Accumulate feathers sink the boat

Due to excessive tension and severe physical exhaustion, Gong Yu developed a high fever the night he returned to Quanlin.

Alpha has a good body. In order to ensure that he can adapt to high-intensity work, Gong Yu usually pays more attention to exercise and health maintenance.In my impression, the last time he had a fever was four years ago, when the hospital team built a barbecue. He played with the people in Corey and rushed to eat, but the food was spoiled when he returned home.He was vomiting and diarrhea, and his body temperature approached 39°C. Lu Xiangzhou was so anxious that he almost gave him first aid overnight.

Lu Xiangzhou......

Gong Yu was shivering all over, and the half-empty big bed was terribly cold.He put the word Lu Xiangzhou in his mouth and hugged him, but it was still too cold.He has already taken antipyretics. Lu Xiangzhou lied to him before, saying that he wanted to sleep and didn’t want to take the medicine, but it’s been almost half an hour since he took the medicine now, and the chill in his body still hasn’t dissipated. Not to mention sleeping, it’s very difficult to even try to rest .That's why he didn't want to sleep, or he refused to take medicine. He was sick and wanted someone to comfort him, and he didn't want to lose the right to be comforted by just taking a pill, but he didn't comfort Lu Xiangzhou.

Lu Xiangzhou......

Cold sweat kept coming out, and the heating and eiderdown quilt couldn't resist the cold from body to heart.Gong Yu huddled on the bed for a long time, and finally rushed into the guest room holding the quilt unbearably.The sick Lu Xiangzhou used to sleep there. When he had a fever, he was pissed off by himself, and he endured the high temperature in this small room for a whole night.Gong Yu didn't know what else could relieve his exhaustion and discomfort at the moment, so he could only take the most naive method, staying next to everything related to Lu Xiangzhou, in order to gain the illusion that the two of them were constantly approaching.

Even if it's an illusion...

The body trembled like a sieve, but the mind was clear like a bright light, and the details that had been ignored were played in Gong Yu's mind one by one like a horse watching flowers.He thought of the night when he said something wrong, Lu Xiangzhou cooked a big table of dishes, including shrimp, fish, and his favorite braised chicken.There were so many dishes, the two of them couldn't finish them all, and in the end they poured nearly half of them. Why didn't he have any curiosity and suspicion at that time?Is Lu Xiangzhou trying to get his attention in this way?As long as he is a little smarter, a little more patient, and clears up all of Lu Xiangzhou's unhappiness and grievances that night, will he not be like this today?

And Lu Xiangzhou's sudden high fever.Why did he sleep in the living room the first day?Are you trying to get yourself a cold on purpose?Is it because the cooking is neglected, so I can only sacrifice my health and go to the extreme?Then if, if I didn't get angry that night, but coaxed people to take medicine and sleep with nice words, wouldn't the matter not lead to divorce?

Too many mistakes...

Only now did Gong Yu realize that he had done too many wrong things, and every avalanche would not be caused by a gust of wind, but he had never thought about it before, how could he not have thought about it at all? !

The initial chill passed, and the burning sensation took over his body instead of the cold air, and he thought of the fever-reducing patch again.At that time, he rummaged through the boxes and cabinets to find the keys, and when he entered the door, he saw Lu Xiangzhou sleeping like a shrimp with the quilt rolled up, and he was even a little angry.What are you angry about?What's the matter?Being scolded even when he was sick, Lu Xiangzhou should be the one who should be more angry!He still feels regretful, and feels that there will be more troubles after marriage, but now, isn't it more troublesome now?Isn't it a million times more troublesome than getting married? !

The unfeeling Lu Xiangzhou is far more difficult to resist than the hypocritical Lu Xiangzhou.

As time passed, Gong Yu could clearly feel his body temperature rising from low to high, and then from high to low again.During this period, he fell into a short sleep due to excessive physical exertion, but Lu Xiangzhou's face was always inserted into his chaotic dreams, angry, innocent, noisy, gentle, and more commonly cold It made him restless, and he woke up suddenly at inexplicable moments.

He didn't know what happened to him, maybe it was the stimulation of a sudden illness, or maybe it was the blow that he couldn't ask for, but his originally resolute spirit became extremely fragile, and his desire to establish a connection with Lu Xiangzhou increased exponentially with time.But Lu Xiangzhou blocked all the channels he could reach, communication, internet, face-to-face requests... the existence that was once at your fingertips has become out of reach, this is a punishment far beyond the essence, he is a little confused, but More of a powerlessness.

This situation lasted all night, and at noon the next day, Gong Yu woke up from the boundless torment.He opened his eyes and saw that his mobile phone had been overwhelmed by messages from the hospital, 3/1 of which were greeting the leader who suddenly fell ill, and the remaining 3/2 were a lot of messages under the banner of "difficult and miscellaneous diseases". Trivial.

"I can't live without this cooperation, can I?"

The tightly wrapped quilt was wet with sweat, and the whole room was filled with the smell of his pheromones. Gong Yu smelled uncomfortable, and didn't care whether he had just returned from a high fever, wrapped himself in a cotton coat, went into the study next door and opened the window .

"hiss--"

The cold air, wrapped in the smell of big icicles, froze him. It turned out that it was snowing in Quanlin, and he didn't know it.The snow covered the land and stretched to the edge of the world, causing the whole city to fade from color to gray, withered branches and trees, insects and birds were silent, and the broken marriage in spring finally stung his nerves in winter.

"Half a year..."

It was the first time that the date of divorce was so clearly formed in Gong Yu's mind, half a year, and it had been half a year since Lu Xiangzhou left the house.He erased all the evidence of living in this house, clothes, shoes and socks, computer paper and pens, and all kinds of useless but beautiful trinkets.Only a pile of huge and surprisingly heavy books remained in the bookcase, now showing a bleak appearance under the reflection of white snow and sunlight, just like...

Eh!Wait a minute!Gong Yu stared at the bookcase full of books, and suddenly realized that this was probably the only remaining connection between him and Lu Xiangzhou. An unnatural impulse prompted him to open the bookcase, which he would never be interested in normally. Follow your intuition to move back and forth between the rows of bookshelves.Bakhtin, Proust, Bergson, Heidegger... He wanted to find something familiar to him, something that Lu Xiangzhou mentioned but failed to pay attention to, such as... .Like Dostoevsky!

Gong Yu picked out this plain little book from Lu Xiangzhou's assortment of exhibits, "The Gambler", which is medium thick and looks a little dated, with yellowed pages and some creases at the corners of the cover.He thought of the class he had attended, and it was this person, Lu Xiangzhou said that as long as he wanted, he could use the pen as a weapon to defeat anyone.

The time pointed to two o'clock in the afternoon, driven by longing and curiosity, Gong Yu gave up the plan to go out to eat, and had no time to wait for the takeaway to deliver the meal.He casually made a bowl of instant noodles for himself, ate a few mouthfuls and started reading a book.One hour, two hours...five hours, this great doctor who has never touched any literature books since the Chinese college entrance examination unexpectedly persevered until the last page, and even checked the contents of the book with his mobile phone Let's talk about what is "Russian gambling", and by the way, I have read the rules of the casino, the probability of winning or losing, and the methods and skills.

When he evened his breath and closed the book, a secret fear finally broke through the high-density plot with no breathing space and aroused his goosebumps.

Absolutely.

It turns out that language and writing can be used to such an extent. Gong Yu couldn't help imagining the thrill of standing in front of the bank and pressing down the numbers to sweep away the chips, the thickness of the money, the cheering expressions of the people around him, and the continuously accumulating bonuses and funds. gold.He was really glad that he was at home and not in a casino at the moment, otherwise, let alone trying impulsively, it would not be impossible to spend all his money.Desire, passion, greed, delusion, all the emotions that he thought had nothing to do with him, all exploded under the stimulation of this Tuo.

So everything Lu Xiangzhou said is true.He thought about that class again, about the students he had only met twice.Have they read the book?Did you understand what Lu Xiangzhou said?This destroyer of human behavior will really use words to break the moral defense line of everyone's heart bit by bit, like a demon, holding a sharp pen to forcefully pierce everyone's hypocritical mask.

Some unconscious smiles floated on Gong Yu's cheeks, this was the first time he really understood and believed what Lu Xiangzhou said, and he was sincerely convinced.The excitement of the cerebral cortex led to the awakening of the body, and he flipped the pages of the book uncontrollably, letting those wonderful plots stay in his mind as long as possible.

Suddenly, a passage of handwriting caught Gong Yu's attention, and he flattened the book on the desk,

After searching carefully and quickly, I finally found that paragraph of Junxiu's handwriting in the blank space of the last page.

In fact, it was two paragraphs, one was written in blue and black ink, the handwriting was scribbled and slightly wild, and the other was written stroke by stroke with a black water-based pen, neatly, cleanly and powerfully.But the thin and narrow frame of the two paragraphs and the always elongated tail peak also showed that all of them were written by the same person - Lu Xiangzhou, these are the reading notes left by him.

Gong Yu began to read carefully and full of anticipation.

The first paragraph: "It's no wonder that Tuoshi finished writing this book in only 26 days. I think 26 days is regarded as his slow progress. What is the difference between this kind of experiential and immersive writing and writing a diary? Oh no, It can’t be called diary writing either. I don’t want to gamble when I read other people’s diaries. This should be called a crime guide, written by the suspect himself, and using his own real experience to lure others to commit crimes, so as to achieve the goal of the common degeneration of all mankind.”

Paragraph [-]: "I was wrong, Doshi is the one who really knows how to use language as a weapon. He knows how to foreshadow, how to pull thoughts, how to make readers hold their breath at the climax, and how to let down their guard at the calm place .This is a kind of mind manipulation, and it cannot be done without superb language logic. All national regimes should be grateful that Tuoshi did not become their enemy. The nuclear weapon in the literary world is truly well-deserved.”

Repeated reading and constant correction.Gong Yu couldn't help laughing when he saw Lu Xiangzhou's immature experience left a few years ago or even more than ten years ago.Very cute, Xiao Wenqing Lu Xiangzhou, who has so many emotions after reading a book, compelled to babble, writing such a long series of experiences, it seems that he really likes it.

The long-lost communication was suddenly continued through these two paragraphs of book reviews. Gong Yu couldn't put it down, and read it back and forth several times. While reading, he imagined Lu Xiangzhou's expression when he wrote these two paragraphs, and felt even cuter for a while. up.It was about this time that the disappointment of going to Hong Kong for nothing finally began to dissipate. He looked up at the bookcase, and suddenly had an idea, picked up a few books at random, and started flipping through them.

This has.

There is also this one.

Hey, there are so many in this book, every corner is filled!

Gong Yu flipped through the books left by Lu Xiangzhou one by one, and found that almost every book had long or short book reviews, no matter how bad it was, there were some crooked horizontal lines, indicating that this book had been read and left a memory.

It turned out that Lu Xiangzhou didn't leave. He kept his most important things. These books are his life and soul, just like the scalpel is his life and soul.The broken emotional line was finally reconnected, and some unreasonable panic and reluctance slowly evaporated under the heating.

"Then wait a little longer," Gong Yu looked at the books on the wall, and sighed while laughing, "When I read more books and get closer to the little guy, I shouldn't be so easy to make him angry. Wait for him Come back, I will behave well, I can always get another marriage certificate..."

The author has something to say:

There are too many things in the three-dimensional space recently, and I am really too busy, so I will take a week off next week, sorry to make everyone wait again~