Kinn Porsche The Series gangster fell in love with me

The KinnPorsche Story: Bad love, great love in the end

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The sight in front of me made me lose my patience, and I slammed the door of the room shut.Although Kinn got up from the sofa with a serious face, in the end...

There was no indication that Kinn would open the door to follow.

I walked to the front of the house with lingering fear, and stretched out my hands weakly.

Damn... like three sticks hit in the face.

If come out and explain what I see may not be what I understand, I'll hold back and wait to hear it, here, I'm not picky, I'm not at all sad like a Thai drama heroine, try to walk calmly and Process the picture of what happened and find an objection that what I see may not always be what I think...

But if things got to this point and Kinn didn't come to explain, or even go out, it must be as I saw it with my own eyes, fuck it! ! !It hurts!But if you think about it, Kinn didn't need to tell me about it at all, and he didn't need to tell me to make me understand.

Big mistake, damn bastard! ! !You're an idiot, Porsche!The feeling now is very disgusting, you can't see Tawan and March, how dare you compare with them?It turned out like Kinn's teeth were cut off like this, it's no surprise, how can you believe how you felt at the time?That Kinn has a heart for you and makes you feel so!I hate myself! !Super nasty, I know my heart is so embarrassing!Had to live with this terrible feeling, when it was hard to accept my feelings for Kinn, when I wanted to forget about him!I want more! !

"Where is the Porsche going wow?" I walked through a garden outside the fence of the house and didn't hear the voice of Arm asking in the distance, I can't stay here anymore, if I endure this time, I will have to repeat it again and again Feeling this kind of feeling, it hurts so much, I really want to be weak, I really want to collapse on the ground, I want to overflow my chest, I really want to unlock myself, but those legs want to hold back everything inside, I dare not be like myself To vent out like I thought was too embarrassing and too weak.

I took a taxi and went to Tem's dorm with only my phone and wanted to go home but for the sake of it I wanted to be with someone so this feeling wouldn't get any worse?? Why did I Just let Kinn go so easily?This feeling is so real, I can feel it, my first time... It's not only happening physically but mentally, dare I say, I've never tied my emotions so much to anyone Tight, even though I've had some female girlfriends, I've never felt... I'd "love" someone this much before.

Lose.. totally lost, lost to myself, I couldn't fight my thoughts, Kinn went over my wall, and then I closed the exit and locked him in like this, a man who can break through many feelings in my heart, he absolutely Being a special person, I had to feel very, very, very painful, like someone had slammed a rock into my chest and completely suffocated me.

knock knock knock knock

I went up to Tem’s dormitory, and appeared in front of him like a soulless person. Fortunately, the taxi driver can transfer money through the account, so it’s not a big problem. Besides, I didn’t tell Tem when I came. , forgetting to consider whether he would be in the room.

Knock Knock Knock I was knocking over and over and I was starting to feel a little uneasy, or maybe I must be alone today being overwhelmed by this crazy feeling.

"Ah..." The smiling Tem ran out, saw that it was my face, and soon shut up and the smile disappeared.

"Are you busy?" I asked my friend while looking around the room.

"...what's the matter with you?" He was a little silent and asked with concern, so I walked into the room over my friend's shoulder and sat on the sofa wearily.

"...You, is it convenient for me to sleep here tonight?" I asked in a low voice, leaning my head on the sofa and closing my eyes.

"Convenience, what's the matter with you?" Tem hurried over and sat down beside me.

"..." I didn't answer because I didn't know where to start, what's wrong with me?sad?sad?Heartbroken?Of these three things, do I have the right to feel these feelings...sad?Reminds me of Kinn, sad?Seeing images of him with other people, or being heartbroken?Because these are just my one-sided feelings.

Damn it!The more I think about it, the more I feel stupid, so stupid, you idiot! !

"Whatever you want, I'll hang up the clothes first." Tem patted my shoulder lightly, went to the balcony to dry the clothes, his eyes stared at me from time to time, I felt exhausted, after that I should what to do? .. I picked up my phone to check, I hoped in the bottom of my heart that it was him trying to contact me, but there weren't many... only Chè's messages, regular reports of where he was, what he was doing, luckily the younger brother went to a friend's dormitory, otherwise, I would worry about him being alone in that house..

So what should I do?I don't want to go back there..

If I go back, I won't be able to forget this crazy feeling, I can't bear to see that jerk's face again, there are so many things to think about, or I'd rather go back to my own home and fuck it!Regarding the person who hurt me, maybe my unlucky experience and misfortune are due to my involvement with that family. In fact, there may be nothing now.

"Let's go get some drinks." I invite Tem who is doing this and that in the room.

"Go, where are we going?" Tem replied in agreement.

"I want to drink but I don't want to go anywhere." I said, leaning on the back of the sofa with a look of despair.

"...then... I'll call Jom and ask him to come over and have a drink with us in the room." I nod in agreement with Tem, who manages to call Jom and get him to order wine and have him deliver it to the room Here, Tem prepares the cups, prepares the plates, and I sit and think about the messy thoughts in my head, so I don't help.

Soon, Jom came with his rant, I don't mind him arguing with the housekeeper that he can't get drunk, so he had to find a black bag to put it in and smuggle it, I don't even care about my good friend standing in front of me and waving , When he and Tem saw me motionless, there was no reaction, they didn't dare to tease, and poured me a lot of wine.

In the past, I have never understood what it is like to be mourned to death by love, I have never experienced such severe pain before, I feel like I have a lump in my chest, but I try to hold it back, so that I do not become more Sadly, I took glass after glass and poured it down my throat, my friends were dutiful, it didn't leave my glass empty for a moment, keep filling it, keep bringing me wine like this, motherfucker!Get drunk for love, that's it, work in a bar, I see a lot of broken hearts, I used to think why die like that, motherfucker!But now I know it's really like dying, and it's really, bloody bastard! !

"It's okay you... if you want to vent, we are always ready to listen." Jom said, raising his glass to me, I sighed, looked at the glass in my hand, but it was out of focus, I looked away, as if Unable to find focus, my chin rests on the backrest and my knees are bent on the sofa cushions.

"Before, I never understood a broken hearted person, just a person who doesn't love him, why should he be sad?" Because the power of alcohol made me talk like crazy, making Tem and Jom raise their glasses to their mouths His hands froze, and he turned his head to look at me in unison.

"...what did he do to you?" Tem asked nervously as he put the wine on the table, and I recalled what he had done so much that I had to, thinking of Kinn's face made my heart skip a beat It hurts.

"You...never been like this, Porsche, what did he do to you?" Jom asked in a low voice.I pursed my lips tightly, yes, I've never been like this, just because of him, let me change, he made me familiar with him, always with him, he made me feel special and important, just like me Still exist in his world, emotions are similar to those that never felt protected or safe, I was alone and helpless all my life, met him, he became that person, although sometimes it seems unreliable, can't Dependent, but every time I have him around I feel so at ease, I really do feel that way, he opened me up, it made me see so many new sides of him, it made me realize that true 'love' is on what it's like to be alone.

The word 'love' has value because of him, but the word 'love' is hurting me now.

"I've done it to myself, I'm so stupid, idiot!! Why am I so weak?" After speaking my mood, I reached out to pick up a bottle of wine, poured half of it into a glass, gently bubbling, and drank it directly Going down, causing Tem to take a breath, trying to make a sound to stop,

"Calm down, you... what's wrong with you?"

"Don't tell me, he has someone else, or did he abandon you? Tell me, shit, I'm going to beat him!!" Jom said angrily.

"There are others, and I have nothing to do with him." I said while shaking my head to dispel the numbness.

"How can this be?, but before, he was so close to you, what is that called? How can there be someone else?" Tem forced me to say.

"So what, I accepted him like everyone else, and he got bored and dumped me to hang out with someone new, what's the problem?" I started to see my friends vaguely, and then Pour the wine into a glass, then slam it into your mouth.

"Damn!! Throw it away after eating?" Jom stood up in surprise, until he was hit hard by Tem's swinging hand.

"Humph!...Maybe?" I am laughing at myself now, what Jom said is not wrong at all, he is right, what Kinn did is obvious to all, there is no need to explain too much, only in one way, I Having said that, I'm far from his type, he must be playing, maybe this will make him think this is exciting, huh!

I want to forget everything that happened but my brain just remembers the image over and over again, it's like a circle in my head that hurts me for fun, I drink drink after drink if it makes me forget for a moment , I want to forget, even if it's just a moment of blurring and numbness, it's still good.

I want to wake up and see the old me, someone who doesn't care about anything but myself, doesn't need to miss, doesn't need to feel, I don't care, don't remember anything about that person, tired, I'm tired, I should stop now .

...

..

I woke up dizzy, light-headed, with dry lips and throat and thirsty, so I jumped off the couch and lay down next to Jom's body on the ground, cups, plates, bottles, leftovers were strewn all over Tem's room, as if Last night after a fierce battle, I opened the refrigerator, grabbed some water and drank it, then looked at the clock on the wall, it was late evening, fuck it! !How bad was I last night?Another fragment, I was so drunk that I passed out!

I walked carefully and picked up Jom's cigarettes piled up beside me, stole a cigarette, and went straight to the balcony, inhaling the smoke of a new day's afternoon into my lungs, good!Today is Sunday, otherwise, it's definitely over. After waking up, I haven't seen Tem at all. Where did he go?I picked up my phone from my trouser pocket and asked Tem where he went through Line?The bathroom door was open, so he must have gone out.

But before I even swipe my finger to LINE, the notification from Facebook makes me have to pause, how suddenly there are so many that I am amazed, I rarely use the app, today there are suddenly 10 Red notice?I can't wait to do a quick press to check out my own Facebook.

Anthracene anthracene? ? ?

What... what happened to my account!

I frowned tightly, staring down at the phone screen to see my status clearly, when did I go to set my status last night?damn it! !

Porsche Pachara

Broken Love No matter how many cases you drink, it still won't go away, living is like dying, this time there is no strength left.

＊A blurry drinking photo is attached＊

Uh huh! ! !What did I do, you bastard! ! ! !Can't blame Tem and Jom for the prank, because having them both in the background in the photo means it's purely my work, damn Porsche! !What are you doing to cause trouble!

Comment

Pete Pongsakorn

Where are you!Call back now! !

Arma-arm

so sad

Beamudodo

Sometimes we have to compromise and hurt our liver and kidneys, let our hearts rest and keep going

T-Team

i cheer for you

Bossbusi

When it comes to booze, I want to take a break, and when it comes to love, ouch!gulp

asshole! ! !Friends, seniors and juniors all flocked to me, everyone gave me likes and comments, I suddenly became nervous, my state after a year is so disgusting and crazy, what the hell!I've done so much, fuck! !So embarrassing.

I logged out of Facebook and into Line as there weren't many different notifications but what left me dumbfounded and unable to take my eyes off the chat name was..

Kinn asked me to chat...my brain was trying to order me to ignore and delete the message, but the damn finger didn't listen to any objection and clicked in.

CHIN

Where!

CHIN

Porsche!Where?

CHIN

Is it okay to go anywhere away from home!

CHIN

what?

*attached my facebook photo*

CHIN

...

CHIN

*Incoming call, no answer*

When he caught me in that shameful state, I was instantly ashamed and reminded that he totally saw it! !I don't even want him to know how I feel now, he must be very satisfied now that I have become like this.But even so, why should he care about me?Do you want to come and do something crazy, or are you done with March? ?You remembered that I opened the door and went in and saw it, so you want to curse?Want to complain about me?I'm so rude and disrespectful...

God!Idiot enough of me, I'm going to stop thinking about you, you play with my feelings so much!

"Where have you been?" I walked back to the room and saw Tem just opened the door and walked in with three lunch boxes.

"Go find something to eat for you guys, go wash your face and eyes." I walked over and lifted the bastard Jom from the dead with my feet. I washed my face and finished my private affairs in the bathroom. Seeing Tem Pick up the trash scattered in the room, but even so, Jom still slept soundly in the same position, motionless.

"Clean up you first." I nodded and ate rice. Although it was not as difficult as drinking last night, I still tried to force myself. I want to get back to normal as soon as possible. I don't want to be so trapped by the things in my head for a long time .But even that doesn't help...Kinn's message, damn Kinn and when he's with March, Tawan, he'll fuse again after I'm fully awake again, "Hey, are you okay?"

"Hmm." I didn't look at the friend who came to sit beside me and unpack the lunch box to eat.

"I don't know what to suggest. I've never seen you like this," Tem said.

"Never mind him, I'll be fine later." Many emotions overflowed in my heart, and I was also stunned.

"...you love him" said Tem's oblique voice, eating with his hands, and my face tightened when he talked about Kinn again, "...I shouldn't have said that, but last night, you It's really bad." Although he didn't tell me, I could still imagine the situation.

"How?" I asked in detail.Eyes on him, half wondering if he's about to snap out something about Kinn.

"...just... you've been scolding him." Tem looked a little concerned about me, and I really didn't know what to say.

"What are you scolding?" I asked timidly.

"…you say, Kinn, how could you do this to me? Just do it over and over again."

"..." I sighed for a long time, I hate myself so much, why do I burst into tears uncontrollably!Stop thinking about such a jerk, damn it!what should I do!

"If you don't want to remember, don't remember, just forget."

"…" If it could be ordered to forget like you want it to be, I'd have done it and wouldn't have to endure the pain.

"...Uh, but they say that if you want to forget, you have to have a new relationship." Tem seemed to know how I felt, so he quickly proposed a method.

"...Then what should I do to love again?" I asked innocently, I already told you that my feelings for Kinn happened when I didn't know it, and then let me continue to look for love, Where can it be done?

"You can try to open up... If we can think of other people instead of him, it means we can forget about him."

"...Who should I think of?" I asked stupidly, like a mentally handicapped child who just learned to grieve, and I just learned to love.

"NongPloy, freshman, white and tender...or NongSom? Beautiful." I put down the spoon and leaned weakly on the back of the chair, thinking of this, I felt hurt again, I couldn't use the same The way I look at women feels different than before.I've tried so many times, but it's like I don't need a woman like that anymore, damn it!

"I don't think I'll be able to accept women anymore." I was honest and Tem froze slightly, I felt more than that, it was really different.

"...then pick the man." As soon as he finished I grimaced, I love what Kinn is doing but I really can't imagine other men, just imagining it gives me goosebumps.

"Unbearable."

"Don't mess around, are you saying that you only like Kinn alone? This is impossible. If you say that you have different views on women, it shows that you should be a man and have feelings. I ask you to open your heart." Tem tone Seriously, I shook my head immediately.I don't mess around, I simply can't accept it! !

"No"

"You! I'm telling the truth, if others can do it, so can you." Tem said as if he had some bad intentions in his mind.

"Sarcasm?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Not exactly, why do you want to let him know how much you feel for him? It's better to fight him and have fun with others to make him hurt so he knows he has no impact on your life and you're not him Dead things." I still think about Tem's words, but it's not that different from sarcasm, so what's the point of sarcasm?If he doesn't care about me, all my efforts are wasted.

"Isn't it better if I try to forget about him and behave normally?"

"Do you need a helper? It's really difficult for you to forget so quickly." Tem put down the spoon with a little emotion.My brow furrowed even more.

"Who?"

"Anthracene...try to see the people around you, okay?" Tem tried to think, and you said it as if it was easy to find.

"You?" I pointed at him, Tem is also interested in men.Or is he better Tem.

"Hmph, disgusting." He rubbed his arms in fear, and I immediately twisted my face at him, I'm the one who should say that!

"Who else?"

"Jom him?" Tem said with a smile.

"No, he doesn't take a bath very often, it's too dirty." I said disgustedly.

"So... how about Earth, you? The noisy person next to the room." He pointed at the wall of the room, and I shook my head quickly. The guy next to the room who likes to bring people over and scream loudly should be a psychopath. "So PBeam? It's okay, but a bit overbearing."

"It's like picking fish at the market, I'm not saying I'm okay with anyone..." I'm not okay with anyone except Kinn when I'm in the mood...

"Neither this one, nor that one... so what's your type?" Tem hasn't given up on bringing this idea to me, I feel like it won't work, the logic is crazy now!

"Rich" I jokingly said, in the back of my head I thought what would I like about Kinn?rich?Well, he's a good payer, but an asshole!I think of him again!Whoops! ! !Or do I really need to go to someone else like Tem's?My brain is baffled by this!all the time

chi chi chi~

"Oh! This person is your type." Tem watched my phone vibrate because of an incoming call from LINE, I picked up the phone and stared at the screen decisively, when I saw someone with the name of Vegas calling me.

"Hello"

[Hello...Porsche, are you busy? ]

"what's up?"

[About the car, where would it be better for me to send it to the car repairer? ]

died!I completely forgot about the car, and if Vegas didn't call me, I wouldn't take it seriously.

"Hmm... Is it convenient to take it to the dormitory next to the university?" I asked cautiously.

[Okay, send it to the dormitory, and I will handle it. ] I hung up and shared my location with Vegas, I borrowed Tem an outfit to change up and look human, of course Tem has a completely different style than me, so he found one The oversized T-shirt and loose sweatpants look like pajamas to me. In this situation, I should not go out to meet people, but I think I just go downstairs to the dormitory to pick up the car, and I don’t need to really dress up seriously.

I helped Tem save the room for a while, and then helped to wake up Jom, until finally he took a shower by himself, and he came out to eat successfully. After a while, Vegas called me and asked me to come down. At the same time Jom went downstairs to pick up the car from the mechanic, and at the same time Jom asked me to take him down and take a taxi home.

When I got downstairs, Vegas and the mechanic were standing there waiting for me with big smiles, so I begged to put Jom in the car first and let the driver do everything until I got rid of the road load and went When I went to Vegas, he accompanied me to check the condition of the car in a nearby parking lot. I didn't expect him to come. I thought only the mechanic would bring the car to me.

"I had the mechanic replace the unit with the latest and then I washed your car and polished it for you." I stood stunned when I saw what seemed to be a complete makeover of my former son, now It has a new look and is cooler than ever.The colors are fresher and cleaner, and the machines are very expensive latest models.

"No...it doesn't have to be this way." I scratched my chin and said, it felt like too much for Vegas scruples to scare me even more, but damn!I got so happy with what he was doing that all of a sudden I got a new car out of thin air.

"Also, the old machine has a lot of problems. The mechanic said that if it is driven for a long time, it will need to be repaired frequently, so I replaced it with a new one on my own initiative. Porsche may not mind, right." Vegas said, with a face It looked like one person made the decision last time, and didn't consult me, but it is true. I feel a bit overbearing. Am I going to yell at the device to take it out and return it?But you pay?or do i pay?If I pay, I'll tell you to get it out quickly.

"How much did it cost?" I tried to ask.

"I've already solved it." Vegas said with a smile, and I immediately raised my eyebrows to look at him. "To make amends, that used to dissatisfy Porsche." Blame you, how much you have to pay, but even so, I secretly twitched the corner of my mouth with a satisfied smile, I like free things anyway!I have been aiming at this machine for a long time, but did not have the ability to buy it, and today, I am willing to accept the wish of this person.

"I asked the mechanic in the garage to replace many parts, so it took a long time. For example, this is a new generation charger model..." Then the technician standing like a sculpture came out to explain the details and how to maintain it in detail, Vegas would chime in from time to time and join me in listening carefully to the mechanic who spent a long time testing the engine, cranking the throttle and shifting gears until I was perfectly happy.

"If there is any problem with KhunPorsche? You can bring it to our garage at any time. If there is no problem, I will go first." The mechanic drove away after asking Vegas to sign a few documents.

"Porsche, do you want to try driving? Vegas turned to me and asked me, so I started to look at how I wasn't quite ready.

"It's better not to." Although I tried my best to behave normally, my heart was very suspended and my head still hurt. I definitely didn't dare to drive out to try the machine.

"Didn't you sleep well last night? Then can I test drive? The Porsche just sits on it so you can see the power of the engine too." I shook my head, you also look at my clothes, you dress like Cool ride a motorcycle like you go to fashion week and I come out like a rag wrapped in a Tem room.

“Better next time”

"What, can I try it? I want to know how cool it is." Vegas begged me.

"But not in my case..." I opened my arms so he could see me in casual clothes.

"This looks good, I want to tell you, you look cute today." Vegas looked at me with a big smile, you are lying to me!

"If you want to test drive, you can try it yourself, I can't stand it." I handed him the car keys, and Vegas pouted immediately. Fortunately, your face is so handsome, so it's cute, if Jom does it If you make such an abnormal expression, he will kick him to the ground with his legs.

"Get in the car with me, I want to drive with the owner." For what? ?Tell me first, Vegas, I should try this machine, what weird logic are you trying to impress me with?You want it more personally. I stood and scratched my head, thinking about how to avoid this madman. I want to go to Tem’s room and continue to sleep. In my current situation, let alone driving, I just go up and sit, and my head is afraid It was going to sting to death.

chi chi ~ chi chi ~

The sound of the phone vibrating came from the pocket of my trousers. I picked up the phone and answered the call, and saw that it was Tem.

"How to say?"

[You, you, you... Are you ready? ] Tem asked obliquely.

"Well, I'm going up."

[Uh... what should I do? ] Tem's voice was full of worry, I frowned slightly, what does my friend want?

"What's the matter?"

[So… can you go to the nearby mall for a few hours? ] Tem can't speak loudly, I smile slightly because I know my friend's purpose.

"Wait, why are you?" I teased my friend to tell me straight up.

[I have something... is it okay? ]

"Hey, is two hours enough? One round or two?" I said, teasing him, and he yelled at me from the other end of the phone line when I got it.

[damn it! ! ! !Just come to me!May I? ] The man with a full face asked again.I looked at the condition of my clothes and let out a long sigh.

"Alright, but do you mind if I sleep with you tonight? Or let me go to Jom's."

[Convenience and convenience, anyway, I will sleep alone tonight, give me two hours, you go for a walk first. ]Oh shit!Can I call my friend less and less a man?

"You'll let me know when it's done." I hung up the phone, I didn't even want to ask who it was, although I started to suspect Tem's weird behavior more and more every day, but it's better to wait He said it, and I didn't want to interfere too much.

"What's wrong?" Vegas asked me, his eyes sparkling with hope.

"Where can I go like this??" I put my hands on my hips, surrendered to all events, and finally had nowhere to go, so I went with Vegas because he was too stubborn and Tem was too cruel to make me look like this Get out of the room and let's find something to do for two hours, it's humiliating enough hanging out here, it's nice to have Vegas with me so I don't have to avoid people's eyes too much.

"The shopping mall next door? Not many people." Vegas joked, didn't you say it was cute?Why are you making fun of me like this?Cut my confidence in clothes, can you trust, Vegas!In the end, he volunteered to drive my motorcycle and let me sit, Vegas looking excited like he was trying out a new toy.

"Can you drive?" I asked, and straddled the back seat.

"Yes, I once asked my father to buy a Dabai, but my father didn't allow it, so I often secretly ride my friend's." He said, and handed me another helmet. Just now, he invested and parked the motorcycle in the The uncle next to me borrowed the car, and then he stubbornly borrowed it from the uncle again, but there was only one helmet in my car.

"Slowly, when I got off the car, it was a little fierce." I looked at Vegas' clumsy look and was worried. This is a tall off-road vehicle, and it has its own difficulties.For someone who has never driven a car, this will be difficult.

"Ok...hold tight." He turned and smiled at me, and I nodded, then waited for him to engage the gears and crank the accelerator.

"Hey!!!" With a twist of the throttle, my face hits his back completely, I wince and grab his shoulders with both hands, Vegas laughs at his clumsiness, and starts all over again, he sees It was too cramped and I had to direct the engine to slow down the throttle gear periodically until after a while he was able to drive comfortably, his mind was very responsive and the ride was fine without any interruptions, I looked through the glass Vegas, he looks super cool, well-dressed handsome boy is driving a tall motorcycle, causing girls and people on the street to follow.

Even though it looks very different from Kinn, Vegas is just a cool person in my eyes, but that bastard just sits there and looks at me, my heart is shaking, and I can't do anything right