My brother became a playboy

The footsteps of winter came unknowingly, and it was the annual year-end summary meeting again. I won a circle of awards and was entrusted by the dean to invite my legal husband Zhao Xing to come and guide me.

I didn’t realize until I called Zhao Xing that we hadn’t contacted for more than half a month. The last time we contacted, he told me that the divorce procedure was almost finished. If we were lucky, we might be able to catch up with Xu Nuo before he passed away.

After he said that, I knew very well that the divorce procedures would definitely not be completed before Xu Xu passed away.Promise that he doesn't want to marry me, Zhao Xing doesn't want to give me a chance to remarry, and as for me, I don't actually have any plans to make a fuss.

Xu Nuo is the third person between me and Zhao Xing, a lover I can't put on the table, I once thought about liking him a little more, but unfortunately, his life is not long enough, I can only turn the quick amount into Take back the qualitatively changed feelings, and then pave the way for yourself bit by bit.

——I am very good at this, otherwise how could I calmly say to Zhao Xing: "Let's get a divorce."

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Xu Nuo survived Christmas Eve but not Christmas. He passed away peacefully in the hospital, in his sleep.

Before going to bed that day, he was in good spirits and talked to me a lot.

He said: "Hurry up and hurry up, and finally finish the novel."

I asked him, "Can I read your novel?"

He shook his head and said, "Don't look, I will die in society."

He said so, and I didn't force it, I just asked him: "Do you have any last wishes?"

He thought for a while and said, "I know you won't marry me."

I pinched his dry cheek and said, "When I was in Italy before, if you agreed, I would."

He touched my fingers and said, "But you won't be happy."

After a while, he said again: "Can you not divorce Zhao Xing?"

Without any hesitation, I replied to him directly: "No."

"Then you have to take care of your body," Xu Nuo nagging, like an old man, "I always feel that after you get divorced, you will get sick, or even..."

Xu Nuo didn't say those two words, but I knew what he wanted to say.

This world is so dull and boring, there are too many people who have nothing to worry about, choose that way.

"I won't," I said seriously, "Zhao Xing is still alive, I don't want to die."

Xu Nuo stared at me for a while, then he muttered "you're such an asshole" and turned around.

This is the first time since he was admitted to the hospital that he fell asleep with his back to me.

He passed away quietly in his sleep, without seeing the light of Christmas morning.

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Xu promises that he doesn't have any relatives or friends. It seems that he asked me if I want to see his family before, and it was just a test.

His will was very simple, everything was left to me, including the house I gave him.

In the end, what I left him was a cemetery and a company.

What he left me was a relationship and a company. Generally speaking, neither of us took advantage of the other, and we could be called good friends.

I spent a few days helping Xu Nuo with a small funeral, watched his urn be buried in the selected grave, and then hurried to the year-end summary meeting of our institute.

When I entered the venue, the meeting had already started. Zhao Xing, as a special guest, was standing on the stage to give a speech. My seat was in the first row. When I sat down, he glanced at me and spoke without any pause , smooth and natural.

After he stepped off the stage, he went straight to the vacant seat next to my seat and sat down. There was a table between the two of us on the sofa. There were two table signs side by side on the table, very close to each other. Maybe the person who placed the table signs intentionally of.

I went to the stage to receive awards again and again, and finally spoke on behalf of scientific researchers. When I was speaking, I looked at the audience, and Zhao Xing was taking pictures of me with his mobile phone. Everything was just like before.

There was a dinner after the meeting. Zhao Xing and I were half full and left the venue early.As usual in previous years, I would leave my car in the parking lot and take his car back to our house.

But today at the entrance of the parking lot, he asked me how to get back, and I replied: "I will drive by myself."

He stopped. In the night sky behind him, there were moon and stars, but there were no fireworks restricted by the city.

He was wearing a long and expensive windbreaker, with his hands in his pockets, and he smiled and said, "Happy New Year."

I replied to him coldly: "Happy New Year."

I guess he still has the second half of the sentence, so I just waited for him and looked at him.

After dozens of seconds, he stretched out his hand and touched my hair. I dodged his hand with some annoyance, and I heard him say: "The divorce procedure is completed, and you are free."

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We once had a very big wedding.

Almost all relatives and friends from both parties were present, and all guests were provided with food and accommodation in a seven-star hotel, as well as round-trip air tickets and wages for lost wages.

The wedding lasted for three days. From queuing up before the wedding, to a Western-style wedding, and then to a Chinese-style wedding, one wedding planning company was not enough, so we hired three.

When we exchanged rings, there were ten cameras shooting at us, and videos from various angles were edited overnight afterwards.

But after the wedding, we returned to the luxury villa worth hundreds of millions, but I didn't feel very happy.

I asked Zhao Xing: "Are you happy?"

Zhao Xing twitched the corners of his mouth, the smile couldn't reach his eyes, he said: "Of course I'm happy."

Of course I knew he was lying, because he kept looking sour when we said our vows and promised our guests that we would be faithful in the future.

The guests present may not know that we, the newlyweds, have both cheated a long time ago, and even made an agreement that we will continue to play our own ways after we get married.

I know very well that there are many unfaithful couples like us, but many years ago, when we first fell in love, it would never have occurred to us that one day we would join the ranks.

I rubbed the ring on my finger, looked at Zhao Xing's imperfect disguise, and casually suggested: "Otherwise, we can get a divorce tomorrow, and actually getting married is meaningless."

Zhao Xing was very calm, he poured himself a glass of water, and said to me: "The honeymoon trip is already booked, let's go play around first, getting married is getting a certificate, don't think too much."

I'm not a fool, of course I know that he said these words just to stabilize me. To be honest, I can't think of anyone other than Zhao Xing who I would like to marry, so I just let him fool me and continue our marriage relationship .

Later, when we got older, we were not so easily angry, we were obsessed with our careers, and we each had lovers outside. Gradually, we didn't quarrel much, and we no longer felt that there was anything wrong with our daily life, and we even had a bit of harmony and harmony. The feeling of respecting each other as guests.

I guess Zhao Xing is satisfied with our current situation. He may have thought that when we are getting old, our skin is slack, our physical strength is weak, and it is not so easy to provoke new peach blossoms. Guarding the only person I loved when I was a teenager can also get a "grow old together" ending.

But I am not satisfied with such days.

Didn't I suddenly realize that I want to divorce after living with Zhao Xing for a few years?

From the very beginning of my marriage, I have been pessimistic about this marriage relationship.

But I have to say that people always have a fluke mentality. At that time, I also thought, maybe the future will not be so bad, maybe Zhao Xing and I can find a way of life that makes each other comfortable, maybe the bottom line I insist on is not worth it Mention.

Occasionally, when I see Zhao Xing's happy appearance, when I am immersed in my sensual senses, and when I see my new lover smiling like flowers, I do have the illusion of "this is not bad".

But when I read Zhao Xing's report message, when I casually told Zhao Xing about my new lover, when Zhao Xing and I mixed together with the traces of others, I would clearly realize To - this is not the life I expected when I nodded and agreed to associate with Zhao Xing.

But this world is not black and white. Who doesn't love the fresh flesh, who doesn't love the life of "freedom". If you get rid of the so-called moral and emotional cleanliness, you can still live - after all I also don't want to be separated from Zhao Xing, our relationship is indeed weakening.

Only occasionally, I would ask myself, if Zhao Xing didn't have that proposal, would I be willing to really separate from him.

Over the years, the relationship has become weaker and weaker. Is it because we have long been tired of each other, or because of the chaotic extramarital relationship.

I have always been an inquisitive character, but occasionally when I think about these questions, I always try to get to the bottom of it and muddle through.

I just miss the old Zhao Xing more and more, the foolish, deceitful, loving me, extremely possessive of me, who would even make an appointment with the boy who handed me a love letter to Xiao Shulin, clamoring To beat each other up.

But what I have is the current Zhao Xing, who is frank and shrewd, who never changes his face when we meet and invites me to have a threesome.

Of course, Zhao Xing also misses me.

After all, in the past, I obviously loved and cared about him, and most of my world was filled with him, but now, I sometimes even deliberately hurt him, and he can’t see clearly how much love I still have for him. I can’t see exactly which direction our future will go—I seem to treat all lovers very well for a certain period of time, so good that he will suspect that he is not the most important in my heart. The most special one is an expired product that can be thrown away at any time.