Accumulate feathers sink the boat

In the end, I still didn't finish the movie, because Gong Yu fell asleep halfway.

At the beginning, I was only distracted for a short time, and I couldn't listen to the crazy lines in the movie, so I leaned on the sofa to let my mind go.Then I couldn't help closing my eyes, and my head followed the rhythm of the movie bit by bit, like the kind of puppy with a neck spring in the store.

Lu Xiangzhou was still sad at first, sad that the heroine was loved but lost her lover, and even more sad that he had a lover but never been loved.It wasn't until Gong Yu's dangling head suddenly leaned against his shoulder, and the great panic of the imminent separation pushed him out of the movie and returned to reality.

How reluctant?Lu Xiangzhou asked himself in his heart.

Once many years ago, he and Gong Yu had a quarrel because Gong Yu forgot their wedding anniversary again.That day, he sat alone in the restaurant where he reserved a seat until 11 o'clock, until the staff reminded him sorry that the restaurant was going to close, and then he picked up the wilted roses and threw down the untouched dishes on the table. Like a plucked rooster, he went home dejectedly.As a result, as soon as he entered the door, he saw Gong Yu sitting on the sofa wearing big underpants, eating watermelon while watching TV, and beckoned him to eat together.

At that moment, he suddenly couldn't stand it anymore.

The whole person rushed up like crazy, swept all the watermelons that Gong Yu hadn't eaten on the ground, and then stomped on them with all his strength.If the soles of the feet are slippery, you have to step on it, and if your trouser legs are dirty, you have to step on it. When Gong Yu scolded him and dragged him, he would step on it.At that time, there was only one sentence that filled his head - why?

Why would you rather go home and eat watermelon than come to me for dinner?Why do you still refuse to go over and take a look even though I have booked a place to eat near your hospital?Why do you forget the first year, the second year, and now the third fucking year?Didn't you say that there are no more than three things?Why do you do it again and again?

why? !

Lu Xiangzhou remembered that he was like a shrew who scolded the street, yelling at Gong Yu why, why why why, repeating this sentence back and forth, wailing and growling.Until Gong Yu couldn't bear it anymore, he grabbed a teacup and dropped it to the ground with a "kuang", and then asked in an extremely calm voice during his brief shock: "Lu Xiangzhou, do you want a divorce?"

He was suddenly quiet.

The heartbeat, the breathing, the ticking clock in the living room, and everything that might make a sound at this time are all quiet.

Lu Xiangzhou was afraid, not because of this sentence, but because of everything that might come after this sentence.I am afraid that Gong Yu will leave after saying this sentence, not staying in this house or by his side; I am afraid that Gong Yu will characterize him, saying that he is an unreasonable lunatic, an unreasonable lunatic, not worth mentioning A lunatic; afraid that Gong Yu would say that he regretted, regretted knowing him, regretting trusting him, regretting marrying him.

I am afraid that Gong Yu's sentence is not a question, but a declarative sentence. I am afraid that what Gong Yu really wants to say is: Divorce, Lu Xiangzhou, we are divorced.

So what happened to him?Oh, he apologized.Almost impatient, impatient, and heartbroken, the first moment I realized it, I said that I'm sorry.

"Sorry, I was impulsive, I was in a bad mood just now, I..."

me what?I am not important.

At that moment, Lu Xiangzhou clearly understood his situation and status for the first time, knew his greatest unwillingness and greatest reluctance, and knew that even though his heart was already in a mess like this watermelon all over the ground, he still felt that, and Gong Yu's divorce is the worse thing, the worst thing.

And now, he is going to let the worst thing happen.

Lu Xiangzhou wants to get out of this house by himself, let go of all the grievances and complaints of these years, throw away all the time and effort he has put in, admit that all the love is not worth mentioning, and believe that he is terrible, ordinary and even unattractive.No longer relying on any luck, and no longer harboring humble waiting, he wants to make Gong Yu's interrogative sentences back then into declarative sentences.

Then accept that Gong Yu's smile will never be seen again in this life, even if those smiles were not because of him once.Then accept that in this life, you will never be able to speak to Gong Yu again, even if it is just a few simple greetings, hello, or goodbye.Then accept that Gong Yu smoothly fell in love with someone else after leaving him, a beautiful Omega, or a Beta as ordinary as him.

Then accepted, Gong Yu brushed him away, just like brushing away any small and inconspicuous dust in life.

This is his giving up, like Ling Chi's giving up.

The TV screen was pitch black, reflecting the figures of two people who depended on each other, which looked peaceful and warm.Gong Yu, who just woke up, rubbed his neck, secretly complaining that Lu Xiangzhou was too thin, and he would suffer from shoulder and neck contusion just by doing so for a while.

"When did it end? Why didn't you call me?" He pointed to the TV and asked in a low voice.

"Just now," the weight on the shoulders suddenly disappeared, making people feel a little out of balance, but the body temperature left by Gong Yu is still there, and the slightly itchy touch of the hair scratching the skin is still there, Lu Xiangzhou took a light breath, "Thinking Let you sleep for a while, I didn't call you."

"What's the matter, it's not the same if you go in and sleep."

There were still a few slices of pears left on the table, which were now slightly yellow due to oxidation. Gong Yu didn't pay attention to these, and forked another slice into his mouth: "So did you find it later? Her boyfriend."

"Well, I found it."

"Where did you go? Did you run away with someone else?"

"No, no." Lu Xiangzhou felt a little short of breath, as if someone was pressing his lungs to prevent him from breathing, "Drug trafficking was discovered by the police."

"Just got caught? Have been in prison all these years?"

"No, it's because he has been dealing drugs all these years, and then the girl happened to be discovered when she was looking for him."

"So unlucky?"

"Ah."

Gong Yu frowned, not knowing what he was thinking, and after a while, he spoke again: "Then there is no other way, we can't be together, drug trafficking will be sentenced to many years, this girl misjudged the person."

Temporary shortness of breath would cause body temperature to rise and limbs to become weak. Lu Xiangzhou felt that he urgently needed to stand up and walk instead of continuing to lie on this sofa.So he picked up the pear and walked quickly to the kitchen as steadily as possible.

"But she said meeting this boy was the happiest thing in her life."

"What?" Gong Yu jumped up and followed Lu Xiangzhou, "Hey, what are you doing with pears? You haven't finished eating yet!"

"Don't eat it, it's all yellow," Lu Xiangzhou ignored Gong Yu's stop, and dumped all the remaining pears into the trash can with a "swish", "Actually, I was very happy when I met you."

Still couldn't hold back, Lu Xiangzhou squeezed the plate tightly, why couldn't hold back.

"Why are you comparing me with that man? It's unlucky." Hearing the confession suddenly, Gong Yu felt a little embarrassed, "Besides, what's so happy about it, choosing the wrong person, wasting so much time, With this skill, anyone can get married and have children.”

"You don't understand. It's a kind of happiness to meet someone you like so much. It's a kind of luck to be able to love someone and someone to love you."

"Okay," Gong Yu nodded with his mouth curled up, with an expression that I don't understand but I'm too lazy to talk to you, "Then I'll go take a shower first, come here quickly after you pack up, you still have tomorrow class, right?"

"No tomorrow, I'm in second or fifth class this semester."

"Oh, remember."

You can't remember, Lu Xiangzhou looked at Gong Yu's nodding figure as he walked away, thinking to himself, how can you remember these, after many years, you can't even remember these years, this day, me.There is no waiting, no disappointment, no unwillingness in your life, but you are also quite unfortunate because you have never loved.

The air outlet of the air conditioner is emitting a steady stream of warm air, and the air in the bedroom has been raised to a soft temperature. Gong Yu, who had just come out of the bathroom and was wrapped in a thick bathrobe, didn't notice the huge temperature difference, so he tilted slightly suspiciously. Tilting his head: "Why do you make the temperature of the air conditioner so high? Isn't it hot?"

At this moment, Lu Xiangzhou was half-sitting on the bed with his back to the bathroom door. To save time, he had just taken a quick shower in the guest bathroom. His hair was still wet, and his pajamas were slightly wet, making his already neat waist and back line appear more clearly.Hearing that Gong Yu came out, he turned around, revealing the tender whiteness on his chest.

"It's been raining outside, and I'm afraid the temperature will drop tonight, so I turned it up a bit."

While talking, Lu Xiangzhou was blowing the broken hair on his forehead with a hair dryer. His elbows were raised and lowered, and even the neckline on his chest was raised and lowered. Occasionally, some sensitive parts would be exposed. , suddenly feel a little hot.

"Put on your clothes if you're afraid of the cold. It's useless to turn on the air conditioner like this."

"Ok?"

Lu Xiangzhou lowered his head when he heard the news, and pulled the hem of the pajamas with his slender fingers, making the half-open neckline a little lower, as if he didn't understand.Gong Yu was impatient, so he simply stepped onto the bed, intending to button up Lu Xiangzhou himself, but was stopped as soon as he stretched out his hand.

The skins that had just taken a shower touched each other, both of them were moist. Lu Xiangzhou's thin lips parted slightly, forming a charming arc: "I want it, are you tired now?"

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