love journey

"You ran back in a hurry just to apologize to me?" After Xin Qi asked, seeing TOP nodded, her heart was really mixed.She really didn't expect that TOP saw her in the rock bar, let alone that he felt her depression, and even came to apologize to her as soon as the filming was over. It is absolutely impossible for her not to be moved by TOP's actions, but she was controlled by the restless emotions in her heart, and she didn't show it too much.

"When I was at the rock bar, I was really depressed. Because I saw people in pairs cuddling together and watching the sunset, and I was alone. How nice it is for Hyun to be by my side', but when I thought about how we had to pretend to be ordinary people when we met before, I suddenly felt very boring."

"Actually, I knew from the very beginning that your identity meant that you couldn't be like a normal person, and this was the reason why I didn't want to accept you at the beginning. Indeed, I agreed to associate with you at the beginning, and I also had a playful mentality. , because as I said, I don't believe in love. However, as I get along with you, I find that I seem to care about you more and more, and I can't leave you more and more."

"Because you weren't by my side today, I suddenly became sad. What happened to me? Seunghyun, do you think I will become like those women on TV in the future, pestering you all day long, as long as you are not with me?" I feel uneasy around me, and then I often call to ask where you are? What are you doing? Do you think I will become like this?" After realizing that she had these thoughts, Xinqi became very irritable.Maybe it's because she has closed her heart for too long, so long that she has forgotten what love is; maybe she is used to avoiding feelings by using the excuse of not believing in love.That's why Xinqi, who had been unable to figure it out, became restless and restless.

In fact, it's not that Xinqi doesn't want to try to open her heart again, it's just that she's afraid of becoming the self in her previous life or the mother of this body in this life.Although Xinqi knew that even if she was abandoned now, she would definitely not follow in their footsteps.But people are like this, people who have been hurt emotionally will never forget that feeling, just like the scars of the injury will always exist.That's why she chose not to believe in love in this life, because only if she doesn't love, can she not be hurt.

But now, until now, Xinqi has discovered that her protective layer is constantly disintegrating, and her heart is gradually being captured by TOP, but she is powerless and does not want to resist.

In fact, women are really emotional creatures sometimes. They were obviously enjoying the sunset by the seaside with great interest before, but they suddenly became sad again.Because of this, I also thought of many things that I had understood before, but deliberately ignored.

The more she thought about it, the more irritable she became, the result was that Xinqi went back to her room without even eating dinner.After returning to the room, I lay on the bed but couldn't sleep because of tossing and turning. I was always thinking about the things between her and TOP.

In all fairness, she seems to have never really faced up to this relationship, it was just for fun before.Later, under the enlightenment of her family, she had a different view of TOP, and she became more and more used to his existence.Will care about his thoughts, will want to be with him often, but, is this really love?Not habit, not dependence?But even if he falls in love with him, what will happen next?What happened after that, she never thought about it.

After returning from the rock bar, Xinqi had been thinking about these things in her mind, seemingly disorganized, but they were all the truest reflections of her heart.

"No, Sister Xinqi. I believe you will not become such a woman. In fact, it is all my fault. If it were not for my identity, I would not have left you alone." TOP just heard Xinqi was very happy when she said those words.Because it was the first time he heard from Sister Xinqi that she cared about him and couldn't leave him.This made TOP, who had been trying so hard to get Xinqi to open up and fall in love with him, see hope, and finally his hard work was not in vain, he was really happy.

But when TOP saw Xinqi finished speaking, he fell into deep thought, which made the originally happy TOP start to feel uneasy. He had never seen such a quiet sister Xinqi.TOP, who was about to try to do something, comforted eagerly.He would rather let Sister Xinqi beat him or scold him severely than let her be so peacefully trapped in her own world.

"Yes, it's all your fault. If it wasn't for knowing you inexplicably, if it wasn't for your stalking, how could I have become so unconfident? It doesn't look like me at all." Xinqi said loudly to TOP roared.As if she had suddenly found a breakthrough, Xinqi began to vent all her responsibilities on TOP.Because she felt that she would become so strange, it was all caused by him.Wouldn't it be so troublesome if I hadn't met him before?

"Yes, yes, it's all my fault!" But I am very fortunate, fortunate to have met you out of nowhere, and fortunate that I persisted in stalking you. TOP coaxed Xinqi flatteringly, and added in his heart.

In fact, Xinqi also knows that now she is making trouble for no reason like a wayward child.But she just couldn't control herself, and wanted to vent her irritability, so TOP, the "culprit", became the best "punching bag".However, TOP doesn't mind being treated as a "punching bag" at all. As long as Xinqi is willing to vent, even if he wants to hit him, he is willing to hit him.

That night, TOP didn't go back to the villa where his bigbang was staying because he was worried about Xinqi being alone, but boldly stayed in Xinqi's room.

TOP half hugged Xin Qi who was a little sleepless after venting his emotions, lying on the bed, patting her on the back while chatting with her.It was not until late at night that TOP managed to coax Xinqi to sleep.Seeing Xinqi sleeping soundly in his arms, TOP breathed a sigh of relief.

Although TOP may seem childish at times, he is emotionally sharp.He knew that what happened today might just be an accident, but if he couldn't handle the relationship between his identity as an artist and his boyfriend's identity well, conflicts between him and Sister Xinqi would still arise.

Because although Sister Xinqi looks very independent and strong, she is actually very fragile.Especially when she reopens her heart, she is actually more sensitive and vulnerable than anyone else.At this time, if he doesn't take good care of the "flower of love" that has just sprouted in Sister Haoxinqi's heart, he may lose her. TOP guessed in his heart.