Accumulate feathers sink the boat

But why not after marriage?

Lu Xiangzhou's question directly gave Chen Min the lead. She was stunned for a long time before she realized that the answer to this question was the key to today's conversation.

"There's no reason why. Marriage is different from falling in love. You can't go on with your life. Many families are like this."

But she can't say it, because ideals and reality are two different things.Lu Xiangzhou who has the courage to ask questions may not have the courage to listen to the answers, because he already has something certain in his heart, and the reason why he came to ask himself is not for answers, but for proof.

"This is your wishful thinking," Lu Xiangzhou had expected Chen Min to say this, but he was very dismissive. "Dad has been working hard, and he always feels that it is possible to restore the relationship with you."

"That's—" Chen Min, who was about to say something, suddenly took a deep breath, "It's useless, some inappropriateness is deeply rooted, and your father won't work no matter how hard he tries."

The turning point was so blunt that even Chen Min himself found it hard to decide.

"But at least he tried to work hard. Isn't it true that only those who have worked hard are qualified to say that they won't succeed? Why do you behave more confidently than Dad?"

"Because I'm calmer and more awake than him," Chen Min said coldly, "so I won't waste time on these insignificant things."

"What about me? I don't care about things, do I?"

"you--"

"Hi, we're almost there, which building do we get off at?"

The driver's untimely question interrupted the tense atmosphere, and when the sound of the motor sounded again, Lu Xiangzhou stopped the topic by himself.Chen Min thought that this was his son giving him a step down, but who would have thought that this step was just a hindrance.

"What's the situation?" Zhou Shu, who couldn't communicate effectively with Lu Xiangzhou for several consecutive days, wondered, "Didn't he feel much better before? Why has his state returned these days?"

More than just going back?Ever since Lu Xiangzhou stopped bringing up that day's problem with Chen Min, his desire to communicate was cleared again. Apart from the necessary daily needs, he didn't have a single word.

The silence lingering between mother and child was like a narrow cage, locking Chen Min tightly inside.She wanted to rush out to let go of those words that had been kept silent, but the stubborn Qingming always pulled her and covered her mouth to prevent her from speaking.

"I think...it might be me."

So I can only give ambiguous answers and beg the doctor to find a better way.

"What is your reason?"

"He...has some questions to know, but...but those things are too sensitive, I...I'm afraid that speaking out will affect his emotions, so...so..."

"Then can you tell me about it?" Zhou Shu said helplessly, "If you don't want to go into details, just give me a general direction, such as what issue it is about, how extensive it is involved, and his understanding of this issue. How deep is his obsession, so that I can judge whether it is the reason for his repetition this time."

"I think...it should be." Chen Min felt extremely stressed by the fact that she had never spoken. The congestion in her chest surrounded her tightly, as if she would be out of breath at any time.

"That......?"

"It's about my relationship with his dad."

"Ok?"

"We...the relationship between husband and wife is not very good, which has some influence on Xiang Zhou. He always feels that I don't care about him."

"And do you actually care about him?"

"What do you think?" Chen Min couldn't hold back a sad smile, "How can a mother not care about her children?"

"That's true..."

Zhou Shu’s words sounded like he was agreeing with Chen Min’s statement, but in fact he was thinking about another issue—it’s not that all mothers in the world care about their children, but that she, Chen Min, does not seem to be someone who doesn’t care about children. .Having been together day and night for the past few months, Zhou Shu felt that Chen Min's temperament was a bit cold, but coldness and irresponsibility are definitely two different things. She really cared about Lu Xiangzhou and took very good care of her. It can be said that she really couldn't fault it. What's wrong.

"I took him to see his father that day, and he kept asking about our past. I picked some innocuous things and told him, thinking that I could get away with it. But...but I didn't expect him to come back to this question in the end , just want to know the answer."

"Did he ask you that question before?"

"I mentioned it, different ways, different ways of asking, but I didn't say anything."

"Oh, so..." Zhou Shu was thoughtful, "That should be because he cares about it. You see, in the past few months, he has hardly asked us about it except for asking about his illness and daily life needs. What is a more serious question, this should be the first one to ask you?"

"Yes, the first one." Chen Min replied truthfully.

"That means that during the patient's recovery process, what he wants to know most is this question. On the contrary, he doesn't want to know what we speculated about Dr. Gong's movements before."

"Then what should I do?" Chen Min was really anxious, "Do I have to tell him? This matter is really complicated, and many problems may be different from what he has been thinking all along. I am afraid that speaking out will disappoint him."

"We still have to give it a try," Zhou Shu said while thinking, "But you don't need to finish talking all at once, and give him the initiative of the topic. Whatever he wants to know, you can say what you want to know, and don't mention too many things. Because in the future His current mental state can control his tolerance range, if what you say is beyond his imagination, his subconscious will prevent him from continuing to ask questions."

"But now he doesn't talk to me, and I—"

"He will talk to you," Zhou Shu said with a smile, "as long as you grab his attention first."

Grabbing his attention, Chen Min thought over Zhou Shu's words countless times, and finally decided to speak directly without laying the groundwork.

"So you still want to know the reason why I broke up with your dad?"

It was afternoon, Lu Xiangzhou woke up from a nap and was staring at the window in a daze. Chen Min's question was like a bomb thrown into the water, and his face, which was almost like a statue, was blown to pieces.

"What...what's the reason?" So Chen Min heard the first effective question in nearly a week.

"There are many bits and pieces, but the most important thing is that I also had my uterus removed."

"Ok?"

Lu Xiangzhou's brain was working very hard, and he didn't know whether to focus on the word "also" or on "picking the uterus".

"One week before the due date, my gonads suddenly ruptured due to a blood clotting disorder, and I had to undergo emergency surgery."

"Ruptured gonads?" Lu Xiangzhou slowly repeated Chen Min's words.

"Yes, you have been with us for so many years, you should know that this is one of the most dangerous situations during childbirth. Our medical technology was not as good as it is now, and there were no auxiliary gonads and auxiliary pheromones as substitutes. Surgery is a fight against death People. If you grab it quickly, adults and children may be able to save one, but if you grab it slowly, you will die twice."

"Then you... are lucky."

"Yes, I was very lucky. It was my chief obstetrician who operated on me, and he brought a whole team of specialists to stand all night before saving us both. But the price was that I was removed that night. The uterus, along with the gonads, are also removed, making a sexless person."

Sexless people... are the same as me, Lu Xiangzhou thought, so Chen Min has suffered such a serious crime.

"So you blame my dad? Blame him for making you suffer so much?"

"How is it possible?" Chen Min smiled wryly, "He blamed me."

"Why?" Lu Xiangzhou showed an expression of disbelief, and even spoke a little faster.

"Because I was so happy when I woke up, I didn't regret losing my womb, and I didn't feel the pain from now on. Unlike your father, I feel like I have suffered a disaster."

"Daddy... still want kids?"

"He must want to have as many children as possible, but it is unrealistic for Beta to have more children. I have always planned to have only one child. But I was really happy at the time not because I didn't have to be born again. I just felt lucky, because I knew This operation is too difficult, it is really too difficult for both of us to survive, this is not just a matter of luck or fate."

"So he blames you...you just blame me?"

"I didn't." Chen Min looked at Lu Xiangzhou uncomfortable, "Things are not what you think..."

"How is that?"

"I didn't blame you...I just...I just finished the operation at that time, and my physical condition and hormone secretion were all wrong. Your dad said every day that I had no conscience. It didn’t take long before the breastfeeding started. This is actually very normal. Many mothers will experience breastfeeding, but your dad doesn’t believe it, saying that I don’t want to breastfeed because I don’t like you, saying...that I did it on purpose interrupted the process."

"and then?"

"Then he stopped letting me hug you, saying that since I don't want to fulfill my mother's obligations, I should stop being a mother. I explained it to him, but he couldn't listen to it, and he wanted to believe those gossips, saying that the mother loves the child more The more milk there will be, every family is like this..."

"Do you think I can believe such a far-fetched reason?" Lu Xiangzhou's puzzlement turned into anger. He never imagined that Chen Min could distort things to such an extent in order to pour dirty water on Lu Wenchuan.

"So I never wanted to tell you, just because you wouldn't believe me if I told you."

"Then you have to find a way to convince me!" Lu Xiangzhou began to yell, "Be realistic! Show evidence! If you really thought that I was important, would I never know it since I was a child?! "

"Evidence? What evidence? Haven't you seen and heard a lot over the years?! You know everything! But you blocked it all yourself! You don't want to believe it at all!" Chen Min was also anxious, cold His brow furrowed suddenly, and every word he said was extremely sad.

"What have I heard or seen? The only thing I know is that you two quarrel at every turn. My dad always endured you and let you in front of me. He only dared to yell at you when I fell asleep. What do I have?" It needs to be shielded!"

"Xiang Zhou, do you really want me to start from the beginning?" Chen Min's voice trembled slightly, "We did so many things together when you were young, and you forgot it too early, but you won't do anything after that. remember?

You mentioned it yourself to go to kindergarten, because the Xingxing brother next door to our courtyard told you that there are many toys in the kindergarten, and there are many children playing with you every day, so you can’t sit still and make a fuss about going every day.So I will contact you and take you to see one kindergarten after another. After running for many days, I have seen all the kindergartens around my house before picking the one you like.But on the first day you went there, you cried because you couldn’t get used to it. Your father scolded me for several months because of this, saying that I was too cruel. You sent you to kindergarten at such a young age. Obviously, you can spend more time at home with you of.

Yeah?Do you think about it yourself?You were four years old at that time, Xiang Zhou!Other children go to kindergarten at the age of three, but your father locks you up at home every day because he hates you, and even disagrees with you wanting to go to kindergarten.And I just did what a normal mom would do, what the hell is wrong with that?

But your father just wants to say that I will harm you, the kindergarten will harm you, and the elementary school will also harm you.

Did you forget it?That time when you were invited by your parents at school, they said that you got a zero score in the Chinese test. I didn’t know until I went there. The teacher asked you to describe your favorite fruit, and you wrote bananas and pomegranates.But you are in the third grade...the third grade does not know that bananas have layers of skin, and that pomegranates grow on trees and not on plates.

Your dad never showed you a banana with the skin on or a pomegranate in the middle of it, so you take it for granted that they look the way you eat them.Did you cry that day, feel wronged, and feel that your father didn't explain clearly to you?When I came back, did I take you to buy bananas and pomegranates, teach you to peel them bit by bit, and teach you to recognize fruits?

The results of it?As a result, when your dad came home and saw that I was asking you to peel the pomegranate by yourself, he wished he had even lifted the coffee table.Mom also wants to ask you, why did you refuse to say a word?Why don't you say it's what you want to learn?Why didn't you say that you didn't know the fruit and was criticized by the teacher?Why just watch your dad scold me all dinner for these trumped-up charges? ! "