Jiang Qing

Jian Shiliu retreated a long time ago, Mei Shao's eyes turned from the opened letter on the table to the window.

The twilight is getting deeper, leaving a little remnant of skylight, and flocks of tired birds dot the gray sky.

The noise has gradually subsided, the birds have returned to the forest, and when there are few people, the surroundings are peaceful and stable.

But Mei Shao felt that she was pressed tightly in the deep water, her eyes and ears were empty, the water lines were entangled, and it was difficult for her to even breathe.

Even before opening the letter, he had expected that the old man would have to work hard and spare no effort to take the scroll sent to him by his life. The news inside would definitely be shocking.But he did not expect that just black and white words would set off a storm in his heart, denying his six years of struggle and unwillingness, pain and torture.

He has been relying on it tightly, and the belief in holding on to live is actually false.

It's ridiculous.Ridiculous.

The Bai family did not betray, and the Mei family was not a traitor. They actually used the lives and reputations of the four families to weave a huge lie, which deceived the world and themselves.

Her mind was already blank, Mei Shao felt that her throat was a little dry, she reached for the teacup, her hand was unsteady, and instead she flicked down a pot of tea, causing the shattered tiles to bounce all over the floor.

He seemed to be frightened, and trembled slightly. Like waking up from a big dream, a line of hot tears rolled down his face, and his breathing became short of breath.

Closing her eyes, Mei Shao silently clenched her fists, stood up suddenly, and strode outside.

Chu Yan, who was leaning against the door to listen to the movement, was taken staggeringly, just about to speak, when he looked up at Mei Shao's sinking complexion and faint tears, his heart skipped a beat.

When he reacted, Mei Shao had already got on the horse and disappeared without a trace.

The cool summer wind doesn't hurt people, but Mei Shao immediately feels chilly.

Fortunately, there was no one on the road, but within half a cup of tea, he arrived at Fangfu.

The guards at the gate obviously listened to Fang Min's orders, and when they saw Mei Shao's menacing appearance, they all surrounded her to stop her.

Without the slightest hesitation, Mei Shao got off the horse and took up the sword. With a blank face, he used the scabbard to repel several guards who wanted to stop him, and broke in.

He didn't know where Bai Bingchen lived, so he just went to the place where there were many guards. Along the way, the sword was not out of the sheath, but his hands were crisp and neat, without the slightest intention of entanglement, and he came all the way to the door of the room smoothly.

As soon as he kicked open the door, a handful of silver needles flew towards him, and all of them landed on Mei Shao's scabbard in front of him. He removed the scabbard, and Ji Pu's stinky face met his eyes.

"Get out." Ji Pu was sitting in front of the bed, protecting Bai Bingchen behind him with a worried expression on his face, and fixed his eyes on the uninvited guest who came in.

Mei Shao acted as if she hadn't heard it, and still walked forward, looking straight at the person who was tightly hidden by Ji Pu, with mixed emotions in her eyes, hard to tell.

Seeing that he still wanted to go forward, Ji Pu lost his patience, got up and touched the long whip on his waist, and threw it unceremoniously.

Bai Bingchen, who was behind him, saw that Ji Pu was really moving, and hurriedly got up to grab him, but because of the haste to get up, he became dizzy for a while.

The poisoned long whip hit Mei Shao's face directly, he took a sword flower, wrapped it around Ji Pu's whip, and tightened it tightly, still looking at Bai Bingchen, his voice hoarse: "I have something to ask you."

The tail of the whip touched Mei Shao's face, leaving a scar in an instant, but he ignored it, let the burning pain of the bloodstain invade, and firmly said: "Let him go out."

Bai Bingchen, who had just recovered, had time to stop Ji Pu's whip in the future. When he finally looked up from behind him, he saw a striking red mark on Mei Shao's ashen face. Cast elsewhere: "I have nothing to say to you."

A long silence fluctuated in the room, and Ji Pu and Mei Shao faced each other like this, until Fang Min who received the news rushed over with a group of soldiers, ran into the room in a hurry, and shouted angrily: "Mei Shao, don't you Make an inch of it!"

"You know it all, don't you?" Mei Shao spoke again, and there was a hint of expectation and begging in his voice, he took a deep breath, and asked again: "You know all about the truth about your father's rebellion, don't you? "

"You asked me a long time ago when you were in Pingdu, and my answer is still the same. There is no truth, everything is just as you see it." Bai Bingchen met his eyes without the slightest emotion.

"Really?" Mei Shao smiled wryly, "Under the Cangshan Mountain, soldiers are waiting to go, the moon is bright and the stars are thin, but the heart is in a panic. It is a lonely courage to do it knowing that it cannot be done. Although the road to death is related to the fortune of our country, Li Guomao Chang, only relying on his blood, paying homage to the road ahead, protecting the Bai family for a long-term plan, and mourning..."

Mei Shao's eyes moved slightly, and he recited the letter his father left him word by word, seeing Bai Bingchen's bloodless face turn paler.

He looked at Mei Shao in disbelief, and when he heard him reveal this secret that he had buried for six years, his heart was shaken, and he didn't know how to speak for a while.

How did Mei Shao know?How much does he really know?

Disturbance surged up in his heart, and Bai Bingchen's usual smile could no longer be held back.In this room, apart from himself, only Fang Min knew some inside information, almost subconsciously, Bai Bingchen looked at Fang Min with a slightly reproachful look.

Seeing Bai Bingchen's warning eyes on Fang Min behind her, Mei Shao felt bitterness spread in her heart. Even a magistrate far away in Cangzhou knew the truth of the year, only she didn't.

"I didn't say that." Fang Min glanced at the two of them, and hurriedly separated the relationship.

"Go out." Bai Bingchen didn't say anything more.

Ji Pu on the side listened for a while, but still refused to let go: "I can't let a person who has attacked you so many times stay in the same room with you."

"Get out!" Bai Bingchen was faintly angry.

Pursing his lips, Ji Pu hesitated to speak, but Fang Min saw that the momentum was wrong, and stepped forward to persuade Ji Pu to go out: "In our territory, if he dares to hurt the teacher, he can't even think about going out properly."

With the sound of the door closing, finally only the two of them were left in the room, Mei Shao still stood where she was, without any intention of going forward.

They just looked at each other not far away, letting a few breezes blow in from the window and fall between them.

This short distance of seven or eight steps is like the six years that have passed between them. It seems that they are so close, but they are far away.

Mei Shao looked at the person on the bed, his complexion was very bad, there was no fake smile, his whole body exuded a decadent and cold aura, it was so strange.

No one knew that the uneasiness and uneasiness he felt just now surged up after a long absence at this moment when he was tricked back to Pingdu six years ago.Mei Shao only questioned Bai Bingchen on the spur of the moment, but it was such a torment while waiting for his answer and reaction.

Mei Shao was afraid that Bai Bingchen would be totally ignorant of the truth back then, so those thousands of possibilities that came to his mind would be broken, and it would further prove that Bai Bingchen had no affection for him at all, and he was still the stranger who was cruel to him; but he I'm also afraid that Bai Bingchen knows the truth, if so...

Staring at his every move, Mei Shao felt a bit of sadness in her heart. If he really knew, why did he hide it from himself, why did he ignore him for so many years? In the three years after ascending the throne, why didn't he even have a single letter, so he let himself hate him for so long, did he not care about his attitude towards him at all, even if he attacked him again and again, he would not Let go.

It's ridiculous, it turns out that he would rather die than explain one more thing to himself.In his eyes, he was just getting in the way like that, or he didn't believe in himself at all.

There are thousands of thoughts in my heart, but the words I want to ask are stuck in my throat, and I can't say a word.

"How much do you know?" It was Bai Bingchen who spoke, breaking the silence.

Mei Shao didn't answer, but asked instead: "Father and the others planned the Cangshan incident, right? They knew exactly what they were doing, and they knew that they would overthrow their entire family if they raised their troops, right?"

"Yes." Bai Bingchen answered him almost with difficulty.

"The betrayal of the Bai family was planned by you a long time ago, right? Even you are part of this plan, right?"

Unable to bear to listen to the deep questioning in his words, Bai Bingchen nodded in answer.

Mei Shao wanted to go forward, but still didn't move. He asked in a hoarse voice, "Why didn't you tell me? Since you have difficulties, why didn't you say anything?"

"Knowing too much is not good for you." Bai Bingchen avoided his burning gaze, and added: "It's not good for the big plan either."

The anger, doubts, grievances and discomfort accumulated in his heart completely burst out in Bai Bingchen's perfunctory words. Mei Shao felt his eyes warmed up. He didn't know how cruel Bai Bingchen was. Looking at the emptiness of the enemy, watching myself jumping up and down to plan, watching myself go back to Pingdu to seek skin with the tiger despite all dangers.

His pain and struggle, his hatred and heartache, he has suppressed himself for six years, and he has become what he is now, whether crazy or not, and Bai Bingchen is watching coldly from the side, watching himself step by step in silence. To the abyss.

"How much do you distrust me? How much do you distrust me?" Mei Shao smiled desolately, "Do you all think that I am worthless, just a slut who takes advantage of my ancestors' military achievements, so I don't have anything? Ken tell me, do you think I will delay your plans?"

Hearing the faint cry in Mei Shao's words, Bai Bingchen couldn't help looking at him anymore.

Mingming Mei Shao is so close to him, but he seems to be alone in the wilderness, full of desolation and helplessness.

"For so many years, I have been carrying hatred alone, how many times, how many times I was about to give up, and I gritted my teeth and persisted, just because I hate you, the Bai family, and the emperor. But Today, until today, I keep a low profile, thinking about the day when revenge is in sight, you, you tell me that the hatred in the past is all fake, the death of the Mei family is voluntary, the sacrifice of the general is voluntary, everything is yours willingly , what about me? What am I?"

Mei Shao could no longer see Bai Bingchen's appearance clearly, he could only feel the strong emotions surging up in his heart, with no place to vent, "Bai Bingchen, tell me, what am I? A filial son who avenges his father? Or is it in your eyes? joke!"

"Since in your eyes, I am such a useless, ignorant and stupid person, why do you want me to live? I should die with everyone in the Mei family, on the execution platform, and don't May I live six more years in such a foolish and ridiculous way!"

Seeing him unable to suppress his emotions, standing on the ground, crying and laughing like crazy, Bai Bingchen felt severe pain in his heart, and there were tears in his eyes, but he tried not to say a word, for fear that his tears would follow the words fall.

Driven by his heartache, Bai Bingchen wanted to impulsively get out of bed, take this broken man into his arms, and tell him everything, just when he finally couldn't bear it anymore and was about to rush over irrationally.

Mei Shao sighed, staggered back a few steps, distanced herself from Bai Bingchen, resisted silently, and said with a light smile, "I don't have anything to ask."

His emotions were withdrawn so quickly, but his eyes were like a pool of stagnant water, finally unable to stir up any waves.

The rationality that had endured for many years not to be swallowed by hatred completely collapsed at this moment.

Just be a lunatic, Mei Shao thought, no one cares anyway.

Everything is my own fault, I am ridiculous and pathetic, I am pitiful, I am wishful thinking and dreaming of revenge, they are all right, I am wrong!

For his belief, his father did not hesitate to sacrifice the lives of the whole family. For the righteousness in his heart, the elders were willing to die. For the sake of long-term planning, the Bai family endured humiliation. They were able to abandon everything and emotions. To live forever, ah, only I am a layman, I only want to keep a little warmth at home, keep a little bit of brotherhood, keep a little friendship of close friends, because I don’t know good and bad, I don’t know the way!

It turned out that they were not the same as themselves.

So many mistakes happened because I was an idiot.

Mei Shao almost staggered and fled.

The author says:

It’s hard to write this chapter, Meimei is not a born hero, he has no great ambitions, he is just a person who wants to live a normal life, be a loving person and be loved.Meimei understands the righteousness of the country, but now his eyes are not as good as those around him, so when he couldn't find any flaws in the Mei family's rebellion, he also hated the Bai family and the emperor. (change buds)