Kinn Porsche The Series gangster fell in love with me

??The KinnPorsche story: Bad love, great love in the end

ep30 is too late

-KINN-

"I've never had anything with him, and I've never thought about it, but now I'm thinking about it..."

After returning home from school, I stood leaning on the window sill of the office, then lit the third cigarette, I couldn't help sighing, in my mind, only the words of Porsche were repeated over and over again, what happened just now , I was dumbfounded, I couldn't think of anything, I was depressed and depressed, I didn't know what to do next...

"My friend's life is messed up because of me."

"Why, Pete?"

"Uh uh uh, I want to bite my tongue and kill myself, I'm stupid because I'm stupid. For all my stupidity." Pete stood, looking like a dying man, stressed out.

"Pete, shut up!" I yelled at him as I exhaled the smoke, feeling like everything around me was annoying and messing with my thoughts.

"What's wrong with you?" Arm, who was still a little suspicious of Pete's behavior, turned around and asked suspiciously.

"Uh uh uh, Porsche, I'm sorry" Pete whispered, calling the name of the person who made me lose focus in my life right now, and it's unbelievable that his every move affects my life now, even It's the whole state of mind.

"Tell me, I want to know!" Arm still pestered Pete not to give up, I was still standing with my back to them, opened the window, my eyes were completely out of focus...

"That was two days ago, I was secretly stalking KhunVegas, I met him eating with Porsche at the mall... Then I took a picture of them eating, I took a picture to tease Porsche, but I sent it wrong To KhunKinn...AHH! Fuck me! Super stupid."

"Oh! Why don't you click to withdraw the message?

"I do not know……"

"What an idiot you are."

The voices of the two subordinates can be heard clearly, no matter how softly they speak, but everything is just as Pete said, recently I asked him to follow Vegas and keep an eye on whether there is any behavior that I suspect, but I saw that let The pictures of me fidgeting and running quickly to find them, and the footage of that day, Vegas riding a motorcycle with a Porsche on board made me more sure of myself, what I'm confused about now.

pain

It hurts to see him laughing, they laugh together and their movements are so close, cuddling him makes my heart hurt even more, I can't even describe it in words, just the sight makes me want to grab the Porsche like before and pulled it back into my arms but i was so selfish in what i did to him, i chose to distance myself from him, spent too much time being self conscious, i didn't even think about how Porsche felt, here i am what a stupid thing to do...

What a jerk I am trying to find out and forgetting how much my actions have hurt him, if I could turn back time I wouldn't make him sad or cry like he is today, Porsche must have taken a lot of feelings, Today he confessed and wanted to get a clear answer from me, but I opened my mouth hard but didn't say the answer Porsche was looking for, I tried to piece together the picture in my mind, let me realize that Porsche has always had something for me What a deep feeling, and it was I who ruined everything...

But I don't answer the question, not because I don't feel it, but seeing the Porsche in that state makes me hate myself even more, for letting someone get hurt by my actions, and that person is the person I most want right now Open up and put him in my side of the person...

I don't know if he is still willing to listen?For all the questions he's asking me now, I don't know if the answers still make sense to him...

Late... It's really too late, for my own feelings, I feel like I'm really stupid.

"Pete, just tell me what you have..." I threw the cigarette butt into the ashtray, turned around and asked those subordinates who had been standing around as if they were walking around with the world. Recently, because I was a little embarrassed, I asked you people to do it for me At work, I can't use my people because it seems like an incomprehensible thing to do, and I can't trust the people around me.

"Yes..." Pete shrunk nervously and stood up straight.He turned around and picked up a small notebook, and began to say what was written in it, took a deep breath, like a student showing homework in front of the classroom, he said slowly... His eyes flickered and looked at me, " No.13 Monday morning, KhunVegas left home early and went straight to xxx University, because it was the morning of the joint activity that must participate in the event, but on the way, KhunVegas stopped at the avenue and walked to Starbucks. And ordered a A hot americano and a biscuit, the same every day, but some days, KhunVegas wakes up late, and he rushes to college immediately, but today there must be enough time to get in the car, Mr. KhunVegas saw the dog, So he went to the pork shop next door, bought a bunch of feed to the dog, rubbed the dog's head, then got in the car, drove to the university again, KhunVegas parked the car in front of Building C, no one followed, put the coffee cup and biscuit bag Tossed it in a trash can near the parking lot, and a moment later, KhunVegas answered someone's call, with an enthusiastic look on his face, and hurried towards the market on the other side of the university. That's it! KhunVegas went to find the Porsche, Standing and talking to Tem and Jom, the four of them greeted each other, Porsche with a normal look, KhunVegas with a happy look, Tem and Jom with a greasy look, as if they couldn't bear to hear it, and then the four of them Went to the market together to buy things, KhunVegas paid for everything Porsche ate, Porsche himself didn't refuse, even looked satisfied, and at that moment, their table was found..."

"Wait a minute, are you paying so much attention to the details of his life?" I objected to Pete in dissatisfaction, and Pete's face immediately sank.

"It was Khun Kinn who told me to follow his every move," Pete said, speaking in general terms, and closed his eyes downcast.

"I don't want to know if he will have pity on feeding dogs, feeding people, throwing garbage to protect the world..." I whispered, looking at my subordinates fiercely, during this time, I felt that my emotions could easily go up and down, I'm depressed about everything around me, and anything that doesn't go my way is often blamed on me until they hallucinate and show nervous expressions.

"Go on, you...you don't need to go into so much detail." Arm quickly pushed Pete.

"Yeah... After that KhunVegas came over with a drink and accidentally spilled it on the Porsche so they went to the bathroom..."

"What...splashed water on the Porsche? I asked, just to make sure things started to get bogged down this morning, and I pissed like hell and went to the bathroom, but when I saw the picture of the Porsche and Vegas, I instantly Lost my mind.

"Yeah, it's the drinks, Porsche and KhunVegas rush to the bathroom...in... uh... and then argue with KhunKinn until KhunKim and KhunTime have to come and stop it." I waved Pete to hurry up and get over the subject, and I Felt stupid and vexatious, Porsche always told me when he said something, I never listened, I just reinforced that what I said was true, I never heard what he said or told, and then Every time I yell and scold him like this, from the first time we met to today...

"KhunVegas separated from Porsche, watched sports over and over again with his friends, didn't notice anything unusual until afternoon when he went to the gym to watch Porsche games...then, uh, got into a fight with KhunKinn, and then KhunVegas took Porsche back to Tem's dormitory, and then bid farewell to go home, that's it..." Pete closed his notebook, turned his head, and looked at me in fear.

"Just sent it back, didn't go upstairs?"

"Yes, just send it downstairs to the dormitory."

"Is that so?..." I whispered, but thought a lot in my mind, because what he said was true, he never thought of anything to do with Vegas, should I take his word for it?And on the day I believe, can I tell him?I already knew that everything he told me was true, it was just that I never believed anything, not even my own feelings.

"KhunKinn...uh...can I say something...?" Pete said nervously.

"..." I was silent and didn't speak.

"A person like Porsche, no matter how fierce on the outside, but on the inside, he is really a reliable person, a very trustworthy person, if he gives someone's heart... believe me, he will definitely not hurt that person .” I was immediately choked by these words, because what I did now seemed to have doubts about him.

"I didn't say it was made by Porsche..." I said flatly.Even though I said I had absolutely no doubts about him, I acted like he was a suspect, and I sighed about all the events I'm facing right now, it's a big enough thing, it's hard on me, and now, In addition to the things that are still confused in my heart, there is also a problem of family affairs intervening in my mind.It's stressing me out so much that I can't even begin to deal with it because there's so much missing with confidential documents, income, expenses, and purchase orders.And the people in the second family also knew the news, they took away some products from my family and some long-term customers, and the cakes that were cut off were tied up in a small family, so that I thought there was a traitor in the family who took some information and told them outsiders, thus causing confusion in the company.

And the most suspicious person... is the person closest to the second family.

But I don't believe Porsche does, and I never will...

"And what about Big? What is he doing?" I asked Arm, and I asked him to spy on Big because I felt for a while that he had some secrets and acted suspiciously at times, he might have something to do with it?Also maybe unrelated?I don't know, because I can't find any evidence, it's all purely my intuitive speculation.

"Today he played games and stayed at home all day but there were a lot of calls to him, then he hurried into the room to talk and locked the door latch, so I don't know what he was talking about..." Arm seemed to be suspicious of something, like I always think deeply about my closest ones, and because of this, I can't involve people on my side to monitor the behavior of these two people, because most of my subordinates respect Big.At this time, I'm going to bore my subordinates, not Tankun's, Big often disappears from the house in the middle of the night, until I'm stunned, as for Vegas, there has always been such behavior, if he hires someone at my house, and then easily Stealing the secret, which is not surprising because it wasn't something that just happened, it's been like this for a while, but it's weird that Vegas never left any evidence to get caught, only my people Give each other information until they get caught a lot.

"You can go out now..."

"Although it's hard to say, KhunKinn, because Porsche and KhunVegas are close, but believe me, he didn't do it." Pete said in a confident tone, I don't think Porsche did it, but as Pete said, given the current situation , it's hard to say.

I chased them both out of the room and threw myself on the couch, and now there is a lot of stress and a lot of thinking.Between work and inner turmoil, I don't know which to deal with first.

Like I said, it never occurred to me that this family secret leak was because of Porsche, which is why I always warned him not to get too close to Vegas, because what happened would make it hard not to associate nonsense, really That's it, my dad and PChan both asked me to ask questions and talk about various problems.About moles in the family, they certainly see how close Vegas and Porsche are, and even if I say I don't think much of it, I can't stop others from thinking.

All the while, I've come to realize that aside from the fact that I don't want Porsche and Vegas involved, it's not just because I don't want anyone to look bad at him, but every time Vegas gets close to him, I get mad, Feeling jealous, easily irritated, it feels more and more clear that the picture today is that the person next to the Porsche is Vegas, not me.It just intensifies my pain when I see the two of them together.

But what do I do? I made things so complicated, I did it to myself, I pushed myself away, but I didn't want to push him away from my life, I just wanted to take a step back and think more clearly To see how I feel, I really need to be sure.The reason I don't want to have Porschen is because I just want to forget about Tawan like my old bedmate, so that I forget what it feels like.

This let me know how Porsche felt for me, now I want to apologize, want to express my feelings, but the situation in the evening I can't think of many things in my head.. because I didn't expect this to be so big for Porsche pain of..

All this happened because of me.

That day he opened the door to see me and March's situation, although not too much, but it's almost there, I want to make sure of my feelings, I don't want to find anyone to replace him, I didn't think of Tawan, I don't want to trade sex for oblivion , don't want occasional fun, and what happened that day made me even more convinced that I only want Porsche for one person.

All the time when I see March's face, even think about Tawan, I will always reiterate that the only person in my heart is Porsche...

For someone who used to be afraid of love, will it hurt like it did in the past, it's hard to be brave enough to say that you start to truly love someone, it's really hard to accept how you feel, I'm afraid it will hurt again and again because of this It was so painful, but today I feel even more tortured, the day I have to admit that I really like him is too late.

It feels like being buried in an old wound...

It hurts more than then, because it's too late to know his existence.

I poured the wine into the glass and sat down to drink for a while, I wanted to forget the chaos in my head in just 1 minute because I couldn't think of anything, I was at a loss, I don't know how to get the Porsche to let go of the anger and get back to me Around me, all this has completely confused me, I can't find a way out, and I want to vent this depressed feeling, if I go to ask him for peace now, he will definitely not calm down easily, once I see him with Vegas, I just can't control my emotions.

Sorry... I'm sorry again, I never believed anything about you.

I'm sorry...for making you so sad

I hate myself for letting stupidity take over my mind, wanting to find out why, wanting to make things clearer until wrong hurt his feelings so badly, I shouldn't be calling March, I shouldn't be wallowing For such a long time in the past, I should have believed in myself, I always wanted to have him by my side, I should have known that I couldn't live without him, he affects every aspect of my mood and feelings, I should have known this earlier, don't Do those unreasonable things.

I really made a mistake, I am willing to accept the consequences, he can be angry with me all he wants, but can you not leave me?Don't say you're going to have anything to do with other people, I'm already in so much pain because of that.

chi chi chi chi ~

I frowned, drank a full glass of wine, took out the mobile phone beside me, and looked at the screen of who was calling me at this time...

'Tawan'

The name of a person who scarred me appeared on the screen, making me afraid to let anyone into my world easily, and the painful past hurt me again and again, until this moment, I had to lose myself, Because I feel that the right person has left me because of my obsession with the past and endless memories, I am holding my phone tightly in anger, I am angry at my selfishness, only thinking about my own feelings, and am afraid of re-entering me Tawan was angry and hurt my life again.

Because it hurts to have these things reappear and make them affect the present, although things are slowly getting better...

I was so angry that I threw my phone against the wall.Tired of everything that's going on in my life How long have I let this person hurt me?So why not let go?I like myself when I'm with Porsche because I like to be crazy about him, when I see the messy and irritated face I'm annoyed with, I like to annoy him so much, don't know when I like him so much , he affected my feelings so much that I felt like I wanted him all the time, because when we were together, it was like I was out of the frame I set, I'm not the second son of the family, I'm not Kinn like this , I'm not an overworked Kinn, I'm not a Kinn the son of a big businessman, I'm not a Kinn who can handle everything, I'm not anyone's hope, I don't have to live with that uncomfortable feeling.I'm just a normal Kinn who just wants to be good every day, he never thought about what I would become because of him.But every time he sees me go crazy, his eyes look happy.

When I was with Tawan at the time, I was happy and able to be myself, but there was also a social status issue involved, part of the reason he dated me was that I was worthy of being the son of a big businessman like him, getting friends or getting to know each other When I am in the social circle, I must always have perfect expectations, different from the ordinary Porsche, who acts simple and lives a simple life. I know he just wants me, just to be together, without any status, status and society, when I When I didn't care about him, he didn't seem to care about the people around me either, now everything has changed, I really hurt him because of my past and my arrogance, I ruined everything, I want him back, but really It is helpless.

I went to pick up the old phone that was the culprit that made me have stupid thoughts and the same feelings coming back and threw it on the other wall, I destroyed my past with the Tawan that I put in memory to reinforce that I will never will remember the past...

"KhunKinn!" Big's voice came quickly, and I started to feel dizzy because I drank a lot of pure alcohol, and under the influence of alcohol, I realized that I was starting to lose control of my emotions.

"Let me go!" I broke free from myself, and swept the things on the table to the ground. Too many things made my emotions explode easily, and I was very tired and unbearable.

"KhunKinn...KhunKinn don't do this." Big came over and pulled me to sit on the sofa.

"Let go of me..." I continued to swing like this, but moved more and more.I felt a headache, both headache and dizzy, because I was doing almost the whole circle by myself.

"KhunKinn, why are you nervous...Kinn...is there something wrong?" Big pushed me down on the sofa, he.Sitting on my flank, surrounding me.

"Let go of me...Porsche...Porsche..." My consciousness started to blur, but the picture of Porsche crying at night was replaying in my mind, I closed my eyes, I couldn't bear the heavy eyelids, I don't know what the person next to me said What.Because I can't hear clearly, I can't hear anything..."I'm sorry...I'm sorry, Porsche...come home with me..." I kept telling myself what I was thinking, and I kept murmuring about the name Porsche stop.

"Why is he..."

"Porsche...I promise, I won't...make you sad again." My head was too heavy to support myself, and I slowly leaned my head to the side, the heat from someone reminded me of when we were joking Porsche, I hug and lean on him a lot.

"...what's so good about him...how can I be better than him?" I could feel the pressure on my hand, feel the warm breath on the side of my cheek before my face was lifted.

"You came back to me, didn't you...Porsche..." In my mind, I only thought that the person was definitely a Porsche. When I felt that it really came back to me, my heart immediately swelled.

"It can't be me, can it?" His lips are on mine, the contact is tight and wet as the man in front of him begins to sniff lightly, and I lift my arm up the nape of his neck Putting pressure on him to bring him closer than before, the feeling of missing made me crave that feeling until I couldn't control my emotions.

I stuffed the tip of my tongue into my mouth, and then sucked back and forth like I didn’t want to compromise with the other party. Although I thought it was a Porsche subconsciously, the taste was different, not warm, I was not used to it, and I didn’t feel the favor given to each other like before...

Strange... Even the hand that reached into my polo shirt and gently stroked my chest was weird, he wouldn't make my heart flutter or beat faster every time, if it was Porsche that hit me first, I would trembling.Because he has to be challenging, look at him from the clumsy perspective, bold and fearful, failing to do anything well...

But just thinking about it, my head began to turn white little by little. The effect of alcohol made my emotions easily ignited. The fiery tongue continued to play with each other for a while, and the person in front of me began to touch my neck. Sliding through the gap, I had to tilt my head to experience the unstoppable sensation.

嘢～

"Big! What are you doing!!" It seemed that I heard the voice of Tankun ringing in my ear, and after a while, the person in front of me stopped everything.

"Porsche...Where are you going...Porsche" I kept murmuring the names of those people who were etched in my head.

"Uh...Master, I..."

"Oh, you're so drunk... Big! Get out of here quickly."

"But Khun Kinn..."

"My brother, I can take care of myself, you go!"

"Yes...Master."

"Kinn oh Kinn, I almost lost my virginity, Big! I really will sneak in. Fortunately, Arm saw him walking towards Kinn, otherwise I would definitely have a sister-in-law who is Big, I don't want it!!"

"Porsche...Where are you going...Porsche"

"Ouch! What the hell is Kinn doing hugging me? Pete, help me..." I grabbed the person next to me again, and in my head, I just felt like I had to hold him tight before he slipped away again .

"KhunKinn, you're already drunk, go to sleep." My body was grabbed by someone's hand.

"Kinn, don't hug me, you bastard, I'm tickled!"

"Porsche... sorry."

"I'm not a Porsche! I'm your brother, your brother! Wake up!" My body seems to float, I'm being carried somewhere but I don't want to be too far away from the Porsche, I bury my face in it, trying to find my heart again The warmth, I want to super hug, want to smell him!I miss him like hell, does he know that!

"KhunKinn, it's time to reach the bed, let's go..."

"Kinn!! Brother Killer! Bastard!! Why are you sucking my throat, Pete help me?" My back just touched something soft and I didn't forget to pull the Porsche into my arms.

"Ahhhhhh!!! Bastard! Don't! Help me, Pete, why are you standing there laughing?!"

"Porsche... I'm sorry, let's get back together." I hugged him and shook the figure in his arms, but it had to be the real Porsche, because he was struggling so much, it had to be like this, it was the Porsche , before he compromises with me, he must have enough resistance, as always.

"I'm not your wife! I'm your brother! Let me go! Whoops!! Don't suck my neck!, Peteeeee!! Help me!!"

"Haha, KhunKinn, that's your brother"

"Don't giggle, don't lick my ears!"

"Be quiet"

"Kinn!!! I don't want incest, Daddy will kill you if you rape me, Peteeeee!! Come on!"

"Haha, Khun Kinn, let it go."

"Kinn, don't, eh!! Disgusting, I can't take it anymore!" I suddenly felt a blow to the face, and then I lost consciousness and didn't know anything, "Wow! It's so much easier, it almost threw me Played, didn't you?"

"Ahhhhhhhh, Pete! Don't help me at all! Fuck you!!! Bastards!!!"

-PORSCHE-

I went back to Tem's dorm and sat on the couch for a while, I wasn't in the mood to watch football or continue cheering on Jom, Vegas saw that I wasn't doing well so took me back here to rest, personally he didn't Bothering me, willing to send me home easily, I sat in a quiet room with no light, no appliances turned on, not even a light, all around me was dark and silent, let the feeling work for a while.

Silence... is the answer, Kinn has answered all my questions.I also don't need to wallow in that stupidity anymore, the way I exploded after being trapped in a relationship for so long made me feel immensely relieved.

The tears in the eyes seem to be weak this time, this will be the last time, there will be no more.

I let it all out in tears, like this cleansed the pain inside, felt relieved and unlocked, I didn't care about anything anymore.It is as if after the last patience is broken, the heart is emptied. When a person is in a state of great regret, there will be a feeling that it is stupid to turn himself into this ghost.

And now that's me, enough is enough!The unfortunate events that swept through my life in a short period of time, and I will no longer put emotion over cause and effect like this.

Enough, bastard! !I can go wherever I want to die, and I will treat it as if I was doing meritorious deeds in the past and feed the dogs.

chi chi ~ chi chi ~

I picked up my phone, frowning because it was an unfamiliar number, and I answered it silently... because usually no one calls me.

[Damn Porsche!Where are you?ha! ! ] Tankun's voice immediately startled me as he yelled so loudly over the phone that I had to take the phone out of my ear.

"..."

[Do you know how drunk my brother is?And just now, Big wanted to take advantage of Kinn. ]

"What does this have to do with me!" My mouth was as fast as my thoughts, and I was yelling into the phone until the voice fell silent for a moment, and the Kinn thing didn't affect me anymore, you have to give me Call and let me find your dad?

[Porsche, I am your boss! ]

"What's the matter, I've already resigned, why are you calling me?!"

[Why are you angry, let's talk, aren't you worried about your husband? ]

"Tankun! Do you still want to keep your mouth open to eat? Huh!" I was getting more and more angry when this idiot called me Kinn, I was so embarrassed!

[Damn Porsche!I'm on your side or I'll let Big rape Kinn! ] Tankun shouted.It made me realize how shaking his face is now.

"That's his business! When did he sleep with the dog? You call me, surprise me!!" I didn't listen to Tankun's whining anymore, hung up the phone, I told you, I'm totally out of it Knocked out my emotions, Kinn no longer meant anything to my life, it hurt until it was completely numb, and there was nothing left of it.

But... a person like Kinn is really unexpected, groping and looking like there is no tail, but eating without picky, it's a pity that I burst into tears for him.Super waste of my time, why?I've grieved for such a man for so long, this is not the day that he and I met and clashed with each other's emotions, most recently!When I got home, I went to ask for Big. Should I really cherish such a person?

???????????????????!??!!!??????????????????!

We're done, you bastard!enough! ! !Just thinking about it makes me want to throw up.

I wash my face, I wash my eyes, I take a shower, I wash everything off my body, and this thought will be the last day I still think about it, after which it won't exist, that sad Porsche let it die, bury him in Deep inside of me until I can't get it back, that stupid feeling comes back...

...

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"Porsche...Porsche! Porsche!!!"

"Ah! What?" I replied to Tem, who brought his face closer to mine.

"Are you okay?" Tem narrowed his eyes and looked at me thoughtfully.

"Ok" I said while continuing to play the game on the phone.

"Hmph! Better be real." Tem stared at me critically.

"Anthracene! Where are you going after school?" I asked them, inviting you to find something to eat.

"It's weird, usually after school, you always avoid us and leave first..." Jom said.

"I'm free." I shrugged.

"Then what are you going to do next? Where is Chè?" Tem asked worriedly.

"These two days, I'm going to go back to resign and pack my things... As for Chè, I've already asked Pol to