i still love you so much

When I woke up in the hospital, I was depressed to find that it was the same hospital. I really wanted to ask if this hospital could apply for a membership card.Ke Luo fell asleep with his head resting on the edge of the hospital bed, one hand still holding my wrist.

Xie Yan pushed the door open and came in, "Are you awake?" I nodded, Xie Yan sat on the other side, took a cotton swab, dipped it in water, roughly rubbed it on my chapped lips, and lowered his voice, " Xiao Nian went back to take care of Xiao Xi and Xiao Jia. You were not seriously injured, but the doctor said that Shao Yan should insert the knife and then turned the knife. It was a bit troublesome to suture. He hurt his insides and lost a lot of blood. He couldn't drink water or eat."

Really back, might as well have been dizzy. "What time is it?" The voice was as rough as sandpaper, and I was startled.

"It's the afternoon of the second day."

Just as Xie Yan finished speaking, Ke Luo woke up, "Uncle Lee, are you awake? How do you feel?" Seeing Xie Yan holding a cotton swab, he looked defensive, "Uncle Lee, do you want some water?" I looked at it in surprise. When he glanced at him, Ke Luo hesitated, "I mean use a cotton swab to dip it."

I shook my head, "No need, let's go later."

Xie Yan rolled his eyes, "Ke Luo, go back and rest, Xiao Nian wants me to change shifts with you." Ke Luo shook his head, "No need."

I thought about T City and Lu Feng, "Ke Luo, don't you need to go back to work?"

Ke Luo looked a little injured, staring at me with small animal-like eyes, and didn't speak.I thought for a while, "I'm not chasing you, it's just whether it will delay work, won't Lu Feng blame you?" After saying so many words in one breath, he coughed with a sore throat, and Ke Luo's bright eyes dimmed again, "It's okay , I asked Uncle Lu for leave. Uncle Lee, please stop talking, and I will rest on the bed next to you."

After a while, probably because he was tired, Ke Luo fell asleep.

From the looks of it, Xie Yan knew that he had been texting Shu Nian the whole time, laughing so hard that he couldn't bear it.

My mind was dizzy, my wound was throbbing with pain, I was staring at the pale ceiling in a daze, and suddenly I heard Xie Yan say, "Lee, are you sure you want to be with Ke Luo? He doesn't look like he cares about you, you just So exhausting?" His words were biased, but I didn't know how to refute them, I couldn't say that Ke Luo didn't care about me, it's just that he habitually cared more, probably Shu Nian.I don't know how long it will take, maybe I can't wait for the day when he is the first in his heart, maybe he will fall in love with someone else, but at least, the one who is with him now is me.Thinking about it, I really feel like I'm a bitch, but I can't do anything with myself, let alone Ke Luo.He answered "I don't know" in a muffled voice, and pulled the quilt up to cover his head, like an ostrich, knowing the danger, but burying his head in the sand, deceiving himself and others.

Xie Yan probably saw that I was stubborn, so he ignored me, and I happened to be quiet.

In the evening, Shu Nian also came, with red eyes, chasing after the doctor who came to make the ward rounds to ask precautions, the doctor said that he could drink a small amount of water, and that he could eat less liquid food tomorrow, because the three surgical wounds were in the same place , In order to prevent postoperative adhesion, I can get up after two or three days, so I need to move around more.It hurts even to move, and when I saw Shu Nian's earnest expression of listening to the lecture and promising to carry it out, I suddenly felt that the days ahead were even more bleak.

When I was changing the dressing, I looked at the stitched place, and it looked like a centipede lying on my stomach, it was ugly as hell.With this luck, when I get well, I'd better go to a temple to pay my respects.

Ke Luo said that he would stay with him at night, so the husband and wife left after visiting the prison.

He has been very silent since he woke up. I guess he heard Xie Yan's words. After Xie Yan Shunian left, I was secretly looking forward to his explanation, or to ask questions.

"Uncle Lee, rest."

I didn't wait.

Smiled, "Okay."

The next day, Ke Luo seemed to come back to his senses, and after busy work, he did it himself, and I was a little flattered.

The hospital where Xie Yan and Shu Nian came together brought me a laptop. Shu Nian said it was for my entertainment, but Xie Yan hinted that he had already sent the files for the next project to my mailbox. You can take a look first, tsk tsk, capitalists.But it feels good to be needed, and it's rare for me not to quarrel with him.

I could hear Lu Yu's loud voice clearly from inside the door. Seeing me miserable again, he was so angry, "This Shao Yan is really not a good person. When I helped you clean up Tong Shan last time, he should We solved it together." Remembering that he was the one who helped me last time, I didn't thank him. Instead, I struggled with my face. I really value sex over friends and have no conscience. "Anyway, he is dead. I haven't thanked him for what happened last time. You." Lu Yu waved his hand very coolly, "We are all brothers, why are you talking to me about this." I have been thinking about it for the past few days, talking to this straight-hearted person, I have relaxed a lot.

Probably the last time the cooperation was very pleasant, Xie Yan actively sent Lu Yu out, and when he came back, he suddenly laughed badly, "By the way, Lee, during the police investigation, I saw from the surveillance that Shao Yan took you from the parking lot. After taking them away, go to the tattoo parlor first and then to the basement, the tattoo artist said that he was forced to tattoo the back of a sleeping man." Shu Nian gave him an elbow.

I didn't bother to laugh at him, and suddenly panicked, what if that psychopath tattooed his name on my back, or something messed up, wouldn't my back be disfigured?Angry and angry, it's not good to be paired with Shao Yan, either the face is disfigured or the body is disfigured, if he doesn't die, I will definitely kill him when I get well.

Hastily asked Shu Nian to look at it for me, but the incision hadn't healed yet, Shu Nian stopped me and directed Xie Yan to ask the doctor, probably everyone knew how much I paid attention to my appearance, and didn't bother to persuade me to look again later.

Ke Luo simply hugged my upper body to prevent me from moving, "Uncle Lee, don't worry, wait until you ask the doctor to see if it's okay." I was a little aggrieved in a coaxing tone, "What if he tattooed his name? Do it." Ke Luo's eyes flashed coldly, "Don't think about it, can't it be removed with a laser? Besides, it's not necessarily that bad."

Xie Yan asked the doctor when he came back, "The doctor said to turn it over carefully, it will be fine, but it can't be too long."

Shu Nian directed Xie Yan and Ke Luo to turn me over, I couldn't see, and asked Shu Nian to take a picture for me.Shu Nian lifted up my clothes, "Brother, the scar is hard to see, it looks like an animal." I didn't give up, "It's been three or four days, try to peel off the scar." It's probably about to fall off , it doesn't hurt when you peel it off.

Xie Yan and Ke Luo put me down again, I hurriedly asked Shu Nian for the phone, Shu Nian blushed and handed it to me, I saw that his face turned dark.It turned out to be a snake.

A small black snake hovering in the hollow of the back, spitting out a letter, very enchanting, and finally the tail extends to the buttocks... It's daydream, bah, after seeing this tattoo, apart from sexual interest, it is also Can't think of anything.

I will absolutely drag Shao Yan's corpse out and whip him!Ke Luo's face was also gloomy like a stormy sky.

Shu Nian stammered to comfort me, "Brother, just treat it as your natal year tattoo, anyway, it's pretty pretty." Looking at Shu Nian's red face, I felt that these words didn't comfort me at all.

Xie Yan laughed enough, and then said, "The tattoo artist said that Shao Yan was holding a knife and asked him to tattoo the word "slut". , he just got a tattoo based on his feeling, oh, he thought there was a murder, and he honestly confessed that he put a business card in your trouser pocket. Lee, the sword is not old."

I am not old at all, and I am not happy to be approached by people as a bottom, but I want to praise the daring tattoo artist. I am ashamed of myself when I am forced by a neuropathy with a knife and dare to do nothing. .

It wasn't what Shao Yan wanted to leave behind, I felt a little better, and planned to wash it off after I was discharged from the hospital.

Ke Luo found the business card from my pants, tore it up and threw it into the trash can with a black face, but after that, his face was not so gloomy anymore.

Shu Nian fed me some water, urged me to take the medicine, and left with Xie Yan.Ke Luo was still on the bed, he held my hand and I patted his head, "Ke Luo, go back tomorrow, the company, you can't leave for so long. Uncle Lee, I will be discharged from the hospital in two days Now, with Shu Nian here, don't worry." Ke Luo looked at me, and I continued to persuade, "You don't want Uncle Lu to be disappointed, do you?"

Ke Luo thought for a long time and agreed.

The next day, Ke Luo returned to T City, and I was discharged from the hospital in two days.

The life after discharge from the hospital is not much different from the last time, except being supervised by Shu Nian every day, getting up and walking slowly for 10 minutes every hour, the rest of the time is very leisurely, eating and drinking, watching TV, reaching out for clothes, and opening mouth for meals.Shu Nian once again took on the important task of helping me take a bath, Xie Yan was very frantic, this time I could do it by myself, but who told me to hold grudges.Besides, every time Shu Nian helped me wipe my back, her face would turn red very nicely, which made me enjoy it so much that I couldn't get enough of it.

Shu Nian and I searched for a lot of information on tattoo removal, and watched a few tattoo removal videos. After watching it, Shu Nian and I agreed that it’s better to keep it. It’s painful and may leave scars. I don't want to take risks.

The sun was just right, Shu Nian helped me move around in the living room, I suddenly figured out something, maybe it's better to let it be, I can't force it, just wait, he will treat me as a habit one day.

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After the operation, Uncle Lee was lying on the bed, pale due to excessive blood loss, as if I didn't pay close attention, he was about to disappear.

I held Uncle Lee's hand and insisted on guarding Uncle Lee not to leave. Shu Nian left with Xie Yan who whispered "why did you go?"

Yes, why did I go early, I don't know.I don't know when I fell in love with him, and I don't know how to love him. It would be a lie to say that I didn't know he liked me. Children like us who came out of an orphanage will only be more sensitive to people's emotions.I wanted him to change his lifestyle wishfully, but refused to reciprocate his feelings, and provoked him again and again.I couldn't see through his mask and didn't dare to be sincere, so I just watched him get hurt again and again, and lost his composure in front of me again and again.

He must hate me.

The next afternoon, Uncle Lee woke up. When I woke up, I saw the cotton swab in Xie Yan’s hand. I was already in a bad mood. In the end, I not only said the wrong thing, but also asked Uncle Lee to comfort me with a hoarse voice. I was really useless .Pretending to be asleep, listening to the conversation between Xie Yan and Uncle Lee, he must not know, when he said "I don't know", it sounded like a patient suffering from an incurable disease.

So I was even more at a loss.I hurt him so much, he loves me but doesn't trust me, I don't know how to get him to trust me again.

I knew he was waiting for my explanation, but I didn't know how to speak, so I could only persuade him to rest early.He was disappointed, his face turned even paler, but he smiled and said yes, I would rather he get angry and scold me than this smile that made me despair.As if expecting to be shattered again and again, waiting for the final result without hope, waiting for me to set him free.

I can't go on like this, even if I don't know how to do it, I still have to try my best to show my feelings for Uncle Lee.I can no longer watch myself hurt him, let alone let him go.

So the next day I behaved pretty well, Lu Yu’s visit made me jealous, but Lee’s mood improved a lot, so I endured it, but Shao Yan’s tattoo, although only I can see it from now on, still made me angry burn.

I regretted that I didn't get rid of Shao Yan earlier. Even Tong Shan last time was a successor to Lu Yu. Forgot to ask these people's movements, just accompany him.

What Xie Yan said was right or wrong, I naturally cared about Uncle Lee, but I didn't have the courage to pursue Xiao Nian back then, so I didn't dare to go one step further.I am not innocent, I have no courage, so Uncle Lee was hurt by my indecision again and again, and now, I am the one who suffers.

I've figured out what to do in the future, when I go back, I will ask Uncle Lu for a position in the S city branch, Mo Yan, wait for me to come back.

The author has something to say: tattoo play~~~Little Sheep hasn’t thanked me yet, it will be your welfare from now on~~~

☆Crazy in love, cold in love