Accumulate feathers sink the boat

When Gong Yu came out, Lu Xiangzhou was still kneeling on the bed, a corner of the quilt was casually placed on his waist, his face was buried in the pillow, and he didn't know if he was asleep.

"Hey, wake up," Gong Yu pushed Lu Xiangzhou, "wash first before going to bed, or you'll get a stomachache later."

The curled knees slumped down on the bed, and the person who was thought to be asleep made a slight gasp: "Wait a minute, I'll take it easy." The pillow obstructed the sound, and it sounded a little aggrieved.

What are you wronged?Gong Yu thought, isn't it all your request?

"Hurry up, why are you acting like a child, do you want me to wash it for you?"

"do not want!"

The answer was clear and loud, and Gong Yu looked down, and saw that the person had already propped himself up from the bed, but his buttocks were still sticking out, he turned sideways, and twisted his waist, as if he wanted to get out of bed directly in this position.

"Hey!" Gong Yu pulled subconsciously, but Lu Xiangzhou wailed before he could exert any force.

"What are you doing?!" Lu Xiangzhou landed on one foot, quickly bounced off the bed as if avoiding the plague, but unfortunately overestimated his physical strength at the moment, staggered a few steps and directly hit the wardrobe. The sound of □□ colliding with the hollow cabinet door made both of them stunned for a moment, and the embarrassment after the silence swept away the charm that had not dissipated in the air.

"...I'm afraid that you are twisting your waist. Why are you so nervous? It looks like someone is going to touch you. Isn't it just over?" After Gong Yu finished speaking, he pulled the quilt and lay down, leaving only An arm waved casually in the air, "Go wash it quickly, don't get ink stains."

The pain in the shoulder dispersed the stabbing pain in a certain part, Lu Xiangzhou clamped his buttocks, clutched his waist, and moved towards the bathroom step by step.

In fact, he really didn't want to move, not only because of physical reasons, even if he was unscathed now, he still had no motivation to leave the bed at all, or in other words, Lu Xiangzhou wished he could just die right now.If you die directly, you don't have to face the troublesome things that are higher than the next wave, you don't have to do troublesome cleaning up after the event, you don't have to go to the hospital to have an abortion with embarrassment, you don't have to bear the risk of miscarriage and a series of physical changes after the event, and you don't have to be involved To draw up a divorce agreement that Gong Yu didn't even read a single word carefully.

Lu Xiangzhou suddenly discovered that the farewell he had prepared so hard was actually only Gong Yu who could end it, and he couldn't get it, because the love and pain would not end with a simple goodbye.These are longer things, so long that they cannot be counted in time, so long that even, maybe even long after he left Gong Yu, they would still stay in Gong Yu's body.

Love is, pain is more.

The sound of the shower was pattering, Lu Xiangzhou sat on the opened toilet, with his elbows on his knees and his head bowed down.There is liquid flowing out from behind him from time to time, it may be the melted lubrication, or it may be something left by Gong Yu just now, the tingling feeling in his gut is still there, but he has adapted, and now he will not even be affected by this occasional The pain that appeared disturbed—the sound of water was indeed the best accompaniment for the daze.

Something raced through his mind.

Augustine used the theory of illumination, predestination, and free will to explain the loopholes of God's omniscience, omnipotence, and goodness, so God is perfect, and he is worthy of everyone's love.So where is Augustine reincarnated now, can you explain Gong Yu's loopholes for him?Using Judaism, Manichaeism, and astrology is really not enough. Just like Aquinas, use Aristotle, Plato, and everything that can’t reach the north to explain to him the full of loopholes. Gong Yu.Let him also have this opportunity to believe that Gong Yu is omnipotent, omnipotent, and good. It's not that he doesn't love, but that Gong Yu's love hasn't had time to shine on the place where he has Lu Xiangzhou, and he doesn't need to worry, because everything is scheduled, waiting for the earth to rotate and revolve. Turning around again, will this god-like love come to him sooner or later?

or.

It's okay to have Wang Yangming, and Chinese people's problems can be solved with Chinese wisdom.Meditate on the toilet and silently recite the four lines of Yangming's teaching [-] times.Find the body of the heart that is neither good nor evil, and go to the fucking idea that Gong Yu doesn't love him at every turn, and then rely on his conscience, use the most primitive and purest understanding to find the clues that Gong Yu loves him, and then Get eternal peace in the collision of heart and reason, sex and spirit.

Ok?Will it work?

No.

Lu Xiangzhou discovered that the deepest feeling of not being loved cannot be saved by all the principles in the world, neither theologians nor philosophers, all these powerful people who have been eloquent and confused black and white in history can't think of a Gong Yu in fact. He loves his rhetoric, so naturally he can't imagine that he is nothing.

The sound of water from the shower continued, Lu Xiangzhou stood up and put his hand into the water curtain—it was already cold, just like his heart.But the water can be reheated after a while, he...

In the end, I still took a bath in this half-warm water, with an awkward posture, and the things that should be washed were not cleaned.When she came out wrapped in a bath towel, Gong Yu had already fallen asleep, leaning on the bed, breathing long and steadily.Lu Xiangzhou stood by the bed and looked at it for a few seconds, then turned and went to the living room with the pillow and the blanket on the bay window.

He didn't sleep very well that night, the spring was cold, the wind was cold and rainy, and the leather sofa was hard, forcing people to leave a trace of clarity in the world even if they had already fallen asleep.The sound of the motor of the night car, the wheel hub of the supper car, and the barking of someone's annoying puppy are all very clear in this night.Lu Xiangzhou was in one dream after another. For a while, he could remember that he was going to divorce Lu Xiangzhou, and for a while he felt that nothing had happened, so when the bedroom door rang, he almost subconsciously asked: "Is it true? right?"

"What's not true?" Gong Yu didn't see Lu Xiangzhou when he woke up, thinking that this man had gone to make breakfast, but when he just left the bedroom, he saw him lying on the bed wrapped in a thin blanket like a mummy, and couldn't help but gasp Come here, "Lu Xiangzhou, are you crazy? It's so cold that you stay in bed and stay here to blow the cold wind? Aren't you afraid of catching a cold?!"

Only then did he wake up completely, staring at Gong Yu with his red eyes, as if looking at some alien monster, and after a while he replied: "No... I just lay down for a while."

It's a pity that the hoarse voice betrayed him, Gong Yu sneered and said: "You just do it, you don't cherish your own body, and if you are sick, you blame me for not caring about you. Now you immediately give me medicine and go to bed to lie down , otherwise don’t blame me for speaking badly if I’m sick tonight.”

"You don't sound good when you speak," Lu Xiangzhou staggered out of bed, instead of getting medicine, he just poured a cup of hot water, "You speak the best way, talk more if you have nothing to say, anyway, there are fewer sentences to listen to."

"Why are you so crazy early in the morning?!"

The sweetness of yesterday was like a passing cloud, Gong Yu knew that the pendulum in Lu Xiangzhou's mind was now swinging to an abnormal mode, maybe the spring breeze that night brought him some fresh unhappiness.

"Lu Xiangzhou, I really advise you, don't be obsessed with your little love every day, go out more, get in touch with the society more, there are many people in this world who are worse than you, and everyone is like you Mental quality, human beings will be finished sooner or later."

"First," Lu Xiangzhou stretched out a finger, "Whether human beings look like me or not, this is a natural law. Second, some people don't hurt when they get stabbed, and some people cry when they are slapped. Physique. The one who received the knife cannot ask the one who was slapped to be as resistant as him, and the one who was slapped cannot ask the one who was slapped to be as sensitive as him, this is—”

"Okay, okay, okay, you're right, you're right about everything," Gong Yu supported his forehead, "I won't argue with you anymore, you can rest, I have to go to work here, and your week Noble creatures who only work one day are different."

After that, he turned and slammed on the door.

Lu Xiangzhou couldn't say "I work two days a week" stuck in his throat, so he could only bow his head and swear.Therefore, knowledge and culture cannot improve a person's literacy, only a harmonious living environment can, Teacher Lu deeply believes.

At eight o'clock in the morning, Gong Yu arrived at Co-effort, sitting in the office drinking hot tea, and Lu Xiangzhou also arrived at the provincial women and children, sitting in the consultation room and waiting for torture. Both of them will have a fulfilling day.

"Lu Xiangzhou, right? Do you have any questions?" The elderly doctor asked a question while poking words on the computer with two index fingers, looking impatient.

"No problem, I'm here for an abortion."

"What?!" The doctor raised his head and roared, causing Lu Xiangzhou to shiver with fright, "Miscarriage? Why? Did something happen to the embryo? Then show me your previous inspection records!"

"No...no..." Lu Xiangzhou carefully explained, "Xiao...no problem, I don't want it myself."

"No problem why don't you want it?"

"I...I am...a doctor. Our country allows Beta and Omega to decide whether to produce or not."

"That's right," the old doctor frowned even tighter, "But you are a Beta, does Beta have a miscarriage when she's pregnant? Do you know—"

"I know," it's better to be straightforward than dodging left and right, Lu Xiangzhou swallowed, and decided to confess everything, "My wife and I are getting divorced, and this child will affect our decision. It's not an impulsive divorce, it's deliberate, it's true. The relationship can't be maintained. I also know Beta's physical characteristics, and I know that if I don't want this child, I won't be able to have children in the future, so I have thought about it, you don't have to worry."

The words are clear, the logic is clear, and the mood is stable. Looking at Lu Xiangzhou, the old doctor really can't find the meaning of impulsive nonsense, but...but...the decision of not being able to have children for life does not seem to be so calm. yes.

Seeing that the doctor was still hesitating, Lu Xiangzhou hurriedly added: "My wife and I really don't have a good relationship, and there are great conflicts. It's not a relationship that can divorce and raise children together, so it really can't."

"Then you won't get married in the future? Do you know that Beta has a certain probability of conceiving a second child if the first child is delivered smoothly?"

"No more," Lu Xiangzhou didn't know that doctors in public hospitals would be so enthusiastic. Shouldn't they be so busy that each patient's consultation time should be controlled within 5 minutes? "Doctor, look, I'm already 34 years old. Even if I get divorced and start looking for it immediately, it will take at least two or three years before I can remarry. By then, I will be considered an advanced age and the risk will be greater. So let it be, I really want to It's clear, it's okay."

The doctor stared at Lu Xiangzhou, trying to find even a trace of dodge on his face, but there was none, let alone a trace, not even a flash of loneliness.So I had no choice but to open the desk drawer resignedly, and took out a piece of paper from a pile of printed paper: "Okay, you can sign after you think it through, the consent form for termination of pregnancy, you have to sign this before I can give it to you." You arrange an abortion."