Accumulate feathers sink the boat

Extra Story 2 (2)

"I really didn't know they were coming today, had I known—"

"What did you know earlier? If you knew it earlier, you would have told me not to come? After all, the office is only so big, and it can't accommodate so many people, right?"

As soon as Wu Lin and his son left, Gong Yu began to explain pitifully, but before he finished speaking, he was choked back by Lu Xiangzhou. Based on his understanding of his wife, this level is basically a red warning of anger. .

"No, how is it possible? If they don't come, they should not come. Who can compare to you!"

"Not as good as me? Maybe Gong Yu," Lu Xiangzhou pushed his glasses, "I'm not an idiot, you should be the one who told that person just now that I'm not important, right?"

"I... I, I, that's..."

"What's that?" The light yellow sofa is soft and comfortable, but Lu Xiangzhou felt panicked in his heart, "Oh, but at that time, I probably wouldn't have imagined that one day I would be able to sit in your office on an equal footing." Talking to your patients, isn't my status a big plus, Gong Yu?"

"Hey, Xiang Zhou..." Not daring to sit down next to Lu Xiangzhou, Gong Yu had to carefully squat next to the sofa. A big man was forced to shrink into a small ball, looking aggrieved.

"I really didn't mean to target you at that time. I want to know that you can hear me. As for saying that? I was really..."

"I really didn't take it to heart."

The answer was obvious, Lu Xiangzhou squinted his eyes and made up what Gong Yu didn't finish, but who knew that Gong Yu was quite rebellious, not only ungrateful, but also took his hand directly, intending to adopt a gentle routine.

"No, listen to me, I really thought about this question very carefully afterwards, whether I really didn't think about you at all at the time, or whether I really didn't care at all, I don't think so, I didn’t lie to you, I thought about it many times, and every time I think it’s not right.”

"What's that?" Lu Xiangzhou asked.

"I was too anxious at the time. When Xiao Li came in and said you were waiting for me, I did think about asking you what's the matter first, but I was afraid that you would talk too much and be too secretive, which would delay—"

"hold up?"

"No...yes, oh, Xiangzhou, this word is a bit ugly, but at that time I was really afraid of delaying this child, he was still bleeding, and it stands to reason that he should go directly to the operating room to remove the child, But when I saw him like that, I always felt unbearable and wanted to try again, so I made up a random reason, saying that you are not important and don’t need to be distracted, and then I was busy continuing to explain the subsequent treatment methods. What I think is that no matter how anxious you are, you should not be as anxious as him, and you should be fine if you wait a bit,..."

You should be fine just wait...

Will it be all right?Lu Xiangzhou didn't know.

In fact, he also thought, if the wild cat hadn't opened the door of Gong Yu's room at that time, and he hadn't heard that sentence, would it really be possible to stand till the end on that cold rainy balcony? Saying that sentence that has never had a chance to speak, then are he and Gong Yu...

"Then what if I told you, if I didn't wait, I rushed in and told you about it, or told you about it at home a little earlier, would you care about me? Push back your all-important work a little bit?"

"I will, of course I will. Xiang Zhou, at any time, in fact, I have never put you behind anyone, but I can't express it, and I haven't thought about how to express it to you. Now of course I know this is No, but at the time...before...I literally never realized it."

"You fart," Lu Xiangzhou suddenly raised his voice, "You didn't put me behind anyone, you obviously put me after work every time, and my ranking with you will always be the bottom one!"

"No, Xiang Zhou, no. I know you're angry, and it's normal to say anything when you're angry. But think about it, you've been sick all these years, but I basically haven't missed it, haven't I? When you catch a cold, you have a fever. I gave you needles at home for several infusions, right? Because you said you didn’t want to go to the hospital, there are so many people, and the smell of disinfectant is strong..."

"But you were cursing at the time! You didn't want to go home and take care of me at all!"

"Yes...but I was annoyed because I was afraid that the people below would gossip, that they would say that I usually don't allow them to take half a day off, and I would spend a whole day when I leave. You know that a leader wants to convince the public, You have to do it yourself, right?"

"But you can tell me well, instead of blaming a patient all the time!"

"Yes, yes, you are right. That's why I realized that I was so ridiculous after you left. I always thought that as long as I almost finished the things I should do, I could be considered a good husband, give you space, provide you with Necessary living security, I can help you when you need me, and then you don’t cheat, and you often go home when you are free. I really thought that being a husband is so simple, after all, my dad has done it for so many years. But I didn't know that what you need is not only a husband, but also a lover, a true lover."

"So you don't love me."

"It's not that I don't love you, it's that I don't know that I need to love you."

As the night began to darken, Gong Yu secretly rubbed his numb legs, leaned on Lu Xiangzhou's arm that was resting on the side of the sofa, and slowly sat on the ground.

"I don't want to lie to you, Xiang Zhou, and I don't want to say some beautiful words to make you happy. If you want to ask me what I was thinking in those years, I can only tell you that I really didn't think about anything. I don't want to get anything from you, and I don't think about what you want from me.

I thought that getting married was two people living together as a partner. After eight years, although we would quarrel, I really felt that we were doing well.So I will never wish you a bad life, and I will never intentionally hurt you. I am willing to maintain the peace of our family forever. At that time, I decided to marry you. I really never thought about changing someone. "

"But I've been tortured because of you..." Lu Xiangzhou's eyes were a little red, he wanted to lean towards Gong Yu, but he couldn't let it go, so he just sat awkwardly, like A wronged little daughter-in-law.

"I know, baby, I know, but I know it too late, don't I? I really, I don't understand how I can't do something so simple. People go home and say soft words Is it difficult to coax you? Is it difficult to be gentle when coaxing you to take medicine when I am worried about you? I was really scared when you vomited at home when you had a miscarriage, but at that time...at that time...

Later, I thought about it many times. I wondered if I hadn't been in such a hurry and had talked to you properly, would you have followed me to the hospital?Could it be that I can find out that you are pregnant earlier, then is it—”

"How can there be so many what-ifs? Even if I go with you, you won't have such a big change. Didn't you get so busy that you even forgot about my illness? I have been waiting for your call for a few days, thinking what if It would be great if you could call me and ask me. If you ask me a little bit, even if you ask me in a weird way, I will feel comfortable, but you didn't, you really just forgot me. How can you forget such a big thing? Gong feather?"

Yeah... how could I forget?

Gong Yu really didn't know, he couldn't answer this question.Let's put it aside for now, not to mention that Lu Xiangzhou is sick, he can't even forget what color underwear Lu Xiangzhou is wearing today.He also really wanted someone to tell him why he was so heartless and cold back then, and couldn't even do the most basic things.

"I don't think you'd love children either."

Lu Xiangzhou's voice became a little nasal, Gong Yu felt distressed, and finally sat on the sofa and hugged him into his arms, but such a little touch was obviously not enough, he waited, and seeing that Lu Xiangzhou didn't resist, he simply picked him up and hugged him in his arms. On the leg, the corner of the mouth touched Lu Xiangzhou's forehead, and kissed him lightly.

"You just don't love children, do you?"

Gong Yu's embrace was big and soft, and Lu Xiangzhou wrapped his arms around his waist, as if he had found a bed.

"I decided not to have a child at the time because I thought you wouldn't love him. You would be like your father. You wouldn't care what your child does except eat, drink, and scatter three meals a day. You wouldn't care if he missed his father or not. You won’t know which park he likes to go to, and you may not even know what school or class he is studying, just like your dad didn’t know you wanted to study medicine until the college entrance examination.

Are you bound to become that kind of dad?right?You never met another dad anyway. "

"Yes, you are right," Gong Yu pinched Lu Xiangzhou's face, and said softly, "Look, if you didn't tell me, I thought that's what my father wanted to do. So I heard Teacher Chen talking about you and Lao Lu. I was still puzzled, thinking where did he get such patience. But in fact, being a father has to be like that, right? What kind of father’s love is like a mountain, it’s all nonsense, and it’s all those irresponsible fathers who want to deceive ghosts.

Obviously, father and mother are equally important in a child's growth process, and Alpha is as important as Beta and Omega, but public opinion will always compress the responsibility of one party and exaggerate the responsibility of the other, which is very unfair to everyone. "

"that is!"

I don't know if Gong Yu's introspection was too sincere, but Lu Xiangzhou suddenly wanted to laugh a little bit, he bit Gong Yu's shoulder, wrinkled his nose and asked, "Would you feel sad seeing that child just now? You traded your own child for it, and self-sacrifice is nothing more than that, right?"

"Hey, don't mention it, okay? Li Xiaoli called me and told me that Wu Lin came and I rushed here with all my might. The consultation was not over yet. I was afraid that you would find out that she was the same child back then. I felt uncomfortable, but I still didn't rush. superior..."

"Are you talking about me now? I'm asking you!"

"I'm sad too...Of course I'm also sad...When I think that I could keep my two children, my heart...I just...hey...how can you even forgive this? What about me? Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva who saves suffering is not as magnanimous as you."

"Maybe it's because I want to test you." Lu Xiangzhou suddenly smiled, "I don't think I can just let you live a good life like this. I have to stay by your side and continue to torture you, making you like that monkey grandson, forever oppressed." Under my Five Fingers Mountain!"

"Come on, what kind of Wuzhishan are you, you are my life, okay... I... got that bad disease at that time, and I was actually quite comfortable in my heart, thinking that I would die like this one day, and it would be over once and for all. It's also very good. My only worry is that you will be sad and miss me if you know that I am dead, so I hold back and take the medicine...

I said at the time that I hope you find a boyfriend, I really hope you find a boyfriend, he must be very good, very handsome, and it is best to find him right away, so—"

"Then you can die with peace of mind? Are you really going to die without taking medicine?" Lu Xiangzhou jumped off Gong Yu's lap and looked at him in disbelief, as if he was looking at some kind of psychosis.

"It's...not really, hey, don't be so excited, it's just that you will have a lot less worry and anxiety when you live...I...I really gave up at the time and felt that I had nowhere to go, but I also I'm especially afraid that you will have the same mentality when you and I mentioned divorce.

I...I'm afraid that you will be completely desperate because of me..."

"I didn't..." Lu Xiangzhou sighed, walked over and sat down next to Gong Yu, "I filed for divorce at the time because I hoped that I could go out and have a new life. The second half of my stay in Hong Kong really I had a good time, I thought I could let go of you and start a new life, but who knew—”

"Who knew I was so shameless that I couldn't shake it off like a bullshit plaster?"

"Exactly! Gong Yu, why were you so annoying back then, like a stalker!"

"Maybe it's because although I haven't figured out where my real problem is, I already know in my subconscious that I absolutely can't do without you, so...you know that once a stray dog ​​recognizes its owner, it will be treated as if you took a stick." You can’t drive it away even if you hit it.”

"Are you a dog?"

"Aren't I? Pablo's dog, woof!"

"Oh annoying!!"

Lu Xiangzhou, who had just sat down for a while, smiled and ran away again.The depression of meeting Wu Lin is still there, but only a little bit. Now he can rest assured of being wronged and sad, because there will always be someone to coax and someone to love.He is like the guard in diamond armor, even though his body is weak, he is not afraid of the enemy's sword.

Perhaps this is the meaning of reunion after a broken mirror.

In fact, where is there any perfect reunion in this world?A broken mirror, no matter how you fix it, there will always be a crack there, hideous and ugly.But mortals must repair it, which means that after those efforts, there exists something far more beautiful than cracks. It is so beautiful that people can tolerate incompleteness, forgive imperfections, and then guard the sweetness that is lost and recovered, and let this broken mirror reflect forever living his own life.

Not having children is the eternal rift between Lu Xiangzhou and Gong Yu, but other than that, Gong Yu loves him with his brain, heart, life, and everything, so no matter what, he is still willing to live with the love given by Gong Yu inside.

Feathers sink the boat.

Accumulating love can also break down the barriers of thousands of miles and level the abyss of thousands of feet.

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Before going home, Lu Xiangzhou pointed to Gong Yu's bookcase and said, "I want fructose too!"

"What fructose?"

"That little girl took care of what I wanted just now, fructose, your baby coaxing tool."

"Hahaha what!"

Gong Yu got up and opened the bookcase, stuffed the transparent sugar jar into Lu Xiangzhou's arms, then opened the mobile phone shopping app, and entered a string of characters with "Pa Pa Pa Pa".

"I'll buy you a box and see if I can manage it for a year or so~"

"So lazy, Doctor Gong, why are you so coaxing?"

"Then...two boxes? Why don't I buy you a candy store? If you have nothing to do, you can go to the store to steal it. Anyway, our family is not short of money, and we have enough candy!"

Gong Yu, who was desperate to coax the baby, said it with confidence. He never imagined that an uncle who was more than ten kilometers away was trying to persuade the baby, from the danger of tooth decay to the origin of rodents, and the gap between people. Time is greater than that of man and monkey.