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I don't know how long it took before I recovered from his gradually heavier breathing. Lu Ziyao turned his head and didn't look at me, but the roots of his ears were very red.

Is he sick?

"All right."

His hand patted my head lightly, as if coaxing a child.

"Don't... don't get too close, I'm so hot. Cough cough, what's the matter?"

Lu Ziyao coughed a few times.

Thinking that there might be other people coming, I hurriedly pushed him away, feeling embarrassed.

"Lu Ziyao, why are you here now?"

After I finished speaking, I looked carefully at his face.

Then I was taken aback.

His complexion is so bad.

Not only is there no blood, but the eyes are blue and tired, as if they have become haggard overnight.

What's going on here?

For a moment, I completely forgot about my miserable situation, and hurried to hold his hand.Sure enough, it felt cold to the touch.

"Lu Ziyao, what's wrong with you? Did you eat bad food? Talk to me!"

I kept shaking him like he was a piggy bank, and if I shook him a few more times, something would come out of his mouth.

"It's nothing."

Lu Ziyao laughed, a shallow smile.

"It's just a bad stomach."

As he spoke, he suddenly took the initiative to hug him again.

"However, once you hug me, I don't seem to be in so much pain?"

I think Lu Ziyao was still in the mood to joke, but he believed his words and pulled his hand away, wanting him to see a doctor as soon as possible.

Unexpectedly, I didn't pull away, but was suddenly grabbed by his wrist. With a strong force, he pushed me to the wooden door outside the toilet.

"what are you doing!"

Having experienced a series of supernatural accidents, I was instinctively scared, almost thinking that Lu Ziyao was also possessed.

But in the next second, he suddenly leaned in front of me, got so close that his breath sprayed on my face.

Then his fingers touched my ear, and then stroked my hair finely.

This kind of action even made me feel full of intimacy.But it's not that offensive... Because, because Lu Ziyao's eyes are too sad.

It's like looking at something that is destined to be impossible to find.

For example, when I was a child, I watched my toy car fall into the lake and gradually sink.

I didn't understand what was wrong with him, I looked at him blankly.

And Lu Ziyao was also looking at me.It may be 1 minute, but it is as long as a century.

He eventually let go of me and did nothing.

"Nothing, I just wanted to see you."

This look made me feel familiar.

I stared blankly at him, suddenly feeling blank in my mind.A face came to my mind... Lucian.

The 6th of every month is when Lu Ziyao gets bored the most.

Because he had to visit the prison that day.

Lu Ziyao didn't care how his father was doing, but his aunt, who was far away, always asked his father to bring various things.Since his aunt's family is still paying for part of his tuition and living expenses, he can only accept it.

It's just that every visit to the prison is relatively silent.

As a father, that man wasn't too bad.Lu Ziyao remembered that when he was a child, he would carry him to the zoo, let him sit on his shoulders and ride a big horse, protect him, and buy him the most expensive model airplane... Counting it carefully, there are many warm scenes.If the debut question judges who the father treats best in his life, then he must be the candidate.

But he's an asshole husband.

Thinking of the feeling of touching his mother's coffin in the funeral parlor, Lu Ziyao felt so sick and dizzy.But it was his mother, and he couldn't let go.

When relatives found him, he was 13 years old and fell asleep on the coffin.That night, he dreamed that countless hyphae grew on his body, which took away his nutrients and climbed on the coffin.

Until his mother was cremated and turned into a small urn and placed at home, he felt that the thread had never been broken.

He often felt that his mother had never been far away.Every time the curtains were blown by the wind, he felt that his mother was opening the window for ventilation; every time he passed under the door of the house, he felt that his mother was watching him upstairs.

He hasn't felt severe nausea and dizziness for many years.

Until now.

Sitting on the stool, under the careful gaze of the doctor, he repeatedly looked at the densely packed words on the diagnosis sheet.In fact, the various indicators are very complicated, and he doesn't quite understand them.But he understood what the doctor said just now.

"...and a family genetic history, preliminary considerations, not very optimistic."

"But classmate, don't be nervous, your family members, let's do a puncture first..."

The doctor who was over fifty years old had a gentle tone, as if he was afraid of irritating him.There was always some hesitation when prescribing a blood test for him before.

Lu Ziyao was in a dazed state.

In the past six months, he hadn't noticed that there were more and more inexplicable bruises on his body, but he didn't take it to heart.His young body gave him the capital to be reckless, he had a little headache, and he didn't even bother to take medicine.

He is a boy, raised rough since he was a child, what can happen?

He also heard that three generations of his ancestors had a relative who died of leukemia, but he didn't think about himself.

After he separated from Lin An that day, he went to teach Tan Xiaoxiao a lesson for the gangster who always bullied her sister in junior high school.

It's just that I didn't expect that my hand would be cut by a stone in the last careless move.At first he thought it was a minor injury, but he didn't expect the blood to stop after a long time.Thinking of the nausea, headache, and fever that have become more and more frequent recently, he had to go to the hospital.

As a result, in just half an hour, he was dragged to this place that didn't look like an ordinary consulting room. The doctor who ordered his blood test slipped away, and an old man in a white coat moved in.

He is not stupid.Seeing this, you can basically understand the seriousness of the matter.

What kind of thorn do you wear?It has reached the point where he has a fever twice in three days, what else can he not understand.

Lu Ziyao stood up.

"Doctor, if I die, how long can I live?"

Lu Ziyao asked subconsciously.

The doctor looked at him, as if surprised that he had said those words.

"Son, don't get excited."

Lu Ziyao didn't say anything more.He knew that what he said sounded outrageous.But the moment he saw pity in the doctor's eyes, he already knew his end.

"Okay, I'll call my aunt."

He said submissively, trembling.

Lu Ziyao's home was too dilapidated to be called a home.It is all thanks to the pity of relatives that they have helped me to get to where I am today.

My aunt was far away, and after a few conversations with the old doctor on the phone, she arranged for him to have a puncture as soon as possible, as a final verdict on his fate.Before that, he had to stay in the hospital, and his uncle would come by train overnight to discuss the next step.

But in fact, Lu Ziyao himself knew that "arrangement" was nothing more than selling the house, and how long it lasted was counted.

Their family has no other source of income at all, and it is already a great favor for the aunt's family to support someone.

But Lu Ziyao stayed in the hospital disobediently.

He slipped off to school.

Because he knew that soon he would never have the chance to go again.

When I got to school, it was already noon.

After rushing to the classroom, he wandered to the toilet again, and he really caught him.It's just that Lin An's mental state seemed to be worse than his, and he was in a trance. When he saw him, he rushed forward as if grabbing a life-saving straw.

At the moment when the two were close together, Lu Ziyao had never felt his heart beat so fast.In the past, he would worry about being noticed by the other party and push him away, but at this moment, he did not do so.

The author says:

Do you know how painful it is when I want to write but dare not speak?