The Melancholy of a Third-Rate Writer

Gu Ping and Mr. Qin had a meal together and enjoyed the early winter mountain snow, and the relationship seemed to have returned to the previous harmony.

On the way back, Mr. Qin looked a little tired, Gu Ping asked: "Did I not be honest after falling asleep last night, which caused you to not sleep well?"

Mr. Qin didn't sleep well, he didn't sleep.

That night when he was ten years old, when Mr. Qin opened the door, he saw his mother stabbing his father in the chest.

His father left this world in his sleep, and the person who killed him turned out to be his closest lover.

Mr. Qin stood there and stared blankly.

The woman completely lost her mind, covering her face and crying bitterly: "Your father is a pervert, and so are you! I gave birth to a monster like you, it's terrible!"

The woman didn't have the heart to kill him together, but cut off the power, locked the doors and windows, and trapped him with the corpse, unable to ask anyone for help.

Mr. Qin groped to his father's side, stretched out his hand to touch the bleeding body, and felt the temperature from warm to cold on it.Death is still a very distant concept for a ten-year-old child, and Mr. Qin couldn't understand it at all when he really faced it.

Mr. Qin became confused in a rare way. He didn't think of a way to leave, and sat alone beside his dead father in a daze, waiting for others to rescue him.

For the first time, the word love left a negative impression on Mr. Qin.

His father loved his mother deeply, but unfortunately, maybe it was the wrong way to love, so his mother hated him to the bone, and even his son was regarded as a monster.

Mr. Qin sat alone until dawn, and the early morning sun shone in, making his cold body feel the warmth of this world again.

Mr. Qin calmly responded to all the investigator's questions and provided surveillance evidence for the investigator.

The investigator's suspicious eyes did not hide from Mr. Qin's eyes.

Mr. Qin finally knew that his behavior was indeed a cold-blooded monster in the eyes of outsiders.

No wonder his mother hated them both so much.

Mr. Qin didn't feel that he should show his pain. The only father who could understand him was gone, and other people's opinions were not in his consideration at all.

Who is the pain for?

Who are you crying for?

Only the stupid and incompetent rely too much on the comforts of others.

Mr. Qin would never do that kind of useless thing.

Mr. Qin suddenly asked, "will you hate me?"

Gu Ping was stunned, and said, "Why do you ask such a question?" He stepped on the brakes and turned to look at Mr. Qin, "Hate is too intense and easily affects my judgment, so I never let myself hate who."

Gu Ping thought about hating his father before, but after realizing his mother's feelings like moths flying to a flame, Gu Ping has been suppressing and suppressing, slowly suppressing the emotion of "hate" to the minimum.His mother even loves her love humblely and cautiously, how can he afford to consume this luxury of hate?

He can only be obedient and obedient, try not to make anyone angry, try to reduce his sense of existence, let alone hate, he makes himself look like he didn't appear in that home at all.

He quietly watched his mother hugging his cousin with a smile on her face.

He quietly watched them take their cousin out.

He quietly studied, studied, studied, and didn't let them worry about anything.

He slowly learned to take care of himself, learned to be kind to himself, and learned to get used to the days when even the right to hate was deprived.

Gu Ping gave a low laugh, and asked back, "Mr. Qin, who would you hate?"

Mr. Qin looked at Gu Ping's face, and a strange feeling emerged from the bottom of his heart, overflowing in his heart.He finally knew what he wanted to see in Gu Ping - the almost cold calmness and rationality that he had buried deep in his heart.

Such Gu Ping is his kind.

For such them, the ability to love and hate has been lost.

Although it was a bit cruel, what he wanted to touch was Gu Ping's gray soul—it was quiet and empty, and no one could get there first.He wanted to be the first to arrive, to put his stamp on it, to make it obey him—and him only.

Mr. Qin leaned over and kissed Gu Ping's lips.

This kiss was intense and lingering, as if he wanted to swallow Gu Ping's lips and tongue to be reconciled.

Gu Ping trembled slightly from that terrifying desire to plunder and invade, and closed his eyes to seriously respond to Mr. Qin's wanton tongue raging in his mouth.

Mr. Qin has no tendency to end for a long time, Gu Ping's breathing gradually becomes short, and his eyes are foggy.

Mr. Qin let go of Gu Ping when he saw Gu Ping hugging him like begging.He smiled and said, "You answered well, that's a reward."

Gu Ping choked on his words.

This kind of reward is really overwhelming...

Mr. Qin saw what he was thinking, stretched out his hand to straighten his slightly messy bangs, and said, "You don't like this reward? If you don't, I can give you a better reward when I go back."

According to Mr. Qin's temper all the time, what this "better" represents is really obvious.

Gu Ping could only say: "...I like it."

Mr. Qin laughed, and kissed Gu Ping: "Since you like it, then I should give you a better reward. How can I be willing to let you down."

Gu Ping could only keep his mouth shut, for fear that he would be forced to accept more "rewards" if he said one more word.

Mr. Qin felt that Gu Ping couldn't get enough of his appearance.

How do you feel like it?

In my memory, the little boy was timid and weak. How is this Gu Ping, who will force himself to face everything calmly, similar to "him" in front of him?

Mr. Qin followed his words seriously and gave Gu Ping a bigger "reward", and he didn't stop until both of them were too tired to move.Mr. Qin didn't get out of bed, he lay beside Gu Ping and closed his eyes.

Gu Ping's breath is clean and gentle, and it is so comfortable that you almost want to immerse yourself in it forever.

For the first time, Mr. Qin fell asleep with Gu Ping in his arms.

Gu Ping originally wanted to stay awake, but Mr. Qin's exhaustion and sweetness seemed to be contagious, making him also let go of his brain and slowly fall asleep.

It was already evening when Gu Ping woke up, and Mr. Qin beside him was still fast asleep.

There was a knock on the door.

Gu Ping was taken aback, left Mr. Qin's embrace, got dressed and went to open the door.

Standing outside the door were Secretary He and a strange old man.

The old man looked very dignified, but he looked at Gu Ping with some approval.

Secretary He reminded Gu Ping, "This is Mr. Qin."

Gu Ping hurriedly said hello: "Hello, Mr. Qin."

Elder Qin nodded.

Secretary He said: "Because Mr. Qin was absent from the family meeting in the afternoon, Mr. Qin came to take a look."

Gu Ping said: "Mr. Qin is still awake."

A trace of surprise flashed across Secretary He's eyes: "You...sleep together?"

Gu Ping was a little embarrassed to reveal this relationship in front of Mr. Qin, but he was more calm.He nodded calmly: "Yes."

What surprised Gu Ping was that both Secretary He and Elder Qin showed shocked and delighted expressions.

This is a very rare thing for the two who have always been moody.

Just as Gu Ping was about to ask a few more questions, Mr. Qin appeared behind him already dressed.Facing Mr. Qin, Mr. Qin's tone was still cold: "Are you here? I forgot the meeting in the afternoon. I will apologize to everyone next time."

Mr. Qin said: "Tsk, what apology to them. Please do it. I know that I am an old man who dislikes you, so I won't stay any longer. You can take good care of me." Had to grin.

Secretary He glanced at Gu Ping, exchanged glances with Gu Ping, turned around and accompanied Mr. Qin to leave.

Gu Ping stood in a daze for a while, then turned to Mr. Qin and said, "Mr. Qin seems to have misunderstood something."

Mr. Qin originally wanted to retort, "It's not a misunderstanding", but thinking of Gu Ping's thick defense, Mr. Qin changed his words cunningly: "If you love to be misunderstood, let him misunderstand." He swept Gu Ping's head, "It's annoying for him to read normally. It's just right if he misunderstood. You can help deal with it in the future."

Gu Ping didn't realize that something was wrong, he just thought it was another item added to his "job content".

Seeing that Mr. Qin didn't intend to talk much, he quickly put this episode behind him.

——The Qin family's housework is not something he can interfere with.

Gu Pingfei returned home.

This trip to the capital was rewarding. Several difficulties in the project were about to be overcome. Gu Ping personally led the people under him to work overtime day and night.

Occasionally, Mr. Qin would call and say inexplicably, "Go eat."

If it weren't for the fact that the company was safe inside, Gu Ping would have thought that Mr. Qin had installed 24-hour surveillance around him!

Gu Ping said obediently: "Go after this."

Mr. Qin said, "Immediately." After he finished speaking, he added, "Otherwise, I don't mind feeding you another mouth."

Gu Ping was silent.

Mr. Qin didn't change his face when he said these rascal words, he couldn't fight back even if he wanted to fight back, because he knew that if he fought back, Mr. Qin would definitely practice what he said!

Under the threat of Mr. Qin, Gu Ping's three meals were finally normal, and he even consciously ate more.There is no way, Mr. Qin has repeatedly disliked Mr. Tai, accusing him of being unprofessional, and even ignoring customer complaints.

Although such a high-pressure policy did not make Gu Ping gain weight, it made Gu Ping mentally better.

Gu Ping finally went home to celebrate the New Year at the urging of his mother.

Mother grabbed his hand and looked again and again, and found that he looked good before she felt relieved.She said: "I'm still worried that you don't eat well outside. Now it seems that you haven't had trouble with yourself. Work is more important than your body. Don't work too hard..."

Gu Jing quietly listened to his mother's chatter, smiling and nodding his head from time to time.

He didn't enjoy this kind of treatment many times, but he was very happy to have it a few times. Who would dislike his mother for caring too much?

His father found him in the study after his mother went to work in the kitchen.

Gu Ping said hello obediently: "Uncle."

His father frowned and said, "How is the project going?"

Gu Ping said: "It's pretty smooth."

His father said: "You and Mr. Qin are still... not broken?"

Gu Ping said: "No."

After all, his father couldn't help but ask, "How long has it been?"

Gu Ping replied vaguely: "I can't remember clearly, it's been a few years."

His father's face twitched, and he became stern: "With your character, how can you be unclear about things? I don't believe you don't remember! Say it clearly!"

Gu Ping looked at his father quietly.

His father raised his hand to greet Gu Ping's face, but when he saw Gu Ping's calm expression, he tremblingly put his hand down again.He had a premonition that the result he would get if he continued to question would not make him happy, but if he couldn't get the result, he was even more disturbed.

After much deliberation, Gu Ping was able to get in touch with that Mr. Qin only once... that time...

Gu Ping saw that his father's eyes became complicated and painful, and after a moment of silence, he finally gave an affirmative answer: "Well, it was that time, the family almost couldn't make it through. Mr. Qin asked me to ask me to help, and the price He wanted me to go to bed with him, and I said yes, it's just a deal, fair and simple—that's it, do you have anything else to ask?"

His father's lips trembled twice, unable to speak at all.

Gu Ping said: "Then I'll go out first."

Gu Ping turned around and walked out without hesitation.

This kind of revenge is not very satisfying, if his father doesn't ask him, he won't say it, after all, he is not interested in exchanging what happened to him for his father's little bit of pain and guilt.

For the role of father, he never had any expectations.

Gu Ping opened the door, only to find his mother standing outside the door in astonishment, looking at Gu Ping with unbelievable eyes.Gu Ping didn't feel embarrassed, he smiled and looked at his mother: "Is the soup ready? I'm a little hungry, I want to drink some first."

His mother turned her head to wipe away the tears in her eyes, choked up and said, "Okay, I'll get it for you." As she spoke, she walked downstairs quickly and disappeared from Gu Ping's sight as if running away.

At this time, there was a noise from behind, and it was all the things on the desk being swept to the ground.

Gu Ping stood quietly outside the door for a moment, then walked downstairs slowly.

In fact he was not satisfied with his performance.

His father only asked to the end to calm his uneasy conscience, but he impulsively used his relationship with Mr. Qin as a weapon to fight back.

This kind of revenge of killing one thousand enemies and self-defeating eight hundred is really stupid.