Accumulate feathers sink the boat

He won't be honest with me anymore.

This idea suddenly popped up in Lu Xiangzhou's mind.Although their eight-year marriage was lacklustre, Gong Yu always had a heart for him, saying anything, smiling when he was happy, and sullen when he was unhappy.It turned out that he thought that Gong Yu's defenselessness was because he didn't care, because he didn't like him so he was too lazy to be careful with him, but now it seems...

Now it seems that these arrogance and indifference may also contain some trust and dependence that neither of them can discover.

"Are you treating me like a thief now?"

So Lu Xiangzhou was not convinced. Although he didn't understand the reason for this dissatisfaction at all, he still wanted to get angry at Gong Yu, wanted to question him, and wanted to say why.

"I didn't! How could I..."

Gong Yu panicked, put down the bowl and chopsticks, and wanted to pull Lu Xiangzhou's hand across the table - but it was just thinking, he didn't even dare to go over the edge of his own bowl.

"You didn't? Do you know that what you are saying now is all perfunctory, and anyone who comes here will know that you are prevaricating. "

"Which sentence is perfunctory? I didn't perfunctory, I answered your questions seriously. I... I really didn't get sick, and I really couldn't get used to it in the hospital. If... If I get sick in the future... .I'll tell you immediately if I get sick, okay?"

"No, I'm not interested. I'm not your guardian, and I'm not obliged to keep an eye on your developments."

"Oh... oh... that's... yes, yes, you're right."

See, that's it.Lu Xiangzhou looked at Gong Yu who was trying to maintain a smile, and felt that even if he was facing a stranger he had never met before, he would not back down to such an extent.Regardless of whether it was a knife, gun or arrow from the back, he responded to them one by one. If he accidentally shot a wrong shot, he would pick it up and insert it back carefully, and then asked with a smile: "Do you think this is okay? The position still needs to be adjusted." Don't need to adjust?"

Simply humbled to the dirt.

"Gong Yu, you'd better see our current relationship clearly. I care about you, and I came to see you, not because you are my ex-husband, but because I still have a little love, and I don't want to see someone I know get some strange disease. Died inexplicably at home.

So if you really don't want to cause me any trouble, you can speak up, tell the truth, and get rid of your illness quickly, so that you can relax and I can relax.

I'm really going to run out of patience, let me tell you, even if you die in front of me, I don't care about it! "

This is really hard to hear. Lu Xiangzhou knew that if it was Gong Yu from the past, he would have to jump up and argue with him for three days and three nights.But now, Gong Yu still maintains the posture just now, only the hand on the table once grasped weakly at a certain moment, he seems to have lost the ability to give emotional feedback, and the whole person blends into the air , became another kind of air.

"No, it's a minor illness, and it will be fine soon... soon."

So in the end, what he heard was still the same. There was still half a bowl of noodles left, and Lu Xiangzhou suddenly lost his appetite.

"Okay, then I wish you a speedy recovery."

The figure who left in the dust did not have any nostalgia. When the door closed, Gong Yu stood up from the dining table. Lu Xiangzhou didn't look at him, so he didn't know that he was crying.

In fact, he really wants to know how many farewells a person has to go through before he can know which one is the last.Many times he hopes that he will never meet the last time, but sometimes, like this, he still can't help thinking, if only this was the last time...

Spring in May is the most beautiful spring. All the trees along the street have been replaced with green leaves, and well-known and unknown flowers bloom in a patchwork pattern, which heals the eyes and decorates the nose.

Because the sunshine time is longer, after dinner time, people can be seen walking around in the originally plain streets, some with a child, some with a dog.Lu Xiangzhou mixed among them, walking slowly along the sidewalk, as if he also had the same comfort, and could spend an ordinary night without any burden.

like.

He thought for a long time just now, and he was sure that he had indeed had expectations at a certain moment, expecting Gong Yu to be honest, expecting Gong Yu to be angry, expecting Gong Yu to speak, begging him to stay, or to stay a little longer.The source of this emotion is inexplicable, he can't figure out whether it's because of a soft heart, or... or the liking that should have disappeared long ago, but he can't always ignore Gong Yu, subconsciously caring has become a habit .

But fortunately, the cause of Gong Yu's illness should not be himself.Zhou Shu said that autonomic disorders can remain normal as long as they stay away from the source of the disease, so in the last few meetings between the two of them, he has not seen Gong Yu get sick, and the only time it happened was because of his own accidental intrusion.

Excluding myself, the remaining reasons are easy to guess.Pressure or shock, no matter what, the only thing that can bring pain to Gong Yu should be the fact that he can no longer practice medicine.Being a doctor is his career in life and his lifelong goal. He lost all possibility of struggle during the rising stage. If it were him, he might not be able to bear it.

But if this is the case, the difficulty of treatment of this disease may not be as simple as the number of weeks said.Because he cannot return to work for a day, the pain of "unemployment" will accompany Gong Yu for a day.If he can't accept the gap between other professions and doctors for the rest of his life, he will be in a similar hell no matter whether he is teaching in a school or working as a waiter in a restaurant.

People can persist, but can the heart?

The night wind stirred the hem of his clothes, gently blowing the coolness into his pores, Lu Xiangzhou rolled up his sleeves, and found that he was covered in a thin sweat, even though he was wearing unlined clothing, his skin still felt slightly hot.Then he thought of Gong Yu again, thinking that he was still wrapped in a sweater in such weather, and that ugly and black hat was also persistently worn, even if he was alone at home, he would not take it off .

Then, even if the heart can hold on, will Gong Yu's body be completely fine?

In the next few days, Lu Xiangzhou couldn't spare time to see Gong Yu.The school held a college student activity week, and he was selected as the teacher in charge of the recitation competition. He had to line up to guide a large number of children every day.

So he had no choice but to hang up the phone to the previous nurse again and ask him if he could take care of Gong Yu at home for a period of time, with food and lodging included, and the fee could be increased according to the situation.

Unexpectedly, the nurse didn't even think about it, and rejected him directly. The reason was that Gong Yu's mental illness was too troublesome.

"It's not troublesome. You see, I'm not a doctor, and I don't have any medical skills. Why can't I help him relax?"

But Lu Xiangzhou was determined to ask the nurse for help, so no matter how he was rejected, he always tried to persuade him.

"It's you, you are knowledgeable and educated, and you will react faster than a rough person like me. If you talk too much, just in case, he will get sick again one day. Ask me to get some medicine. I can't even write a word." If you don’t recognize a few, no one knows what kind of medicine to take.”

"Impossible. He often takes those few medicines. If you ask him when he is well, put it in your pocket, and you will definitely not make a mistake."

"Just how many spicy medicines? Are you kidding me, Mr. Lu, he only takes a few medicines for his spicy illness. When he was strangled in the hospital, some nurses and doctors would just give him strangleholds. I I don’t understand it at all. In the hospital before, I wanted to give you trouble and I couldn’t do it, but he couldn’t live or die, it’s pitiful, but now you know it yourself, it’s inappropriate to embarrass me any more.”

"He won't let you tell me?" Lu Xiangzhou's heart tightened, "Why won't he let you tell me?"

"Ah, I don't know. Kuoneng doesn't want you to worry. He won't let me tell you anything."

"Apart from this, what else did you not tell me?" Unexpectedly, Gong Yu was so defensive against him, Lu Xiangzhou's fingers holding the phone gradually turned pale.It's a good thing the nurse wasn't in front of him, otherwise seeing him like this, he would have to sue him for a malicious threat.

"It's not a joke anymore, it's all about this disease, you've seen him get sick, you must know it all."

"I don't know!" Lu Xiangzhou tried his best to keep his breathing steady, "I ran into him because of an accident, and he refused to say anything after that, the cause of the disease, the frequency of the disease, the mechanism of treatment, and even the side effects of the medicine. , I don’t know all about it.”

"Ah... so hot..." The nurse's voice trailed off, not sure if he was hesitating or worried.

"Don't be afraid. If you don't want to take care of him, you won't go. I can find someone else. But please tell me everything you know. This will make it easier for me to find someone. Don't worry, he doesn't know. Your contact information will not come to trouble you."

"Oh... I'm not worried about this, it's... it's Mr. Gongsenha, he... oh... He really doesn't want to tell you, I don't know if I will tell you, will I stimulated him."

"No, even if I know, I won't ask him, I... I will pretend not to know, and then I will slowly figure out a solution." Lu Xiangzhou was serious, he had already decided to solve Gong Gong secretly. Gong Yu would not be aware of Yu's problem, nor would it bring him any unnecessary trouble.

"Spicy...spicy... okay," the nurse hesitated for a long time, and finally said, "It's his disease, the frequency of attacks is amazing, sometimes once every two or three days, sometimes two or three times a day, just You can't touch... you can't touch it, don't you know?"

"Well, I probably know this. Do you know the cause of the disease? Is there any opportunity or something that will suddenly stimulate him to have the disease?"

"I don't know, it's just that I don't know. The head doctor of the hospital also asked him, but he is not willing to talk about it, and people can't do anything about him."

"Then do you remember when he first got sick?"

"It's just that he was in the hospital just now, Ah Tian. As soon as you left, his back legs started shaking, and he couldn't stop. I was almost scared to death."

"Then... what happened after that? When was the second attack?"

"This... I can't remember clearly, anyway, it's not every few days, but I found that when the interval between attacks is long, the symptoms will become more serious, and it won't get better after taking the medicine for a long time, but if it happens several times a day Pull, it's fine."

"Will the symptoms become severe after a long time interval?" Lu Xiangzhou suddenly thought of something, "Then when was the last time he got sick in the hospital?"

"It was six or seven days before I was discharged from the hospital. I can't remember the exact time."

"Six or seven days... Is it a long interval between six or seven days of onset?"

"That must be forgotten, he usually shoots every two or three days!"

Oh...so that's the case, so the Gong Yu I ran into by chance that day happened to be when he had a particularly serious illness. No wonder he was so weak that he couldn't even take the medicine, and he couldn't recover afterwards...

"I see, so what are the side effects of these medicines? Have you observed them?"

"I really don't know about this, but, but, this is my personal observation, and it may not be accurate."

Hearing the nurse's hesitation, Lu Xiangzhou quickly comforted him: "It's okay, you can say whatever you want, it doesn't matter if you're wrong, any information can help me now."

"Oh... oh so, hot... oh, actually, I think Gong Xiansen doesn't seem to care about this disease."

"What do you mean?"

"It's just that I asked him how he wants to be cured. After a long time, it will be cured well, but he may not be able to cure it if he chatters. It doesn't matter if it's a day."

It may not be curable...

The care worker's casual and relaxed short sentence reached Lu Xiangzhou's head, and suddenly turned into a thunderclap, splitting his world in half.