"

Gintoki actually wanted to say no, but that kind of crazy nostalgia engulfed his reason, as if he really... didn't have time.

"it is good."

"Then let's buy some supper and go back home. Do you want a drink, Yin?"

"……it is good."

It was almost one o'clock in the morning when Gintoki felt that the noisy world had quieted down, and Hasegawa, who was drunk, was lying on the table and still talking nonsense.

"Well... Ah Chu, don't be like this..."

"Silver time...Silver time, don't go..."

Yinshi helped Hasegawa back to the bedroom, put him on the bed, patiently helped him take off his clothes and shoes, and then bent down to kiss Hasegawa's forehead softly.After finishing the silver, I got into the bed and lay down next to him.Hasegawa's chest was warm and his heart was beating rhythmically, this feeling made Gintoki feel very stable.Take a good rest Hasegawa, you are really tired.

Gintoki carefully took off the other party's sunglasses, and used his fingers to trace the outline of Hasegawa's face, from left to right, and it seemed that it was not enough, so he added his own lips.

Hasegawa was tickled by Gintoki's kiss and snorted softly.

"Hey, let's live as before." Yinshi looked at the sleeping person in front of him, his eyes were still bright in the dark night, with a bit of bitterness in his eyes, "Don't...don't make things difficult for me anymore."

Gintoki lay down again, holding Hasegawa tightly from behind, trying to get closer to each other.He thought of the gentle eyes that the man who always wore sunglasses and liked to giggle showed when he woke up a long time ago, and what he said at that time was always imprinted in his mind: "I'm really good I hope that what I see when I wake up every morning is not sunshine or rain, but you, Yinshi."

Such love words are simply unbearably sweet.

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