The substitute always wants to be Bai Yueguang

Shu Yuan was wearing a white down jacket and stood there with a real appearance. Lu Yingchuan froze for a moment, thinking that he was hallucinating. He subconsciously hid his crutches behind him, even if it was an hallucination, he didn't want Shu Yuan to see his ugliness.

It wasn't until he saw Shu Yuan took a step forward, and the shoes made a screeching sound on the ground, that Lu Yingchuan realized that it was not an illusion.

The cold wind was blowing up through his right leg, piercing his heart and bones. He bent down and hurriedly tried to find a prosthesis.

It was really Shu Yuan, he didn't have time to ask Shu Yuan why he was here, but felt that his appearance was ugly and he didn't want to show Shu Yuan.

But it was already too late, Shu Yuan locked the door, walked a few steps forward, and stood a few steps away looking at him.

Lu Yingchuan saw that the prosthetic limb was at the head of the bed, and he couldn't reach it. He was in a hurry. Shu Yuan's eyes seemed to be burning on his body, and he roared frantically:

"Xiang Ya, get out!"

But Zhou Xiao was guarding outside so that no one would disturb them, and he wouldn't let them in when he heard Lu Yingchuan yelling.

Assistant Xiang heard Lu Yingchuan's panic and loss, and said anxiously:

"Mr. Zhou, Mr. Lu is not wearing prosthetics!"

Zhou Xiao said in a deep voice:

"Will he always wear prosthetics in front of Shu Yuan from now on?"

Seeing that no one answered him, Lu Yingchuan wanted to drive Shu Yuan out, but he lost a calf, so he had to use a cane to move forward.

In just a few seconds, he fantasized about how to stick the cane nicely, but he knew very clearly that he definitely wouldn't walk nicely, but wobbled like a clown.

He staggered Shu Yuan's gaze, and begged in a hoarse voice:

"Shu Yuan...you go out first..."

Seeing Lu Yingchuan like this, Shu Yuan felt his heart ache. He wanted to sneer, but he couldn't get the words out of his ears.

Lu Yingchuan was standing a few steps away from him, but he felt that these short steps seemed to be covered with scorching flint, and it would be difficult for him to take even a slight step forward.

Shu Yuan didn't speak, and looked him up and down. He didn't have a shaggy beard, no strong smell of cigarettes and alcohol, and his hair was even meticulously groomed, but he felt a strong sense of depression. Those who do not have no life.

This strong sense of contradiction is like a serrated knife that will pull in his heart, each knife will scrape deeper layers of flesh, which is more tormenting than clean pain.

He looked up and down but never dared to land on Lu Yingchuan's lap. It seemed that he could not accept this fact more than Lu Yingchuan.

Shu Yuan finally put his eyes on Lu Yingchuan's eye sockets. He saw that he was chasing him away, and said in a trembling voice:

"What are you going to do after I go out? Wear prosthetics?"

A short sentence made Lu Yingchuan's eye sockets flicker, and then he resigned to his fate. He leaned against the window with red eyes in frustration, and stood up straight as if resigning to his fate, thus revealing his ugly and mutilated body in front of Shu Yuan.

The phantom limb pain in my right leg suddenly started at this moment. The pain was fierce, more painful than ever, worse than when I woke up from the amputation.

Under Shu Yuan's eyes, he has nothing to hide.

Shu Yuan finally walked into him, he looked down at Lu Yingchuan's legs, his voice was hoarse, not like his original voice:

"why did not you tell me?"

Lu Yingchuan looked at the person close at hand, and resisted the urge to take him into his arms. He knew that Shu Yuan was just the medicine that Zhou Xiao and the others found for him, and he definitely didn't come back because he still liked him. Missing a leg so come back and have a look.

According to Shu Yuan's character, he would probably be soft-hearted. Lu Yingchuan looked at the top of Shu Yuan's head, thinking for a moment that he should use Shu Yuan's soft-heartedness to keep him by his side.

After a while, he secretly accused himself of being selfish, just like four years ago, he only cared about himself.

Shu Yuan is already engaged, and maybe he will start a family in spring or a little later, he shouldn't do anything to deepen his troubles.

Lu Yingchuan took a deep breath and said:

"There's nothing to tell you. We have nothing to do with each other. The two children were kidnapped because of me. I'm already satisfied with only paying for one leg and getting them back. I don't care."

"If you don't care, then why did you want to hide your cane and wear prosthetics when I came?" Shu Yuan's voice trembled with a trace of anger, "If you don't care, then why did you become like this to embarrass the people around you? They had no choice but to call me back to see you?"

Lu Yingchuan trembled all over, Shu Yuan's accusation made him feel ashamed, he looked at the anger in Shu Yuan's eyes, and said in a low voice:

"I'm sorry, I don't have any intention of disturbing you...don't worry about me, just go back."

Shu Yuan looked at the panic in his eyes, his heart ached, and his eyes were blurred:

"I really don't want to care about you, and I don't want to know whether you eat or sleep, I don't want to know anything related to you, if it's not for the sake of the children, looking at Yunzheng and Grandpa Lu Damn, I don't care if you live or die!"

Shu Yuan seemed to be accusing Lu Yingchuan, but in fact he was resentful that he always lost his principles when encountering Lu Yingchuan. He just imagined being as indifferent as he said.

But it can't be done at all. He came here because he wanted to come here, and it has nothing to do with the child or anyone else.

He came because of Lu Yingchuan.

Lu Yingchuan's eyes became darker because of his words, he looked at Shu Yuan's red eye sockets, and his heart wrenched together in pain.

He lowered his eyelids and said softly:

"I know."

He is very clear about Shu Yuan's thoughts, but the lethality of being clear is different from hearing that he doesn't like him, the latter is hundreds of times more powerful than the former.

Shu Yuan looked at him, and suddenly thought of the large bouquet of roses that had been covered with frost at the door, and his breathing suddenly choked. .

Shu Yuan turned his face away, trying to relieve the soreness in his eyes:

"I want to go home early. You have to eat and sleep well so that I can leave early. I will supervise you before you get well."

Lu Yingchuan:

"You go back, I promise to eat and sleep well, you don't have to worry."

"I don't need to worry about you, I just want to leave you early, that's all." Shu Yuan didn't expect that he would continue to output to Lu Yingchuan, seeing Lu Yingchuan's pale face because of his words, he couldn't bear it but Can't stand it.

After speaking, Shu Yuan went out and asked Assistant Xiang to bring the porridge, and then rudely pulled Lu Yingchuan and forced him to sit at the table to eat.

Lu Yingchuan didn't resist, he ate a big bowl of porridge cleanly, he hadn't eaten well for a long time, and suddenly he ate so much at once that he felt sick, and his stomach was burning.

Shu Yuan watched him sit quietly on the sofa and look at himself after eating, his eyes followed him all the time.

Poor and annoying, he stood up and walked out of the ward.

Seeing him go, Lu Yingchuan didn't dare to follow him even if he wanted to see him again, for fear of annoying him again.

His stomach was uncomfortable, he endured it again and again, and finally went to the toilet and vomited up the porridge he just ate.

He rinsed it off with boiling water, stretched out his hand to caress the edge of the washbasin, turned on the water and splashed cold water on his cheeks.

He didn't expect Zhou Xiao to call Shu Yuan, God knows how much he wanted to hold Shu Yuan in his arms when he saw Shu Yuan.

However, he knew that he did not have the qualifications.

Shu Yuan walked out of the ward, and said to the assistant:

"Give me your Mr. Lu's medical records."

Shu Yuan looked at each word in the medical record and became more and more shocked. Except for Lu Yingchuan's severe malnutrition, he had all the psychological obstacles that would appear in phantom limb pain.

After reading these, Shu Yuan was breathing tremblingly, and he also said that he didn't care if he had phantom limb pain. If he didn't care, how could he have phantom limb pain mainly caused by psychological factors!

Through Zhou Xiao's few words to his assistant, Shu Yuan knew that Lu Yingchuan seemed to really not care about this calf in the past few months.

Shu Yuan closed his eyes. In fact, thinking about it, he knew why Lu Yingchuan did this. He was actually arrogant, so how could he easily express his regret in front of them?

To put it bluntly, Lu Yingchuan just didn't want them to feel pitiful. Shu Yuan didn't understand this kind of self-esteem, and besides not understanding, there was also a distress that couldn't be ignored.

In the next few days, Lu Yingchuan and Shu Yuan basically stayed in the hospital every day, and the two children would also go there.

But Lu Yingchuan is no longer as clingy as before, and seems to have a shadow on the last time Lu Yingchuan disappeared in their lives.

Seeing these changes, Lu Yingchuan's heart naturally aches, but it's fine if the child doesn't get close to him anymore, anyway, they will separate again, and when they get close to him, they will be sad again.

They are no longer clingy to Lu Yingchuan, but they are close to Qi Feng, and they often make video calls with Qi Feng.

Lu Yingchuan can often see the cute smiles on their faces when they and Qi Feng make videos. They share with Qi Feng what happened, and what new things they met with good friends in kindergarten.

Every time at this time, he felt extremely bitter in his heart. He didn't know what the children said, and the children never mentioned it.

He has never been so jealous of a person, and his whole body aches from jealousy.

Occasionally he couldn't help hugging the child, and the child would struggle not to let him be hugged, and Lu Yingchuan stopped moving after a few times.

Not far away, Shu Yuan saw the loneliness in Lu Yingchuan's eyes, and lightly pursed his lips. He never thought that the children liked Qi Feng so much, and he had no way to interfere with who the children liked more.

He grabbed the food box tightly, walked over, and said:

"Let's eat."

Lu Yingchuan turned around, took a sip of lotus root pork ribs soup from Shu Yuan, and said:

"Thank you."

After speaking, he mustered up his courage and said with some expectation:

"Want to eat together?"

After the question, Lu Yingchuan clenched his fingers slightly, and as expected, Shu Yuan shook his head. Even though he knew the result, he still felt disappointed.

Thinking about it, Shu Yuan hated him so much, why would he eat with him?It's because he fantasizes too much.

How did Shu Yuan think that Lu Yingchuan would ask for a meal with him, he just happened to have no appetite and was worried about what to cook for him in the afternoon.