Under the shadow

Four happy events in life:

Long drought meets nectar, foreign land meets old acquaintance

The night of the bridal chamber, when the title of the gold list

But maybe, we can add one more item to the above, which is the one that I am looking forward to the most, but it is also very extravagant - wait until the old man returns.

— Sunny Tuesday, May 2024, 5

(The above is only the content of Qin Si’s diary)

----split line----

"A Si, shouldn't we have any intersection now?"

Hearing this, Qin Si raised his head from the pile of documents, looked at Yu Yang who was frowning in front of him, his eyes were calm and not warm, just like the first acquaintance, "Should we have any intersection?"

"I admit, I... I'm sorry" Yu Yang suddenly didn't know what to say when the words came to his lips, the matter was resolved too smoothly, the person in front of him didn't cry or make a fuss, It's not like other people's partners know that their lover is cheating. They follow their own will and let the relationship between the two of them end. "But why did you do it in the first place?"

"I gave you a chance, Yang Yang." Qin Si sighed softly, put down the document in his hand, tapped the table with his index finger once and for all, with a steady and helpless tone, "and to be honest, none of us I like each other so much, so since you have made a choice, why should I keep it?"

Yangyang, what a familiar name, it's what Qin Si called her after they got to know each other gradually.

She never just called her elder sister, even though Yu Yang was a round older than Qin Si, a full 12 years old.

"So you also use me as a shadow, don't you?" Yu Yang suddenly smiled as if he had figured out something, with an inexplicable bitterness in his eyes, "Since this is the case, there is probably no need for us to get back together, you... ......"

"You don't want to get back together?" Qin Si interrupted Yu Yang, got up and poured a glass of warm water for Yu Yang, sat down on the small sofa opposite her, and said softly, "You are just not reconciled, after all, being with Jiang Ran , the one you are always chasing behind is the one who unconditionally accommodates, and with me, you can do almost the same thing as Jiang Ran."

.................

Yu Yang was silent, but it was undeniable that Qin Si hit the mark.

The person in front of him was a little too mature and indifferent, not at all like a person who was under 24 years old, but his aura was comparable to those of them who had been working in the middle age.

"Yu Yang, I don't just think of you as her shadow, I... have thought about having a future with you, but... so Yang Yang, we .........So be it"

"I gave you a chance, so from the moment you choose to return to Jiang Ran, if you want any regrets, it shouldn't be me"

"We shouldn't be like this, A Si..."

"But you, you can only do this." Before Qin Si finished speaking, there was a knock on the door of the office, and then a figure familiar to both Qin Si and Yu Yang appeared at the door, and a familiar voice rang out. Time actually made Qin Si's eye sockets uncontrollably pantothenic.

"Ji Huanian?" Compared to Qin Si's stupefied, Yu Yang quickly reacted and recognized the person coming. "Have you returned to China?"

"Well, the matter in Northern Europe is over, now I'm coming back to pave the way for Mr. Yan." Although Ji Huanian looked at Qin Si with a smile in his eyes, his tone of response to Yu Yang was not as friendly as the expression on her face. The tone seemed a little gloomy and evil, "And according to what Miss Yu said, I came back in person to stop you, the same somersault, do you think I will let my baby fall in front of me a second time? Yu Yang"

His eyes fell on the somewhat stiff figure obliquely behind Yu Yang. While answering Yu Yang's question, Ji Huanian walked up to Qin Si's side and squatted halfway in front of her, holding her hand and smiling softly. Say "A Si, long time no see"

.....................

The office fell into a deathly silence, and Yu Yang had left at some point, leaving only the two sitting and squatting silently looking at each other.

"What? Can't call someone anymore?" After squatting for a long time, Ji Huanian got up and sat opposite Qin Si, reaching out to rub his slightly numb calf, but Qin Si on the opposite side took the lead.

There was a moderate touch on his leg, and Ji Huanian's eyes fell on Qin Si's already angular face, his thoughts were in a trance.

The child has grown up, and has grown into the same appearance as in the dream back then.

"Is it better?" A cold voice rang in his ears, Ji Huanian coughed slightly in embarrassment, and retracted his calf that was still held by Qin Si, "Well, it's okay, our Ah Si is really good Woolen cloth"

Just as he was about to get up, someone grabbed his arm and pulled him back onto the sofa. A black shadow flashed in front of his eyes. Then he realized that Ji Huanian had been pressed down on the sofa by Qin Si. Qin Si lowered his head and looked at Ji Huanian's Neck, whispered hoarsely, "Since it's all right, there should be a result between us, Ji Huanian"

"It's not big or small, you get up first and then talk." As if feeling a sense of danger, Ji Huanian pushed Qin Si's shoulder a little uneasy, but didn't push "Qin Si!"

"What about after I wake up? Is it going to disappear again? Is there no explanation at all?" Looking up from her neck, Qin Si looked into Ji Huanian's eyes and said every word, gnashing his teeth, as if Trying to suppress his emotions, seeing that Ji Huanian didn't respond, Qin Si lowered his head sideways and bit Ji Huanian's thin red lips, "Six years? Or ten years? How long will it take this time? Ji Huanian"

It seemed that he was a little frightened by Qin Si's actions, and the cold touch on his lips made Ji Huanian unconsciously drift to a certain day in 2021:

Muzhiqi: Niannian, let me tell you something, your child was abandoned

Ji Huanian: Yu Yang mentioned it?

Mu Zhiqi: To be precise, no one mentioned it, I only know that Yu Yang cheated

Ji Huanian: Then Ah Si......

Mu Zhiqi: That kid is so calm, it seems like he knew it long ago, and then let it go, I wonder if she really thought of Yu Yang as you at the beginning...... ..

Mu Zhiqi: Just like Yu Yang regarded her as Jiang Ran

Ji Huanian: Maybe

Mu Zhiqi: Every year, she never called anyone else's sister except you, either by name or surname, or like calling us, so......

Muzhiqi: And do you know, in the first two years, before she and Yu Yang got together, every time she missed you, her heart would hurt, and she couldn't find anything wrong with it even if she went to the hospital, so it's ridiculous to say, In the end, I had to thank Yu Yang.

The pain from her lips stopped Ji Huanian's thoughts abruptly, and the smell of rust in her mouth made her suddenly aware of the two's actions, she subconsciously bit back, and then pushed away Qin Si who was pressing on her.

Seeing the bright red on the child's lips bitten by him, Ji Huanian wiped his lips uncomfortably, "Qin Si, you are a dog!"

Hiss... She really belongs to the dog, she slapped her so hard, but it's the same thing, why, didn't Yu Yang teach her?Nearly a year, shouldn't it?

It was said that Qin Si lowered his head and looked like a child who made a mistake. He sat beside Ji Huanian and hugged Ji Huanian's waist. If it can make you not leave, no, anyway, you are not allowed to leave again, there is no reason."

"When did I say I was going to leave again? Huh?" Hearing the child's aggrieved voice, Ji Huanian was both funny and distressed, and raised his hand to provoke, "By the way, didn't Yu Yang teach you? Ah Si"

"What?" Qin Si raised his head and met Ji Huanian's smiling eyes, his eyes were full of puzzlement, his cute and cute appearance softened Ji Huanian's heart.

With a twist of the wrist, Qin Si's chin was pinched with the hand that was originally holding Qin Si's chin. Under Qin Si's stunned gaze, he tilted his head and kissed Qin Si's lips, licking and sucking gently.

After parting, Ji Huaqingnian caressed Qin Si's side face, seeing the child blushing slightly panting, his eyes darkened, and he smiled, "It seems that I haven't taught it before, but it's okay."

"I just hugged her." Xu felt that Ji Huanian had misunderstood him. Qin Si grasped Ji Huanian's wrist and hurriedly explained, fearing that he would run away again, "What I did to you, I only did to you did"

The seemingly thoughtless sentence made Ji Huanian frowned and the corners of his lips curled up.

"I know" her thumb gently rubbed back and forth on Qin Si's lips, Ji Huanian smiled and raised his head slightly, and placed a kiss on Qin Si's forehead, just like how she coaxed Qin Si every time before leaving, devout and Gentle "I've always known, Ah Si"

"So Ah Si, my sister came back and taught you personally, be good, close your eyes"

"Ji......Ji Huanian......"

"Ah Si, if I say that I have never really left your side in these six years, will you believe me?" Fingers slipped from Qin Si's lips, the tip of the index finger went all the way down, from the chin to the Adam's apple and finally fell At the position of Qin Si's heart, "Now, does it still hurt?"

"It never hurts, Ji Huanian." Holding Ji Huanian's hand in his palm, Qin Si buried his head in Ji Huanian's neck, his voice was low and hoarse as if crying." Sister, when you are not around, it... really hurts me very much."

"A Si, maybe I should say sorry to you, for my impulsiveness six years ago, and for my cowardice six years ago......"

"But, rather than being sorry, I want to talk to you and hear you say that I like you or even that I love you......"

"A Si, we have already missed six years, so we should not let us down for the rest of our lives"

As if sensing what the other party was thinking at the same time, the two raised their heads in tacit understanding.

Gentle as water, with four lips touching, everything is kept silent......

I was sick with longing

been terminally ill

been ill for a long time

But okay

obsession come true

dead end

At the end of the story, there is a passage written by Qin Si on the last page of the notebook with the words "Si Hua Nian" printed on it:

Life is short, decades are fleeting, and we will eventually turn into bones and be buried together under the loess.

Life is very long, piano, chess, calligraphy, painting, poetry, hops, firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea. In the next few decades, I will be very happy. With everything about me, none of them are you, and none of them are not you.

Some people learn to let go in the wind, and some people love and love alone in their hearts.

But we are neither.

There are nine out of ten unsatisfactory things in life. Fortunately, we are the exception.

Sometimes I really have to admit that some people are born destined to fall in love with a specific person.

And falling in love with Ji Huanian is the only answer that Qin Si is destined to have in this life.

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