Jiang Qing

Chapter 63

Mei Shao left, and the room returned to calm.

Bai Bingchen half leaned against the head of the bed, letting the emotions surge in his heart, but he didn't know where to start thinking.

Only Fang Min and himself knew the truth in Cangzhou City. Without his permission, Fang Min would not have been so bold.Thinking that Mei Shao hasn't had any contact with people in Hepingdu recently, there is only one possibility, that is what the Mei family left for him, which made him feel the clue.

But if the Mei family had really left him some clues, according to Mei Shao's current strength, it would not have taken him six years to find the truth today.But if the Mei family directly left some tokens and letters telling him Cangshan to seek help, why didn't they give it to him back then, but why did they have to wait until today?

Thinking over and over again is an unreasonable dead end, Bai Bingchen rubbed his forehead, and even vaguely felt that there was some conspiracy behind this matter.Or maybe it was due to his habit of being immersed in the officialdom for many years. He always thinks about the disadvantages first.

Overlooking Mei Shao's uncontrollable crying and the red marks on his face just now, Bai Bingchen's heart twitched fiercely, and the pain rolled up again, his eyes blurred for a moment, and he became dizzy.

He hates Mei Shao crying the most.

Ever since he cried in his arms when he lost a battle when he was young, Bai Bingchen never saw him cry again.

Mei Shao's eyes were originally beautiful, with a pair of peach-blossom eyes shining brightly, usually looking at the streamer overflowing, covered with a layer of mist, he should have become lovely and pitiful, but even when he cried, he raised his eyes, Stubbornly and arrogantly refusing to be seen by others, it is even more distressing to watch.

Bai Bingchen did not expect that Mei Shao would know the truth while he was alive, and he was not prepared at all.Facing Mei Shao's sudden interrogation, his mind went blank, he didn't know how to explain, and he didn't know how to argue.

In his heart, Bai Bingchen didn't want him to know the truth at all, he shouldn't get involved, he should still be a carefree person who doesn't get involved in any disputes.Even rationally, Bai Bingchen knew that after such a big change, Mei Shao would not be able to have the same temperament as before, but he was obsessed with wanting to retain a little bit of his original disposition.

Bai Bingchen is rational and indifferent, but Mei Shao has an unbearable desire to control and an obsession with getting what he wants.

It's his own business to like him, no matter what his views are, Bai Bingchen will stubbornly guard this little selfishness, those cares that were insignificant to Mei Shao when he was young are enough to support him to bear everything, and it is still enough for him to go like this end of death.

It wasn't until a bowl of steaming medicine was brought before Bai Bingchen's eyes that he realized Ji Pu came in belatedly.

"You care about him."

Seeing Bai Bingchen take the medicine bowl and drink in small sips without saying a word, Ji Pu stared at his face and spoke suddenly.

His fingertips trembled slightly, Bai Bingchen hid the emotion in his eyes under the heat, and did not respond.

Unusually, Ji Pu showed a bit of maturity that didn't match his age. His outstretched hand paused on Bai Bingchen's head, and then he gently lowered it, patted it, and said in an elder tone: "I remember, When you were in Guzhong, you rescued a kingfisher during a heavy rain. That kingfisher was very beautiful, and you liked it very much. Originally, there were very few people of your age in Yanzhong, and my senior sister was always depressed. You are very happy to have that kingfisher with you, play with it every day, make a cage for it, feed it, and talk to it. But gradually, its injury heals, and you think it should be free , just wanted to let it go.”

Holding the empty bowl, Bai Bingchen fixedly looked at a corner of the quilt, listening to Ji Pu's soft words.

"But it's used to being with you. No matter how much you let it go, it won't go away. Then you just let it go cold and ignore it until one day it really flies away. You don't say anything, but Still unconsciously staring at the empty cage in a daze. You want to keep it in your heart, just like you wanted to keep Mei Shao just now."

Ji Pu took a look at the man who was hugging his knees, he seldom showed his soft and childish side, but Ji Pu knew that he might be an old hand in political affairs, but Bai Bingchen had always been an expert in emotional matters. evader.

He looked at rational restraint, just because he repeatedly avoided, stubbornly gave what he thought was right, and wishful thinking refused to accept any feedback, or he was afraid of accepting feedback.Bai Bingchen can accept that there is no response after giving silently, but he cannot accept being rejected blatantly after speaking.

In his short career, the few times he showed his emotions ended up being abandoned. He was abandoned by his mother, whom he relied on since he was a child, and by Zhou Yue, who he regarded as his brother.

Therefore, he no longer dared to show his half-determined emotions, for fear of being underestimated and forgotten.

As long as you don't say it, there is no possibility of being rejected.It's his strange way of dealing with emotions.

"I can see that you like him, but liking someone is not like that, Bingchen." Ji Pu watched him bit his lip, and did not deny his words, and continued: "I don't know what kind of enmity you had before, But looking at today's situation, there is something vaguely inside. Do you really not trust him, so you keep silent and refuse to say a word?"

After waiting for a while, when Ji Pu felt that he would not answer, and took the bowl back from his hand, and was about to go out, Bai Bingchen opened his mouth.

Almost the moment he opened his mouth, tears fell from his eyes, with annoyance and grievances that he didn't even realize were in his words, "Little Martial Uncle, I...I can't protect him."

"In such a difficult and dangerous situation back then, he almost died under my hands again and again, but I was useless at all, and I couldn't protect him at all. I dare not let him come back. I will do these dangerous and ugly things. Just do it, I dare not let him be in it again, even if outsiders are watching, I want wind and rain now, but I still can't take him at risk." Bai Bingchen opened his mouth, as if he had been buried for so many years. In the bottom of my heart, all the secret emotions came out, and I couldn't control it anymore.

"The late emperor wanted him to die on the battlefield, and I tried my best to make him survive. Now that he has returned to Pingdu, Your Majesty..." Bai Bingchen took a deep breath, but still said the words, "Do you think His Majesty really wants to use him to support generals?"

"The governor of Wudu is the real general trained by His Majesty. Since His Majesty ascended the throne, Tong Can seems to have been transferred to the remote Wudu to defend against pirates. In fact, he was asked to cultivate an army secretly. Even if His Majesty is at odds with the late Emperor, he will not take the risk of a person with a grudge in charge of the military and government."

It seemed that because Ji Pu was from the rivers and lakes, Bai Bingchen finally poured out what he kept in his heart and dared not say, "Your Majesty asked him to return to the capital because he wanted him to be a living target, and he wanted him to go for me. die."

Regardless of Ji Pu's astonished expression, Bai Bingchen laughed at himself: "Even though I am the cabinet minister of the Fudi Pavilion, I have never met the master behind the Fudi Pavilion. There are innumerable connections between the Anxiang Pavilion, other than that, there is no clue. There are so many medicine shops in Tongbeigu in Li Country, but the common people only recognize the shopkeeper, not the old man. Guzhu, let alone you, my little uncle. If one day, some pharmacy has an example of treating the dead and selling fake medicines, and the century-old reputation of Sad Valley will be ruined, who will still care about the relationship between you and the old Guzhu? What about reputation? The world always prefers to believe what they see with their own eyes, and what is closer to them.”

Ji Pu's breathing stagnated, and the astonishment in his eyes deepened, and he said slowly: "You mean..."

"I can't figure out the master behind the Fudi Pavilion. Similarly, the people in this world have never seen it. In their eyes, I and the Fudi Pavilion are one. As long as I am a heinous treacherous minister, a high-ranking and unforgiving A corrupt official who is honest and infamous all over the world will attack me. If my reputation is ruined, the reputation of the Fudi Pavilion will be ruined. If I die, the Fudi Pavilion will die."

Bai Bingchen's eyes were calm and deep, but when they fell on Ji Pu's eyes, there was a trace of desperate madness. He couldn't help asking: "If you insist on doing this, after many years, you will be a sinner who is despised by thousands of people. , the Bai family is the rebellious minister that thousands of people refer to. Have you really thought about it?"

Bai Bingchen looked towards the void. For some reason, he clearly had never seen his ancestor Bai Chengze, but at this moment, a white-robed Confucian future with a silver gun and stationed outside the pass appeared in his mind. He smiled lightly, "Want to Leaving a name in history is just a bookish spirit. Since the moment I stepped into the Fudi Pavilion, I have long since ignored the false name before and after my life. The name Bai Bingchen should be nailed to the pillar of shame together with the Fudi Pavilion In the end, I will rot in the corner of the history books and die under the curse of future generations. I am a mortal person, this is something we have planned long before His Majesty ascended the throne, but I should die at an appropriate time."

"It's just that His Majesty regretted it. He wanted to use Mei Shao to lure out the people behind the scenes. He was betting that it was not a coincidence that Wei Tao attacked the general. That's why he raised Mei Shao with great fanfare and wanted him to die for me." Bai Bingchen smiled wryly. He said, "But I am not willing, his life is much more important than mine. So I am desperate, please remove the poison for me, just to tell His Majesty that I can't live. He doesn't have to spend a lot of money to protect my life Fate, in less than two years, the toxin will break out, and I will definitely die, so let him stop wanting Mei Shao to die instead. Otherwise, do you think that according to His Majesty's temperament, why would you allow me to come to Cangzhou in person to prevent Mei Shao from returning to Pingdu? Because he Know that I am determined to die."

"I'm already a dead person, so there's no need to talk about liking. Even if I tell Ah Shao that I love you, even if he has a little affection for me, what will happen next? Let him watch me die? I can't do it, I can't." I would rather he hates to watch me die than he can't love me."

After listening to his words, Ji Pu was already so angry that his lips were trembling. He thought that he tried so hard to save Bai Bingchen's life again and again, but this person in front of him was determined to die, "So when you said that Anxiang Pavilion is Mei Shao's is also lying to me, just to let me remove the poison for you, isn't it?"

Silence spread between the two, and Bai Bingchen did not speak.

I don't know how long this silence lasted, until someone ran in in a panic: "Master Bai! The people under Mr. Mei came to ask us for someone, saying that Mr. Mei has not gone back, and he couldn't find it no matter how hard he looked!"

A tremor welled up from the bottom of his heart, Bai Bingchen thought of Mei Shao's delirious appearance when he went out, and his heart gradually panicked, remembering that the last time Mei Shao knew that Mei's family was beheaded, he also looked so heartbroken, and then he was sent to prison In...seeking death.

Thinking of this possibility, he once again clearly felt that he was going to lose something. Bai Bingchen's blood surged, the sweetness in his throat could no longer be suppressed, and he spat out a mouthful of blood.

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