Under the shadow

"Hello, senior, I'm Yu Yang from Class [-] of Finance and Management"

"I'm in the same class as you, so you don't need to call me senior."

When I was in college for the first time, the embarrassing scene of meeting Jiang Ran seemed to be still vivid in my memory, but my mood was already quite different from before. Recalling this kind of thing is really more suitable for one person to keep in my heart.

After reuniting for more than a year, Yu Yang seemed to have returned to the previous life again, infinitely accommodating and infinitely tolerant.

But it seems that there are some differences. Jiang Ran is no longer as indifferent as before, and gradually began to respond to her efforts, and because of Jiang Ran's changes, Yu Yang gradually made Yu Yang truly feel for a moment. I really think that there will be hope between the two of them that a normal couple should have.

But people are always greedy. They have tasted all kinds of care in the hands of others and never interfere with their own freedom. Everything is based on her feelings and they never have any expectations and requirements for themselves. There is such a paragraph How could Yu Yang, who came back to the infinite entanglement with Jiang Ran, be as reconciled as before?

For the first time in his life, facing Jiang Ran, whom he had loved wholeheartedly for more than ten years, Yu Yang felt physically and mentally exhausted, but facing Jiang Ran's changes, there was still a trace of hesitation in his heart.

That is the person she has loved for more than ten years......

Now, it is not in vain that I have been obsessed with it for so many years......

People of the older generation often say that the country is easy to change, but the nature is hard to change.

But Jiang Ran did not disappoint Yu Yang's guess, and confirmed the credibility of this sentence with his own actions.

In drama, there will always be times when I get tired of acting, and there will always be times when I can fool myself through acting.

Such a stable and equal relationship didn't last long, the appearance of that familiar Jiang Ran shattered Yu Yang's fantasy about the future of the two.

The familiar tone, the familiar hot and cold, all the familiar things seemed to be pieced together into a sharp knife, cutting Yu Yang's heart one by one.

what does it feel likedisappointment?sad?Or resentment?

Yes, but it seems not. For Yu Yang, it's more of numbness and habit.

What's even more ridiculous is that looking at the woman in front of him that he has loved for more than ten years, even Yu Yang himself can't tell whether he likes Jiang Ran or not?is love?Or...... Obsession or habit.

"Jiang Ran, let's... let's stop here" Maybe the two people's attitudes towards themselves have formed two different extremes, and Yu Yang always subconsciously thinks that the current Jiang Ran went to compare with Qin Si, and it was obvious that Qin Si was much more competent than Jiang Ran.

The two people who are so similar, obviously don't have that kind of feeling of love for her, and obviously...... have both regarded themselves as shadows.

But why?Why is the gap so large?

One only regards himself as a spare tire and toy on call, while the other gives him the sense of security and respect he should have.

The results of the comparison are immediate.

"Huh? What do you mean?" After Jiang Ran returned late again, Yu Yang calmly looked at the lover in front of him, suppressing the pain and reluctance in his heart, and proposed to break up "Xiao Ran, I said, we... …Let’s separate”

"Yu Yang, what kind of monster are you?" The impatience between the brows was obvious, and Jiang Ran poured himself a glass of water after changing his clothes, and his tone was really not kind.

But if you look closely, you will find that Jiang Ran's right hand has been trembling slightly since the moment Yu Yang said to break up.

Excitement or fear, disdain or nervousness, the exact emotion was not important to Yu Yang at that moment.

"I'm serious, Xiaoran, you know"

"I don't know!" The glass that was still in Jiang Ran's hand at one moment in 'Boom' flew out of Jiang Ran's hand in the next moment, hit a wall not far away, and shattered on the ground, "It was you who said you The one who loves me is you who once said that as long as I need you, you will never leave me! It's you! It's you Yu Yang!"

"It's me, but Xiaoran, I'm not a robot." Facing Jiang Ran's outburst, Yu Yang couldn't hold back the tears at that moment, and gradually slid down his cheeks. Humble and ingratiating "I... also want to be loved"

"So I'm back, I'm back to love you, Yu Yang" holding Yu Yang's shoulder, Jiang Ran's eyes were red, and there was some impatience in his eyes, as if he wanted to prove something Shangyu Yang's thin lips were trying to make the other party bow his head as usual, begging for his acceptance again.

But everything seemed out of Jiang Ran's control and prediction.

Instead of responding to Jiang Ran's intimacy as usual, Yu Yang chose to retreat and avoid this time.

"Yu Yang!"

"I admit that I still love you, but I also have to admit that being with you is not only tiring, but also painful"

He got up, went back to the bedroom and took the suitcase out. Yu Yang didn't look back at the lover he had been thinking about for many years, he turned around and went out, without any hesitation, "Jiang Ran, I want to go over and hug you, I'm too tired "

After they separated, like a tacit understanding between the two, they deleted all contact information of each other at the same time, as if their lives had never intersected, completely and decisively.

On the day of separation, Yu Yang took the nearest flight to City C, the famous gourmet paradise, and also a good place to relax and support others.

A strange city, a strange environment, a strange crowd, and also, being alone.

Maybe it's because of the strange things around him and the need to start again, under the strong pressure and his own nervousness, Yu Yang thinks of his former self.

In the past, the one who hadn't fallen in love with Jiang Ran had also shone on the various competition fields and performance stages of the university, her brows and eyes were cool and she had a smile that belonged to youth.

But now?Where is there any similarity like it used to be?

"You have deviated, please turn around at the right place, and we are re-planning the route for you..." By chance one day, Yu Yang went out with his colleagues for a team building When I heard such a passage from my colleague's navigation, I was in a trance for a while.

Wrong, really wrong......

But neither she nor Jiang Ran was wrong.

What was wrong was that she knew that she would repeat the same mistakes without hesitation.

What was wrong was that she was stubbornly refusing to turn back knowing she was yaw.

Even the navigation knew that the yaw needed to turn around, but she was stupid enough to go back and hurt again.

She knows Jiang Ran better than she knows herself. People like Jiang Ran are touching and disgusting.

A person whose heart is not clean is disrespectful to the next relationship, even if the person in her heart is already a handful of loess.

Therefore, never forgetting, there is really no need to have an echo. Finding your own outlet is far more important than waiting for the so-called echo.

And this world is like this, some people take advantage of the sunrise to look at the sea, some people fall in love with the person they like on the street, some people justify their lies in the play, some people wait for relief under the dim street lights, some people press everything but finally have to It's a pity that some people are talking and laughing, but in the end they call themselves love.

Thousands of people have thousands of faces, and everyone has their own lane. If you make a mistake once, you can respond to your temper and don’t hit the south wall and don’t look back. But if you walk the wrong second time on the same lane, maybe you can listen to the navigation Advice, find a suitable place, turn around and return.

The road to the end has been explored, there is no need to make mistakes again and again, although it is a bit late, but fortunately Yu Yang finally figured it out and stopped the loss in time.

It has been nearly eight years since I heard from Yu Yang again. On that day, looking at the two people side by side on the bright red wedding invitation, Jiang Ran's heart could not be calm for a long time.

Yu Yang......... after all, it's not up to me

But the bottom line is that I lost this girl who was once full of eyes and hearts.

"Hello, senior, I'm Yu Yang from Class [-] of Finance and Management"

"I'm in the same class as you, so you don't need to call me senior."

Opening the drawer that had been dusty for many years, Jiang Ran wiped off the dust on it, looking up at the girl with a bright smile beside her in the graduation photo, she looked up and wept.

Did they... or did they get separated?

At Yu Yang's wedding, Jiang Ran didn't "appear" in the end, but asked a mutual friend of the two to bring over a share of money and a small square box, which was lying quietly A bracelet is the only thing they used to symbolize girlfriends or lovers for more than ten years.

As if he had guessed it a long time ago, the moment he saw the bracelet, Yu Yang's hand holding the wine glass visibly shook, and the light yellow wine in the glass also made waves, but that was all. Just for a moment.

The wedding went on as usual, as if the arrival of the bracelet was a too-small episode, innocuous.

But no one knew that in a corner of the wedding scene, Jiang Ran in a white dress looked at the Yu Yang who was supposed to be standing next to her but was wearing a wedding dress and kissing her lover at the moment, tears streaming down her face, I can't cry.

No one would know that Yu Yang had already spotted the figure of his former lover in the corner, and when the master of ceremonies announced that he was going to kiss his lover, Yu Yang, like Jiang Ran, burst into tears, but it fell into the eyes of others. It was she who wept with joy.

The guests below were noisy, admiring the love of such a new couple of the same sex, but only Yu Yang knew that since then, she and Jiang Ran really had no chance of meeting each other again.

Maybe it's because long-term pain is worse than short-term pain.

So when we meet again, we are doomed to be strangers

People in the world often keep in mind, there must be echoes to comfort themselves, deceiving others and deceiving themselves

But in fact?

who can say

Never forget

there must be a response

Discrete is normal

together, not

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