After amnesia, monopolized by paranoia

"Brother..." Qi Rang moved his Adam's apple, and subconsciously flinched.

Such a brother made him feel scared. In the woods at night, he held an umbrella and walked from the depths of the darkness, like a ghost in the mountains. Perhaps because the corners of his clothes and trousers were a little wet, his face was extremely cold.

Qi Rang thought of the red eyes of Beiluo Xingmen, and seemed to see that pair of red eyes composed of countless shining cosmic dust exploded after being suppressed to the extreme.

Intense emotion was born from the depths of the darkness—a deep but restrained anger.

Compared to Qi Rang's guilt and fear, Jiang Shuixin was just surprised. He had thought that Qi Yuebai would know they were here, but he didn't expect that Qi Yuebai would really find them.

More than a year ago, Jiang Shuixin brought Qi Rang here once.

It was after this night that Qi Rang made up his mind to get a divorce, because he realized that he would never be able to make Qi Yuebai fall in love with him, so it's better to untie the shackles called marriage, and it's time for him to live his own life.

Qi Yuebai called, but Qi Rang refused to answer them all, and then simply turned off the phone.

Jiang Shuixin asked: "Aren't you afraid that he will be in a hurry, so why don't you come directly to him?"

"He won't come."

"why?"

Qi Rang was silent for a while, and then said: "He doesn't like dampness and bugs. The forest at night should be the place he hates the most. It's impossible for him to go up the mountain just to find me."

Jiang Shuixin bent his lips when he heard the words.

He probably understands why the always soft-hearted Rang would hang up the phone, and he probably thinks that there is such a one in ten thousand possibility that Qi Yuebai is willing to come up to him, and he will immediately forget what he said tonight.

In the end, Qi Rang was really disappointed, Qi Yuebai didn't come up, he smoked in the parking lot all night, his eyes were bloodshot, but Rang only felt wronged that his brother didn't go up to look for him, see On the first side, he said that sentence:

"I think about it. I won't embarrass you in the future. Let's get a divorce."

Jiang Shuixin originally thought that Qi Yuebai would not come to him this time either.

He accidentally annoyed Rang Rang today, but Qi Yuebai was actually able to hold back his nausea. Looking at Rang Rang's expression of guilt, he probably not only worked for nothing today, but also helped push Rang Rang. Bundle.

Qi Yuebai also thought about what happened last summer. At that time, he did not choose to go up the mountain, which became the fuse of a series of tragedies later, so this time, he walked up the mountain himself.

In a sense, it was like a punishment for him, those dark and disgusting memories were constantly corrupting him, and he gave way, taking a step back.

He rubbed his sore forehead, couldn't restrain the coldness in his tone and asked, "Rang Rang, do you want to go back?"

Qi Rang gritted his teeth, and was about to pounce on his brother and kneel down to apologize, when the first-line eater suddenly interjected: "Brother, this is your younger brother and younger sister, right? The two of you have such a good relationship, just now they hugged each other to sleep Woolen cloth."

They were all men, and Big Brother felt that he needed to help remind them. Of course, in order to attract attention, he used a little exaggeration.

As for Qi Rang, he was so confused: "Who slept with him? Don't talk nonsense!"

Big Brother: "Isn't this little girl your girlfriend? It's not a bad thing to hug and sleep together. You don't have to be embarrassed."

Jiang Shuixin was so happy that he added fuel to the flames, staring at Qi Yuebai and bent his lips, said: "Yes, Rang Rang, there is nothing to be embarrassed about, we are doing well, sitting upright, hugging and sleeping together is just for keeping warm."

Qi Rang: "???" What's going on with this one or two of them?He obviously didn't sleep with Jiang Shuixin in his arms!

He hurried to his brother and explained anxiously: "Brother, don't listen to their nonsense, you believe me, I really didn't do such a thing, I was tricked by Jiang Shuixin."

Just halfway through the run, Jiang Shuixin's voice suddenly came from behind him: "Rang Rang, don't you want your phone?"

Qi Rang slammed on the brakes, turned around and saw Jiang Shuixin holding his mobile phone, rushed back to snatch the mobile phone, and immediately ran back to his brother.

"Brother, trust me, my phone was taken away by Jiang Shuixin, and I didn't lose contact on purpose."

Qi Yuebai didn't say whether she believed it or not, she took Qi Rang under the umbrella and said "Let's go." Then she walked down the mountain with her long legs.

Jiang Shuixin stayed where he was, silently watching the direction the two left for a while.

Through the conversation just now, Big Brother also gradually realized that he seemed to have misunderstood something. If he really caught his wife cheating on his brother, shouldn't he take his wife and leave his brother behind?How could he leave his wife behind?

Could it be...he really misunderstood?Wasn't he a bad thing just now?

The eldest brother hesitated and asked Jiang Shuixin: "Beauty, did I just... misunderstand something?"

"Your biggest misunderstanding is," Jiang Shuixin raised the corners of his lips, and suddenly recovered his male voice: "I am a man, not a beauty."

Big Brother pupil earthquake: "!!!"

Tonight, there is another honest person in this city who can't sleep all night.

On Qi Rang's side, he was really hurt by the big brother. It is estimated that his brother was really angry this time, and he walked fast, and the way back was all downhill. He was dragged by his brother and passed by.

Qi Rangxin said how angry his brother must be, and while trying to keep up with Qi Yuebai's pace, he stumbled and explained:

"Brother, I didn't come here with Jiang Shuixin on purpose today. He insisted on dragging me here, and even snatched my mobile phone. I'm not as strong as him, so I was dragged here."

"And going up the mountain, yes, he lied to me about going up the mountain. He originally told me to go have a meal and talk about it. I didn't realize I was cheated by him until I climbed the mountain... Hey, why am I so stupid! I really Stupid as a pig! Brother, don’t get angry, okay?”

Qi Yuebai didn't speak, Qi Rang was in a panic, he was only looking at his brother's expression, he didn't pay attention to the road under his feet, he stepped on the ground without paying attention, and almost fell down the mountain.

Fortunately, Qi Yuebai held Qi Rang firmly, and only paused for a moment, reminding: "Pay attention to the road." Then he continued to walk down.

Qi Rang pursed his lips uneasily, and could only obediently watch the road, barely keeping up with his brother's pace.

For some reason, he felt a little hairy in his heart. He always felt that his brother's anger this time was very different from before. Last time, his brother was angry because of the Eighteenth incident, but he just didn't respond to his apology. In fact, he was still responsive to his requests. .

But this time, his brother really completely ignored his appeal, and walked so fast on his own, Qi Rang was even worried that if he couldn't keep up, his brother might leave him alone and leave.

In fact, not only now, when his brother on the top of the mountain asked him if he wanted to leave, Qi Rang had this feeling vaguely - if he hesitated, his brother would really turn around and leave alone.

Qi Rang ran his mind wildly, thinking about what caused his brother to be so abnormal.

Is it because the trousers are wet with dew?Or was it because of this incident that he was related to Jiang Shuixin?

Before he could figure out why, Qi Rang suddenly came back to his senses before he knew it, only to find that they had already walked out of the forest, and the gravel parking lot was close at hand.

The whole process of going down the mountain seemed to be extremely long yet extremely short. Qi Rang kept thinking about how far away he was when he was leaving, but at this moment, he felt as if he had just started going down the mountain, and he had already come out in the next second.

Qi Rang stumbled to the side of the car, because the car next to him was on the line, and the door was not opened wide. Qi Rang was still concerned about whether he would accidentally scratch the car next to him. Brother stuffed into the back seat of the car.

Immediately afterwards, Qi Yuebai also came in through the car door on the same side, the door was closed, and the last faint moonlight was blocked out.

It was pitch black in the car, and Qi Rang could barely see his brother propped above him, as if there was a pair of coherent red eyes hanging above them, suppressed in silence and slowly fermenting in the air.

Qi Rang opened his lips hesitantly, wanting to say something, but he didn't want his brother to push him down suddenly, and the tip of his tongue slid along his parted lips unscrupulously.

There must be some kind of anger. The kiss was extremely aggressive. The strength of the tip of the tongue almost threw Qi Rang's head into a ball. He felt a little hard to breathe, and his limp arms hugged Qi Yuebai's neck as if asking for help. .

But he didn't get any mercy, his brother almost squeezed in out of control.

Qi Rang cried in pain, struggling to avoid Qi Yuebai's kiss with his head tilted, his brother's reason seemed to be awakened a little, he held his waist, and stopped.

It was too dark in the car, and Qi Rang still couldn't see his brother's expression clearly. He could only vaguely feel that the shadowy gaze that brought him great pressure had not disappeared, and was still staring straight at him non-stop. staring at him, making him invisible.

"Brother, are you angry with me? I really didn't mean it, it was Jiang Shuixin..."

"Rang Rang," Qi Yuebai's cold voice interrupted Qi Rang: "Don't mention another man's name when I ()."

Qi Rang couldn't help sobbing, he didn't even dare to grab Qi Yuebai's clothes for a while, and helplessly held on to the handle of the car roof, unable to find any fulcrum for his body.

But then, he felt his brother take his wrist and put it back on his shoulder.

Qi Rang hugged his brother tremblingly, with more and more force, and in the end it almost turned into tightly strangling his brother's neck, as if this was the only way to give him a sense of security.

In a trance, he saw that perfect brother in the past disintegrated inch by inch, showing a terrifying and crazy look in his eyes. The subconscious deep in his memory told him that this was not the first time he saw it, but he still couldn't remember it. When and why did he meet such a brother.

"Jean, now you know? How much I love you."

Qi Yuebai's voice was full of pathological paranoia.

"I regret."

It was the first time that Qi Yuebai uttered the word "regret". To be precise, it was the first time he felt "regret". The fourth master once taught him not to regret, and to make up for his mistakes. Make a lesson, but don't regret it.

In the past, he did a good job, and fourth master once praised him as a natural ruler, but many years later, he still regretted it.

Qi Rang wanted to ask his brother what he regretted, but he couldn't ask, he was very tired, his throat was very dry, and he was leaning against Qi Yuebai's side neck, almost unable to open his eyes.

He vaguely heard his brother say, "I shouldn't let you grow up, I shouldn't treat you too much..."

Too much what...?

Qi Rang didn't ask, closed his eyes and fell asleep completely.

In the early morning of the next day, Qi Rang woke up and found that he had arrived home and was sleeping in his brother's arms. The back must have been torn, and there were strands of pain.

Qi Rang was furious for a moment, put his hands on Qi Yuebai's chest and pushed his brother away.

Qi Yuebai opened her eyes suddenly, the dark eyes frightened Qi Rang for a moment.

Qi Rang was so guilty that he subconsciously wanted to apologize, but as soon as he opened his mouth, he suddenly remembered that he was not alone in the fault, and immediately became stiff again, swallowing all the words of apology that came to his lips, and preemptively accused Qi Rang angrily. Moon White:

"You hurt me so much last night, I must be hurt! How could you treat me like this! You don't feel sorry for me when I cry!"

Qi Yuebai rubbed the corners of her forehead, closed her eyes and opened them again, as if she had become the older brother who was indifferent but tender in his bones.

"I gave you medicine, does it still hurt?"

"It hurts to death, okay? Haven't you heard of it? The nerve distribution in that place is very dense, and the paper is too rough. It hurts. If you push so hard, it must be torn!"

"Sorry, I remembered some bad things yesterday, and I got a little out of control."

"What did you think of?"

"Something from my childhood."

"What happened when you were a child?"

Qi Yuebai rubbed her slightly swollen forehead again, apparently not wanting to say much.

Qi Rang was a little anxious. He didn't forcefully question his brother the first time or the first two times, but now he doesn't want to do this anymore. He is eager to know his brother.

He knows that his brother hates furry animals, but he wants to know why his brother hates furry animals.

Qi Rang said: "Can't you tell me? I want to know why, I want to know you better, I feel like, like a fool now, you know everything about me, but I don't know anything about you. No idea. I feel like I'm a failure, I can't do anything well."

Qi Yuebai closed his eyes, and after a while, he slowly opened his mouth: "It's not your fault, those things... I feel disgusting, and I never told anyone, but if you want to know, I will tell you of."

Qi Yuebai was not an orphan at the beginning, on the contrary, he used to have a very happy family. At that time, Qi Yuebai was not called by this name, he only remembered that his parents would call him Miaomiao.

The relationship between father and mother is very good, and they attach great importance to education. They have cultivated several foreign languages ​​for Qi Yuebai since they were young. They use French for meals, German for evening seminars, and English for daily communication. Only Chinese is used in the game.

In addition, there must be a long-distance trip every year to see different customs and customs, which indeed has a great influence on a child's temperament in a subtle way.

But all happiness came to an abrupt end when he was six years old. When his family, including grandparents, went out to play, they encountered an indiscriminate shooting at a newspaper office. Except for him, no one was spared.

He did have a grandmother, but she was ill and unable to support him, and finally, when he was almost seven years old, he was sent to an orphanage.

The orphanage more than [-] years ago was a terrible nightmare, the conditions were horrible, the quilts were old quilts that had already been boarded together, and the sleeping room was always humid, especially In winter, the wet and cold quilt is like a tomb.

All kinds of dark and damp bugs breed and grow in the corners of the room. Many times, when a certain piece of wood is lifted, countless rats and cockroaches will emerge from below. The children who are used to this place regard it as a game and walk around with sticks. Run over these little bugs.

But Qi Yuebai couldn't do it, just seeing these bugs fleeing in all directions, he felt chills all over his body, and felt so sick that he wanted to vomit.

The scariest thing happened when Qi Yuebai was nine years old. The group of children found a nest of mice living in the closet somehow.

They didn't drive these things away immediately, but felt that most of the litter was young mice that were too small, so they would steal some food to feed them.

When the little mice had grown to about the width of an adult's front finger, they almost all mobilized and wiped out all the mice in the closet.

For the children in the orphanage who haven't smelled meat for a long time, mice are a rare delicacy. They don't know how to skin or take out the internal organs. They just twist their necks and throw them into the fire. They can't wait to eat them when they are cooked Come out to eat raw.

Qi Yuebai could even smell the smell of burnt mouse fur. When he saw the black or bright red mouths of those children, he couldn't help but ran to the side and vomited.

There is a little leader in the orphanage who has always disliked Qi Yuebai's appearance of being superior to the others. Seeing this, he snatched a little mouse that was regarded as a treasure from a little girl, walked up to Qi Yuebai arrogantly, and said :

"I gave it to you, you haven't eaten meat for a long time, eat it."

Having said this, Qi Yuebai's face became a little pale, and even a thin layer of sweat broke out from his forehead.

Qi Rang didn't expect his brother to have such a past, carefully wiped off Qi Yuebai's sweat, opened his mouth, and didn't ask anything.

But Qi Yuebai saw that he was hesitant to speak, and asked: "You want to ask me if I have eaten, don't you?"

Qi Rang looked at his brother worriedly, Qi Yuebai pursed his lips, closed his eyes to cover his complicated thoughts, and his voice was as light as if the wind would blow away:

"I ate."

Qi Yue ate for nothing.

That kid came much earlier than him, got along like a fish in water in the orphanage, and was very popular with the headmaster. Almost all the children regarded him as the boss, even surpassing the headmaster's position in private.

If he doesn't eat, those children will rush up and "please" him to eat this "good meal".

The mouse was cooked, but that was all. At first it was the smell of burnt hair, and the hair roots that were not completely burnt pierced into his flesh like small thorns. Afterwards, there was the sour smell and smell of rat meat. The stench came up.

From then on, Qi Yuebai began to hate everything in the orphanage, dampness, bugs, and furry animals. As that memory faded away, he became more and more unbearable.

With wet clothes sticking to his body, he would have an urge to tear off his skin;

Seeing bugs, he would be covered in cold sweat and unable to move;

Touched by furry animals, he would experience uncontrollable nausea.

"Brother, I'm sorry."

After hearing this, Qi Rang blamed himself and apologized loudly: "I'm sorry, I don't know anything, and I insisted on dragging you to feed Shiba. You had to go up the mountain to find me last night. I'm so sorry. so bad."

Qi Yuebai wiped away the tears from Qi Rang's face, and said: "Rang Rang, I don't blame you, I didn't tell you these things, if you knew, you wouldn't have done it, right?"

"I definitely won't. I will definitely use my brain to think about what happens to me in the future, and I won't be deceived as easily as yesterday!"

Qi Rang was really angry with Jiang Shuixin this time, and after learning from the painful experience, he found that no matter how good he promised to do it, it would not help, and he still needed to seek external support.

"Brother, didn't you say to ask the driver to wait for me in the teaching building? It really wouldn't bother him, would it?"

Qi Yuebai replied: "Rang Rang, I also paid him for the time he waited."

"Then follow what you said before, let the driver wait for me in the teaching building!"

Qi Rang didn't believe it anymore, how could Jiang Shuixin catch him like this!

Qi Yuebai nodded: "Okay."

It was within his expectation that Rang Rang would make such a request. In fact, it may not be without his deliberate guidance.

The author has something to say: Tomorrow will not be a fortune teller. My mother told me to go on February 2th, after the beginning of spring. It will be counted as next year’s fortune. There are only a few days this year, so I don’t want to go to fortune telling.

By the way, let me reply in a unified way, no matter what the calculation results are, this article will not be cheated. You can rest assured that my cheating products.

Then yesterday I received a lot of messages from everyone, I was very moved, that is to say, thank you for your comfort, nutrient solution and land mines. I am really happy to know that there are still people who like this kind of "sweet underworld" story as much as I do.

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It was locked, so I would like to say a few more words by the way. I mentioned a two-star rating yesterday. To tell you the truth, I was completely defeated by that comment.

Whether it’s cool or not, I care about it, but I don’t really care that much. After all, if I’m really not popular, I won’t be able to write, and I won’t be so immersed in writing for two years. I just see what I have written so hard. Others didn't read it carefully, and then hastily came to a "logically unreasonable" conclusion. It was very sad and broke the defense. It happened that I saw a fortune teller on the flyover when I was shopping yesterday, and said that I should go for a fortune-telling.

Then, because I still received a lot of little angels’ approval last night, I was actually very happy. I cheered up and coded again today, but I didn’t expect to receive the same comments again tonight.

I dare not say that my logic is perfect, but please don't come up with a logic chain that has nothing to do with what I wrote to ask why my protagonist is so obsessed?

I know that I am very impulsive in posting these things, and I may be very unfavorable, but I really can't hold back. I can accept scolding me for "bad writing" and "three views are not correct", but I can't accept this kind of comment, I just Glass heart, ignore me, maybe I will delete it when I calm down, just treat it as a fart.