The substitute always wants to be Bai Yueguang

He thought that as long as he fled far away, it would be fine not to let the children be named Lu.

But he was still too naive, that was Lu Yingchuan, how could he let him go so easily?

Shu Yuan hugged the child tightly. For the past four years, he has been working hard to live. Even if he was wronged, lying in bed at night and unable to sleep, he still held back his tears and made himself a more qualified father.

I thought that my heart would slowly harden like this, but I still didn't expect that when I met Lu Yingchuan again, he would turn back into the incompetent Lu Yingchuan.

He could only abandon his self-esteem and beg Lu Yingchuan again. He didn't have any self-esteem in his life, and he could only accept his fate if he was manipulated by others.

It's not that I haven't had a slap in the face dream of revenge, but reality is not a novel. How can there be so many good things?

If he can learn to play the violin and open a small shop with a decent business, he has already broken the status quo of many people.

Even so, he has worked so hard for so long, but he can't compete with Lu Yingchuan. The other party can wipe out the life he has worked so hard for with just one look, so he doesn't even have the right to hate Lu Yingchuan.

Before Lu Yingchuan could speak, Lu Zhen frowned, walked to Shu Yuan with a cane and helped him up:

"With me here, does he dare?"

Shu Yuan paused, and in the next second he saw Lu Zhen picking up his crutches and sweeping towards Lu Yingchuan's legs. The old man's voice was full of anger:

"Kneel down."

Seeing this, Shu Yuan's face turned pale, and he subconsciously went to stand in front of Grandpa Lu, for fear of what would happen to Lu Yingchuan.

However, before he could apologize, Lu Yingchuan actually knelt down, staring at Shu Yuan all the time, his chest was trembling, and his eyes were red and red.

The longing and guilt that had been suppressed for four years in a pair of deep eyes could no longer be controlled.

Shu Yuan is not the only one suffering.

Lu Yingchuan spends every moment in pain. Four years ago, when Shu Yuan was framed by someone with a big belly, he should have stood by his side and protected him. Why did the pain have to be punished at the most vicious time in the world? he.

Lu Yingchuan wanted to say sorry and explain.

But there was no way to explain the misunderstanding between them at this moment. It was really too long, as if it could not be finished in three days and three nights.

The two children were frightened by the atmosphere and cried loudly. Seeing this, Aunt Fan quickly took the children from Shu Yuan's arms and went back to comfort them.

There were only three people left in the yard. It was clearly still midsummer, and the cicadas kept singing, but Shu Yuan seemed to be in the cold winter, shivering all over.

My mind is blank, nothing is there.

Looking at his grandson on the ground, Lu Zhen was so angry that he pulled his cane again.

This little grandson is talented and intelligent, and he has been loved by him since he was a child. He always thought that a boy should be calm and stable, but now it seems that his grandson's morals are bad to the bone.

After learning the truth about Lu Zhai's death, he was already desperate for that place, and he didn't want to care about many things.

Regarding Shu Yuan's matter, Steward Li secretly contacted him and talked to him about it.

"You still have the face! You don't want to be reconciled until you kill someone!" Lu Zhen thumped his crutch on the ground, "I warn you, now Shu Yuan is my apprentice, and the children are my disciples and grandchildren. , you don’t want them, I want them!”

"I want it!" Lu Yingchuan endured the pain and shouted hoarsely, "Who said I don't want it, I never thought of harming them..."

Shu Yuan stared at Lu Yingchuan sharply at the completely opposite words from four years ago. What does he mean?

Is it because Lin Yanbei can't have children, or because he lost his fertility and can't have children, so he wants to be a cheap father?

All kinds of things came together that night, and there was too much information for him to sort it out, so he just whispered:

"Lu Yingchuan, I have nothing, you can't... grab me."

Lu Yingchuan looked at Lu Zhen and said:

"Grandpa, I swear I won't do anything to Shu Yuan, give him and me some space."

Lu Zhen looked deeply at Lu Yingchuan, snorted coldly, turned around and went outside to guard, as long as there was any movement, he could come in immediately.

In the end, there were only two people in the yard. After an unknown amount of time, Shu Yuan spoke and said:

"Lu Yingchuan, we have been entangled for nearly 11 years, and we are both thirty."

Lu Yingchuan looked at Shu Yuan's profile, quietly waiting for Shu Yuan to speak next.

"If you...are willing to let it go, then I..." Shu Yuan's throat moved, "I will really take the child far away, to a place where no one knows you , change your name and surname, and find another woman who is close to your eyes..."

Shu Yuan paused for a moment, then smiled wryly:

"I'm afraid it may be impossible to find a woman, but find a man, don't worry, I won't tell the children who their father is, they are good children, and they will not become your trouble when they grow up. Little will never remember you."

His tone didn't fluctuate at all, as if Lu Yingchuan was just a stranger.

Compared with vigorous hatred, Lu Yingchuan was more afraid of Shu Yuan's plainness.

There is no hate without love.

He gritted his teeth tightly when he heard that Shu Yuan would find someone else to spend his life, and he didn't make a sound.

In the past four years, he also thought about whether Shu Yuan had already found someone, but every time he thought about it for a while, he couldn't bear the pain.

Lu Yingchuan couldn't imagine what Shu Yuan would do if he followed others.

He took a deep breath, tried his best to stabilize his mind, walked to Shu Yuan's side, and said:

"The children like me very much, aren't you afraid that they will be sad?"

One sentence crushed Shu Yuan's pretended to be calm:

"Afraid? Why am I not afraid? Seeing the children like their own father so much, I thought of how their father was preparing to kill them."

Shu Yuan approached Lu Yingchuan step by step:

"Aren't you proud to see the children like you so much, Lu Yingchuan?! Don't you feel a little guilty when you see them?"

"At the beginning, I was alone in the dark room and no one helped me. My amniotic fluid broke but the cervix was not opened. They were quietly in my stomach. I begged to break my throat and you refused to let me go, because you Getting married! Almost... almost they couldn't get out..."

Shu Yuan's voice was choked up, his eyes were red, and he pressed Lu Yingchuan into the bloody past:

"Other children are born with laughter and warm quilts and father's arms, but my baby does not have a little water to drink when hungry, so Lu Yingchuan, the children have always asked me in the past four years why they did not Father, when their father loves them or not, I can't say a word."

Every time he went to the kindergarten for a sports meeting, every time he walked on the road, the envious eyes of the two children were like a knife cutting his heart.

The wetness gradually solidified in the night, Shu Yuan's eyes were filled with hot tears, and with a light blink, the tears fell quietly.

Listening to Shu Yuan's tearful accusation, the nail of grief seemed to be pulled out of Lu Yingchuan's body, and he was sad and frightened.

He stretched out his hand to gently caress Shu Yuan's face:

"I love them and I like them, and I love you and I like you."

The blood in Shu Yuan's whole body froze instantly, and he stood there without moving.

The bottle of love is opened, and after the love is leaked, it can no longer be stopped.

"I am neither married nor want children. Four years ago, I separated for two months. I couldn't help looking for you. At that time, I thought you betrayed me and hurt my mother. I hate you, but I also want to hate you." I want to be with you, even if I'm not a filial son, even if you don't like me."

Lu Yingchuan felt heartbroken when he thought of that ridiculous misunderstanding. If he had looked into those things carefully, they wouldn't have wasted four years in vain.

"But when I got to the place where you lived, I found that you were no longer there. I started looking for you, but it was too late when I found you. I was so wrong. When I was in the car, I was afraid that you would fall asleep and never wake up again." Come on, let me tell you to persist, I didn't expect to cause such a big misunderstanding."

Shu Yuan doesn't speak, he doesn't know anything about what Lu Yingchuan said or did, what does it mean to be taken away by Lu Zhili and what does it mean to find him too late?

Didn't he order Lu Zhili to do all these?

The only thing that is clear is that in the car he begged Lu Yingchuan to adopt a child, but Lu Yingchuan refused in every possible way.

Now that I think about it, if Lu Yingchuan had agreed, then he really wouldn't be able to hold on anymore...

When Lu Yingchuan talked about what happened four years ago, his hands and feet were cold, as if he was once again in the fear and fear of that year.

"When I arrived at the hospital, the doctor said that you were bleeding heavily, and gave me a notice of critical illness. It didn't take long for you to..." Lu Yingchuan couldn't go on talking for a while, "There was no heartbeat, and finally the doctor used to relieve the pain. You didn't..."

"You slept in the ward for a month. That day I went to the company to deal with things and then you were gone when I came back. I checked the surveillance and found that you left by yourself. I was thinking of bringing you back until Find out the cause and effect."

Two people stood face to face in the yard, one lived with misunderstanding for four years, and the other lived with the truth for four years in pain and self-blame.

Lu Yingchuan touched the necklace hanging on his chest, and said:

"It's stupid to say it. I didn't think of checking it until after you left. It didn't take much effort to check those things. It only took two days."

His voice trembled:

"Just investigate the matter of Reli killing your brother and blaming my mother, and the matter of Li Feng encouraging you to steal my documents and blaming you."

"Shu Yuan, just two days... solved our misunderstanding for nearly a year..." Lu Yingchuan's chest was sore.

"I wanted to explain to you." Lu Yingchuan looked at Shu Yuan's face, "I was afraid that you didn't want to see me and that I would disturb you, but now it seems that I made another wrong decision."

Four years later, his Shu Yuan has become more mature, with a sense of rupture in his bones, Lu Yingchuan looked into his eyes and always felt that it was too late to explain everything.

Even if he had time to express his love and apology, Shu Yuan's feelings might have disappeared in the four years of despair.