Ideal place

Looking at each other for a long time, the two hands were firmly held together, Wen Ran felt the warmth of Xiao Xue's palm, and smiled calmly: "You still know me best."

After recovering a bit, Wen Ran rubbed her stomach hungrily, picked up the knife and fork: "I'm starting."

Xiao Xue liked to stare at Wen Ran when he was eating since he was a child, and thought the way he chewed food slowly was very cute.Picking up a piece of potato lattice and dipping it in a little tomato sauce, Xiao Xue chewed slowly and asked, "What are your plans for the future?"

Wen Ran let out a "huh" and said, "It's good to be able to maintain the status quo."

Xiao Xue comforted: "Don't make yourself work too hard."

"I'm afraid it's up to me." Wen Ran swallowed the chicken nuggets and drank the remaining hot chocolate in the cup, "But there is one thing I agree with very much, Tong Zhiyou can indeed bring me the feeling of being alive."

With a smile on his pale face, Wen Ran said honestly: "My body is like a container. Since I separated from Jian Xize, it has never been 'full' again. When there is nothing inside, I need him very much Come fill me up so I can't quit him."

He asked blankly, "Xiao Xue, what should I do?"

Xiao Xue waved her hands nonchalantly, raised her legs and leaned against the back of the chair: "There are many things we can't quit, sleep, drinking water, food, these are also the important parts of the body's desire/desire and filling the container , 'sex' is the same. As long as you don't cross the line morally, there is no distinction between high and low in my case."

Wen Ran looked at her gratefully, paused, and admitted: "It's true that I can't live without Tong Zhiyou, and it's true that I want to make up for Pei Nanqiu, take care of him, and protect him."

"I thought I could handle these two relationships with ease." Wen Ran said mockingly, "But it seems that I am controlling them, but in fact they are controlling me."

"I have nowhere to go." Wen Ran cut off a corner of the pizza, didn't eat it, and lowered her eyelashes angrily, "As long as I want to get some freedom for myself, they have countless ways to make my life worse than death."

Xiao Xue frowned and took a puff of cigarette.

"If Tong Zhiyou really loves me, he will not violate the original agreement again and again. We maintain the purest relationship with our bodies, which is easy for everyone, but he just wants to break the rules and challenge my bottom line repeatedly. .”

"If Pei Nanqiu really loved me, he wouldn't pick up that stray cat's body and ask me to bury it with my own hands, using it to ruin my sanity." Wen Ran closed her eyes, "He knows that cats are what I fear most. "

"They love me, but they all blame me and hate me. Our relationship is out of balance. I have no choice now." Wen Ran poured himself a glass of lemonade, moistened her chapped lips, and said softly, "Xiao Xue , you are so right."

"I'm reluctant to leave, I don't dare to change my senior year's internship unit, and I still have a mobile phone number, it's not because of anything else." Wen Ran smiled, "I'm just hoping that Jian Xize will come back to find me."

"Obviously love him, but still want to associate with Pei Nanqiu, obviously love him, but still have sex with Tong Zhiyou." Wen Ran said in a flat tone, "Their resentment and hatred for me are just like my hatred for me." Jian Xize's, I understand and can empathize with them, they are the consequences of my own hands, and there is no difference between me and them."

"That's right, Xiao Xue." Wen Ran slightly bent her eyes and said sadly, "A person like me really doesn't deserve anyone's sympathy."

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