Love you as life

We returned to the county seat in the evening, and I took An An to a special shop to have a meal of homemade rice noodles, and returned home before dark.

Mom and Dad have had dinner, Dad is watching the news, and Mom is feeding her pullets and rabbits in the backyard.We first reported to my father, and then ran to the yard to find my mother.We raised rabbits when An An was a child, so she has a special affection for rabbits.An An chatted a lot with her mother, and her mother said that she was just like me before, curious about everything, wanting to find out why, she was still very childish, but I was not as lively as her.Seeing An An, a young "daughter", she felt younger too.

After Dad finished the news, we all went back to the living room.

"Wen Qing, I heard from my mother that you brought An An back to your hometown, right?" Dad looked at me with a smile, and then at An An.

"Well, we went back to the home of the two grandmothers." I said.

"Well, why don't you go back to **'s hometown?" Dad always thought that was our real hometown.

"I grew up in my grandmother's house. An'an depends on where I grew up."

"That's right. I was born at my grandma's house until I grew up. My grandma is such an idiot. It's right to have feelings for my grandma's house." Dad pondered for a while, "How about An'an, how is our hometown?" Dad is kind Looking at An'an carefully.

"Oh, it's very beautiful. There are many mountains in our area, and here is flat land, very open. The trees here are very green and lush, especially those banyan trees, which are so beautiful!" An An's joy is also "luxurious" like banyan trees.

"Yeah, banyan trees are a major feature of our place. Wen Qing, take An'an to the most famous banyan terrace in the outskirts of our city tomorrow. Those banyan trees, wow, are tall and big, and their trunks are so thick. I can't even hug each other!" Dad opened his arms and made a hug gesture, "Did you know that we are the hometown of banyan trees!"

"Okay, I will take An'an to see our beautiful county-level city, this place where Dad has worked and served all his life." I laughed.

"It's wrong to say that. It's all the result of everyone's hard work. Well, it's all in the past..." Dad said, and then asked: "How is it, what special feelings do you have when you go back this time?"

"The countryside now doesn't look like a countryside anymore," I said.

"It's for sure. The life of the peasants is much richer now, so it's not as hard as we used to be. Deng Xiaoping's policy is better, so that everyone can live a good life. The life in the past was so miserable!"

"Farming is very good, but it seems that there is no 'popularity'."

"Agriculture has become mechanized. What used to be done by dozens of people can now be done by just a few people. Many farmers send their children to cities or abroad, and those who stay in the countryside are free. It's not time for farming. They just went to drink tea, chat and play mahjong, and they lived comfortably." Dad's Sichuan-style eyebrows darkened, "But, when life gets better, rural people become lazy, and many people invite refugees from other provinces Let them farm, and some people who have free time will start to do bad things, especially those young people who have never suffered hardships, but they don’t want to read books, they can’t do good jobs, and they don’t want to do hard work. We used to have the drive and spirit They're all gone."

"Yeah, so many people have nothing to do, what should we do? China's population is really too much."

"It's not a problem of large population. People's whole thinking and concept have changed now. They like to have fun and are afraid of suffering! However, don't be too pessimistic. If there is a problem, there must be a solution."

"That's right, we ordinary people can't do anything about these social problems, and it's useless to think about them. You are an old man, why do you care about these things? Let those young people want to go. They have been revolutionized for decades, and now Just enjoy the family happiness." Mom scolded Dad with a smile.

"Hey, aren't we enjoying family happiness now? How could we have the time to chat with our wives and children before? At that time, we didn't stay at home for a few days in a month, Wen Qing, right?" Dad glanced at his mother and then looked at her again. Looking at me, I laughed, "Oh, fortunately, there is a mother. The whole family depends on the mother. Ah Song is the most credited, right?" Dad patted his mother on the back.

"You are ashamed to say that you haven't enjoyed a few days of blessings since you married. When the child was young, he was dizzy with those mouths all day long. You only went home two days a month and didn't sleep well. The bed is gone. The salary is not high, and I feel sorry for the poor and the sick at every turn. I don’t bring a few cents home. I treat others better than my own. When the leader grows up, he doesn’t bring money to his family. What good is it, and you came back with a whole body of illness, who is leading like you now! Fortunately, I don't value this, if it were someone else, I would have made a mess with you!" Mom said loudly.

"So, you are a good wife." Dad laughed.

"Okay, don't talk about it, let the children laugh." Mom gave Dad an affectionate look.

Before going to bed at night, my father talked to us about meeting our parents. He said that since An An and I are going to be married for a hundred years, our parents must meet each other and become in-laws seriously.Mom said the same.We know that this problem is difficult to solve, so we want to take it easy.Dad said, this is wrong. It stands to reason that the parents should meet first, and everyone is happy. If we live together again, we are already ahead of time... which makes An An a little embarrassed.Dad immediately explained that he likes An An to come to our house very much. He is very happy that An An and I are together. We should be together.

I just remembered my agreement with Su Weiying: as soon as there is news about An An, I will contact him immediately.I feel very guilty now that I "emphasize sex and despise friends".Unexpectedly, An An said that she had told her mother a long time ago, but she hadn't mentioned it to my parents.Hearing what she said, Mom and Dad even praised An'an for being sensible, and they liked her very much.

"When did you contact your mother?" After returning to the room, I asked An An.

"The night I met you."

"You make me feel very ashamed." I held her face in my hands and looked into her extremely pure eyes.

"After you left, I realized that my mother is the best mother in the world. We can be very caring. My mother has only one daughter, and I can't let her worry." An An said, "When I was sick, my mother was very desperate. , she can give up everything for me, she said that I am her life." An An hugged me.

"We are very lucky to have good parents." I stroked her hair.

"Good parents and good children are obtained through mutual efforts. As long as we work hard, everyone can be a good parent or a good child." An An's words are light but weighty.

"An An."

"Ok?"

"You are a good girl, a very good girl."

"Because I have an excellent lover, a particularly excellent lover."

"You made me great."

"It was you who made me excellent. A person who has love will become excellent. Novelist, am I right?" An An's head left my ear and looked at me mischievously.

"Yes, my philosopher lover." I kissed her on the cheek.

"hipster."

"Ok?"

"You are still an excellent 'love' person, you know 'love' very well, I like your 'love', I like it very much..." An An stared at me intently, her clear eyes were like a spring of wine .

It's not that I know "love", it's because you are so cute... I caressed An Anyan's red face, eyes like Jiuquan, and kissed her lips deeply.

2. Banyan Terrace, Summer Breeze Blowing Green ([-])

Two days later, Su Weiying came to my hometown. My father said that the house was too messy to meet at home, so he went to Juyuan Palace to book a room for Su Weiying in advance and a table at the restaurant on the second floor.

Su Weiying arrived in the afternoon, and An An and I went to the station to pick him up.After their mother and daughter had a good relationship, we went to Juyuan Palace together.We chatted and rested in the hotel, very relaxed.In front of her mother, An An returned to her childish appearance, which reminded me of many things about her when she was a child, and I was very happy.Su Weiying who is with me is like a frank friend, and An An is a full image of a loving mother, every gesture is so gentle and kind, this appearance is very interesting, and it is even more novel to me.So looking at their mother and daughter, even if I was left alone, I felt it was a special enjoyment.

An An talked to her mother about her life in my hometown during this time. She omitted a lot, all the unhappy things were omitted, and all the happy things were exaggerated.Su Weiying knew her child's thoughts, and didn't ask her how she lived when she couldn't find me, but just listened silently to her daughter's happiness.

At dinner time, Mom and Dad came to the hotel on time.When my parents appeared in front of me, I was taken aback: the old man in his seventies wore a white shirt, black trousers, black leather shoes, and a tie, and the nearly 70-year-old lady was neatly dressed and her hair was combed. Meticulous, the pair of jadeite bracelets that have always been placed in the mother's "Eight Treasure Box" are set on the mother's wrist.My old father and mother!I almost shed tears.

Seeing Su Weiying's father strode in front of us, he warmly held Su Weiying's hand with both hands: "Hello! Ms. Su, hello! Welcome! Welcome! It's so nice to see you!" Dad blushed with excitement.Her mother also came over and held Su Weiying's other hand: "I'm so happy to see you! You are so young!" Su Weiying has both the elegance and reservedness of Chinese intellectuals and the well-informed generosity. A strong quality woman.Parents have always respected this kind of woman.Although my father is old, he still has the courage of the year, and my mother has always been praised for her virtuousness and cheerfulness.It was obvious that they appreciated and accepted each other instantly.

The parents were polite and chatting at the dinner table, and An An leaned shyly beside her mother, while I quietly admired the picture in front of me, a picture that I never dared to dream of before.

Time passed slowly at the dining table, and before you knew it, it was night.Before leaving, my father asked Su Weiying to go around the county tomorrow and take her to visit and understand the place where An An and I will live.When it was time to break up, an embarrassing thing happened: Should An An go home with me, or stay with her mother?It was difficult for anyone to speak, so they all stood at the door.

Finally I said: "An'an, talk to mom about our future plans first, and see what mom thinks, okay?"

An An said knowingly: "Well, I haven't seen my mother for more than half a year, so I have to have a good talk tonight."

"Silly boy, okay, let's have a good chat today." Su Weiying touched An An's head and said goodbye to us with a smile.

On the way home, my parents kept talking about Su Weiying, praising her ability and openness.But I still heard regret from my father's sigh. I know what is on my father's mind. He wants to see Xin Dekang. If Xin Dekang is still sitting at the dinner table today, it will be a perfect thing.

Because my elder brother was away for the past two days, my father contacted a friend when he got home, borrowed a jeep, and asked the second uncle's son Wenpeng to drive us around the county the next day.We took a good tour of the entire county, and along the way, my father introduced our county's buildings, companies, shopping malls, large enterprises and institutions, catering departments, residential buildings and shops, and the living customs of the residents, interspersed with many allusions and jokes , It can be called a professional tour guide.From time to time, my mother added some side details, and Wen Peng added a few more words, which were rich and detailed, many of which were still unknown to me.

After making a big circle in the county, my father took us to Qingjiang Reservoir, the largest reservoir outside the city. He said that Qingjiang is a big river that runs through the whole county and is the mother river of our county. Mother Reservoir".With them, we can live a life of ample food and clothing for the people here, making our place a place of outstanding people.

Finally, we came to the suburban Rongyin Terrace, which is the symbol of the "Hometown of Banyan Trees" passing by Qingjiang River. I have been here once with An'an, but this place will shock you as many times as you visit. The burgeoning vitality and majestic ** It is true eternal beauty.

We ate at a restaurant near Banyan Terrace, where An An and I had been.This is still a happy restaurant once in a while, not because the food inside is so delicious, but because this restaurant occupies a treasured place of geomantic omen. Swinging gently, I heard the sound of birds passing through the bottom of the leaves from time to time, and outside the shade of the banyan tree is the sparkling water of the Qingjiang River. "Who is the best place to enjoy the beautiful scenery on a good day, who's home to enjoy the pleasure", it is in this restaurant.

"Mr. Wen and Mrs. Wen, your hometown is so nice! It is a blessing for An An to live here. You and Wen Qing have taken great care of An An, and I thank you!" Su Weiying said emotionally, "Come on, let me toast you! I wish everyone good health Healthy and happy life! I wish Wenqing and An An happiness and happiness!"

This is not the sentimental south of the Yangtze River with the willow bank and the waning moon, but the Banyan Terrace and the Qingming River Bank where the summer wind blows green. The beauty will accompany us year after year.

1. The truth of life ([-])

Su Weiying stayed in our hometown for four or five days. My parents invited her to our house, and my brother's family also came over. We had a good reunion, and then we played around.An An called Min Min, and we went hiking together, went to a small island in the outskirts of Qingjiang to taste tea and take a walk, went to the middle school where I lived for six years, and visited the tutoring institution run by my brother, and had morning tea together .In the tea market, I still met a lot of my father’s old friends, old colleagues, and old subordinates. The straightforward townspeople were surprised to ask these fresh and extraordinary guests around us. The straightforward and enthusiastic father was speechless, and the cheerful mother was speechless for a while I don't know how to put it, so I said, these are my professors in college, and these are her two daughters. Her daughter is a painter. She appreciates our landscape and plans to stay and engage in creation.After returning home, of course, An An praised him again: My child Wen Qing, he really deserves to be a novelist!

Su Weiying stayed in the hotel for two nights and then moved to our house. She said that our house is so big, the environment is so quiet, and the yard is so beautiful.There is another meaning she didn't say. This careful mother knew from An An's eyes that her daughter wanted to live with me.But when I said good night to her mother and entered my bedroom, An An still blushed and dared not look at her mother.Su Weiying put her arms around her daughter and said, "Silly boy, my mother is very happy to see you happy! Sleep well!" After speaking, she turned around and put her arms around my shoulders, and said, "Good night, Wenqing!"

"Sister Weiying, good night!" I also felt a little hot.

Minmin left the county together with Su Weiying. This pure and kind girl is going to pursue her happiness.Before Minmin left, we had given our first love to my uncle’s daughter, Ting, and told Minmin that you are welcome to bring her boyfriend as a guest, and you must inform us when you get married, and tell this simple girl My ears and neck are red.When parting, Su Weiying told her father not to be impatient and worried, she would go back to work on Xin Dekang first, and then find a suitable opportunity for them to meet.

Restore the quiet days, leisurely and happy.The pace of life in the small town is not fast, so people have more leisure to feel everything around them.In our hearts, mountains, forests, waterfronts, tea markets, courtyards, study rooms, kitchens, dining rooms... There is life everywhere, and there is fun everywhere.Because there is more An'an, everyone's happiness fills the sky, and they are smiling from morning till night.

However, life is restless.

Less than a week after Su Weiying left, Guo Chun called me and said that Xiaoling's situation was very bad. She and Jingjing were anxious, helpless, and very scared.

Xiaoling was very sensitive and vigilant to their appearance, and always thought it had something to do with me, so she inquired about the reason why they suddenly appeared in City B, trying to find out if they knew about us, but fortunately Jingjing was calm, if not She kept reminding her that the carefree Guo Chun had already exposed the truth.Because of Xiaoling's dishonesty and guard, Guo Chun and Jingjing couldn't help her at all.Xiaoling became very irritable and always moody.Recently, a terrible thing happened. She would be furious at her daughter because of some trivial things, and even beat and kicked like crazy. After the attack, she hugged her daughter, beat her chest, stamped her feet and cried bitterly, and even begged her daughter to beat her too. The six-year-old girl was bewildered by her.They discussed with Xiaoling's husband to send Xiaoling to the hospital. If Xiaoling didn't want to go, she invited the doctor to come. When her husband brought it up, Xiaoling burst into tears, saying that her husband disliked her and wanted to drive her out.Now everyone doesn't know what to do.

what can i doXiaoling is too stubborn, and her self-esteem is unreasonably strong. "God will not save those who don't know how to save themselves", this sentence pops up in my mind every time I am with Xiaoling, I don't want to see such an ending.However, it is difficult for me to have any hope of how effective the "rescue from others" that I did not cooperate with.For Guo Chun's panic, there is only silence.

In the evening, Xiaoling's husband called me and begged me to go to City B to help Xiaoling one last time.I said, I have no ability to help.He said that only I can help her, and she has only two ways to go, either to live with me from now on, or to completely smash her dream and bring her back to reality.His words startled me. Does he know what happened to us in the past?

"Yes, I know." He said, "I only found out in the past few days. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to seek other people's privacy, including Xiaoling's. It was an accident." It turned out that one day Xiaoling took herself Locked up in the study room alone, crying and fussing, he was surprised when he came back from the company suddenly, Xiaoling was the only one at home, how could she be like this?In desperation, he kicked open the door and saw Xiaoling throwing things. Those pens and books were thrown all over the floor. Xiaoling looked at her husband who broke into the door in horror, stayed for a while, and rushed out. Door.The moment he turned around, he found a bunch of printing paper covered with red lines on the corner of the table, and instinctively picked it up and unfolded it. The paper was filled with "I hate you!" with red crosses written all over it. A website is also marked with red crosses.Later, he learned everything through that website, and that blog was full of letters written by the blogger "Yilian Youmeng" to her gay man "Qiu Chong Ne Neng" in her youth...

"I understand why I haven't been able to walk into her heart for more than ten or twenty years. She has only loved one person in her life, and that person is you, a woman like her. I know why she is so abnormal. It's really sad. Sad! She is sad, and I am sad too! She was never my lover, just a partner. She is so pitiful that I can't hate her. You are so stupid, how can women and women have results? You are so crazy! Reality I don’t want so many beautiful things in my life, but I’m unrealistically obsessed with it. I really don’t understand what kind of animal a woman is!” He said excitedly, “Oh, I’m sorry, I’m offended. Oh, you women How can you be so stupid that you have no sense at all! This kind of infatuation is terrible!"

I quietly listened to this unfortunate man vent. He didn't know that he was equally infatuated and stupid.

It is impossible for me to live with Xiaoling, so how can I completely "shatter" her dream?Xiaoling, how can I "shatter" you?I used to dream every day how to make you realize all your dreams...

"Wen Qing, what's wrong with you?" An An, who came back from watching TV with her parents, asked me.

"Oh, thinking about something."

"Why do you think so painfully?" An An reached out and kissed my face.

"An'an, I want to show you someone."

"Is it your... first love?" An An kissed my lips.

"How do you know?" I was surprised.

"I'm supernatural." An An pursed her lips and smiled mischievously, "I guessed it, I've been waiting for you to tell me these things for more than ten years."

"What's the matter?"

"Your past. Why did you run to Liba Village alone, why you were willing to live with a child for so many years, why you were willing to spend your youth alone, why you often cried when you first went to Liba Village, and why you were always alone. You are in a daze, why never talk about your past... I have been studying these reasons for more than ten years." An An hugged my neck and kissed.

I was speechless, and just hugged this silly child tightly. Women are silly, but they are so cute and touching.

"You've lost your relationship, you've been hurt badly, so you've gone away. Isn't it?"

"Yeah." My tears fell.

"Are you still thinking about her, or still loving her?" An An's body trembled a little as she spoke.

"An'an, I love you. After I'm with you, I only love you. Those are all in the past."

"Is it the petite woman who went shopping with you that day?"

"An An..."

"The way she looks at you is very special, and her behavior is unnatural, I can see it. I cried for many days after seeing you two..." An An left my arms and looked at me with a smile, "I am very happy, You are mine and we have a home together. I don't get jealous."

I hugged her tightly again and kissed her back, my so caring and pure lover.

"Why did you bring me to see her?" An An asked.

"Tell her the truth about life," I said, "Tell her I love you, and I love Ann."

2. The truth of life ([-])

It was still evening when we arrived in City B.

That night, we made an appointment with Xiaoling's husband.He was a little surprised to see An An and me.

"This is my girlfriend Xin An." I smiled at him.

"Oh... hello." He was a little surprised and embarrassed.

We didn't chat for a long time. Before leaving, he asked a little puzzled: "Do you really think this is very happy?"

"Yes." I said with a smile.

"Do your parents agree?"

"They bless us."

"So, what about society? Can you bear the pressure of society?"

"No problem." An An smiled brightly at him.

"I'm sorry, I was abrupt." He smiled a little awkwardly, turned to me and said, "I wish you all too... I will trouble you about Xiaoling's matter!"

"Don't say that, I will try my best." I smiled lightly, everyone knows that our efforts are hopeless, so let's make a last-ditch effort.

When we showed up at Xiaoling's beautiful garden "villa" the next afternoon, Xiaoling stared at us strangely and was speechless for a long time.

"Xiao Ling, we, An An and I came to see you." I said.

Xiao Ling still did not speak, her eyes were fixed on me.

"Sister Xiaoling, hello!" An An smiled at her.

"Hello." Xiaoling finally forced a smile, "Please come in and have a seat!"

"The house is messy, don't be surprised! Sit down! I'm going to make tea, what kind of tea do I like to drink? There are so many kinds of tea in our house!" Xiao Ling looked at An An with an extraordinarily enthusiastic smile, but I felt that there was something deep in that smile. It hides the tumbling magma that was forcibly suppressed on the eve of a volcanic eruption.

"It's okay, just do whatever you want." An An obviously couldn't understand such a huge change and enthusiasm in her, and her expression was a little stiff.In order to relieve the embarrassment, An An looked around Xiaoling's house and said, "Miss Xiaoling, your house is so beautiful and delicious."

"Really?" Xiaoling's tone was a bit exaggerated, "Not as beautiful as Wenqing's house, right? If you're interested, I'll show you around my shabby room later!"

"Well, Wen Qing's house is not beautiful, but warm and freehand." An An answered casually.

"Oh? Do you often go to Wenqing's house?" Xiaoling asked with a smile, her loud voice trembling.

"Xiao Ling, An An lives in my house, and we are already living together." My voice was as clear as water and as quiet as ice, "It's like a husband and wife."

The teapot in Xiaoling's hand fell to the ground, and the sound was dull because there was a full pot of water.With a scream, Xiao Ling crouched down.

I walked over quickly, and Xiaoling's calf was scalded by the splashing hot water. Fortunately, the area was very small.I turned and ran to the back of her garden, where the aloe was growing, which I had discovered on my last visit.I quickly snapped off half of the aloe vera leaf, and went back to the living room. An An was standing beside Xiaoling, not knowing what to do. I squeezed the aloe vera liquid onto Xiaoling's burned calf and rubbed it back and forth.A picture when I was 12 years old suddenly appeared in my mind: a green-red bag bounced on her calf by the stones thrown up by the wheel I was speeding past...that was our acquaintance.

I don't know if Xiaoling also recalled that scene when I was young. Two drops of hot tears splashed on the back of my hand, and Xiaoling turned her face away.

Suddenly Xiaoling stood up and said loudly: "Oh, it's okay, it's okay, I'll be fine later. I'm so sorry, I'm sorry!" After finishing speaking, she turned around and went into the bathroom, regardless of our reaction. It didn't take long before I brought a broom and a garbage bag. Seeing that An'an and I were picking up pieces of the teapot, I hurriedly said, "Let me do it. You are guests, so please excuse me!"

After we were all done and we actually drank the tea, all three of us fell silent.

"An'an, would you like me to show you our house?" Xiaoling looked at An'an with a smile.

"Xiao Ling, no need, we passed by here on our honeymoon trip, so I came to see you by the way, and there are other things." I said and pulled An An to stand up.I think my goal has been achieved, and she should have been "shattered" by me at this time: What a cruel, cruel, disgusting and despicable executioner Wen Qing is not worthy of any nostalgia!

"Oh? You are rushing to the next stop of your honeymoon now, aren't you?" Xiao Ling had a mocking smile on her gloomy face.

"No, we'll leave tomorrow."

"Oh... It's not convenient for you to live here. Are you staying in a hotel?" Xiaoling looked at me with bent smiles.

"Hmm." Isn't this a knowing question?

"Did you stay in the hotel where you spent the night with me in the last two weeks? That hotel is nice, warm and romantic." Xiaoling looked at me with a smile on her face.

"You must also like that hotel very much. How you felt that night... Hehe, it's the same as mine, wonderful." Xiaoling added.

1. Crushing and recasting ([-])

"I wish you a pleasant journey!" The small iron gate of the garden behind him was sharply closed.

I stood motionless on the avenue, forgot how to walk, and the whole world fell asleep, silent, still, and frozen.

"Wen Qing." An An called me, I didn't look at her, but just looked at the white ground.An'an took my arm and walked forward, and I followed with a deep foot and a shallow foot.I stood on the side of the road, watching the cars and pedestrians fly by in front of my eyes, and flew to another world, but I have been standing still here, this world.

An An hailed a taxi.

Ann led me back to the hotel.

An An opened the door.

We didn't move anymore, An An stood behind the door with me.Just like many Friday afternoons in City S many years ago, I opened the door, An An walked in, and we stood behind the closed door, hugging for a long time.We didn't hug each other, I looked at An'an, and An'an looked at me with empty eyes.

"Is what she said just now true?" An An stared into my eyes with unspeakable pain.

I didn't speak, just stared at her.

"Did you really... spend the night with her two weeks ago?" An An's voice began to tremble, "Wen Qing, tell me, that's not true." An An's eyelashes were shaking, and there were tears in her eyes.

"An'an," my heart broke, "An'an, it's true."

An An's lips were trembling slightly, and her eyes were extremely painful.

"An'an." I reached out to pull her.

An An quickly hid her hands behind her back as if frightened, biting her lips tightly, tears falling down one by one.

"An'an!" I swallowed the salty tears flowing from the corner of my mouth, trying to hug her.

An An took a step back, her eyes were so unfamiliar that my heart trembled.She wiped the tears off her face and said, "I want to go out for a walk." After she finished speaking, she turned around, turned the door and ran out.

I stood behind the door, frantically spinning some pictures in my mind: the long tongue of the poisonous snake jumping around, a pair of sharp swords flying around with cold light, huge wheels speeding and rolling, saw teeth stretching and cutting... … Explosions, roars, corpses all over the field, bones shattered, rivers of blood rolling!

I beat the wall with my fist fiercely, I was like a trapped animal, bumping around, I wanted to tear myself apart, kill me, crush me, and vent my depression that I had suppressed for so long!

The harm that Xiaoling once brought to me all rushed over in an instant, like a surging sea and thick mountains, rushing and oppressing every living cell in me, I wanted to kill myself with blood red eyes, Get maximum release in self-destruction!

I am too overestimated, too overestimated myself!I have never been her opponent, I am weak and vulnerable in front of her.It's not that I "crushed" her, but I was completely crushed by her!She was awake all the time, and she remembered that night so clearly!That night was like the poisoned sword in Hamlet's hand, it stabbed me and Ann!I hate her, but I can't hate her!I was only in pain, extremely intense pain!It hurt our love once, hurt my love now!

An'an—the extremely painful eyes, the uncontrollable trembling, the gushing tears!Also, her hidden hands!An'an, I hurt you, I made your heart hurt!For the first time in her life when she was less than 23 years old, she was hurt by her lover's "infidelity" and "betrayal". The sun that warmed her life was beyond her expectation, and I can't imagine her pain.

Her strange and desperate eyes made me feel sad and scared, An An, where have you been?Thinking of this, my thoughts were pulled out of my pain, An An, you must come back!

"The phone you dialed has been turned off." The phone fell from my hand to the ground, and I ran to the window and opened the thick curtains.The night has already fallen, and the strange city outside the window is brightly lit, but now it is like a stream of icy water, flowing all over the sky and the ground is cold.

In this strange city, what will An An do in extreme conditions?My mind replayed some episodes of the past: hiding from my mother, hiding from my parents, bringing my "girlfriend" home, committing suicide... My hands and feet began to tremble, my spine felt cold, my lips felt cold, and I could hardly bear it any longer.

"Bang!" The door was knocked open, I turned around in horror, and An An suddenly appeared at the door, and my heart immediately jumped wildly. "Boom!" An'an closed the door vigorously, before I could react, she had already rushed to my side, and suddenly hugged me in her arms, with such great strength and rough movements, she squeezed me tightly against her chest.

"Wen Qing, I'm sorry, Wen Qing, I'm sorry." An An's voice was hoarse, and her whole body was trembling while holding me, "Wen Qing, I can't leave you, I can't live without you." An An cried, shaking all over . "I should accept, no matter what you have done, I should accept, Wen Qing, I accept, accept everything..."

"An'an..." My tears fell all over her temples and neck, "An'an, I'm sorry..."

"I'm selfish. I'm too domineering. I can't bear others sharing you. I can't bear it since I was a child. Wen Qing, I just want to monopolize you by myself."

I just want to be monopolized by you alone. I like you to be domineering and selfish. Ann, I'm just yours.

We hugged each other like this for a long time, and when our emotions calmed down, An Anfa