sickly wrapped around the waist

After the woman left, Yan Zhou's disguise completely fell apart.

For some reason, he fell in love with Shen Linxian more and more.Knowing that it shouldn't be, knowing that it's not possible, but still fall in love uncontrollably.But now, I don't even have the right to show love.

The scenery outside the window is lush green, as if there is no shadow of early winter, but... it is bleak.

Just like Yan Zhou at this time, the surface is glamorous and beautiful, but the scenery in his heart is exhausted piece by piece.

cold.

Wrapped tightly in the quilt, Yan Zhou couldn't stop shaking.Maybe it's not cold, but fear, what are you afraid of?Who knows.

Tears rolled down along with her body, big and big, heartbroken to the extreme, even crying silently.

Those originally clean eyes were full of sadness, like the winter sky, foggy, without a trace of warmth.

It turned out that in the end, I was sorry for him first, not him for me.

From not daring to admit liking to having to hide liking, he was the one who hurt all.

I am really not a brave person. I could have said frankly that I like him, persuaded him to go to treatment, and said loudly that I can wait for him, but until now, I can only use extreme methods to force him to leave.

I am afraid that this love will never be said again from now on.

Thinking of this, Yan Zhou cried so hard that he almost couldn't breathe, feeling uncomfortable.Even though the pain was so painful that it was difficult to breathe, he still curled up his whole body into a ball. This is the only way to make his heart feel better.

Only by making him give up can he be saved, how should he resist Shen Linxian?

After crying for a long time, Yan Zhou thought of a way, got up, dressed and washed his face, with red eyes, Yan Zhou went downstairs stiffly. "I'm hungry, I want to eat."

"What did the young master say?" The butler didn't respond for a while.Yan Zhou would only eat a little bit when Shen Linxian was around, and he lost a lot of weight in half a month, and he never took the initiative to say that he wanted to eat.As soon as these words came out, the butler was stunned for a long time before he laughed excitedly. "Young master, sit down first, Xiao Jia, hurry up! Get ready."

Helping Yan Zhou to the sofa to sit down, the butler went to the kitchen to tell him what to cook.

The living room is large and slightly cooler than the room.

In a short while, a table of dishes was prepared, and each dish was Yan Zhou's usual favorite.Looking at the food, Yan Zhou actually had no appetite, but he still forced himself to stuff it into his mouth.

You can only resist when you are full.

Yan Zhou swallowed every mouthful without chewing a few times, and drank a mouthful of soup when he choked.Yan Zhou has never eaten so rudely in his life, obviously his stomach can't hold it anymore, and he can't stop stuffing things even if he feels that the food he swallowed has reached the esophagus.

Yan Zhou's abnormality made the housekeeper feel distressed, but after these days of observation, he knew that Yan Zhou was a stubborn person.

What he believes, no one else can change.

He said he wouldn't eat if he didn't eat.

Only eat a little bit of what the young master cooks.

He seemed to be angry with the young master and would not leave the room all day.

When the butler entered the room to inquire about the taste of the meal, Yan Zhou was either falling asleep restlessly, or sitting on the bed blankly looking at the scenery outside the window like a soulless doll.

There are a few trees and flowers outside the window, I am afraid they have been engraved in his heart.

Now he is spoiling his stomach here, and I don't know what the lady said to him.

The housekeeper sighed secretly.I don't know when this debt will end.The young lady ordered not to tell the young master, so she absolutely must not tell.

The housekeeper only hoped that Yan Zhou would get well soon, if Yan Zhou had something on his mind, he would blow his head when facing two mentally ill people.

Finally, Yan Zhou stopped eating when he was about to vomit.

Look carefully, there are tears in his eyes, I don't know if it is because he is about to spit out the tears he forced out, or for other reasons.

Only when you are full and your body is strong can you resist.

Right.

Yan Zhou put down his chopsticks and stared blankly at the mess on the table, he still had a mouthful of food in his mouth and couldn't swallow it.

"Master, are you back?"

Yan Zhou was awakened by the housekeeper's words, and his eyes fell on Shen Linxian who had just entered.Shen Linxian was wearing a black windbreaker that reached his knees, his face was cold, his eyes were like frost, and his entire aura was enough to kill people.

It's been a long time since Yan Zhou looked at Shen Linxian carefully. He only discovered today that Shen Linxian has indeed changed a lot, and he has a completely opposite personality from before.

Taking off the coat that was wet in the drizzle and handing it to the housekeeper, Shen Linxian had a trace of tenderness in his eyes because of Yan Zhou, but it was almost invisible in such sharp eyes. "Today is so good, I have a good meal."

Walk over and sit down, and start eating Yan Zhou's bowls and chopsticks.

It was all leftovers, but Shen Linxian didn't dislike it at all, and ate deliciously.

With a mouthful of food in his mouth, Yan Zhou's cheeks were puffed up, looking at Shen Linxian's side face, his heart felt sour.

Shen Linxian is so good, how can he bear to break his heart, but he can't ruin this man because of himself.

Look away, get up and go to the bathroom, spit out what you can't swallow in the toilet, and then flush it.

Facing the mirror and washing his face, Yan Zhou was taken aback by himself when he looked up.

It's been a long time since I looked in the mirror. In this mirror...is it him?

Thin body, haggard face, heavy dark circles under the eyes, as if he had suffered from a serious illness.

Is this still the muscular boy who fights a lot?

"In fact, everything has changed a long time ago. I just discovered it now."

After wiping his face, Yan Zhou went out and went upstairs silently.

Shen Linxian had already eaten, and followed Yan Zhou upstairs. "Why ignore me?" Because Yan Zhou ate obediently today and Shen Linxian felt very happy, although the surface was still cold.

Yan Zhou's room was not locked, Shen Linxian designed it on purpose, so even if the door is closed, he can easily enter.

Yan Zhou stood by the window, without looking at Shen Linxian. "Why should I care about you? Do you think I should be grateful to you?"

Indeed, Shen Linxian was silent.

Just standing silently behind Yan Zhou, Yan Zhou looked at the scenery, and he looked at Yan Zhou.

In his eyes, there is nothing like Yan Zhou.He is not the prettiest, nor the most perfect, but in Shen Linxian's heart, he is the best.

Maybe, as others said, he is obsessed with Yan Zhou.

"Shen Linxian, let me go." Yan Zhou said coldly, looking out of the window from the beginning to the end, without looking at Shen Linxian directly. "To love someone is to stay with him. I want to leave you because I don't love you at all, let alone fall in love with you."

Saying something against his will, Yan Zhou's heart was pulled together. "Don't lose control in a hurry, I haven't finished talking yet."

Even so, when Shen Linxian heard these words, he still clenched his fists unbearably, and his body fell into the ice inch by inch.

Really, there is nothing more heartbreaking than the three words "I don't love you".

Shen Linxian is still rational, because he is afraid of hurting Yan Zhou, so every time he goes home, he takes double doses of medicine.

He knew that those medicines would lose their effect if taken for a long time, and he also knew that it would cause harm to his body, but he knew even more that he could not hurt Yan Zhou.

But, why don't you love him.

why…

Yan Zhou's back was straight, revealing a sense of stubbornness and alienation.This is an appearance Shen Linxian has never seen before, as if he died once and was born again. "I know you are good to me, but I can't fall in love with a man, I am still a pervert, if I can fall in love with you, you are good enough to me so that I can't leave you. Love is not very painful , It’s painful to be entangled by someone you don’t like. Shen Linxian, before I hate you, let me go.”